posted on 12-Jun-2002 9:28:53 AM by behriandreamer786
Title: After The Storm
Section Title: The Hardest Thing
Author: Amber
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: Wouldn't I love to own them............this song is sung by 98 degrees and can be found on their album 98 degrees and rising
Summary: events that happened after destiny told through different characters viewpoints and set to music
Aythors Note: Yes I know, Destiny was a long time ago, but who actually liked most of season 2? I just found all these songs and decided to write a story with them. I love feedback and it makes me work faster!

we both know that I shouldn't be here
this is wrong

After Max told the other three that it was just the four of them, Liz knew that she shouldn't have come. She didn't belong with them. None of the humans did. Max would know that he had to be with Tess now.

and baby its killing me its killing you
both of us trying to be strong

Max tried to persuade her to believe him, that he still loved her, but it wasn't working. Liz kissed Max, so she could remember what it was like to be in his arms. She pulled away, because she knew if she stayed much longer she would crumble. She didn't know if they were strong enough to make it through. It was tearing her apart inside.

I've got somewhere else to be
promises to keep
someone else who loves me

When Liz kissed him, images ran through Max's mind. He wasn't supposed to be on Earth. He was supposed to be out saving a planet and a people he didn't remember and had no meaning to him. He had a promise to keep to a mother he had no feelings for. Tess. He had loved her in another life, but could he ever love her again. He already knew the answer. How can you love twice? How could he love anyone besides his only reason for living, Liz?

I've made up my mind
there is no turning back

Liz knew what she had to do, and there was nothing Max could do to change her mind. She had to walk away. She only took a few steps before Max was there calling her name. Her mind yelled at her not to turn around, but she did anyway. Her knees felt weak just looking at him. Tears came to her eyes. She couldn't walk away, but she had to.

she's been good to me
and she deserves better than this

Max knew that Liz had been the best thing that ever happened to him. She deserved a chance for a normal life, but could he let her have it, when it meant losing her?

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
to look you in the eyes
and tell you I don't love you

Liz stood there looking Max in the eyes, as the tears spilled over her cheeks. She could never tell Max she didn't love him, but walking away was almost as bad

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
to show no emotion
when you start to cry

Liz's tears came faster now, and Max wondered how he kept his face emotionless. He felt like his heart was being ripped out, but he couldn't do anything to show Liz.

I can't let you see
what you mean to me
when my hands are tied
and my hearts not free

Max knew that his heart now belonged to Tess, just because it did in a life he wished had never happened. His heart wasn't listening, and it ached for Liz. He couldn't tell his heart to follow the path it hadn't chosen.

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
to turn around and walk away
pretending I don't love you

Liz turned around and started to walk away again. She kept trying to tell herself that she couldn't, wouldn't love Max anymore, but every look, every touch, every kiss from him was burned into her brain. She knew she would always love him.

I know that we'll meet again
fate has a place and time

Max knew in his heart, that he would be together with Liz someday. They were destined by fate if not by destiny itself. Why else would he have gotten so involved in her life?

so you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind

Liz knew she had to let Max move on. He couldn't be with her. Leaving him was the only way no matter how much it hurt.

like Dr. Zhivago
all my love I'll be sending
and you will never know
cause there can be no happy ending

Max knew there was no way he could ever stop loving Liz. That was just a fact. He'd always loved her and he always will. The only difference is that he'd never be able to tell her again. Their life was like a fairy tale only someone had forgotten to write happily ever after at the end.

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
to turn around and walk away

Max watched Liz walk away and with every step a part of him dies and he knew that Liz was dying too.

maybe another time, another day
as much as I want to I can't stay

*I can't stay. Keep walking. Don't cry* Liz had to keep telling herself these things in order to stay in one piece. *Maybe in Max's third lifetime we'll have a chance.*

I've made up my mind
there is no turning back

She almost turned around. Instead she started running. *This is it. My mind is made up. I'm not going back. Life will never be the same.*

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
to turn around and walk away

*bounce**bounce*

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posted on 13-Jun-2002 10:23:09 AM by behriandreamer786
Section Title: Didn't We Love
Disclaimer: Wouldn't I love to own them............this song is sung by LeAnn Rimes and can be found on the Coyote Ugly soundtrack

Max went to Liz's house that night. He saw her packing some clothes in a suitcase. He climbed through her window and walked up behind her. "Liz," he said softly. She jumped and turned around. Max looked at the tearstained cheeks and the red eyes that wouldn't meet his gaze. When she finally looked up at him he saw his own pain reflecting back at him in her eyes. "Max, what are you doing here? You should be with Tess," she said bitterly. She started for the door, but Max grabbed her arm and spun her around. "Don't lie to yourself, Liz. I don't care about Tess. I only care about you." "Max, if I don't lie to myself then I won't be strong enough to make it through this. Every word, every look, every touch. It's too hard." "Then I'll stay until you give in. Do whatever it takes to get you back." "Max, don't make me walk away again. I'll die if I have to suffer through that again." "Don't you see Liz, you don't have to walk away. Please don't." Liz pulled out of his grip and went over to the bed to zip up her suitcase. "What is that for?" Max asked. "I can't give in, but I can't hold out. So I have to go. Give you and me time to heal. When I come back, I don't know. I can't think past today." "Will we ever.....will you....can we ever....go back to the way things were before?" he asked softly. "I don't know. I don't know if they can." Liz barely choked out the words as she tried to hold in her sobs. Liz looked into his soulful eyes, and she was home. Nothing in the world mattered. She forced herself to look away. She couldn't do this anymore. Max put a CD in and walked over to Liz. He held her around her waist and whispered into her ear. "Just listen to the song." His breath sent shivers down her spine. *How can he have this effect on me,* she wondered to herself.

quarter moon always makes me think of you
are you thinking of me too when you see it shine
it's kinda sad, but I'm smiling, imagine that
cause we were lucky to have what we had if only for a time
didn't we set the nights on fire
did ever a flame burn any higher
wasn't it so sweet, wasn't it, didn't we love

Liz started crying as memories of their times together flashed through their head.

it's okay, sometimes I just get this way
I can't forget you anyway, I wouldn't even try

"I know you want me to forget you, but I can't. I can't let go, I can't move on," Max whispered in her ear.

I'd rather fall, then never to have flown at all
it was heaven after all, if only for a time
didn't we set the nights on fire
did ever a flame burn any higher
wasn't it so sweet, wasn't it, didn't we love
didn't we have it all back then
will I feel that way again

"I'll never feel like this with anyone but you. I don't know if you can, but I can't settle for second best," Max whispered again.

didn't we set the nights on fire
did ever a flame burn any higher
wasn't it so sweet, wasn't it, didn't we love
isn't it bittersweet, isn't it didn't we love

By now Liz was sobbing freely. She pulled herself into his arms so she could cry onto his shoulder. She finally looked up at Max and took a deep breath. "Why can you effect me like this? Why does it have to be like this? Maybe in some other life-" "But don't you see Liz, this is the other life. Maybe I cared for Tess some other time, but not now, not this lifetime." "You don't have a choice Max. Destiny doesn't let you choose." "Who said I had to follow destiny? Who's so high and mighty that says I can't love you?" Max hit the wall in frustration. "I'm sorry Max. I can't do this again. I have to stop loving you now." As Liz walked out of the room he touched her arm and sent her a flash.

*flash*
Liz: If you're so smart, then what is my destiny?
Max: I can only tell you the part I'm hoping for.
*end of flash*

Liz found the strength to walk out the door. As soon as she got into the hall she slid to the ground and started sobbing, cursing herself for being so strong.

posted on 17-Jun-2002 9:26:36 AM by behriandreamer786
Title: After the Storm
Section Title: Do What You Have To Do
Author: Amber
Disclaimer: Wouldn't I love to own them...............this song is sung by Sara McLachlan and can be found on her Surfacing CD

what ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage

Liz felt like a storm was making itself through her body. She was on a plane to Florida to escape from Max, Tess, and all the Czechoslovakian problems. *It doesn't matter how far I go though, I can't get them out of my head.*

created you a monster
broken by the rule of love

The whole situation had grown bigger and bigger until it finally came crashing down. Only, Liz felt like she was the only one with broken pieces.

and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do

Fate had led them together, but now destiny ripped them apart. Liz knew she had to go. There are some things you just have to do no matter how many pieces you leave behind in the process.

I had the sense to recognize
that I don't know how to let you go

Liz knew if she stayed she wouldn't be able to let Max go. She loved him to much to stay, so she left. She had to give him a chance to work things out with Tess.

trying to escape this desire

Liz slowly took a deep breath. *Why lie to myself. The only reason I left was to get away from my connection to Max. I'll never forget the look on his face both times I had to walk away. If I would have stayed, I wouldn't have been able to stay away.*

the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do

Liz yearned to be near Max. She could barely breathe when she wasn't around him. The only thing in the world she wanted right now was to be in his arms and have him tell her everything was all right and she didn't need to walk away and do what she thinks is right.

deeply I am shaken
by the violence of existing for only you

It shook Liz to her come to know that the only reason she was alive was the same reason she lived. The only reason she got up in the morning, continued to breathe air, lived life. Max.

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do

Liz knew she couldn't be with Max, and it was killing her to accept this fact. *Why? Why me? Why tear my existence into pieces? Why can't I be with him?*

I have the sense to recognize
but I don't know how to let you go

Liz had let go of Max in her mind back at the cave. She had tried to let go of him in her heart every minute since then, but she didn't know how to. Could she ever?

I don't know how to let you go

TBC..........
posted on 27-Jun-2002 9:50:40 AM by behriandreamer786
Section Title: Didn't We Love
Disclaimer: Wouldn't I love to own them...............this song is sung by LeAnn Rimes and can be found on the Coyote Ugly soundtrack
Summary: events that happened after destiny told through different characters viewpoints and set to music

quarter moon always makes me think of you

Whenever Tess looked at the stars and the sky, she was reminded of her other life. The life where she had Max and everything was perfect.

are you thinking of me too
when you see it shine

*Max never thinks about me, but I have to try. There's nothing left to do but keep trying. I have to get him to remember our life somewhere out there in the stars.*

it's kinda sad
but I'm smiling imagine that

Tess climbed through Max's window trying to make herself look happy, although she knew that this was the deciding factor of her life. *This is my last chance. If Liz is gone and he still doesn't want me, he never will.*

we were lucky to have what we had
if only for a time

Max didn't even look away from the wall when Tess came in. Tess gently placed a hand on his shoulder as she sat down. Just one look from Max could bring all the memories flooding back. *Doesn't he know how good we had it?*

didn't we set the nights on fire
did ever a flame burn any higher
wasn't it so sweet, wasn't it
didn't we love

*Maybe one day I can get him to remember all the kisses, looks, shared moments.* A shiver ran down Tess's spine just thinking about it. *Maybe one day I can get him to look at me the way he looks at Liz.*

I'd rather fall
than never to have flown at all
it was heaven after all
if only for a time

Tess's lips ached from remembering how long it has been since he kissed her and remembering what the last kiss was like. Tess could live forever off that one kiss, but she knew she wasn't supposed to live like that. She had to make him see how good their past life was and how good their life could be now.

didn't we set the nights on fire
did ever a flame burn any higher
wasn't it so sweet, wasn't it
didn't we love

"Max? Please talk to me." "Tess, you got what you wanted, you drove Liz away. Are you happy now?" "That was never what I wanted, Max. I only wanted you. All I ever want is you." "Tess, I love Liz." "I know that. And I know that she loved you enough to let you go. So you could be with me. Don't you think you should at least give it a try. If not for me, than for Liz, for what she sacrificed?" Max looked into Tess's eyes, already missing the soul that reflected from Liz's brown ones. "For Liz," Max agreed. Tess nodded and went to the door. "So I'll see you tomorrow then?" Max nodded but didn't look at her. Tess walked out the door not knowing what to feel. *He still doesn't want me, but it's a start.* Tess got into her car and drove off into the darkness.

didn't we love

posted on 22-Jul-2002 6:20:23 PM by behriandreamer786

Section Title: Thank You
Disclaimer: Wouldn't I love to own them...............this song is sung by Diode and can be found on her No Angel CD

my tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

Liz looked at the empty teacups on her dresser. Her aunt had tried to get out of her what was bothering her. Liz knew her parents just wanted to know why she had to leave Rowel so quickly. *I just want to crawl under the covers and never leave again, * she thought to herself.

the morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
and even if I could it would all be gray

"Liz," her aunt said as she knocked on the door. "Since it's raining, do you want to do some shopping today?" For the first time, Liz noticed the rain pouring down outside her window. It didn't really matter to her anymore. It might as well rain everyday, because that's how she saw the world.

but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

Liz glanced at the picture on her dresser of her and Max. She had tried to put it away, rip it up, anything to stop her from looking at it, but she couldn't. The only reason she lived was to see that picture everyday. If only they could just stay in that moment forever.

I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life

Liz couldn't remember ever having a bad day when she was in his arms. All her problems melted away with one look and even when they weren't together, one smile made her day seem better.

all I see is you and even if my house falls down now
I wouldn't have a clue

"Liz?" her aunt asked as she pushed open the door. She stopped and smiled. Whenever Liz was looking at that picture, she was oblivious to the world around her. She silently closed the door and left Liz alone. Liz closed her eyes and let her mind travel back to when things were normal for her and Max. Before destiny, before Tess, before their world began to crumble around them without them even noticing until it was gone.

oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life