posted on 28-Apr-2002 5:18:30 PM by Juliette

Title: Buried Fears
Authors: Juliette and Leah
Email: Luvbug1312⊕aol.com
Rating: Pg-13
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, so don't sue.
Summary: Liz is sent to live in Roswell, New Mexico after a devastating event.
Note: Feedback would be much appriciated, but please be kind this is our first fanfic story.


~*~Chapter 1~*~

Driving to Roswell, New Mexico

I'm Elizabeth Parker and I believe everybody in this world has at least one over-powering fear...like being afraid of death, paranormal things and aliens. What I'm trying to say is this: if nobody had a fear, we would all be bland. I mean, even those people in the movies have to have fear, otherwise there wouldn't be a storyline. I think if there was no such thing as fear, the world would be in total chaos. But why am I telling you this? It's not like a piece of paper could talk back to me.
::: Liz sighs and taps her pencil on her journal entry page:::
You Know what the worst thing is? When fear goes too far...when fear is all we know...when we don't enjoy all the happy moments we are offered...when walking outside, the only vibe you feel is fear...when fear consumes every portion of your life.
::: Liz stops writing and puts the end of her pen in her mouth:::
Do you want to know my fear? The fear that surrounds my every moment...that is the center of my soul...that I think about day and night, between the seconds within every minute. My fear surrounds me like nothing I have ever heard or read, much less felt. It consumes my life by making all of my decisions. I can't escape this ever-lasting fear divulged.
::: Liz is pulled out of her thoughts as she arrives at the Crashdown. Her Aunt Beth comes out to greet her:::

Beth- "Liz, honey! How are you? How was your flight and ride here?"

Liz- ::: Smiling faintly::: "I'm as good as I can get." ::: Sighs::: "The flight and the car ride were long but manageable."

Beth-::: Blushing::: "Right, stupid questions. Well let me show you your room so we can get your things unpacked and you settled in."
:::Beth retrieves some of Liz's luggage, and proceeds to enter the Crash down:::

Liz- *Great, I'll be living on top of an alien themed restaurant, could it get any better?*
:::Liz walks over to get the rest of her luggage, and follows her aunt into the restaurant.:::

Liz is sitting on her bed above the Crashdown, while her aunt is standing by the door.

Beth- "I'll leave you to yourself to unpack everything. God knows you don't wasn't me hanging over your shoulder."
:::Beth starts to turn and walk out, but stops abruptly.:::
:::Beth says sweetly::: "Oh, Liz by the way, I was wondering if you would be able to help me with the Crashdown because I'm low on staff and I only have about three waitresses Maria, Courtney, Sophia, and two cooks working at the moment. Maria is a sweet girl, she will show you the ropes."
:::There is a minute of silence before Liz replies.:::

Liz- "Ok, but I'm not promising you much help, I've never waitressed or anything before."

:::Beth proceeds to speak to Liz to arrange the plans for attending her new school tomorrow. After they finish the conversation, Beth leaves Liz alone for the night.:::

Liz decided to unpack her clothes and shoes, since those are the most important possessions she brought with her. After stashing everything in her closet that seemed to be more compacted then the one she had in New York, she laid on her bed, sprawling herself out. Liz sighed as she looked over the room and a box that was unmarked stole her glance. Liz walks over to the box and starts to open it. She pulls out a picture of three people and begins to cry.

FLASHBACK
Jeff- "I'm sorry Liz, you have to believe me when I say that."
Liz- :::Tears trickling down her face::: "Right, Jeff!! You can't take care of me because you're not 'stable enough' to even take care of yourself. I thought you were better than that...stronger than that, but I was wrong. And you send me to her sister, who is her family, going through the same amount of pain as you...who has even had more hardships in her life than you could even think about. I thought you loved me more than this Jeff, but you have proven my beliefs in you to be truly wrong!!!!"
:::Liz begins to shake as her father stumbles through words in his head.:::
Jeff- "Liz, this change will only be temporary, I promise. Then you'll be able to come back home, and everything will be as good as new for us."
Liz- :::Growing angrier::: "You expect me to come back like I never left? Is that it? Well, you're wrong! If I go, I am NOT coming back to this house or to you again. I thought we were going to be into this together."
:::Liz rushes to her room, not giving her father a chance to speak again. She throws herself onto her bed, face in her pillow, and weeps as if she were dead also:::

End of flashback

TBC.......

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posted on 30-Apr-2002 8:23:48 PM by Juliette
Chapter 2

While I was living in New York, most people who knew me would say I had a pretty good life. Unfortunately none of those people really knew that I hid behind a wall.

Flashback

"Liz honey, will you please sit down? Your father and I have something very important to tell you." Says Nancy

"OK." Replied Liz. She glances a worried look between her mother and father.

“Your father and I thought it best not to tell you about this, because we believed it would end up being nothing. Turns out we were wrong." She sighs."You know the weekends I have been spending with your Aunt Beth in New Mexico?" Liz nods. "I told you that I was helping her because she was going through a hard time. Well she was, and I was helping her, but I was also receiving treatments.... Liz, I have Leukemia." Nancy says.

“What? Cancer! How long have you kept this from me? Didn’t you think I had the right to know?” Screams Liz.

"Yes honey, you did. It was me...I thought I was doing the right thing by not telling you." Nancy implores.

"You're better though, right? I mean, you've been doing treatments, so you're fine. It's not like your dying, right?" Liz says trying to reassure herself.

Nancy looks at Jeff for a moment than back at Liz and begins to cry.

"I...I...I'm sorry..." stutters Nancy.

"I think what your mother is trying to say is that the doctors have tried all they can Liz. The treatments weren't enough...the cancer kept spreading. Liz, mom is.............. dying. They're giving her a month at the most." Jeff says answering for his wife.

“What? No! This is all a big mistake! There has to be something else the doctors can do." Cries Liz.

"I‘m sorry Liz, the doctors have tried everything they can. Your mom and I have accepted it, and now you need to. Your mom needs you right now. We are a family, and we will get through this together. Nothing will split us apart." Jeff says calmly.

”How can I accept this? It‘s only been a few minutes since you‘ve told me! How long did it take you to accept it? Liz remarks sarcastically

Liz cries endlessly while she hugs her mother.

End of Flashback

You know, now that I really look back, nobody really ever knew me...nobody really ever cared. My own father lied and now we are millions of miles away from each other. We're not a family anymore. I'm completely and utterly alone; but is this really any different from how my life was before? Sure I had friends, plenty of them, but were any of them my real true friends? Someone who I would actually call my best friend? People just wanted to be around me because I dated the school football quarterback. He was popular, so that made me popular. So, as you can tell, my friends weren't really friends. I see them as leeches trying to climb a social ladder with the brand name popular written at the top. They never knew the real, true Liz. The only person they knew was the fake Liz, the Liz that I am ashamed to know, and to have been.
Friends; I don't think I've ever really had a true friend. Someone to giggle with and do embarrassing things with is something I‘ve always wanted. I know this is stupid and girly, but isn't that just about what every girl wants? But I hold myself back; I don't let people in, because when you do, you take a chance. It involves a circle of lies, betrayal and deceit. It leaves you standing alone once again, but broken even more than the last time.

Early in the morning, Liz is sitting down in the Crashdown, where Her Aunt Beth has forced her to eat something before she heads out for school.

"Hey Liz, you know Maria just walked in to get her schedule for the week. I could ask her if she wouldn't mind giving you a ride to school." Asks Beth.

"No, that's ok. I'll be fine...the bus is fine." Liz replies.

Just then, a blonde girl walks out of the back of the Crashdown, and begins to approach Beth and Liz

"Hi Mrs. Parker. Hey, you must be Liz. Mrs. Parker said you'd be coming to live with her for a little while." Liz nods her head "Do you need a ride to school? I would hate to have to take the bus." Asks Maria

*Think Liz: say no. Don't put yourself in car with someone you don't know...you have a hard enough time keeping up a conversation with your own father and aunt. Say no.* "Ok, sure thanks, I would really appreciate it." *Damnit! I need to work on saying no. If I can't even say no to a complete stranger then I definitely have a problem. *

"Great, come on let's go. We wouldn't want to be late for another day in hell." Remarks Maria.

"Maria!" Says a stunned Beth.

"Sorry Mrs. Parker, but it's true." replies Maria

"Well we better go or we will be late. See you later, bye!" adds Maria

"Bye you two. Liz have a good day at school." Shouts Beth.
"Bye." Replies Liz

*Ok think. Liz say something. Anything. How about how's the school? No. No. What am I thinking? That's stupid. Ok. Ok think. *

Liz is pulled out of her thoughts when Maria begins to speak.

"So what brings you here to Roswell?" Asks Maria

"Well......" * What can I say? I mean I don't even know her. Let's just say, Hey, I'm Liz, my father sent me here because he is a no good jackass who says that, “I just can't handle you right now honey.”* "I really just needed a change, a new scenery, so I'm trying it out here with my Aunt for awhile." Replies Liz.

"Oh, wow. That's cool. I wish my mom would let me try it out somewhere else, get a taste of real life. This town has nothing except for fake plastic aliens, and the loonies who actually believe in them and the crash. You don't have an alien obsession do you? Because if you do, I don't think we will be able to be friends. I'm sick and tired of aliens, aliens, aliens and more aliens. Sorry I just get a little angry, you know when you’re around something 24 hours a day, you can't just wait to get away? Well, that's how I feel about aliens, and if you live here you'll never escape." Blabbers Maria.

Liz laughs.

"No, no it's ok, and I don't have an obsession over aliens or anything, so don't worry." she adds.

TBC...............

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posted on 5-May-2002 5:30:31 PM by Juliette
Chapter 3

"Before I show you the main office, I’ll introduce you to some of my friends." says Maria.

"Okay." replies Liz.

They walk up to a set of lockers where two bays are standing, talking to each other.

"Hey guys, I want you to meet someone," says Maria pointing to Liz. "The skinny computer looking nerd is Alex," says Maria smiling. "and the other guy is Kyle."

"Hey! What’s up with the name-calling? You didn’t even call Kyle anything. That’s not fair Ria!" Alex whines jokingly, but then smiles at the nickname Maria hates so much.

Maria gives him an angry glance.

"Did I mention he whines?" asks Maria with a smile on her face.

The bell rings.

"Oh sorry, we have to go. I have to show Liz where the main office is. Bye!" Maria rushes pushing Liz in the other direction, giving her just enough time to wave good-bye.

"Bye!" both Kyle and Alex shout.

"Okay. Here is the office. I’d come in with you, but if I’m late to my class again my teacher will call my Mom. I have skipped her class quite a few times. Sorry, I’m blabbering. Here’s the office. I'll see you later." says Maria.

Maria starts to walk away, then she stops abruptly.

"Oh, hey if you want, if we don’t see each other before lunch, me, Alex and Kyle sit at a table outside. It’s by a big tree, you can’t miss it, there's no other tables around it either." continues Maria.

"Okay, thanks. I guess I’ll see you at lunch than." replies Liz.

"Bye." both Liz and Maria say in unison.

Liz walks into the office unsure of herself.

"H... Hi, I’m Elizabeth Parker, I’m new." Liz says.

"OK, well let me get your schedule, and I’ll print it out for you." replies the woman.

The woman hands Liz her schedule, and she begins to walk out of the office.

"Wait a second Miss Parker," says the woman. "Let me find someone to show where all your classes are located, we don‘t want you wandering around the halls like a lost puppy." she adds.

Just then Kyle walks into the office.

"Hey Mrs. Biggs, Mr. Sullivan wanted me to tell you that the copiers in both of the teacher workrooms aren’t working." smiles Kyle. "Hey Liz." he adds.

Liz smiles back at him.

"Ok Kyle. I'll be sure to call the repairman." Says Mrs. Biggs. "Hey Kyle, while you're here, do you think you could show Miss Parker where her classes are?" she adds.

"Sure. No problem." replies Kyle.

Liz hands him her schedule, and they walk out of the office.

"Hey thanks, you got me out of Chemistry." Kyle says making a sour face at the mention of Chemistry.

"It was my pleasure." smiles Liz.

Kyle smiles back at her, then looks down at her schedule.

"Cool, you have Chemistry first period with me. Maria has it too; she usually skips the class or sleeps through it." sighs Kyle.

After Kyle has shown Liz where all her classes are located, they walk back to their first class. They both walk into the Chemistry room and walk over to where the teacher is sitting.

"Mr. Sullivan, this is Liz......I mean Elizabeth Parker. She's new." explains Kyle.

"Oh, ok." Replies Mr. Sullivan. "Let me see." He pauses and looks around the classroom. "There is an empty seat between Mr. Valenti and Mr. Evans." he adds.

Kyle walks with Liz to their seats.

"Ok." goes on Mr. Sullivan. "Once you get your lab papers, read them carefully; you will be doing this lab without any of my help. I want to see what you all have learned so far."

Some students grumble and others sigh.

"Miss. Parker, if you need any help don’t hesitate to ask me." says Mr. Sullivan. "Ok, you all know the rules; four to a group." he adds

Maria, Kyle and Liz form a group.

"Hey, Evans you want to be in our group?" asks Kyle.

"Sure, thanks." Max replies.

Max looks in Kyle’s direction for the first time, and is pulled into a trance when he sees Liz. Liz also looks over at Max, and is lost in his eyes.

"Hey, Hello!" shouts Maria, waving her hands in front of Liz’s face.

Liz shakes her head and turns around to look at Maria.

"Sorry, I went off into another world." blushes Liz, stealing another look at Max.

After third period, Maria and Liz are walking to the lunch tables outside.

"So, I know it’s not my place to pry or anything, seeing that I have only known you for a couple hours, but I'm pretty sure I saw chemistry spark between you and Max Evans in chemistry, no pun intended." smiles Maria.

"Well, he is cute." blushes Liz.

"I knew it!" shouts Maria excitedly. "I think you should totally go for it." adds Maria, just as they join Kyle and Alex at their lunch table.

"She should go for what?" asks Alex.

"Oh, Max Evans." Says Maria. "There was definitely something sparking between them today in chemistry." adds Maria.

"Yeah Evans was tripping over his own shoes today. He almost burned our whole experiment because he was looking at you, Liz." says Kyle.

"No he wasn’t." blushes Liz.

"Yeah he was." smile both Maria and Kyle.

"Hey, if you want Parker, I can pretend that we are together to keep him from looking at you." smiles Alex.

Maria smacks him on the back of the head.

"Hey, hey it was just an idea. You don’t have to kill me over it." says Alex rubbing the back of his head. "That hurt." he adds.

The bell rings and the group breaks up to go to their next classes.

Today was like a day I’ve never had before. I have friends, funny friends. They even have nicknames for me. Back home they would just call me Elizabeth. But here they call me Liz and Alex has even adopted the name Parker for me. For once I can actually say I'm happy, blissfully happy in fact. It’s funny how this little fact of information can make me happy.
I haven’t been this happy since since.........

Flashback

"I'm glad I took a day off work to spend with you, Liz." Nancy smiles.

"Me too, Mom. We haven't spent much time together since you received all the new work." Liz says, remembering all the lost time between them.

"Well, honey, just don't think about that right now. Today is a day that we can be together and have no worries what-so-ever." Nancy says matter-of-fact.

Just then, Nancy and Liz pass a store, and glance at each other. Without saying a word, already knowing what the other is thinking, they redirect their route and head into the store.

"That looks terrific on you, Mom!!" says Liz, smiling.

Her mother looks in the mirror and frowns.

"I'm too old to be wearing this hip stuff that you wear, Liz! I don't want people walking around asking us if we're sisters." Nancy jokes around with Liz. "Especially since they would say I was the prettier one...I wouldn't want your feelings to get hurt." adds Nancy.

"Ouch, Mom. That hurts, right there." says Liz, pointing to her stomach.

Both girls burst with laughter and decided to go grab Milkshakes at the Dairy Queen down the street.

End of Flashback

TBC......

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