I am a first time writer so please be kind....

I do not own Roswell or anything affl. with them. However a couple hours with Jason I wouldn't mind....The lyrics by Puddle of Mudd, Blurry, will be used.

Part 1

She sat there looking into the night. It was warm - funny whenever she felt sad and unsure she always figured that the weather would go along with her mood. Gripping her journal close to her chest, she tried to swallow the large lump in her throat that suddenly came from nowhere. She hasn't written in so long, afraid that she might have forgotten had to. She thought to herself, why is it that when you are so completely sad you forget to breath, you can't see straight...things become...become blurry. She took the pen in her right hand and began to pour her heart out onto paper once again, not knowing where it was going or what she was saying.

"Everything's so blurry and everyone's so fake. Everyone's so empty and everything is so messed up. Preoccupied without you, I cannot live at all. My whole world surrounds you, I stumble and I crawl. And you could be my someone, you can be my scene, you know that I'll protect you from all the obscene. I wonder what you're doing, imagine where you are. There's oceans in between us but that's not very far.

Can you take it all away? Can you take all away?
Well you shoved it in my face - this pain you gave to me. Can you take it all away? Can you take it all away? Well you shoved it in my face - this pain you gave to me.

Everyone is changing, there's no one left that's real. Make up you own ending and let me know just how you feel. Cause I am lost without you, I cannot live at all. My whole world surrounds you, I stumble then I crawl. And you could be my someone you can my scene you know that I will save you from all of the unclean. I wonder what you doing I wonder where you are. There's oceans between us but that's not very far.

Can you take it all away? Can you take all away?
Well you shoved it in my face - this pain you gave to me. Can you take it all away? Can you take it all away? Well you shoved it in my face - this pain you gave to me.

Nobody told me what you thought nobody told me what to say. Everyone showed you where to turn. Showed you when to run away. Nobody showed you where to hide. Nobody told you what to say. Everyone showed you when to run away.

Can you take it all away? Can you take all away?
Well you shoved it in my face - this pain you gave to me. Can you take it all away? Can you take it all away? Well you shoved it in my face - this pain you gave to me."

She closed her journal, afraid that the tears streaming down her face would eventually ruin her dreams, her thoughts, her fears and her hoping that it would wash away her nightmares. Why is it that everyone dreams of falling in love. Talks about how the world is a brighter place, your step on clouds...why don't they warn you about the pain? Another lump forms in her throat. Alex, god how I miss you. You, my friend, always knew what to say or what to do when I got this bad. I hope you are ok. I'm sorry.

As she slowly got up from the lawn chair, a slight breeze pushed her hair from her tear-strained face. As she turned around, everything that was blurry came clear - a vision of Max appeared before her holding white roses.

TBD?