posted on 9-Apr-2002 8:55:11 PM by Apathygirl666
Title: Let me know that you need me

Author: Apathygirl666

Rating: pg13-r

Category: M/L, A/I,

Summary: au, max and liz never got to know each other but on their senior trip liz realizes what a great guy max is and they…read to find out
Disclaimer: I own nothing, if I did I would be cuddling with Max at this very second. Roswell belongs to Melinda Metz, Jason Katims, and Upn. Don’t sue I am in high school and have about $5 right now. lol, lyrics from let that be enough by switchfoot

Author’s Note: This is my second fic and I’m, startin another and my other fic American beauty will be comin back. All feedback is appreciated.

big thanks to lorastar for the banner


Pt1 Liz POV
Liz Parker stepped on the bus that would be transporting them to the lodge they would be going to. It was 7 pm and they were driving all night to get to the location of their senior trip to the mountains, to a ski lodge for a week. Alex and Maria were a few steps ahead of her and they found an empty seat to share. Liz looked at the seat across from them. It had an empty space and sitting in the window seat was Max Evans, gazing out the window.

Liz didn’t know Max very well, she had a few classes with him but he was very shy and they didn’t really talk to many people. He seemed to keep to himself, only talking to his sister and his best friend Michael. Michael was in the foster system and couldn’t go on the trip so Max was alone while his sister talked to her popular friends. Max was a nice guy, he always seemed to be there helping when someone tripped and their books fell out of their hands or in other embarrassing situations. Liz had never really talked to Max, even though he was a cute guy. She cleared her throat and he looked towards her. His eyes looked into hers and she realized her had the most amazing eyes, they were an intense brown, the kind you could get lost in. He glanced towards Maria and Alex, breaking the connection.

“Yeah?” he asked, his deep voice soothing to her ears.

“Um, can I sit here?” She asked him

“Sure” he said moving his backpack to the floor.

She sat down as Maria and Alex started to talk next to her. It was music talk and she didn’t feel comfortable with it so she looked towards Max. He was still gazing out of the window, with head phones on. His music was loud and she could hear it through his headphones, even thought it was a soft song.

Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone
And it all seem so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And I all I see
it could never make me happy
and my sand castles spend their time collapsing

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago
And I feel stuck watching history repeating
Yeah who am I just a kid who knows he's needy.

Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough

The lyrics were beautiful and they seemed to make her a little calmer about the up coming trip. Max lowered the volume on his music and pulled out a thick black notebook and flipped through it. It was filled with drawings, some people, like Isabel and Michael, others were just doodles. He flipped to the back, where drawings on sketch paper were nestled in a folder. He pulled out one and studied it, almost searching it.

Liz gasped when she saw it. It was the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. Max must have heard her gasp over his music, because he looked at her and gave her a rare half smile. She almost melted at his smile. She felt special under his gaze, like he looked at her differently than everyone else. Not even her ex-boyfriend Kyle had made her feel like that.

The picture was of a clear night sky, with glimmering stars that almost seemed to jump off the page. The horizon that stretched into the night seemed almost infinitive, like it stretched on forever. But that wasn’t the true beauty in the picture. It was that it seemed to be drawn straight from Max’s heart, like a distant memory that seemed too beautiful for earth.

Max had already begun to put it away and Liz locked eyes with him. He looked away immediately, almost a little scared or embarrassed. Liz was calmed by this shyness in his slight gaze as he turned back towards the window without a word.

Please write me feedback please!!*bounce**bounce*

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posted on 9-Apr-2002 11:31:17 PM by Apathygirl666
tanks for the feedback

shorty828 - I love your story love at first sight
ceo shaft

I want to wait until I get 4 more peices fo feedback beacuse I didn't get much of a reaction on my other story American beauty roswell style-(viewthread?forum=dreamer-fanfiction&id=72550) and I really want this story to do well (and I will be continuing both of these stories and starting another one)

one question- I am really intot he idea of seeing auras like in the roswell high books but I want some other romantic kind of powers if you can tell me any that Max used pre jerkiness or any you though of I would appreciate it

tanks I'll be back tommorrow if I get fb

posted on 10-Apr-2002 4:02:02 PM by Apathygirl666
okay umm I made a lil booboo and I posted this on two threads so I pasted the fb from the other thread on here and I'm gonna delete the other one. I copied my fb to here so I don't forget anyone in my shoutouts and since I have enough fb I think im gonna post some of the story tonight another pt or two an I'm gonna delete the other thread kk reply if this is ok and you want more story

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posted on 9-Apr-2002 11:31:57 PM

This is very promising, Max and Liz sitting together with an opportunity to get to know each other! Thanks for writing!

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posted on 10-Apr-2002 12:26:20 AM

That was a great beginning!! I can't wait to see where you go with this!! Thanks for writing!!

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posted on 10-Apr-2002 4:36:20 AM

ooh I like this! Please come back with more soon!

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posted on 10-Apr-2002 9:12:50 AM

I like this post more soon please

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posted on 10-Apr-2002 10:46:48 AM

This is really cool. You have to post more soon.

posted on 10-Apr-2002 7:42:22 PM by Apathygirl666
ok if you're fb didn't show up theres a reason read my above authors notes please there important k?
tanks to:
Ceo shaft
Lucky Star
(sorry if I forgot anyone the explaination is in my authors notes)

Thanks to lorastar for the banner

pt 2+3

Pt2 Liz POV
* * * * * * * *

Liz wasn’t sure when but sometime in the trip she had fallen asleep. When she woke up, she had her head resting on Max’s chest. His breathing was even and she realized he was still asleep. His breath was warm on her neck. She leaned into a little more, but turned her head to look at Alex and Maria. They were asleep on each other, much like her and Max. She clutched on to Max’s shirt, wanting to be in the same position as when she woke up. She felt Max’s strong arms wrap around her stomach, pulling her to him.

Liz didn’t know Max well, but in his embrace she felt warm and safe, like no matter what Max would protect her. Her body seemed to fit his, like they were made for each other and each other alone.

* * * * * * * *

Max and Liz were jostled awake by the stopping of the bus. They were still wrapped in each other’s embrace and Liz could feel the heat radiating off Max. Max removed his arms from her waist. Liz moaned at the lack of contact, wanting to be wrapped in his arms forever.

Liz looked up at him and saw the blush creeping up his face. Liz thought it was the cutest thing she had ever seen in her life. Liz looked at his face for any signs of repulsion, but his slightly embarrassed smile and blush made him look sweet and caring.

“Um Liz?” he asked tenaciously

“Yeah, Max?” she asked

“Um…I hope you’re not upset about how we woke up, I mean…I didn’t do that on purpose. I just woke up and we were like that…” he said, but he still had the slight smile on his face.

“No, Max it’s ok. To be honest, I kind of liked it. You kept me warm.” She said leaning over to kiss him on the cheek, she didn’t pull away immediately. Instead she leaned up to his ear and whispered “Thanks”

* * * * * *

Max woke up to a tiny, warm body, snuggled into him. He looked down at the face of Liz Parker. Oh, great he thought, now she’ll probably never even talk to me again. He removed his arms from her waist and noted that she had moaned when he’d slid them out from around her.

He could feel the blush on his cheeks and saw Liz searching his face. He looked at hers, doing the same thing she was. He didn’t really know what to saw so he started “Um Liz?” tenaciously.

“Yeah, Max?” she asked

“Um…I hope you’re not upset about how we woke up, I mean…I didn’t do that on purpose. I just woke up and we were like that…” he said, but he could still feel a small smile still on his lips.

“No, Max it’s ok. To be honest, I kind of liked it. You kept me warm.” She said leaning over to kiss him on the cheek, she didn’t pull away immediately. Instead she leaned up to his ear and whispered “Thanks”

Max was bursting with emotion, his mind screamed she kissed me on the cheek!! Sure it was only on the cheek but still, she had not been repulsed. She had liked being near him, just as he had liked being near her.

Pt 3 Liz POV
* * * * * * * *

Liz turned her attention to the chaperone that had begun to call for everyone’s attention.

“Attention! Attention!” she shouted unsuccessfully.

Then Liz heard a loud piercing whistle, from the back of the bus. She looked toward the back and saw Isabel Evans standing in her seat.

“Shut up and listen to her,” she said in a voice that screamed ‘I’m better than you’.

Liz stared at Isabel for a second and then turned back in her seat, Max and Isabel are polar opposites, she thought. Isabel was blonde and blue eyed, while Max had dark brown hair and eyes. Dark brown doesn’t do justice to his eyes, she thought. Max and Isabel also had different personalities. Max was gentle and shy, while Isabel seemed like a typical popular teenage girl, basically an ice queen.

The lady at the front continued, “We will be stopping for an hour because the other bus, with Mr. Dennison’s class has some technical difficulties, so you are allowed to get up and stretch your legs, talk, eat, whatever. But you can’t leave the bus, alright. That’s all.” She said.

Liz, still tired, rubbed at her eyes and turned toward Alex, who was still staring at Isabel in the back.

“Alex? You there?” Liz asked him.

“What a woman” he sighed, drool spilling on to his chin.

“Alex, Um… you got a little drool right there” she said trying not to laugh

“Huh? What? Oh.” He said frazzled, at her giggle he continued “What? I can’t help it she’s so…so …so…Isabel!” he exclaimed “With those blue eyes and those curves, they just make you want to…”

“Ok, Alex, that’s a bit of an over share”

She left him to his fantasies and looked at Maria, she was still asleep so she turned back towards Max. He had the same no lined drawing notebook out and he was finishing a sketch of a little girl, not more then 5 years old, surrounded by an eerie purple light in pastels. It seemed to engulf her. It seemed frightening yet in a way it was the most real thing Liz thought she had ever seen. Max seemed to have a way to see the unseen and Liz liked it.

She stared at it until Max flipped the page. While he turned the page Liz caught a look at the title written on the back of the page. The letters were a deep green, surrounded by the same purple light. It said ‘Aura’ and Liz thought it fitted it.

Max pulled something out of a second folder in the back of the notebook. It was a black and white photo of a pre teenage girl looking deeply into the eyes of a boy that looked her age and on the bottom in what looked like red lipstick were the words ‘Soul Mate’.

Liz looked at Max, his eyes focused intently on the picture. He seemed unhappy with it, like it could’ve been a little better in an unknown way. He sighed and put the photo back.

Liz looked at him and wondered how she had overlooked how truly beautiful, inside and out, Max Evans was.

remember read all my above an for wat happened w/ the fb

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posted on 10-Apr-2002 8:56:44 PM by Apathygirl666
no feedback no fic it's really that simple...

I'm waitin...

still waitin...

post me some fb pwease!!

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posted on 14-Apr-2002 12:53:33 AM by Apathygirl666
ok I was planning to post a new part on fri or sat but I didn 't have time and I tried to change something in a later part I have written and everything got screwed up but I managed to fix it and because of that I didn't have time to pick up some stuff I need and do some studying I desperately need. so I may be able to have a part out later today or monday... but be warned it's not really romantic parts for the next few because I want to devleope the characters sooo I can make reallllly romantic parts lata

posted on 20-Apr-2002 12:40:15 AM by Apathygirl666
whoa fb overload, I havent been feeling well and I got a bad math grade I hate algebra!! but the pt will be out ina few minutes! also know this this fic will be long there will be summer vac. and college soo.. stay tuned!


roswellluver- max and his art will definetly come into play lata



lucky star

lel- liz could be the girl in this drawing you have to wait to find out but she will come into his art later trust me






aZNroSweLl anglgrl


shorty828-sorry I didnt leavce fb on your story but I havent finished reading it yet lol!I have no time!

pharmgirl-the pictures are very symbolic thats all I can say but the girl in the picture could be liz but you have to wait to find out. destiny? what destiny? lol in rachel(me!!)-land destiny doesnt exist and tess is doom to be brutally murdered over and over and over by the oompa loompas




TD DreamerBehr- yay! I have my very own caffine induced fb monster yipee!! jumps up and down!! I maganged to stay in mushy mode fot the first part because of a coffee shortage! I had to settle for coffee sucking candies ick! and for pts two and three I was using one of those microphones you speak and type with and I burst into giggles and I had music on so it came out screwy and I decided to fix it to be reggie. also my coffee addiction will come in later and check out my posts on your two fics my life and cry the cry one ill make u laugh it really will...

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posted on 20-Apr-2002 12:48:01 AM by Apathygirl666
****special an****ok guys I wrote this pt when I should have been studyin b/c of it I got a bad grade oh well... but when I wrote it on tuesday I was feelin a little depressed...hey im a teen it's my weekly dosage of agnst. but this pt means alot to me because I really opened up to u guys I feel like max does in this pt and even though im not an alien(it would be cool if I was though!)I feel left out and strangled alot and well good writers write about what they know soo...please please I would appreciate if you guys looked at this as not just fic but a look into the writers soul please try not to critisize me b/c this pt means alot to me****

thanks to lorastar for the banner


Pt 4 Max POV
* * * * * * *

Max stepped off the bus into the Colorado snow. The scent of pine needles wafted to his nose. He breathed it in wanting to memorize it and save it like the perfection it truly seemed to be. His eyes roamed over the snow capped mountains surrounding the area. The white seemed endless and it made him long for the simpler times. The times of innocence that made his memory. He could remember diving into the white snow after he and Izzy had made it snow that one time. He remember the feel of the fine cold powder against his cheeks, making his face a scarlet color. Those were the better days, without A.P. courses, homework and the overall feeling of teen angst that seemed to control his and his classmate’s lives. He couldn’t remember a time he had felt more alone, especially after holding ‘her’ in his arms.

The air seemed heavier there, it was filled with tension, and he could feel it, crackling on his fingertips. It was electric and it made him feel like world was erupting all around him. He looked around again and decided he might want to make a sketch of the beauty that surrounded him.

He looked towards a group of students and saw her. She was leaning against her friend Alex and they were laughing with Maria Deluca by their side. He envied Alex wanting not only to be liked by her but to be normal and accepted. Sure, Isabel wasn’t normal but she could just blend without emotional attachment and that wasn’t Max. He wanted, no needed something of substance to make his life a little more alive.

Max wished he didn’t feel so alone. He wished he was normal, but in a way he was happy he wasn’t. He tried hard not to laugh at the irony of the situation and forced himself not to smile or laugh.

He grabbed his bag and listened to the chaperone, she was saying something about two same sex people to a room, any people caught with members of the opposite sex would get suspension…blah blah. He tuned her out and looked up at the sky. It was a darkened gray that seemed like it would overflow at any moment and in the few seconds when his gaze shifted from the sky to the ground he felt suffocated by the air, almost claustrophobic in the open planes. That was how he felt a lot, so he dealt differently than his friends. Michael, he didn’t let anyone in, preferring to live in his rebellious state of mind, and Isabel, well she had it easy, she could surround herself with people and just feel accepted and just be happy living in superficiality. Max, he turned his loneliness into art.

Max moved into the lodge with everyone else as the partners for rooms were called out. Max was paired with Alex Whitman and all in all he thought he was an ok guy. He walked up to the room with Alex, plopped his bag on the bed nearest to the window and he started to unpack his clothes. He unpacked until he caught sight of his symbolic security blanket. Phew, he thought, its ok. Max stared at it, it was his guitar, he remembered when he had gotten it.


8 year old Max Evans pushed through the crowds on the fair grounds. It was the art fair and he had save just enough money for a new box of pastels and a new canvas. He was sort of a child prodigy with art and his parents were supportive of their ‘young Picasso’.

He was pushing towards the last table and when he got there and spotted the canvases and pastels he picked out a few and then turned to pay.

Then he saw it, it was a beautiful guitar, with painted on designs running up the wood. He put the pastels down and ran his hand along the wooden surface.

“It’s beautiful isn’t it?” the artist behind the counter asked him. She looked like her art, sweet and compassionate.

“It’s amazing” he breathed out.

“You want to buy it?”

Max checked the tag and saw that it said $325.00. His eyes grew wide and disappointed.

“No, I can’t afford it” he said picking up the pastels.

“I could give you a good price. How bout $50.00?” she said seeing the boy’s love for the guitar.

Max looked down at his money, he had $60 from birthday money and he had $40 from allowance. He could buy the guitar and 1 canvas and the box of pastels.

“I’ll take it and these” he said pointing the canvas and the pastels and handing over the money. He took the now wrapped up guitar and his other items and walked towards his dad’s car. He stopped, spotting her brown hair twirling. She and her best friend Maria were twirling in the open grass and he couldn’t help but notice how she swayed like a flower, moving gracefully, compared to Maria who kept bumping into a boy, it was Michael, he realized! Maria bumped into him and then into Liz and they collapsed lying in the grass. She looked so beautiful to him, laying there, the sun on her face, giggling and smiling. She looked so perfect and that was the moment she locked eyes with him for the first time. Her eyes invited him to come over, and a genuine smile graced her lips. He looked away and scurried to the car, uncomfortable around all the people suddenly. That was the day he realized he would never truly be normal.

/end flashback/

“Max, hey you there?” Alex asked noticing his blank expression.

“Yeah, just lost in thought.”

“Well, I’m gonna go meet Liz and Maria. See ya later” Alex said walking out.

Max turned to the window and let out a sigh, this would be a very long and strange weekend. But then again life was strange and well, if you looked at it that way so was Max.

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posted on 28-Apr-2002 8:05:54 PM by Apathygirl666
thanks for all the fb new part tonight maybe two if I finish mah hw but if I do post two pts the other will be really late like at 1 or 2 or so eastern time

aZNroSweLl anglgrl - yeah math sucks

ILYMEFOREVER-thanks so much it's great ti know that you understood how I felt

dancepixie-the guitar is gonna play a part later next pt

Care_Behr-tanks so much

LEL-Alex will be busy with somone else not much interaction between him and Max

Lucky Star
Tea B7

posted on 28-Apr-2002 8:06:59 PM by Apathygirl666
kk here's the new pt hope u like please send me fb!!1

thanks to lorastar for the banner


Pt5 Liz POV
* * * * * *

Liz walked into the Dining hall, she had spent the whole day with Maria, just exploring. It was so beautiful there, the way every footprint in the snow was different, every path unclear. The falling snow made it hard to see and Liz liked it better that way, it was less real, and it forced her to be more perceptive. She looked the way the snow fell around her in a comforting blanket, each piece standing out among the others. They fell on her tongue as she and Maria had tried to catch them earlier. They had done that when they were little. It filled her with longing. She missed the younger days, the lazy days, the less complicated ones.

She was just as lonely as Max was, although she didn’t know it. She felt like she was the only one who could feel so empty. Everyone around her seemed to have an emotional outlet. Maria and Alex and their music, Isabel and Tess, who seemed to cheer their emotions out and herself, she had her journal but sometimes, it wasn’t enough. She was always seen as Little Ms. Perfect and she couldn’t stand it.

She sat down at the table with her diner and looked at Maria who was sitting next to her. She was wearing a white sweater and black pants that made her appearance seem shiny. She could remember when they were twelve and Maria had a crush on Michael Guerin. Maria didn’t know that she knew, but she was sure they still liked each other.

All her friends had someone to love. Maria had Michael (secretly), Alex had Isabel (err…at least to drool over) and she had well…Max. Not quite, but sort of, she didn’t have him literally, but she felt close to him. She didn’t know much about him, not like she knew everyone else but he intrigued her.

She listened to the chaperone explain tomorrows options and she watched Max’s face. It looked emotionless, yet soft. His eyes were cast downward at the table. He looked troubled and hurt almost.

She turned her eyes towards the chaperone “After the day’s options of skating, a nature walk or shopping, there will be dinner, which will be independent, go where you want, but remember no alcohol! Then after that we will have a little evening activity for extra credit in English class. It will be a talent show so practice!”

Liz saw Max’s eyes brighten, look around and dim. He looked so sexy!

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posted on 28-Apr-2002 8:35:36 PM by Apathygirl666
yeah I noe I'm obssesive sompulsive for postin a note askin for fb five min or so after I posted it and for checkin it 7 times already but I really want to conitue post me fb!

what u waitin for...



I dun want to cry but I will if I hafta...
posted on 28-Apr-2002 9:16:21 PM by Apathygirl666
I want 5 more replies by different ppl before I start to write/post the next pt kk it's not much

***My 50th post***** YIPPPPPEEEEE!!

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posted on 28-Apr-2002 10:55:01 PM by Apathygirl666
THANKS FOR THE FB new pt out soon

aZNroSweLl anglgrl

LiLEvEe thanks so much I loove denail game post more please- you want interaction ok wait for the next pt out in a few min you'll like it how did u read my miond I have a little hero rescure injury planned for later but not right now! anD I'LL RESERVE the shirtless pull ups for my own personal fantasies yum!! but there is gonna be a shirtless max in the future- very soon

clueless thanks
CharismaMc82 thanks- as it says in mah disclaimer the song is let that be enough by switchfootand it's gonna be an important element later with an other song by another band I'm obssesed with, there will be a lot of songs. I'm a singer and music is important to me.

abbs007-talent show- you'll have to wait to find out (cough)guitar(cough)

gonenuts-you'll love the next pt then

also there will be alex/isabel action later in the story but not yet and I might write some candyclan stuff in this but it's doubtful coz I hate michael in who died and made you king and I didn't like him that much before anyway

new part soon
posted on 28-Apr-2002 10:56:56 PM by Apathygirl666
here's the new part - dedicated to lil eve you want interaction here it is...

thanks to lorastar for the banner


Pt 6 Liz POV (song lyric from crazy for this girl by Evan and Jaron)
* * * * * *
Liz walked out on to the porch the next morning, she had decided to get out of the breakfast hall as Maria started a food fight. After dodging pancakes and unidentified flying waffles to look for Max, she walked out on to the snow filled deck. She heard a soft humming and the strumming of a guitar. The soft masculine voice wafted into her ears.

Would you look at her?
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
I'm crazy for this girl

Max had the most beautiful voice. She turned the corner and saw Max, his back was turned and his he looked gorgeous, his hair tousled, bending over the guitar.

“Beautiful,” she breathed out looking at him as he turned around “Completely beautiful.”

“Not as beautiful as you” He said, his voice soft and sweet. Then his eyes pooped out and he said “I’m sorry I shouldn’t have…I didn’t…I” he trailed off.

Coming to a stop in front of him she said “I like you and I want to know you like me too. Max who was that song about? The girl in it, who is she?” she asked.

“You” he said simply, putting his guitar next to him and cupping her face. He leaned forward and the fireworks exploded in her mind. Their lips met, the first kiss was soft and warm. His mouth was sweet and spicy. She ran her tongue along his and breathed out “Max…” The next kiss was frenzied, it was hot and passionate, testing the levels of how far they could go without breath. His mouth moved towards her neck and down ward each kiss hotter and more loving.

He began to slip her shirt sleeve off her shoulder—and suddenly Liz woke up, gasping for breath. It had seemed so real. She wanted it to be real. She needed water. She groped her way through the dark room and turned on the bathroom light. Her face was flushed, her hair was ruffled and her breathing was heavy. She was addicted to Max. She needed to feel him. Now!

She slipped out of the room and walked up the flight of stairs. She knocked on his door and he came out of the room. She pressed her body up against him and kissed him passionately. “Max, can you take your shirt off?” she asked breathless. He pulled off the tank top he was wearing and she dragged her lips across his chest--and then for the second time she woke up flushed, this time in front of the bathroom sink. She had it bad.

hehe im soo badd- where do u think the number in mah name comes from!! lol fb please!! pwetty please!!

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posted on 28-Apr-2002 11:14:33 PM by Apathygirl666
if I get fb there will be another pt out tonight pwease!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted on 1-May-2002 12:17:23 AM by Apathygirl666
thanks for the fb


dancepixie- from me expect the unexpected once in a while



aZNroSweLl anglgrl

CharismaMc82 yeah when I first heard the band I fell in ,love with them , another song of there's is on my other fic amy's song give it a try pwease

Eccentric One- Alexwill play a big part but not really w/ Max/Liz well maybe if mah muse moves me




roswelllover-apology unaccepted! you will walk the plank!! lol its ok




Lucky Star

Tea B7

care bears I noe but if u promise me a part of screaming inside ill try and get u a new part w/ real m/l smoochies soon




LixMix5 cornball, no way my fic is not corn ball u meanie head- and dat peer pressure muy mommy says dats bad. lol I wanna be like the cool kids!!



Cherry Bomb



new part out soon maybr a half hour or less possibly two if I figure out mah damn math hw

posted on 1-May-2002 12:26:38 AM by Apathygirl666
here ya go...
thanks to lorastar for the banner


Pt7 Liz POV (song is iris by the goo goo dolls)
* * * * * * *

Liz walked into the hotel’s club that had been converted into an auditorium for them for the mini talent show. Maria and Alex were going to sing and she noticed other with guitars and on the stage. She looked at Max and saw he had a guitar in his hands. It was a different one than the one in her dreams. It was painted and beautiful. It was enigmatic and soulful. It was mysterious and special. It was totally and completely Max. He was strumming on it with a black guitar pick and he was only a little farther away from her then Maria and Alex were. She stared at him and then she was tapped on the shoulder. Behind her was Isabel. “Can you move please?” she asked as Liz stepped aside.

Liz watched as she walked over to Max, whispered and something in his ear, and sat down next to him. His face looked drained of all color as they talked. He nodded, laughed and shook his head. Isabel seemed to be trying to convince him of something.

The chaperone began to talk and she turned her eyes towards her “Okay, thanks to the 10 groups that signed up…1st is Kyle Valenti and Tess Harding.” She watched as Tess and Kyle tried horribly to juggle and they fell in a heap laughing. The next 6 groups were cheerleaders and jocks, trying to show off their athletic moves and looking like idiots. Some of them fell and some just looked so stupid that Liz was holding back her laughter.

Then two groups went, they were singers, but it was horrible, like ear shattering. Then Maria and Alex went up…she sang so beautifully, it was some old ballad that was popular in the 70s or 80s. She looked so pretty, her sparkling shirt almost glowing in the lights of the stage. Liz knew she was having a great time singing.

When they were done some people clapped but most didn’t bother and she didn’t like it because of that. Just coz it wasn’t rock they didn’t like it. Then the chaperone stepped up again and said “last but not least, Max Evans with an original song.”

Max sat on the chair on the stage and began to play. His song was so beautiful, she felt herself slipping away melting into a warm gooey puddle of emotions. Max was so beautiful, with his hair falling into his eyes, his sparkling warm amber eyes. She listened to the words of the song it was so reflective of how she felt.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

God, Max felt the same way. She wanted so much to tell him she felt the same, but she knew the time would come. Max won the talent contest.

Teaser for next part :
“Max, Max, oh god Max, are you okay? Help, please!!!!” Liz screamed

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posted on 1-May-2002 1:02:02 AM by Apathygirl666
it's quite simple I post fic YOU SEND ME FB and I post more

but if I post fic and I dun get Fb I DUN POST MORE

GOT IT! NOW GIVE ME FB!!please! check bck in da mornin I need sleep

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posted on 1-May-2002 11:54:48 PM by Apathygirl666
guys I really am havin trouble writing the next part so I want at least 3 more fbs for a little inspiration. Im sorry but im not feelin well and I'm kinda sad/sluggish so please guys kk?
posted on 2-May-2002 1:02:56 AM by Apathygirl666
thanks to


Eccentric One- thanks so much, yeah I have an unnatural obsession with few bands/ actors the goo goo dolls are one of them.

Lucky Star

LEL-hey!! I'm never mean!! just evil!!

Care_Behr-well I guess no more teasers I wouldn't want to be a murderess

mermaidgirl-no it's not a dream, I'm not that mean

Tea B7


Faith Delfino- I guess I'm the only 666 again damn! traitor! lol!!

Lilevee- stop reading my mind!!! Your one of the evil flying monkeys invading my head! ADMIT IT!!! ADMIT IT!!


Lilevee - yeah it's supposed to be romantic, I actually got part of the idea from boy meets world (cory and lauren) but I changed it completely thansk you really inspired me the next pt is dedicated to you

new part soon...

posted on 2-May-2002 1:03:54 AM by Apathygirl666
here ya go...
thanks to lorastar fot the banner

Pt 8 Max POV
* * * * * * *

Max and Liz were the only two people on the big hill, the rest of their classmates had to learn to ski and they were the only ones who knew how to. They were next to each other, far enough to have space but close enough if they got hurt.

They started to ski, Max a little ahead of Liz. He went down the hill effortlessly but not being cocky. He didn’t want to slip or fall. He turned sharply, and then he was falling. He could’ve have saved him but in the days that followed he would be glad he didn’t. Then, he stopped, clinging to a cliff and he heard

“Max, Max, oh god Max, are you okay? Help, please!!!!” Liz screamed.

His head was pounding and he felt a bump forming. He couldn’t form words in his throat so he stopped to take a breath and yelled “Liz, Liz can you get help. Ski Patrol or something”

“Yeah, I’ll be back” she said as he heard her skis fluttering away. He wasn’t sure how long he held on but after a little while a rope was dropped and he was being pulled up the sharp cliff. When he got to the top Liz hugged him and then he felt himself pass out.

* * * * * * *
Max passed out in her arms and she set him down, trying to feel for a pulse. It was there and she brushed his hair from his forehead and kissed his cheek. Than she stared at him and helped in getting him to the ski patrol, he looked so innocent. Then his eyes fluttered open and he whispered to her “my angel” before he passed out again. She held onto him for a second and then she grabbed her skis and asked the ski patrol

“Can I come with him?”

“No. You can meet us at the lodge on your skis, but be careful” he said sternly as Liz nodded. Than she turned towards the trail back to the lodge, her mind filled with emotion. He said she was his angel, did that mean he felt the same way about her that she felt about him? Or was it just him babbling as he passed out? She wasn’t sure but she knew she had to find out.

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posted on 2-May-2002 1:32:43 AM by Apathygirl666
jez dis gettin anooyinn post me fb or nooooooo ficcyy I'm serious!! I hsve insecurity issues here1 I need instant gratification!! help!!!!me pwease!!!
posted on 2-May-2002 10:05:36 PM by Apathygirl666
yes I am tryin to kill u w/ suspense but just coz I have no fb...good, bad w/e gimme!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
posted on 3-May-2002 1:15:18 AM by Apathygirl666
if I finish the rest of my mound of hw I will have a new pt out any time btween now and 3:00am but don't count on it a- pt possibly tommorrow if not kk...........
posted on 4-May-2002 7:10:10 PM by Apathygirl666
you guys I realized if I use the teaser I posted then everythings goinna go really bad instead of what I had really planned. it was a blinded moment so do u want the good stuff w/ the good ending or the bad stuff that may end up with an unplanned unhappy ending??


PPs if I dun get an answer im not gonna post AT ALL!sorr but im gettin busy and if I dun get an answer it tells me no one reads this and I have no reason to write and post.

later(7:51): fine dats it I quit!!!!

later(8:00): I STILL QUIT!!!!

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posted on 4-May-2002 8:10:10 PM by Apathygirl666
posted on 5-May-2002 1:08:50 AM by Apathygirl666
You guys I'm really sorry...lifes been catching up with me
I have to start studying more for finals and its really frustrating coz im stuck indoors and Im staying up till 2, 3 am to study and sleepin 3 pm- 7 pm and its gettin me totally off schedule and I took it out on you guys.

aLSO I HAVe no space and its spring cleanin and I have no room and its frustratin..

I decided not to use the teaser maybe I will lata but not now so I'm gonna rewrite some of the new part and if you guys have any tips on space saving b-mail me please coz the better I clean the more time I have for writing.

tHanks all who left me fb -shout outs and next part after I do a lil more cleanin

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posted on 14-May-2002 6:24:17 PM by Apathygirl666
ok u guys tanks for all the fb sorry for mah bitchiness a while back but...

I WENT TO THE ROSWELL PHILLY PARTY THIS PAST WEEKEND !!!!!it was soo cool! I was the youngest person there seeing as I'll be 13 in august. Majandra looked soo great and I got 6 pics wit her and 4 autographs(her cd, tradin card of maria, pontiac grill concer flyer, and roswell party itenirary) she was really nice and she was nice at the party and the q&a if u want me to say more post me fb askin for info and ill tell! also I saw a rough cut of the finale but only the first three acts but it was great and I cant wait for it tonight I hafta see the rest!!!!!...well on to pt 9
sorry it's short but the next pt is longer and I have it so ill probably post it around 10 or 11 if I can if not tommorrow or soon

thanks to lorastar for the banner


Pt 9 Max POV (song is angel by sarah mclachlan)
* * * * * * *

When Max woke up there was a bright white light and low sweet song playing.

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty
Oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lines
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

He could see a beautiful girl in front of him. He was dead! He had died and gone to heaven, only a girl in heaven could look as beautiful as the one next to him, he could feel her stroking his hair, her soft fingers like feathery wisps over his forehead.

“Am I in heaven?” he asked the angel, her response was laughter. Then he got a good look at her, it was Liz! “My angel” he whispered.

“Max you were unconscious, I volunteered to take care of you.” Liz said brushing her fingers over his cheek.

“You really are my angel” he said. Then everything was in slow motion. Max and Liz’s lips met. Her lips were soft, as they brushed against his. The next kiss was longer, when their lips touched Max felt Liz lean in to him, and he did the same pulling her towards him, the kiss was testing, both of them trying to get as close as possible. Max slid his hand under Liz’s shirt and up her back reveling in the feeling of the silky smooth skin that was there.

“Max,” Liz said pulling away from him to look in his eyes, “I know that we don’t know each other well, and that we’ve never really talked, but I’ve noticed you. You were the guy, who picked Maria first for your soccer team in gym even though she was never good at sports in junior high. You were the guy who helped Trish Okabi finish her science project so she could go to summer camp with your sister in the 7th grade. Max, you have the purest heart I’ve ever known and over the last few days I’ve noticed it even more. Max, I’m falling in love with you. I want to love you, if you’ll let me ...”

Max looked at her and in the back of his mind he saw a vision it was an FBI agent in a dark suit torturing Liz trying to get info on him, blood trickling down her perfect chin, tears rolling down her red cheeks. No, no he couldn’t let that happen!!

“No, no I…I can’t do this…I won’t let them hurt you…I…have to go”

Max rushed out of the room as he envisioned a bloody Liz being hurt. No, no he thought, he had just prevented that.

* * * * *

Liz felt worse than she had in her entire life. Max had called her his angel and then kissed her, she was so confused. She felt tears in her eyes and as she sobbed into her pillows she thought of what Max had said “I won’t let them hurt you” he had said in a frenzy. She wanted to know what he had meant but she felt like she didn’t know how to move her bones. She wanted so much to run after him but she felt immobilized. She never thought Max could do that to her. She never thought he would do that to her.

FB PWEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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posted on 14-May-2002 7:13:45 PM by Apathygirl666
fb pwetty please!!
posted on 14-May-2002 7:14:18 PM by Apathygirl666
fb pwetty please!!
posted on 15-May-2002 12:08:13 AM by Apathygirl666
you guys after going through the neding of roswell and an onlind cry session with my roswell aol buddies I need you guys to support my fic or poof itll be gone like roswell*sad**sad*I just cant stop cryin
posted on 17-May-2002 4:51:34 PM by Apathygirl666
hi guys I stayed home sick today so I got to finish the next part I decided to make it happy coz after the finale we all want happy am I right? of course I am...I'm always right*wink**tongue*lol im try to post tonight or tommorrow if I can
posted on 21-May-2002 3:36:04 PM by Apathygirl666
sorry I know I said I would post dis earlier but the way it was written was too impulsive so I changed iot into two parts kk one now one lata Thanks for all the fb and yes this fic will have a happy ending but be warned this fic is gonna be long I have some rolercoasters planned!!

also guys I need someone to beta read my fics if u want to there's three and you can do all or one if u like but I'm gonna be super busy wit finals so im gonna need help if you're intrested plzz bmail me with info on what u can do to help me out the more beta offers I get the easier it'll be for me to post coz I can count on more ppl..kk on with the show

thanks to lorastar for the banner


Pt 10 Liz POV –(1st song is Might Have Ben Hur (that is the correct spelling) by Switchfoot 2nd- Tomorrow by Avril Lavigne 3rd- Something More by Switchfoot)
* * * * * *

Liz dreamed that night (see I warned you) that Max had come running back into her arms with a great apology and they had fallen asleep in each others arms. But she was disappointed when she woke up alone in the middle of the night. She didn’t try to stop the tears in her eyes as she grabbed an old notebook from her bag. It was a biology notebook from freshman year she had brought it to study for finals and she stared at the pages, tears dripping over them. She looked at the little hearts with the names Max Evans and Liz Parker in them. That was when she’d thought he was just some cute guy. She pulled at the pages ripping them into shreds tearing the pieces with his name on them into tiny dots against the floor.

That was how Maria found her later on in the morning. Liz felt more alone than ever before. She felt life less and hurt. Liz was about to let it all go and stay in the room but something in her heart told her to go to Max, to break down whatever had him so scared.

She walked near his room and noticed the door was open so she peeked in and saw Max playing the opening chords of a beautiful song.

Everything I know tells me she’s everything that I could hope for
Everything I know tells me I can’t let her walk away
I took my time to find the words
I hoped she’d feel the same

Cause I want someone to share my smile
To share the pain
To be there when the sea turns grey
To share the joy
For better or worse

And I thought that it might have been her

Wonder if she knows the way
I saw her soul
Light up my life
Wonder if she knows
Of the pain I feel tonight

I took my time to find the time to find the words
I hoped she’d feel the same

Cause I want someone to share my smile
To share the pain
To be there when the sea turns grey
To share the joy
For better or worse

And I thought that it might have been her

And I thought that it might have been her
And I thought that it might have been her
And I thought that it might have been her
I thought that it might have been…
I thought that it might have been…
And I thought that it might have been her

Then she saw the glowing tears on his cheeks and she gasped “Oh my god, how is that…? What is that? What are you?”

“Um…Liz, I’m an alien”

“You know you could at least be honest with me, god Max, I thought you were better than that!” And with that Liz ran out of the room, her mind a jumble words flying around. She rushed back to her room and saw Maria sitting in front of her guitar. She felt too tired to speak and laid down on her bed to cry. A few seconds later the bed creaked on the side as Maria sat down next to her.

“Chica, what’s wrong, I didn’t ask before but you’re in need of a little venting. Tell Maria your problems…” she trailed off.

“I’m sorry Maria, but I don’t think I can,” she said then at Maria hurtful look she added “not yet. I…I need to go for a walk can I borrow your discman?”

“Yeah, there’s a pretty good cd in there already ok?”

“Thanks” she said looking at Maria who seemed disappointed.

So Liz, walked listening to the music and then she sat, on a small rock over looking a little hill and her mind tried sort everything out but she couldn’t so she listened to the music as a slow song started to play. And through every thought all she could think was ‘this is so beautiful’. And it was, she was sitting on a rock with a perfect view of the woods below, the snow flakes dancing around her, the lyrics almost reassuring to her as she listened to them.

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don’t

Gimme a lil time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

And I know I'm not ready,
Maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change
Tomorrow it may change
Tomorrow it may change
Tomorrow it may change

The lyrics made sense to her. Max wasn’t sure if she’d believe him, but he told her anyway. And she believed him, in her heart and she loved him, in her heart.

* * * * *
After Liz ran out Max picked up a cd, he needed something to sooth him and his fingers felt too tight to play the guitar. So deciding to go human for the time being he slid the cd into his discman instead of using his alien powers. The words washed over him, letting everything he felt just evaporate into the music he was listening to.

Just woke up with a broken heart
All this time
He’s never been awake before

At thirty one
His whole world is a question mark
All this time
He’s never been awake before

Watching dreams that he once had
Feed the flames inside his head

In a quiet desperation of the emptiness he says...

"There's gotta be something more
Than what I'm living for
I'm crying out to you yeah"

"There's gotta be something more
Than what I'm living for
I'm crying out to you"

All his fears keep falling out
All this time
He's never been awake before

Finding now
His old dreams aren't panning out
All this time
He's never been awake before

But he's mad to be alive
And he's dying to be met

In a quiet desperation of the emptiness he says…

"There's gotta be something more
Than what I'm living for
I'm crying out to you yeah"

"There's gotta be something more
Than what I'm living for
I'm crying out to you"

Something more…

"Hey, I give it all away
Nothing I was holding back remains
Hey, I give it all away
Looking for the grace of god today"

"There's gotta be something more
Than what I'm living for
I'm crying out to you yeah"

"There's gotta be something more
Than what I've been before
I'm crying out to you yeah"

"There's gotta be something more
Than what I'm living for
I'm crying out to you yeah"

"There's gotta be something more
Than what I'm living for
I'm crying out to you"

And that night an eighteen year old boy cried. He cried for the future and the pain of the past. He cried for the love he wanted but never could have. He cried for the dreams he was being raped of because of his heritage. But, these tears came not only from his eyes but his heart. That night, an eighteen year old boy cried, and unknown to him an eighteen year old girl cried with him, the tears of a love found and quickly lost.

what do u think??

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posted on 21-May-2002 4:35:32 PM by Apathygirl666
yay I have 2 fbs!!!!! so im gonna wait for three more before I post the new pt cmon dats not much just 5 pieces of fb two which I already have but I do hafta fix the next pt a lil so patience is appreciated
posted on 21-May-2002 5:50:41 PM by Apathygirl666
ok guys im fixin up the next pt ill try to have it out soon
posted on 22-May-2002 1:50:32 AM by Apathygirl666
lol mermaidgirl yeah the boards arent workin on my aol so im usin internet explorer I would try it if u do use aol

possible new part later today the 22 nd
posted on 24-May-2002 10:35:21 PM by Apathygirl666
guys , ive been depressed and crying all night. I had this fight with my mother and I need a hug! lol. no I need a fic pick me up so im going polish up the parts of this and Amy's song(my other fic m/other eventually m/l check it out) that I have and im gonna post them and then start writin again

kk thanks
posted on 27-May-2002 7:50:47 PM by Apathygirl666
aww thanks so much amie! you're so sweet, anyway me and my mom resloved things yesterday and our fight got me four amazin new shirts from pacsun, a new bag, $40, and hair wear*wink* lol! anyway ive got the new part just about done ill post soon

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posted on 28-May-2002 3:29:06 AM by Apathygirl666
new pt tomorrow due to computer crisis
posted on 28-May-2002 9:25:07 PM by Apathygirl666
thanks for all the fb heres the new part enjoy1

thanks to lorastar for the banner


Part 11 Liz POV
* * * * *

Liz walked into the room tears of pain and happiness trailing down her cheeks. She’d had a restless slumber thinking over what she would say to Max. She looked at Alex and nodded, and picking up her cue left quickly. She jumped right in asking the question that had plagued her mind, since she had talked to him the past day.

“I knew there was something different about you, Max you’re so unique, so gentle and loving. Max, do you love me? Honestly tell me the truth.”

“No,” he said “words can’t describe what I feel for you, but I can’t be with you. Liz, I can’t let you get hurt”

“Max…I don’t care, I want to be with you”

“I want you to be alive.”

“I won’t be alive if I’m not with you, I know this is sudden but its how I feel.”

“Liz, how do you know you’re in love with me? You hardly know me?”

“Max I know you love me too. I know it in here” she said guiding his hand to her heart.

“But how? How can you have such faith in love? How do you know you love me? I’ve known I’ve loved you for so long but how can I trust love, how can I be sure you won’t get hurt?”

“Love isn’t knowledge or power, it’s not reality or pain. It’s not a dream, it’s not a fairy tale. It’s just a feeling. Love is like soaring on clouds and not having to worry whether someone will be there to catch you if you fall, and I want you to be there to catch me Max. Max, love is what keeps us alive, love gives us power and Max, love, it keeps us from being alone. And I know that you don’t want to be alone anymore I see it every time you look at me. Max I know you want to be with me and I want to be with you. I know we can’t guarantee that it’s all gonna be good, but that’s the cool part, the fact that everything is so unknown, that’s what makes it great, that’s what makes it love. So Max, I’m going to ask again. Max, will you let me love you?”

He put his hands on his face, covering his eyes. “I…I need to think about all this”

Liz slid closer to him and pulled his hands away to look into his eyes. “Max, don’t think, just feel”

“Feel, Liz I want to feel you. I…I want to be with you, forever”

With that Liz moved so she was sitting on his lap and she leaned down and kissed him. It was one of those reach for the stars over the fence, world series kind of kisses. It made Liz feel complete. And there in his arms she lost all sense of time and space, of pain and reality, of hurt and loss, and for the first time she was able to feel only one thing, love. It moved her and made her feel as if her whole body was on fire. It made her not long for the past as she had before but for the future. A future, filled with Max.


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posted on 28-May-2002 10:40:53 PM by Apathygirl666
u know I was readin past pages of this thread, and what happened to my fb leavers, if youre still readin and not postin then send me fb or u wont have anything to read!
I WANT FB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
posted on 28-May-2002 10:45:44 PM by Apathygirl666
posted on 8-Jun-2002 11:30:58 PM by Apathygirl666
wow you guys I made Amie speechless!!!! ive made ppl think im cookoo but never speechless anyway new pt a lil lata - its a/I
posted on 9-Jun-2002 2:33:42 AM by Apathygirl666
heres pt 12

thanks to lorastar for the banner

Pt 12 Isabel POV
* * * * * *
Isabel watched as her brother lost himself in Liz, she had found the door ajar and thinking it would be just Max she had started to walk in. There her twin brother was, wrapped in the arms of a girl, and not just any girl but the one Isabel herself envied most.

Liz Parker, Isabel had known her forever, and sometimes she envied her, wanted to be like her. She seemed so open, so free. She was smart, had friends that really cared about who she was and how she felt instead of what she could do to boost their rep. She was pretty, not in the same way that Isabel was, but pretty none the less. She was normal, and she had most, if not all the things Isabel wanted for herself.

Now Liz was stealing her brother, the one person who she could trust, the one person who cared about her, the one person she knew she cared about. Sure, she would still have Michael, but Michael wasn't Max. If she had gone to Michael with half the problems she had told Max then there would be a whole lot of dead high school and possibly college boys in Roswell, New Mexico. Max had that quality, it was evident even to her, he was a gentle person, sometimes that was a great thing, Isabel knew that from personal experience. She had many memories of a young Max, holding her young self as she cried when they'd first been found, unsure of what was happening. But sometimes that gentle quality made Max vulnerable, she could remember when they were in junior high and Max was bullied by the boys because he was shy and liked art, even though all the girls thought he was cute. She had been the one to help him then, standing up for him, helping him.

But Isabel knew that Max didn't talk to her about his feelings and problems. He was a leader, sacrificing dealing with his pain to help her in dealing with hers. She knew that Max thought he was in love with Liz and even though he couldn't have picked a better girl to love, Liz could still hurt her brother. And if she did Isabel knew she'd never be able to reach Max again, no one would, not her, not Michael and certainly not their parents.

Isabel always expected to be the only girl in Max's life, the only one he would turn to, but now there was this girl and she knew that if Liz got too close she would become the one he turned to, and that made her able to find out about Max's secret, about HER secret and she couldn't let that happen.

She backed away from the room and started to run, she had no clue where she was going, or why she was running, not walking. But she ran until she was outside, until she could see nothing but snow. She ran until she slammed into a lanky yet masculine body. She was about to apologize when the person started to speak.

The voice was soothing as he asked "Are you ok?" she recognized the voice, it was Alex Whitman, one of Liz's friends holding a guitar.

"No…no I'm not" she sobbed, letting her pain come out as Alex held her. And in his arms she didn't feel shallow or weird, she didn't feel like she was being judged. She didn't feel like she was a trophy for boys to show off. She felt like a person, a real human person who didn't have to hold in her emotions anymore. She felt more at ease then she ever had before and to be honest, it felt…good. Really good.

Alex POV
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Alex felt Isabel relax in his arms, she had spent ten minutes just crying, just letting out whatever had her so distraught. It felt good to have her open up to him. He knew she was more than just an ice queen. She moved away from him a little, still holding on to him, like a lifeline.

He watched her as she sniffled then wiped away her tears with the sleeve of her cranberry sweater. He saw she was shaking, wearing her sweater with nothing over it. He took off his ski jacket and slid it over her shoulders.

"No, Alex it's ok" she protested.

"No, I wouldn't want to be held responsible if the most gorgeous girl in school froze to death" he joked, then turning serious he asked "Do you wanna talk about it?"

He noted as she hesitated then nodded and said "Yeah, I think I need to talk about it"

And they walked into the snow, Isabel telling Alex about what she had seen, and felt, except for her alien nature but Alex didn't know that and Alex listening as she opened up to him, in a way he could tell that she hadn't opened up to anyone else.

When she was finished, he started to speak "Isabel, I can understand how you would feel you are losing your brother but I know Liz. She won't hurt him, she's couldn't do that, and I know that your scared but maybe Liz could be good for him. You should try trusting her, maybe you could get along, but mostly I think you should talk to Max, tell him how you feel."

"Thanks Alex, I think I will," she replied "Listen umm…can I ask you something?"

Ask me something, ha she could have my babies if she wants to, Alex thought.

"Yeah?" he asked.

"I don't feel like staying around here and my friends, god if I came to them crying they'd probably push me away and I don't want to be alone…so can we go somewhere, Please?" she asked, and his heart swelled looking at her tear stained cheeks and hopeful expression.

"Sure, but why don't we just go back so you can get a jacket and I can put my guitar away"

"Umm..can you leave your guitar in my room? I don't want to have to see Max and I know you have a room with him. No one will touch it, Tess won't be in the room she's with Kyle for the whole day, we can leave it there and just walk into town then when we get back you can take it to your room. Ok?"

"Yeah" he replied

Isabel POV
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Isabel was laughing, really laughing, she had never truly done that before in her life. Alex was really sweet, and they had only been walking but she was having more fun than she could remember. His sense of humor was warm, and she felt like he understood her. She was almost in a daze she was so happy, that she didn't notice that Alex had stopped a few steps behind her and had a large round ball of ice in his hands and that he starting to throw it aiming for her back.

She felt a snowball plunk into her back and she turned around a mock menacing glare etched on her face "Uh!" she exclaimed "You're gonna pay for that!!" and the she leaned down, rolled a large round snowball and threw it at Alex's chest.

She giggled as he melodramatic fell to the ground as it hit his chest saying "No! I've been shot!" which made Isabel giggle even more. Soon there was an all out snow brawl and the Alex was tackling her in the snow, the two of the rolling around like little kids, pounding each other with the white chilly powder.

Then in an intense moment everything changed, the mood became more intense as Isabel registered the fact that they were laying half on top of each other, their lips inches apart. Isabel noted his stare, it sent chills down her spine. She could feel his breath on her neck and in that one second she did something she never would have done before. She leaned in and captured his lips with hers, and he kissed her back with a force she didn't know he was capable of.

She pulled away and smiled, and then she whispered to him "You're not like all the other guys" then she paused and said "I like that, when we get home, I'm gonna ask you on a date"

"If It helps," Alex said "I'm gonna say yes" Then he got up and they brushed themselves off, still joking as they walked, only now their fingers were threaded together.

Alex POV
* * * * *

Alex had found himself in a hair salon in town watching Isabel as her long blonde locks fell towards the floor, floating.

She had said she was ready for a change and told him it was a surprise and then she had dragged him into a hair salon. He liked how it was turning out, after all it was Isabel, she always looked good.

He looked at her now, her hair short and blonde, it didn't look right, but he wasn't surprised when the woman doing her hair started to dye the short locks a light brown. He liked her new look and he knew other guys would too, that thought made him frown. Then Isabel asked him "So, Alex, Where are you going to college in the fall?"

"Oh, I'm going to UCLA, you?"

"Really, Oh my god, I'm going there too, so is Max!"

He smiled at that and asked "What's your major?"

"Teaching, I love little kids, you?"

"Computer Programming"

"Maybe I'll see you around, it would be great to know someone besides Max."

"Well, Maria got in too, if that helps"

"Maria Deluca, the girl with the vials, the one who spilt her milkshake on Michael during that trip in the 8th grade?"

"Yeah that's her, she's majoring in acting"

At that she burst out laughing and said "This will be interesting, so is Michael"?

And their laughter rang out in the shop and more of Isabel's hair got dyed a light brown.

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posted on 16-Jun-2002 9:11:22 AM by Apathygirl666
ok guys, im writin the next part and it's kinda hard, b/c I dunt know what I should or shouldnt include, for that ill use my judgement but I need you guys help, I need a lil help with this part so if you know about colleges on the east coast bmail me, I live in the east but im not old enough to care too much about college I NEED HELP!
posted on 16-Jun-2002 11:38:29 AM by Apathygirl666
fine-no help no fic-its rather simple
posted on 20-Jun-2002 3:59:08 PM by Apathygirl666
kk im gonna be gona all weekend so im gonna have a part out tonight if I can finish it

also thanks to QueenBee05(on this board) for her help with colleges


my personal friends (here in ny) for inspiration: thanks to Crish Crash(crystal), The Toad(Dana), E(Elina), The Pink Bunny(Dhara-Happy Bday), and Cecelia-did u read the third book yet??it's called Little Green Man kk!!

thanks to all who left me fb-im gonna try to get a part out after I finsih some stuff I gotta do-kk

edited coz im an idiot (hits head) who forgot to thank the karyns (karen + Karyn-im serious there are two lolz) and ali

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posted on 25-Jun-2002 10:02:18 PM by Apathygirl666
the wheels on the fic go bump bump bump

I had coffee nuff said

posted on 27-Jun-2002 8:18:00 PM by Apathygirl666
I was plannin on postin earlier but I got caught up in creating a new john mayer wallpaper for my desktop hehe!

thanks to all who left me fb/bumped this fic

thanks to lorastar for the banner


Part 13
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Like home, Max thought as Liz settled into his arms after another soul searing kiss, she looked content, and she was beautiful to him, I every way possible. Then he leaned down and their lips met again, tenderly. He was in heaven he truly had no doubts that she was his angel.

* * * * * * * *

As Liz settled into his arms her mind filled with questions, she realized that there was so much she wanted to know about him. She wanted to be able to understand him, in every sense, mind, body and soul.

Max’s body was warm and comfortable as she settled against him, it was late after noon, they had spent the day just laying in comfortable, silence, she had learned that Max had always had a thing for her hair, by the way he played with it, and he had found out she liked to watch his eyes as they swept over her. And, boy what those looks could do to her, she melted at every one, and she had melted a lot that day. They hadn’t spoke, they both knew there would be time enough for that.

Now, in the light of the twilight her life seemed perfect, she finally had the guy she knew she loved and she felt like there was something wrong though. And with the loud knock on the door she knew, just knew whatever it was that she would be confronting it now.

She got off of Max and noted his whisper of “stay, I don’t wanna wake up yet…” as his arms reached for her and she couldn’t help but reply “this couldn’t be a dream, it’s too perfect”. Then the two of them got up, maintaining the contact they had kept, with their arms around each other they answered the door.

Liz stared at Isabel, she had light brown, short hair now and Alex had his arm around her.
She looked comfortable with it, and Liz smiled, one of those genuine smiles. Then Isabel spoke.

“Liz, can I talk to you in private, Max, Alex, can you two wait in the hall?” she said as the two guys began to walk out.

* * * *

Max was already afraid of what Isabel would say but he got terrified when he heard Liz’s little scream through the door.

Dun dun dun and im bad at cliffhangers so I hope you guys like

ps check out my new fic:Time Of Your Life

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posted on 27-Jun-2002 9:30:51 PM by Apathygirl666
aww some one used their first post on replyin to my fic thats neva happened before im honored Tropix
posted on 27-Jun-2002 11:58:18 PM by Apathygirl666
thats it I quit even a cliffhanger didnt get my readers to respond where are you guys?? im feelin dejected it's the younger sibling syndrom isn't it I think im gonna cry*sad*
posted on 28-Jun-2002 5:51:06 PM by Apathygirl666
clueless, I would be more than happy to post a new part but when I first sent this fic out you guys spoiled me with fb and if you want another part go bmail ppl that left me fb before and tell them to get their butts back here ok! and im writin parts of amy's song and time of your life first but amy song might not be out until tom. cuz I got a beta reader kk
posted on 5-Jul-2002 3:09:31 AM by Apathygirl666
posted on 12-Jul-2002 4:36:42 PM by Apathygirl666

posted on 14-Jul-2002 11:19:22 PM by Apathygirl666
bump and check out the banner in front of each pt done by lorastar!
posted on 19-Jul-2002 8:31:16 PM by Apathygirl666
This is a note I’m posting on all of my fics: I’m leaving for three weeks tomorrow sand I’ll be back with new fic on August 9th, with new parts of all of my fics, meanwhile leave me tons of bump and you’ll get more fic when I get back and in the meanwhile read my other dreamer stories:

Amy’s Song
American Beauty-Roswell Style
Let Me Know That You Need Me
Time Of Your Life
Pushing Me Away

posted on 20-Jul-2002 8:09:58 AM by Apathygirl666
just a lil bump before we leave
posted on 10-Aug-2002 3:35:28 PM by Apathygirl666
postin this on each of my fics:

hey guys, im back from camp and its so bittersweet, im happy to be home but I really miss the friends I made at camp,on the last night, after the art displays (I won two awards) and the drama show and the fashion shows and the floor awards (hehe-I got the floor award for always having a smile :D) there was the candle light and it was so sad, and yesterday morning my best friend from camp flew back to chicago at 9 am and I cried for about an hour, it was so sad, and everyone leaving, I swear it the worst part of camp, I loved camp sooo much, and I had soo much fun, anyway im gonna try to post later but right now its kinda hard to see the computer screen with the tears and all, it's just not the same anymore, I miss it all so much, I really miss my camp, and my friends, anyway im off to talk to some camp friends and then…I’ll be back….I guess…

posted on 18-Aug-2002 12:10:39 PM by Apathygirl666
going on a vaca - be back in a week!
posted on 11-Sep-2002 7:20:17 PM by Apathygirl666
September 11th, I remember