posted on 25-Jun-2002 12:11:46 AM by Loralee0607
Who Cares
Disclaimer: I own nothing
M/L AU

Part 1

Have you ever looked at someone and knew you wanted to spend every moment with them? That is what Max does for me. All I have to do is look in his eyes and then I’m hooked. There is only one problem, he is with Tess. She’s not so bad but if you really look at her you can’t see what other people see. She may be beautiful but she has her own problems. I should know, she happens to be one of my seven best friends. We understand each other. I think she knows I have a thing for Max. He is also one of my best friends. He is blind Maria says. She doesn’t understand why he can’t see how much I want him.

***
(Liz’s room)

“You know chica, you should just tell Tess about your feelings for Max,” said Maria.

“Maria, you know I can’t do that. I would never do that to Max. He really likes her and he doesn’t see me the way he sees her,” Liz said.

“Liz, do you want to be miserable for the rest of your life?”

“No”

“Tell Tess or tell Max. Stop torturing yourself!”

“Maria who cares how I feel. I will get over my feelings.”

“What feelings?” Alex said as he plopped himself on Liz’s bed.

“My feelings about you messing up my newly unmade bed” Liz retorted. “Do you how long it took to make my bed look perfectly unmade? Now get off.”

“Someone’s touchy today” Alex replied while moving to on the floor next to Maria.

“Alex you know very well Liz is like this everyday. She is wound up way to tight.”

“She needs a good lay.” After this remark Alex received a pillow to the head.

***
People always think the same way. They think that if you discuss the problem all will be okay. That’s not how it works. Let’s pretend I tell Max how I feel. Two things can happen: First thing would be he would walk over to me and kiss me senseless. Second thing would be he would laugh in my face and proceed to tell me why I am not worthy of his affection. The only person interested in me is Sean Deluca. He is Maria’s cousin and a total asshole. He thinks he walks on water. I don’t date much if you can’t tell already. I had only one boyfriend and you can see that is past tense. He only wanted to grope me in public and he was a really bad kisser. I always had a pound of his spit in my mouth after we finished kissing. Most of the time when we kissed I pretend it was Max. In my dreams.

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I know this really sucks. Any suggestions? I will gladly take them. Next part should be out soon.



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posted on 25-Jun-2002 12:13:53 AM by Loralee0607
Link to Prologue

viewthread?forum=dreamer-fanfiction&id=171704

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posted on 25-Jun-2002 12:19:53 AM by Loralee0607
Here is the real link to Prologue.

viewthread?forum=dreamer-fanfiction&id=171398

Sorry about the confusion
posted on 25-Jun-2002 1:56:33 PM by Loralee0607
So here is the next part. Hope you like!


Part 2

People look at me and all they see is Perfect Liz Parker. Well that’s not completely true. People probably don’t know that I love a good horror movie and that I am one of the lead singers in a band. The band consists of Alex Whitman who plays the bass, Michael Guerin who plays the drums, Max Evans (my sweet max) who plays the lead guitar, Maria Deluca who is our lead vocalist and plays any instrument you want her to. Then there is me, I sing and play the guitar every once in awhile. We don’t have a name as of yet. First we need a gig. Baby steps Alex tells me.

***

(In Alex’s garage)

“Okay guys lets practice the song Liz and I wrote.” Maria said way to enthusiastically.

Next thing you hear is Max on the guitar, then joined by Alex, Michael on the drums and my voice coming through.

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

(Maria’s voice joins in)

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed I
s it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that
I have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defenses
Use no common sense
If you look you will see that
this world is this beautiful
accident turbulent succulent
I'm feeling permanent
No way I won't taste it
Don’t wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh my self to sleep
It's my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breath?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

After we finished the song, practice was over. Everyone went their separate ways except me and Max.

“So, hot date with Tess tonight?”

“No, she has plans.”

“Oh. So what are doing with the rest of your night?”

“Hanging out with my most favorite person.” Max smiled

“Who’s that?” (Please say me, Please say me)

“Michael.”

“What!” Liz said a little shocked.

“I’m just kidding Liz. You know it’s you.” Liz face showed absolute relief. (I’m his favorite? Since When? Not that I’m complaining.)

“Lets go Liz. There a piece of pie calling my name at the Crashdown.”

***

People always tell me I think too much. How could you not think too much. All people do all day is think. You think about work, the opposite sex, sex, school (well maybe not school), and what you will do the next day. Maybe I do think too much but I swear it’s completely healthy. I wonder what it would be like if people did stop thinking. I bet it would be absolute chaos. In theory, well my theory, people don’t think. They don’t think about what a touch could do to you, how a few words can change everything, and how their actions can rip you from the inside. I wonder if Max thinks about me the way I think about him. Probably not.


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The song I used is Avril Lavigne’s “Anything But Ordinary”. I hope you liked this part. I’m having some writer’s block. Any help would be great.

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posted on 25-Jun-2002 5:39:14 PM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Thanks so much for all the feedback. I really appreciate. I was really nervous that nobody would like it. I have the next two parts written but I'm debating if I should post Part 3. Let me know what you think. Thanks again.


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posted on 26-Jun-2002 2:16:48 PM by Loralee0607
Thanks for the feedback. Here's the next part!


Part 3

I have decided to tell Tess of my feelings for Max. The night after practice we went to the Crashdown (my parents own it) and it was one of the best times I had. We sat there and talked about everything. Well everything except my feelings for him. We connected on this level that I never thought would exist between us. The best part of the night was when Max walked me to the door and he kissed me on the cheek. Nothing spectacular. It was a perfect moment until I trip over my own two feet when I turned to open the door. No one said I had class. That night I saw a look on Max Evans face that I have never seen before. I couldn’t quite place but I can’t wait to see it again.

***

(school the next day)

Sean Deluca walks up to Liz’s locker.

“So Liz what time should I pick you up tonight?” Sean said with a smug look on his face.

“How about a quarter to never.” Liz said quickly.

“How can you be so cruel? We would be great together. There should be something between us.”

“Sean the only thing that should be between is a wall. A very thick wall. Bye Sean.”

“Oh come on Liz!”

Liz brushes right past him to Alex’s locker.

“Sean pissing you off again?” Alex questioned.

“Who’s Sean I don’t know any Sean.”

“Are you finished writing that song about Max?”

“Alex don’t say that out loud! No one is suppose to know about my feelings about……Dumbo!”

“Dumbo? You are going to call him Dumbo? What possessed you to call him that?”

“The ears Alex. It’s the ears.”

“Whatever. I’ll see you in 2nd.” Alex said while walking to his first class.

***

The school day went without any mishaps. But it’s only 2:30. Something strange was going on between Max and Tess. They hardly said two words to each other. I’m the observant one you know? At lunch they didn’t even look at each other. The hopeful side of my brain is hoping that they broke up. The practical side is saying that I am imagining things. One can only hope. I have noticed the way Kyle has been looking at Tess. It’s weird. Alex and Isabel, Max’s twin sister, have been getting a little close. I know for a fact that Alex is head over heels for her. Maybe she feels the same way. Lately it seems like everyone is paired up. Kyle has secret plans that no one is suppose to know about. Alex finally got us a gig. It is at the new dance club. Not sure what the name is. He kind of left out that detail because he was too busy drooling over Isabel. Men.

TBC
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I know this part is short. I need suggestions for a band name. I hope you liked this. The more feedback, the more I’ll write.

















posted on 26-Jun-2002 6:02:20 PM by Loralee0607
AUTHORS'S NOTE: I have been thinking about not writing this fic anymore. I haven't been getting much response and if nobody is reading it, then why bother posting new parts. I have the next two parts written but I'm debating whether or not to post them. For all of those who did leave feedback..Thanks. I'll decide soon if I'm going to continue posting.*sad*
posted on 26-Jun-2002 8:39:34 PM by Loralee0607
Well I have decided to continue writing for now. Thanks for the feedback. NewYorker18 your story is really good so far and Thank you for reading my fic. Here is the next part. Enjoy!!!

Part 4

Corn dogs? Who in the hell invented corn dogs? Okay I get the whole dog part of it, but what about the corn? I don’t see any corn. I’m guessing that the breading is corn bread. Who the hell cares anyway. I’ve decided that I’m going to wear black. Perfect Lizzie Parker wearing black? Who Knew? It represents all the new found angst I’m feeling. Oh! Guess What? For the first time Perfect Lizzie Parker didn’t do the assigned reading in my Lit class. I’m such a rebel. Of course I’ve already read the book from front to back. Let’s still pretend I’m a rebel.

***

This day sucks. It was suppose tp be the best day of my life. Max and Tess finally split. Can’t you feel my excitement? I bet you can’t because Lil’ Max has decided to pick up a ho. The one and only Pam Troy. The Queen Bitch of the school. She has been trying to get in his pants since freshman year. Max told me he needed to play the field. Men.

***

(Crashdown where Liz is the waitress)

“Hey Liz? Do you think that we could practice your new song about Ma…Dumbo tonight?” asked Alex.

Liz hesitated but answered with a nod.

“I have another new song too.”

“Is it about Dumbo?”

“Nope” Liz said while laughing. “Not this time.”

“Great we’ll practice that one too!”

Sean Deluca walks into the Crashdown.

“Hey Liz be a doll and get me a blood of alien smoothie!”

“Sean do I look like your bitch?”

Sean didn’t answer.

“I didn’t think so” Liz turned back to Alex. “What can I get for you?”

“Just Saturn rings….Please” Alex answered hesitantly.

Max walks in and takes the seat across from Alex.

“So Alex I need a favor.” Max said.

“What now?”

“There’s this girl.”

Alex interrupted “If you’re talking about Pam Troy, no way in hell. I can’t do that to Liz.”

“One- I’m not talking about Pam Troy. Two- Why would Liz care?”

Alex quickly said “No reason.”

“Here me out okay? There’s this girl who I really like. Are you following me here Al? I need her to think of me as more than just a friend. What should I do?” Max quickly said without taking a breath.

“Max you do realize that I’m incredibly stupid when it comes to girls. Why don’t you ask one of the girls for help.”

Just then Liz walks up to the table with Alex’s Saturn rings.

“Help with what?” Liz questioned.

“Max quickly stood up and said “Nothing. I’ll see you guys at practice.”

Max quickly exited the restaurant but not before a taking a quick glance at Liz.

***

Sometimes I just don’t understand Max. He has been acting so strange lately. He keeps me these awkward looks. Maybe there is something wrong with me. Maybe I have something in my teeth and nobody wants to embarrass me by saying anything. Maybe I look like a freak or maybe have toilet paper on my shoe. Alright, alright, I need to calm down. I’m over reacting. That’s it! I’m being paranoid. Max looks like he is the paranoid one. Every time I come around he finds some excuse to leave. Is it me? Does he not want to be around me? I don’t think I could stand it if he didn’t want to be around me. I’ll just have to let things run their course. Maybe the answer will come to me. Hopefully.

TBC







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posted on 26-Jun-2002 10:42:06 PM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: I know I am really bugging everybody with all the author's note but I'm at home sick and I need to get my mind off the illness. I just finished writing Part 5 and I'm starting to write Part 6. I really really really really need help coming up with a band name. My mind has gone completely blank. Any suggestions will be very very helpful. Thanks for all the support and feedback. I'm think I'm going to keep this story a little longer. Take care everyone!!!

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posted on 27-Jun-2002 8:43:54 PM by Loralee0607
I think I'm finally ready to post Part 5. Here it is.

Part 5

Buffy the Vampire Slayer. It is a great show. It makes you wanna run over and kick someone’s ass. Can you just see me now? Elizabeth Parker kicking someone’s ass. Oh what a sight that would be. I have one tiny question. Why is she called the vampire slayer. Sure she dusts a few every now and then but mostly it’s just demons or some mystic force. She should be called Buffy the Demon and Unnecessary Evil Slayer. I know what you are thinking. I have thought about this way too much. Well what else can I do? It keeps me from thinking about Max, sweet Max. I think I’ll just go now.

***

As you know Tess and max broke up. I talked to Tess today and she told me the most interesting thing. She said that the reason her and Max broke up was because of two people. Now my mind is running in different directions. Who are the two people? Before she left my house she said she was dating Kyle now. Well that explains one of the reasons they broke up. All I know is that if I wasn’t confused before, I am now.

***

(Once again in Alex’s garage)

“Michael you are such an idiot!” Maria yelled. “How in the hell could you forget to wash your damn sheets! Again! Do you like living in a pig pen? I’m not stepping one foot in that apartment until you clean it.”

“If that’s how you want it, I suggest you don’t step your one foot in there. Use the other foot.” said Michael knowing he was getting to Maria.

“Michael Guerin I swear you are about to get a shoe up your ass!”

Before Maria could do anything Alex interrupted them.

“Lets just practice!” Alex said clearly annoyed.

“How about the one Maxwell wrote?” Michael offered.

“Fine”

Next everyone got their things together and Max started singing.

Meet me in outerspace
We could spend the night,
watch the earth come up
I've grown tired of that place,
wont you come with me
We could start again

(He sounds so incredible.)

How do you do it,
make me feel like I do
How do you do it,
its better than I ever knew

(I wonder who he wrote this about)

Meet me in outerspace
I will hold you close,
If your afraid of heights
I need you to see this place,
It might be the only way
That I can show you how,
it feels to be inside of you

How do you it,
make me feel like I do
How do you do it,
its better than I ever knew
How do you do it,
make me feel like I do Do

oh oh oh oh oh
You are stellar
You are stellar

(I can barely concentrate on my guitar. I wish he wrote this about me.)

How do you it,
make me feel like I do
How do you do it,
its better than I ever knew
How do you do it,
make me feel like I do
How do you do it,
make me feel like I do, Yeah.

“That was great Max!” Maria exclaimed. “what do you think Liz?”

Suddenly everyone’s eyes are on me and I’m just sitting here like an idiot. When I look up I meet Max’s eyes and he looks nervous. Is he nervous about what I’m going to say? Then I realize I am having a conservation with myself and haven’t answered ‘Ria. “It was great Max! I loved it!” More likely I Love you but he doesn’t want to know that. A look of relief came across his face.

“I’m glad you like it Liz.” Max said. We continued to stare at each other like no one else was in the room. His eyes are so intense. They are brown with specks of gold. I’m entranced. Michael interrupts our staring contest. How Rude!

“Let’s practice one more song before I have to wash my sheets before Maria kills me. Her nagging could kill anyone.”

“I heard that Spaceboy!”

We begin to practice our last song for the night. Maria, Alex and I wrote after her breakup with some guy in the 8th grade. Don’t ask.

You hear Max, me, and Alex on the guitars. Then Michael on the drums. Maria’s voice breaks through.

All they did was walk over
Start off by shaking your hands
That's how it went
I had a smile on my face
and I sat up straight

Oh, yeah, yeah
I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you

You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me up
Make me go away

No, I just don't understand
why you won't talk to me
It hurts until I'm wanted for nothing
Don't talk words against me

I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you
Make me go away

You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me out
Make me go away

I tried to be long
It didn't seem wrong
My head aches
Its been so long
I write this song
That's what it takes

You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me out
Make me go away

You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me out
Make me go away

Make me go away
Make me go away

***

Tonight at practice was the first time I’ve heard Max sing by himself. He has a beautiful voice. There was so much emotion there. I want to be the one to cause that emotion. I know for a fact I am completely and totally in love with Max Evans. Every time I’m near him my heart and stomach do this little dance. He is the one for me. If I was only the one for him. He has been so different lately. He has come to this new level of opening up. If only he opened up to me. Like that would happen. I’m just mousy Liz Parker. No chest, no ass. I guess it could be worse. I could be Pam Troy….yuck! By the way, Max said that he and Pam are off. He didn’t give many details. He did say he had his eye on someone else. Men.

TBC
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I’m thinking about doing a Max POV. I don’t know if I should. Let me know what you think. Feed back is much appreciated. Take Care!! The songs I used were: Incubus- Stellar and Avril Lavigne’s- Unwanted. The more feedback, the more I’ll write. Here are a few band names that I would like you guys to choose from Oblivion, Spiral (thanks to Gaby7tvm, The ever famous ‘The Whits’, or Seniority. Tell me what you think. Thanks for all the feedback!!



posted on 28-Jun-2002 2:59:59 AM by Loralee0607
Hey Guys!! I'm going to try to post Part 6 later today since it's 12:01am where I'm at. I'm almost finished with the next part. Thanks for the feedback!!


posted on 29-Jun-2002 12:06:12 AM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: I know I said Part 6 today but I decided the more feedback I get the sooner I'll post. It's up to you. Thanks for the feedback I have received!

Loralee
posted on 29-Jun-2002 6:16:44 PM by Loralee0607
Author's Note: I will post part 6 in a couple of hours! I thought you would like to know!
posted on 29-Jun-2002 10:33:20 PM by Loralee0607
Hey! Here's Part 6

Part 6

My friends are an interesting group of people. Lately I have been observing them. I have been bored, what can I say. I’ve noticed the little gestures that Isabel does for Alex when no one is looking. It’s sickening sweet. Then there is Michael. Well Michael is just Michael and even though he won’t admit it, Maria has him whipped into shape. It’s quite a sight. Trust me. Then there is the new found Tess and Kyle relationship. They haven’t been hanging around lately. My guess they are in the eraser room and I don’t want to even think about what they are doing in there. Max is the most confusing one of them all. He hasn’t been around lately either. Iz said that he is working on a project. I just don’t know what to think anymore.

***

So we have a gig. You get to see Spiral in action. We are going to play at this new club called Solar. I like the name. Of course everything in this God forsaken town has to do with some alien related BS. You think it would start to get kind of old. I swear we have every nut case in Roswell. Maybe I am one too. Maybe people think I’m weird. That is besides the point. Anyway the gig is tonight and Max offered to take me. I’m surprised he even talked to me.

***

Max picked me up at 7:30. Our gig is at 8:30 but Alex wants us there early. Max doesn’t say much on the way. He looks like he’s concentrating too hard on driving. It’s a cold night and we are both wearing heavy jackets. It’s weird because usually we are burning from the heat. It’s a nice change. We arrive at the club to find everyone there except Maria and Michael. Big surprise there. Tess and Kyle decided to grace us with their presence. We get inside and we are all engulfed by this blue light. The club has this night vibe to it. We get further inside and begin to shed our jackets. As soon as we get them off the guys jaws drop and they tell us to put them right back on. You see Isabel decided that our group needed a sexy image instead of our usually baggy clothes. Needless to say she picked out outfits for all of us including herself. Why? I don’t know; she’s not even in the band. Whatever floats her boat. Anyways I’m wearing this red shiny halter top that fits like a second skin and this black leather mini-skirt. Isabel proceeds to wear a form fitting short red dress. Alex hasn’t took his eyes off her for one minute. Now us girls aren’t the only ones dressed differently. Alex is wearing leather pants and a white wife-beater. Max is wearing jeans that do is butt justice and a black wife-beater. Boy does he look good. Can you see the drool running down my chin. You can see all his muscles. Now Maria and Michael decide to make a appearance and Maria is wearing something similar to mine except her skirt is red and her shirt is black. Michael, of course refuses to wear what Iz picked out for him, so he is wearing a pair of dirty jeans and an old Metallica shirt. We part ways with Tess, Kyle, Isabel so we can go set up.

***

The crowd is pretty large and we play some of the stuff we practiced in Alex’s garage. We begin to play our next song and Max looks over and winks at me. I’ve died and gone to heaven. We do a cover of Jimmy Eat World’s “The Middle” to get the crowd moving. Next thing I hear is Max’s beautiful voice.

Hey
Don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just try your best
Try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away

It just takes some time
Little girl You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

Hey
You know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own
So don't buy in
Live right now
Just be yourself
It doesn't matter if that's good enough
For someone else

It just takes some time
Little girl You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

It just takes some time
Little girl You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

Hey
Don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just do your best
Do everything you can
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts
Are going to say

It just takes some time
Little girl You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

It just takes some time
Little girl You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right

The crowd went wild when we finished and we decided to slow things down a bit. Maria starts to sing one of our older songs.

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
I don't want to move a thing
it might change my memory

oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
but I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends
they might wake me from this dream
and I can't leave this bed
risk forgetting all that's been

oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
but I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
until you're resting here with me

oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
but I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
until you're resting here with me

During the whole song I felt Max’s eyes on me and I couldn’t help the shiver that went through my spine. We have one song left and I’m nervous because this will be the first time I take the lead for the night.

I’m taking out my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head

(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it Yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I’d say what about you
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah If I could say what I want to say
I’d say what about you
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble off
Like I’ve got nothing to say

(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it Yeah

Yes I’m wishing my life away
with these things I’ll never say I
f I could say what I want to say
I’d say what about you
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say

After I finish and the crowd starts clapping, Max runs up to me giving me this huge hug (I’m floating on cloud nine right about now) and then he does what I always wanted him to do………

TBC
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I guess you guys are going to have to wait til next time. Maybe you’ll inspire me by writing more feedback. The other songs I used were Dido’s “Here With Me” I Love this song and I couldn’t help but put it in. Also Avril Lavigne’s “Things I’ll never say”. Hope you like! I think this is the longest part yet.
posted on 30-Jun-2002 10:50:15 PM by Loralee0607
From PART 6

Max runs up to me giving me this huge hug (I’m floating on cloud nine right about now) and then he does what I always wanted him to do………


Part 7

“Liz you were beautiful. Absolutely Beautiful!” My heart is so fluttering right now. Max told me I was beautiful. I always wanted him to think of me as beautiful. I’m in heaven.

***

All of us have a couple of hours until curfew, so we decide to stick around and dance a little. Yes, I Liz Parker have some rhythm. Not much though.

“Liz may I have this dance?” Max asked me. Like I would ever so no!

“YES!” I replied a little to eagerly. Maybe he doesn’t notice. He pulls me in his arms and we start to move to the music. I could stay in his arms forever.

“Liz?”

“Yeah Max?” I looked straight in his eyes. Big mistake because I get completely lost in them.

“I…I…” Max seems so nervous right now and I have no idea why. Our eyes meet again and we must have stared at each other for a good five minutes because a new song started playing.

Come to me now
And lay your hands over me
Even if it’s a lie
Say it will be alright
And I shall believe

(Max’s head leans down to mine and I start to panic. Is he going to kiss me? Please kiss me. Please kiss me. His lips gently touch mine and everything fades away)

Broken in two
And I know you’re on to me
That I only come home
When I’m so alone
But I do believe

(we continue to kiss with a fevered passion. He is licking at my lips asking for entrance and can help but grant it to him. The first touch of our tongues is like electricity and it becomes even more passionate.)

That not everything is going to be the way
you think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say Honestly you won’t give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe

(We finally have to pull apart because of the lack of air. He smiles one of his best smiles and I can’t help but smile back. He goes down to claim my lips again and it is pure magic.)

Open the door
And show me your face tonight
I know it’s true no one heals me like you
You hold the key

Never again
I’ll turn away from you
I’m so happy tonight
And your love feels alright
And I shall believe

That not everything is going to be the way
you think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say Honestly you won’t give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe

That not everything is going to be the way
you think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say Honestly you won’t give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
I shall believe
I shall believe

(When we break apart for the second time, I can’t help to feel absolute giddiness! MAX EVANS JUST KISSED ME!!!!!!)

“I have been wanting to do that for so long” Max confessed.

All I could say was “me too.”

***

Last night all my dreams came true and I feel like I’m floating. Max Evans kissed me and he wants to be with me! After we left the club, he walked me to the door and we ended up making out for another 20 minutes. My parents weren’t to happy when they found us at the front door but all I could think was ‘Who Cares’. I don’t know exactly what is going on between me and Max but as long has our future has more kissing involved, who cares. I’m nervous about going to school today. How should I act? Are we a couple now? I guess I’ll find out when I get there. Wish me luck!!!!!

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I know this part is short but I’m having writer’s block. If you want the next part, I need feedback. I know I’m truly evil, lol! I used Sheryl Crow’s “I Shall Believe”. It seemed fitting. THANKS FOR THE FEEDBACK!!!!!







posted on 1-Jul-2002 7:27:00 PM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hey Everybody!! Thank you so much for the feedback. I love it!!! Well I'm in the middle of writing Part 8. I'm having a little trouble. I promise the next part will be out later tonight or tomorrow afternoon at the latest. I have a job interview tomorrow so I don't know how much time I'll have. Have a nice night and Thanx again!!!

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posted on 1-Jul-2002 9:52:26 PM by Loralee0607
As promised here is Part 8!!

Part 8

MAX POV

Kissing her was pure ecstasy. I never thought it would be so great. Not even in my wildest dreams. She doesn’t realize how perfect she is. Al I ever wanted was to breathe the same air as her but I got something even better, I got to feel her touch. Her lips against mine. I have wanted to be with her ever since I first moved to Roswell in the seventh grade and now possible, I finally got her. I couldn’t be happier. Well I could but that is just the hormones talking. I really need to keep those in check when I’m around her. I can’t wait for school so I can see her again and feel her lips against mine once more. Maybe not just once.

***

I’m waiting by her locker. It is good place to wait. Don’t you think? She will probably come here first. Why shouldn’t she? It seems practical. She must be running late because the late bell is about to ring. Maybe she is ill. I hope she is okay. I guess I’ll have to see her at lunch. If she makes it there.

***

LIZ POV

“Maria, I waited forever by his locker and he never showed up. What if he’s avoiding me? Maybe he thought that us kissing was a mistake? I feel like an idiot” Liz rambled on.

“Chica maybe he was just late. It could happen.”

“Yeah maybe but what if?”

“Liz don’t stress out about it. I’m sure there is a perfectly good explanation for him being MIA. Calm down. Here sniff some of my cedar oil.” Maria said while handing Liz her oil.

“You’re right. I’ll just see him at lunch.”

“You will. I promise”

“Miss Deluca, Miss Parker, care to share what you were talking about with the whole class since you seem more interested in that then WWI.” said Mr. Johnson.

“It wasn’t that important.” Maria said.

“Well I guess you two won’t mind staying during your lunch to catch up.”

“No problem sir.” Maria said while looking sympathetically over at Liz who seemed to want to disappear.

***

“She’s avoiding me. I can’t believe she is avoiding me.” Max said.

“Max chill out. Lunch started five minutes ago.” Isabel said.

Max was going to reply but Alex and Michael showed up. Max waited another ten minutes for Liz and got fed up, so he left.

“What’s his problem?” Michael asked.

“Liz never showed up this morning at her locker and then never showed up to lunch.” Isabel answered.

“Liz never showed up at her locker because she was waiting as his locker. She never showed up at lunch because her and Maria had to stay in class because they got caught talking.” Alex said.

“So you mean both of them are probably thinking that the other is avoiding them.”

“Exactly.”

***

LIZ POV

I need to find Max. Alex told me that he was waiting for me at my locker and at lunch. Here I thought he was avoiding me. Everything today has been a big misunderstanding today. Hopefully he will be at home.

***

Max was in his room lying on his bed moping over Liz when he heard a knock on his window. He sat up to see it was Liz. He rushed over to help her through the window.

“Hey Max.”

“Liz”

“Are you busy?”

“No, not at all”

“I..I..well…I just wanted to come see you.” Liz said almost too fast for Max to comprehend.

“Where were you this morning? I was waiting for you at your locker.” Max confessed.

Liz smile to herself and walked up to Max. “You were waiting for me? Well I was waiting for you.”

“What?”

“I was waiting for you at your locker.”

Max couldn’t help the smile that came across his face.

“Well it looks like we just missed each other.”

“It also looks like we have a lot of catching up to do.”

“Most definitely,” Max said as he pulled Liz to his body and began kissing her. He nibbled and licked her lips which caused a soft moan from Liz. His tongue was acting for entrance and she let him. As soon as their tongues met they both couldn’t help the groans that escape their mouths. They were so busy wrapped up into each other that they didn’t realize that they were now on the bed. Before things could any further Isabel interrupted them.

“Max! Mom needs help. Hi Liz!”

“Hi Isabel. Well I better go now. I’ll talk to you guys later.” Before she left she leaned down and gave Max another kiss and then left through the window.

***

I thought for sure Liz was avoiding me but it turns out she wasn’t and we were both waiting for each other. I can’t believe I finally have her in my arms. I never thought that it would be possible. I Max Evans finally have Liz Parker, the girl of my dreams. It feels so good that I don’t have to deny my feelings for her anymore. The best part of all is that she feels the same way too. I can’t wait to see what happens next!!!

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I know this part sucks but at least I updated, right? Thanks for the feedback and I hope I get even more (hint..hint). Thanks everyone!!!!!!


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posted on 2-Jul-2002 10:56:44 PM by Loralee0607
Everyone has been asking me to tell them why Max was with Tess so I’ll try to explain it in this next part.

Part 9

One minute things suck and the next things are perfect. Have you ever felt like this? It’s been two days since my first kiss with Max and it has felt like a lifetime. Everything is right in his arms. Nothing ever can go wrong. I’m a little confused about why he was with Tess but hopefully I’ll find out soon. It’s the weekend and that means I get to spend it with Max. I don’t know exactly what we’re doing but I can’t wait.

***

(Max walks into the Crashdown)

“Hey You!” Liz said while coming up behind Max and put her arms around him.

“Hey. How was your night?”

“Lonely”

“You know I have a remedy for that?”

“Really? What would that be?”

“Oh, just this” Max leaned down and kissed her.

“I think that might work but maybe we should double-checked. You know to be on the safe side?”

They continued kissing until they heard someone trying to get their attention.

“Could you two not make kissy face while you are her? You are going to make all the customers sick!” Maria said.

“I guess I have to get back to work” Liz said.

“Go out with me tonight.” Max said.

“Is that a demand or a request?” Liz joked.

“Both. I’ll pick you up at seven.” Before he left he kissed her one more time leaving a happy Liz and groaning Maria.

***

“Maria! I don’t know what to wear!” Liz whined. “This our first date and I have nothing to wear!”

“Liz that is because you only own baggy shirts and baggy pants.” Maria stated while looking through Liz’s closet.

Next thing you know Isabel comes marching through the room with a shopping bag in her hand. “Liz all your problems are solved. Max told me all about your date tonight and I knew for a fact that you had nothing to wear.”

“And how did you know that?”
“Liz you are forgetting that I go through everyone’s closets. I know what you do and don’t have.”

“So what’s in the bag?” Maria asked.

Isabel pulled out a black spaghetti strap dress and black shoes to match. “No need to thank me” Isabel said.

Liz put on the dress and shoes, then Maria and Isabel proceeded to do her hair and make up. Max picked Liz up right on time. They were both so nervous.

(doorbell rings)

“Hey Max!” Maria said when she opened the door. “Before I let you and Liz go on this date there are some rules. Since you are friends with Michael he may have put some kind of influence on you.”

“Maria?” Max said.

“No talking until I finish lecturing you, K?”

“Okay”

“Didn’t I tell you not to talk? Anyways, you will pay for everything tonight. It was your idea so you pay. Michael tries to get away without paying all the time. Pull out her chair at dinner, be a gentlemen, just don’t be like Michael!”

“Yes Maria”

“I guess I can go get Liz now. By the way…If you break her heart, I’ll hunt you down and kill you. Have a nice night.”

Liz walked into the room and Max’s mouth dropped. If you didn’t know already Liz never wears dresses.

“You look amazing”

“Thank you.”

Holding out his arm “You ready to go”

“anywhere with you.”

***

Max took Liz to Senor Chow’s and they were having a great time eating and playing pool.

“So Max?”

“Yeah?”

“If you don’t mind me asking, why did you and Tess start going out?”

“Well I guess because when I moved here I always wanted you but I never thought I could have you. I also liked Tess so I went for it because if I lost her I wouldn’t be so sad about it but if I lost your friendship I wouldn’t know what to do. You see if I couldn’t have you romantically I would rather have second best than nothing at all.” Max confessed. Before Max could continue Liz leaned and kissed him.
“You will never be second best.” Liz said as she continued to kiss him. The kiss turned more and more passionate until an elderly cleared their throats behind them. Liz and Max pulled apart and blushed. A song came on and Max asked Liz to dance.

Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide
Voices trapped in yearning; memories trapped in time
The night is my companion and solitude my guide
Would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?

(During the song Max eyes never left Liz’s. They looked like a couple who have been together forever. They communicated with their eyes and shared brief kisses every few minutes.)

And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes, dear

Through this world I've stumbled so many times betrayed
Trying to find an honest word; to find the truth enslaved
Oh, you speak to me in riddles and you speak to me in rhymes
My body aches to breathe your breath; your words keep me alive

And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes, dear

Into this night I wander. It's morning that I dread
Another day of knowing the path I fear to tread
Oh, into the sea of waking dreams I follow without pride
'Cause nothing stands between us here and I won't be denied

And I would be the one
To hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes

After the song everyone in the restaurant was clapping. Liz turned red in embarrassment. Max had different plans. He dipped Liz back and kissed her.

“I couldn’t help myself. You look so cute when you blush.” Max said earning a smile from Liz.”

***

Who would of thought kissing Max would be so natural and exciting. All I know is that we should have kissed a long time ago. He takes me to a different world when he kisses me. It’s just me and Max. Two peas in a pod. I know it’s too soon to say this but I know for a fact that I am head over heals in love with Max and I feel great!! I can finally say that he is mine!
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I know this part was still a little short but at least it’s a new part! I won’t be updating for another week. I’m going out of town but I thought I would post this part. I used Sarah McLachlan’s “Possession”.
Hoped you like? Thanx for the feedback!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*bounce**bounce**bounce*
posted on 3-Jul-2002 1:23:45 AM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: I just wanted to remind everyone that I will be gone for a week. I'm going on vacation to Nebraska. I don't think I'll be doing any posting but who knows. Thanks for the feedback and I'll be back soon. Take Care Everyone!!!!

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posted on 11-Jul-2002 2:27:45 AM by Loralee0607
Hey I'm back!!!!!!!! Thanks for the feedback. The next part should be out soon. Tomorrow, today, who knows. I'm also starting a new story and I should have the prologue out soon.

Loralee

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posted on 11-Jul-2002 1:53:16 PM by Loralee0607
Hey Everybody!! I’m back!!! Here’s the next part! Thanks so much for the feedback!!!!!!!

Part 10

Okay, Okay, I know what you’re thinking. Everything between me and Max is perfect. Right? Wrong! It’s like one minute it’s all about and the next nothing. He’s so confusing. A lot has happened since our first date and I guess I should start with the Monday after our date. Maybe then you’ll understand.

***

(Monday morning before school. Max’s locker)

I entered the school immediately spotting Max at his locker with his friends all around. “Hey Max,” I said. Max didn’t reply so I tried again. “Max?” One of Max’s fiends turns to me and I’m not sure who it is but I think his name is Paulie.

“don’t you think there is a reason he’s not answering you?”

“I don’t I=understand. Max what is going on?” I said very confused. Max finally turns to me and does something that I never expected him to do.

“Liz maybe you should leave.” Max said. He’s telling me to go away and I don’t understand why. I know for a fact I didn’t do anything. At least I don’t think I did. Instead of staying I turned around without looking back. His friends couldn’t help but snicker behind my back. All I wanted to do was cry. What is wrong with Max? What changed? I’m so confused.

After third period I was walking to the quad to eat lunch with Maria and try to make some sense of what was going on with Max. Next thing I know I’m being pulled into the eraser room and a hand goes over my mouth to keep me from screaming. I turn to see who my attacker was and it’s Max. “What do you want? If I remember correctly you told me to leave.” I said coldly.

“Liz please listen to me.”

“No. I don’t know what going on with you but I not giving you another chance just so you can tell me to leave.”

“Liz just listen for one minute. Please?” Max begged.

“You have 60 seconds starting now.”

“My friends found out that we starting seeing each other and they kept getting on my case about it. They were saying things that I’ll never ever repeat to you. I couldn’t take anymore so I said that it was just a one time thing and that it meant nothing. I said you weren’t worth anyone’s time. I didn’t mean it Liz but the things they were saying and suggesting were enough to make me want to rip their heads off. I was trying to protect you. I’m so sorry.”

“SO what you are saying is that you were defending my honor by embarrassing me? What is that? It didn’t help.”

“Liz please I didn’t mean it. If I could take those things back I would.”

“It’s too late for that.” I said while walking out of the room.

***

Things went like that for a while. I pretty much ignored Max for about tow weeks until he did the most amazing thing. You see me and Maria were at lunch just hanging out talking about anything except for Max. Over the intercom I hear Max’s voice come out.

“This is for Liz and I’m sorry.”

Max’s voice comes through again and I can’t help but melt.

There's always something
In the way
There's always something
Getting through
But it's not me
it's You

Sometimes ignorance
Rings true
But hope is not in
What I know
Not in me
It's in You
It's in You

It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know

And I find peace
When I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
Not in me
But in You
It's in You

I hope to lose myself
For good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me
In You
In You

It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know
In You
In You
It’s in You
In You

There's always something
In the way
There's always something
Getting through
But it's not me
it's You
It’s You
It’s You
It’s you

It’s all I know

It’s you

After he finished he came out to the quad and all I could do was walk over to him and kiss him senseless. Everyone was cheering and whistling but I could care less.

“I’m so sorry Liz.”

“I know” I said and kissed him again.

***

I know what you are thinking. I caved too easily. But who wouldn’t. Max Evans wrote that song for me. Me. He risked his rep at school to make things up to me. We seemed to get pass our first obstacle as a couple but who knows what happens next but I all I can say is as long as I’m with Max…Who Cares!

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I know this part is a little short. I’ll be out with the next part soon!! Thanks again for the feedback!!! The song is “You” by Switchfoot. Hoped you like!!!!!!!!

posted on 12-Jul-2002 4:22:31 PM by Loralee0607
Part 11

Let just say things are not always what they seem. I mean who would of thought Max Evans wanted me, Liz Parker? He could have any girl he wanted but he chose me. True I’m not like any other girl. I don’t wear dresses, makeup, high heels, or matching underwear and bras. For instance, I am wearing a pair of khaki cargo pants, a tank top, vans, a blue bra, and purple panties. Who would of thought. Maria always gets on my case about that. It’s not like anyone is ever going to see them. Who cares if they match or not. They serve their purpose. If doesn’t like than I suppose they shouldn’t look. Right?

***

(Crashdown)

“I swear Liz, Michael is digging himself in his own grave.” Maria said.

“What did he do now?”

“Well he totally forgot our date Friday night and when I called him on it all he said was ‘there was a game on’. What kind of shit is that?”

“Sounds like Michael.” Liz said while filling drinks for the jocks at the last booth.

“Of course it’s just like Michael he’s so freaking predictable.” Maria went on only to find Liz serving her tables. “great she’s ignoring me now.”

“So what can I get for you guys?” Liz asked the jocks that consisted of mostly Max’s friends.

“Lets see maybe I would like to try……you.” Paulie said to Liz.

“I’m sorry but I’m not on the menu.” Liz retorted.

“Gee..that’s too bad because I know you’re giving it up for Max. Why not me?”

“Well let’s see. I don’t like you. I think you have a stupid hair cut. You look like you haven’t washed your hair in a couple of months and I just plain hate you. Does the answer your question?” Before Paulie could answer Max came over to Liz and pulled her away.”

“You’ll get what’s coming to you Parker. Just wait and see.”

***

In the back room Max and Liz were greeting each other. Kiss..” So how was your day?” kiss “good..you?” kiss “much better now”. Kissing and some more kissing later they finally pulled apart.

“Was Paulie bothering you?” Max asked.

“Nah.. He was just being his usual jack ass self. No need to worry.”

“Are you going to Michael’s tonight?”

“Of course.”

“I’ll see you then. I have to get back to work now.” Max gently kissed Liz good bye before turning around and heading to the UFO center.

***

“We’re watching Braveheart and that’s it” Michael stated.

“Michael we watched Braveheart every single movie night. Must we watch it again?” Isabel complained.

“It’s tradition.” Michael defended.

Alex steps into the conversation. “Alright this is how we are going to do it. The girls will pick the first movie and then we’ll watch Braveheart. Okay?”

“Okay” Michael says.

“Girls what will it be?”

“A walk to remember,” Maria, Liz, Is, and Tess said in unison. The guys just groaned.

“Look what you got us into Alex,” Kyle said.

They started watching the movie with Liz on Max’s lap, Maria and Michael fighting over the recliner, Alex and Isabel on the sofa, and Tess and Kyle on the loveseat. By the end of the movie all the girls were sobbing and you can also catch a tear or two in the guy’s eyes. They tried to wipe them away before the girls caught them.

“Max are you crying?” Liz asked with a teasing smile.

“No..it’s just..um…allergies, yep that’s it allergies.” Max lied but Liz knew better.

“Aw max you don’t have to deny it. I’ll still love you.” Liz said not realizing what she really said.

“What did you just say?” Max questioned. At this point the rest of them left the room after Liz’s little confession.

“That you shouldn’t deny it?”

“No after that,” Max said.

Realization hit Liz and she almost panic until she saw Max’s eyes and there was hope in them.

“I Love you,” Liz said quietly. Max didn’t waste a second. He cupped her face and kissed her until they were both gasping for air.

“I love you too,” Max said. They kissed again and again. Max licked Liz lips asking for entrance and she granted it. They were probably making out for long time until Michael interrupted them saying he wanted to watch Braveheart.

***

He loves me. Max not only wants me but he loves me. I never would have believed it. I’ve never been so glad to go to Michael’s house. Max drove me home that night and I didn’t want him to go. I wanted to hold on to him with all my might but my Dad had different plans. It’s funny how things work. Maybe now I should get matching bra and panties because you never know what might happen.

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I know this part wasn’t great but I have writer’s block yet again. Thanks for the feedback!!! Read my new story ‘It All Comes Down to You’. Take Care!!!

posted on 13-Jul-2002 11:01:30 PM by Loralee0607
Author's Note: Hey everybody!! Thanks for all the feedback!!! I just wanted to let you know that I will be updating as soon as I feel better. I have the flu and don't have much energy to think. Thanks again for the feedback!!!!!

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posted on 14-Jul-2002 7:22:30 PM by Loralee0607
Part 12

Have you ever thought about all the teen romance movies. If you think about it, some of them are so corny. Like the little person would actually get to date the most popular guy or girl in school. Things just don’t happen like that but you can’t help getting into the movie because you want them to be together. I can name of all of movies that end where the popular kid is in love with the not so popular one. That’s why I’m glad that Max and I are on the same popularity level. We’re not the most popular but we are well known. If life was only like a teen movie.

***

Maria, Isabel, Tess, and I are shopping at the local mall for new outfits for our next gig. Maria decides to bring up Prom. Why she does this who knows. You see when we started high school we all decided to boycott prom. We thought it was such a high school thing to do. Stereotypical.

“So I was thinking that maybe Michael and I should go to Prom,” Maria told us.

“Really? Kyle and I are going!” Tess said excitedly.

“Alex and I are going too,” Isabel confessed. At this point I couldn’t believe my ears.

“Hello? I thought we all agreed that we weren’t going.” I mentioned

“Liz that was three years ago and besides don’t you want to see Max all dressed up just for you?” Maria said.

“I don’t know if he wants to go. He was the one who decided not to got to Prom,” I explained.

“You’ll never know unless you ask,” Isabel told me.
“Tell you what, how about we shop for dresses and if you find the one you like, buy it, and if you decide you don’t want to go then you can take it back,” Tess reasoned with me.

“Alright,” I agreed. They all starting shrieking and giggling and I couldn’t help but join in with them. Maybe Max will go.

***

After going through the whole mall I did find the perfect dress. When I got home I went straight down stairs to meet Max. He was sitting by himself looking all kinds of sexy that I couldn’t help but lick my lips. I sauntered over to him and sat myself in his lap. He look surprised and pleased.

“Hey you,” I said.

“Hey,” Max said. Not so charming of course but he was still recovering from my boldness. I wanted to get him worked up so I leaned I to give him a kiss but instead I started kissing his neck and then moving up to his ear. I could hear him groan when I sucked his ear lobe into my mouth. I could feel is arousal and I knew at this point was a good time to mention Prom.

“Max?” I said still kissing his neck and leaving my mark.

“Umm” was all he said.

“You know that Prom is coming up and I was wondering if we could go, you know, together?” Max suddenly tense up and pulled away.

“Liz you know I don’t want to go. Remember our agreement?”

“Max that was three years ago! That was before we even started dating and it’s are senior year!” I argued.

“Liz I don’t want to go and I already have plans”

“What plans?” I questioned feeling a little hurt.

“I’m going to a concert in Albuquerque with some friends,” Max explained to me.

By now I was so angry that I got off his lap. “You mean that not only you don’t want to go to Prom but you were not going to do anything with me that night?”

“Liz I already made the arrangements.”

“So I’m suppose to stay at home while all my friends at Prom and you are with your friends.”

“It’s just one night”

“You know what Max, if you don’t want to go to Prom that’s fine but don’t expect me to sit at home,” I said.

“what do you mean?” Max questioned.

“I mean that I’ll just find someone who will go with me”

“WHAT!” Max yelled making everyone look at us.

“You heard me,” I said while getting up and making my way to the backroom and up the stairs. I can’t believe he was going to ditch me that night. I entered my room and couldn’t believe my eye. I turned around and practically running down the stairs hoping Max was still there. When I got back down Max was just about to leave but I grabbed his arm and pulled towards the backroom. Max took one look at my face and he started worrying.

“Liz what’s wrong? What happened?” Max questioned while gently stroking my face. I couldn’t keep the tears in any longer and Max pulled me to his body and held me while I cried. “Liz please tell me what happened?” I couldn’t form the words to tell him what happened so I pulled him towards my room. All I could say was “look”.

Max walked in my room and he saw exactly what I saw. My balcony window was shattered, my clothes were everywhere, and pictures were torn in two. On my wall someone wrote in what looked like blood ‘I’ll have you soon Liz’. I had one picture of me and Max and Max was completely ripped off with red paint all over it. Needless to say I was scared shitless and Max went immediately into his over-protectiveness. He pulled me out of the room and just held me to make sure nothing would happen to me.

***

All I could think of is who would do this to my Liz. She is the sweetest person I know and I could never imagine someone hurting her. All I can say is when I find this sick fuck there will be hell to pay. I’m never letting Liz out of my sight. All do anything for her. I would kill for her. It just makes me feel guilty that we fought earlier. I will take her to Prom because I can’t leave her alone.

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I know this part isn’t great but I tried!!! Thanks for the feedback!!! Hope you liked!!


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posted on 17-Jul-2002 4:36:05 PM by Loralee0607
Hey Everybody!!!! THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE FEEDBACK!!!!!!!!!! I have Part 13 almost done!!! Thanks again!!!!!!!

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posted on 17-Jul-2002 11:12:51 PM by Loralee0607
Part 13

Of course she ran to Max. Things were going so perfectly. They were arguing and the next thing I know she was back in his arms. She’s suppose to be in my arms! It’s disgusting and it needs to stop. I want Liz and I always get what I want. Max better watch out if he knows what’s good for him. Sorry for scarring you Liz but desperate times call for desperate measures.

***

Liz and Max called the police and had them check out Liz’s room. They found five sets of fingerprints. Three of them were from Liz, Max, and Liz’s mom. Two were unknown. Liz’s parents were away at a convention so she was alone for the night.

“Miss Parker I think it is best that you stay at a friends house for a couple of days until your parents return home.” Sheriff Valenti said who happened to Kyle’s father.

“Okay” Liz answered weakly, still a little bit freaked.

“We’ll find out who’s fingerprints they are as soon as possible. Take care and be careful,” Valenti said while exiting the house. Liz turned to Max.

“Who would do this?” Liz asked desperately.

“I don’t’ know Liz. But I promise you that I won’t let anything happen to you.” Max promised.

Liz embraced Max and rested hr head on his chest “I know” Max kissed her on the top of her head.

“Come on. You’re staying with me and Is tonight.”

“I don’t want to bother your parents”

“Don’t worry. They are in Clovis working on a case” Liz just nodded her head following Max out of the room.

***

When they got to his house Max had to explain everything to Isabel and Alex who they caught making out on the couch. Max took Liz to his room.

“Liz you can stay in the guest room if you like?” Max said.

“I don’t want to be by myself. Will you sleep with me? I mean just sleep?” Liz said while blushing thinking about sleeping with Max.

“Anything for you,” Max said while smiling.

Liz crawled into bed in her pajamas with Max following after in only his boxers. Liz couldn’t help but stare at Max’s chiseled body. They got situated with Liz’s head on Max’s chest and his arm around her. They fell asleep instantly.

***

Why me? Why is everything always happening to me? I know this sounds a little self-centered but come on! Can I not go one week without something terrible happening. What’s next? Max has been great through this all. He never left me out of his sight. His arms around is what calmed me down. But I can’t help but still be mad at him. Just a few minutes earlier we were arguing. I don’t want to be mad at him but he hurt me and that’s not easily forgiven. I’m still planning on taking someone else to Prom. Max doesn’t have to go if he doesn’t want to but I’m not missing out. I just don’t want to fight anymore. I just want to be with him and what whoever destroyed my room to get what they deserved. I know for a fact Max wants to be the one to give to them. No pun intended.

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Thanks for all the feedback!!! I love it!!!!! I know this part is short but what I plan on writing later needs to be all in the same part. Hope you like!!!!!

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posted on 21-Jul-2002 10:34:07 PM by Loralee0607
AN: Hey guys!!!!! I'll try to post tomorrow!! Thanks for the feedback!!!

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posted on 26-Jul-2002 12:13:34 AM by Loralee0607
Hey Everyone!!! I'm writing part 14 right now. It should be out later tonight or tomorrow morning. Thanks for all the feedback!!!!!!!!!

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posted on 26-Jul-2002 1:28:37 AM by Loralee0607
The long awaited....

Part 14

Remember when I said I wanted to kill the guy that threatened Liz? I’ve changed my mind. I want to see him rot in jail for all eternity. Killing him would just be letting him off easy. I wouldn’t give him the satisfaction. I have had all the guys keeping a constant watch on Liz when I can’t be around. I just want her to be safe.

***

“Hey Liz!”

“Oh, hey Paulie.” Liz said to the guy waiting by her locker. “how’s it going?”

“Pretty good. You?”

“Peachy keen” Liz said sarcastically not really wanting to make small talk with him.

“I have a favor to ask of you Liz.” Paulie said.

“What is it Paulie?” Liz asked just wanting to go see Max now.

“I have a paper to right for history and I was wondering if you could help me tonight? Please?”

“I guess so. What time?”

“Meet me at the library at 7:30?” Paulie said.

“Alright see you then. Bye!” Liz said walking away now totally anxious to get away from him. Something about him seem so off. Liz found Max and rushed straight into his arms needing to be with him at all times.

“Hey what’s wrong?” Max asked rubbing Liz’s arms trying to comfort her.

“Nothing. I just want to be near you.”

“Well I can’t complain. I’m completely liking this closeness.” Max joked.

“Do we have to go to class? I just want to be with you.” Liz whined not feeling like facing all the students because by now everyone heard about what happened to her room.

“Even though it sounds so very tempting I can’t. I have a test and if I don’t pass it well lets not think about that.” Liz just stood there giving him her best puppy face look. “It’ll be okay. I promise. We will get together tonight.”

“I can’t. I promised Paulie I would help him with a history paper” Liz said even more depressed.

“well then I guess we’ll have to make time at lunch.” Max smirked and leaned down to kiss her full on the lips. The bell rung and they both went their separate ways not wanting to part.

***

That night Liz was on her way to go to meet Paulie when her phone rang. She chose to ignore because she didn’t want to be late and she wanted to get this night over with. She arrived at the library five minutes early. She started walking towards the library when she heard something behind here. She turned around and no one was there. She turned back and she nearly shit her pants. Standing in front of her was……………………………….............................

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Find out next time!!!



posted on 26-Jul-2002 1:29:48 AM by Loralee0607
Part 14 con.

JUST KIDDING!!!!!!!!!

(WARNING THIS NEXT PART IS RATED R FOR RAPE, LANGUAGE, AND SEXUAL CONTENT)

Standing in front of her was Sean Deluca. “What do you want Sean?” Liz asked highly annoyed at him for scaring the shit out of her.

“Whoa! Calm down. I saw you pull up and came to bother you. Noting serious.”

“Sean why are you at the library anyway?”

“Can’t a guy come here to learn?”

Liz smirked. “Not you.”

“Way harsh Parker! I’m here because some hot chick is tutoring me in history.”

“So you are working on your history paper too?”

“What paper?” Sean asked confused.

“Don’t you have history with Paulie?” Liz questioned feeling a little uneasy.

“What’s that have to do with anything?”

“I’m here to help Paulie with a history paper.”

“I don’t know what paper he’s talking about but my guess he’s just trying to get in your pants. Later Parker!” Sean said entering the Library. Liz was now completely confused. She didn’t to think about it before someone hit her on the back of the head knocking her out.

***

(On Liz’s answering machine)

“Miss Parker this Sheriff Valenti. We have the results from the fingerprints. One is from Sean Deluca and the other is Paulie Johnson. We checked Deluca out and he’s cleared but we can’t find Mr. Johnson. Be on the lookout. I’ll contact Mr. Evans. I think Paulie is our guy.” BEEP

***

Liz woke up in a strange room and with a killer headache. “What the hell?”

“Hello Liz” Liz looked up to see Paulie standing over her.

“What the fuck did you do to me!” Liz said a little angry and a whole lot of scared.

“I see you’re going to play hard to get. No bother, I will have you. Not Evans.”

“It was you! You trashed my room!!” Liz yelled.

“well I had to think of a way to get to you. It seemed perfect.” PAulie said with a evil grin. He started to come closer to Liz and she tried to back away when she realized her feet were tied together. He came closer until he pressed his body into hers. Liz could feel his reaction and she felt like she was going to puke. He start to rub himself on her and she tried to push him away but couldn’t. He had her hands pinned down. He started to kiss her lips hard until he bruised them. Liz started to cry. “This will be so good for us Liz.” Paulie said while ripping off her shirt and bra and his own. He started to knead her breast and tweak her nipples. She was screaming for him to stop. By now he managed to lose his pants and boxers. He was taking off her the rest of her clothes when he was suddenly ripped away. Liz passed out soon after from the emotional stress of it all.

***

Sheriff Valenti barged into a abandoned warehouse with Max trailing right after him. They heard Liz’s screams and rushed to find her. Max was the first to spot a naked Paulie on top of half naked Liz. He rushed to pull Paulie off Liz, threw him to the ground and punched him and punched him until his hands were bleeding. “You sick fuck!” Max yelled wanting to hit him again but the Sheriff held him back. Max turned his attention back to Liz and cradle her in his arms.

***

I should of figured it would be a sick fuck like Paulie. I guess you want to know what happened. After we found them in the warehouse and I beat the shit out of Paulie, they took him down to the station and he was charged with attempted rape. He went to juvenile hall since he still is a minor. He’s not allow to attend West Roswell high again. Liz was okay physically but mentally she was a wreck. Her parents pressed charges and she gets to take off a week of school. She cries all the time and I feel horrible because I should have been there. She doesn’t blame me in fact she won’t let me leave her side. Which is fine by me. She’ll be okay someday but she still needs to heal. She’s taking it surprisingly well. She has always been so strong. I love her……………….Oh by the way. About Sean’s fingerprints being found you’ll never believe his story. He sneaks into Liz’s room to get off. He smells her underwear and everything. It looks like I have to keep my eye on him too. He’s virtually harmless just a little horny. Oh well.

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What did you think? Did it suck? Thanks for all the feedback (especially NewYorker18). I will have the next part be a little more lighthearted so we can move on from the drama. Hope you liked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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posted on 29-Jul-2002 1:57:07 AM by Loralee0607
*AUTHOR'S NOTE* Hey Everyone!! I don't know when I'm going to be able to post next. I just started a new job and I'm working crazy hours. I'll try to update soon! Thanx for the Feedback!

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posted on 9-Aug-2002 12:51:43 AM by Loralee0607
Part 15 (Rated R for language)

It’s amazing how one person can ruin your whole life. It only takes one. I can’t even say his name. Every time I think about that night I want to hurl. I usually end up crying all night. I have come to some important decisions this last week and I’m ready to move on………by myself.

***

“So has anyone seen Liz yet?” Maria asked while hanging in front of the school with Alex, Isabel, and Michael.

“Nope. Every time I called her mom would say she was resting and should not be bothered.” Alex mentioned.

“I know what you mean. They wouldn’t let me go up there to see her and her best friend.” Maria whined.

“It’s not just you guys. Max has been trying and he can’t get through either. He even tried her window but it was locked and there were curtains on them.” Isabel said.

“That’s strange. Liz never had curtains on the balcony window.” Maria said.

“She’s probably trying to recover from the stress and wants to be alone.” Michael put in.

“Obviously you don’t know Liz like I do. She wouldn’t lock herself away.” Maria protested.

“Look” Alex said. They all turned to see Liz get out of Max’s jeep and just walk away. She passed right by them and didn’t say a thing. She acted like she didn’t know who they were. They all turned to Max and it looks like he hasn’t slept in days.

“What’s going on Maxwell?” Michael asked.

“I don’t know. She wouldn’t say I word to me.” Max said looking defeated.

“It will be okay.” Alex said trying to be of some comfort.

***

Maria POV

I don’t know what’s up Liz Parker’s ass but she better take it out soon! You want to know what she did? She changed all her classes! We had three classes together and now we have none! She doesn’t have classes with anyone except Max and she won’t talk to him. She partners with Pam Troy in bio! PAM FUCKING TROY!! She hates that girl! Liz needs an major attitude adjustment! She is suppose to be my best friend and all she does is ignore me! I’m going to find out what’s wrong even if it’s the last thing I do!

***

Alex was at his locker waiting for Isabel when he spotted Liz. “Liz!” He called out. She has been ignoring everyone and he’s worried. She barely acknowledges his presence. “So Liz we have practice tonight. Are you going to be there?”

Liz turns to Alex. “No. I quit the band. Sorry” Liz says while walking away. Alex just stands there in shock.

“What’s wrong?” Isabel asks.

“Liz just quit the band.” Alex replies still a little weirded out. Liz loved being in the band.

“Why?”

“I’ll tell you why she has been doing this whole supreme bitch thing all day.” Maria says joining them. “She changed all her classes. She’s ignoring Max and he’s like the love of her life.”

“What’s her deal?” Iz asks.

“My guess this her way of dealing.” Michael says joining into the conversation.

“And how the hell would you know that?” Maria questions. Michael just shrugs.

***

Liz gets home from school in a rush. Little did she know that avoiding everyone would take so much work. She changed all her classes. She has a class with Max but she won’t talk to him. She can’t. She won’t bring them down with her. She needs to by herself. Nothing can happen by herself. She won’t get hurt again. She’s damaged.

***

Liz ignored everyone for weeks. Maria and Alex were mad and hurt. Isabel, Michael, Tess, and Kyle were confused. Max was crushed, devastated. He spent every night outside her balcony. He wanted so badly to just talk to her. It has been five weeks and Max is once again outside her window.

“Liz please talk to me. I know you’re in there.” Max says while knocking on the window. Liz opens the window.

“Max go away. We’re not together anymore. Leave me alone.” Liz states.

“No. You need to tell me why!”

“I just don’t click with you guys anymore. I don’t need you guys and you all should just leave me alone.”

“You know that’s bullshit!” Max said getting angry.

“Max go away!”

“NO! You can’t pretend that nothings happened! I love you Liz! I won’t stop just because you tell me to! And you know what? You love me too!”

“Shut up! You don’t know what you are talking about.” Liz said trying not to cry.

“Yes I do. You can’t keep everyone out! Look me in the eye and tell me you don’t love me.” Max said.

“I..I..don’t…Max just go away.” Liz pleaded.

“Tell me Liz”

“I love you alright! But I can’t be with you.” Liz said now crying.

“Why?”

“I’m no good.” Liz was crying so hard by now that Max had crawled through the window and held her.

“It will be okay Liz. I won’t let anything happen to you.” Max said.

“You promise?” Liz said looking into his eyes.

“I promise.” Max leaned down and took her lips showing her that he meant it.

“I’m sorry” Liz said.

“I know” Max replied. He laid them down on the bed and he just held her. “Hey Liz?”

“Yeah?”

“Please tell me you’ll stop hanging out with Pam?”

Liz laughed “I’ll stop”

“Good”

I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
searching for a face
is there anybody here I know
cause nothings going right
and everything a mess
and no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you oh

why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you I'm with you
Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...

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I hoped you liked!! Sorry it took so long. Thanks for all the feedback! The song is "I'm With You" by Avril Lavigne.

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posted on 19-Aug-2002 1:03:47 AM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hey everyone!! Thanks so much for the feedback! I'll try to post more soon!!! Maybe by MOnday or Tuesday!!! Thanks again!!

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posted on 19-Aug-2002 1:30:56 AM by Loralee0607
Part 16

So Prom is coming up and I don’t have a date. Can you believe that? Max has been acting so weird lately. I think he is trying to avoid me so I won’t ask about Prom. One way or another Max Evans will be my prom date whether he likes it or not!

***

“Oh Max” Liz said spotting Max sitting underneath their favorite tree at school.

“What do you want now?” Max asked jokingly.

“Well you know that Pr…..” before Liz could finish Max jumped and said he had to go. He quickly kissed her goodbye and left. Liz just stood there defeated.

“What’s wrong now?” Alex asked as he came to sit by Liz.

“Max is avoiding me”

“Really?” Alex said trying to be surprised.

“Alex? What do you know?” Liz asked.

“Gotta go Liz” He said while running away. Liz was looking around when she spotted Maria and Michael. Michael caught her glance and pulled Maria away.

“What the hell is going on?”

***

Liz was sitting in her math class when someone came in with a white rose. He said something to the teacher and walked away. “Liz Parker?” Liz looked up and saw the teacher handing her a flower. “This is for you” Liz looked at the flower and saw there was a card attached.

(I have a question for you……….Elizabeth Ann Parker………) That was all the note said. Liz was so confused. Through out the day she got the same flowers with notes attached. Max was not happy when one of the flowers arrived. Jealous are we Max? The notes went as follows:

(Elizabeth Ann Parker will you make………..)
(Elizabeth Ann Parker will you make me the happiest………)
(Elizabeth Ann Parker will you make me the happiest man on earth by going with me……….)
(Elizabeth Ann Parker will you make me the happiest man on earth by going with me to the Prom?)

There was no name. It was very odd and exciting at the same time. Max hasn’t even shown his face. He must be mad about the flowers still. Liz got home later that afternoon and walked into her room but she could barely fit. There was mountains and mountains of balloons everywhere. She found note that said (To find out who I am pop all the balloons. Liz did just that. When she popped the last balloon there was nobody except an arrow pointing to her balcony. She crawled through her window and saw dozens of white roses and Max!!!!!!! Max walked up to her. “Liz Parker will you go to the Prom with me?” Liz threw herself in his arms and kissed the daylights out of him. “I take that as a yes?”

“Yes!” Liz screamed and kissed him again. “I love you” She said looking up into his eyes.

“I love you too”

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Hey guys! I know this part is short but I wanted to update. There’s only a couple more parts left of this fic. If you want more I need more feedback. Thanks for the feedback I have received!!!

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posted on 26-Aug-2002 9:52:35 PM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hey everyone!! How's it going? I'm just letting you guys know that I'll try to post soon. I just started college today and I'm going to be busy. Thanks for the feedback!!!

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posted on 11-Sep-2002 9:08:00 PM by Loralee0607
Hey everyone!! I promise I will try to update this weekend. I have a few ideas for this story that I'm going to try. If you want more, I need feedback!!!!*happy*
posted on 17-Sep-2002 10:01:45 PM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Guess What!!!!!!!! I'm actually going to update. Expect it tomorrow night. I'm almost finished writing it! Thanks for the feedback but I need more!!

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posted on 19-Sep-2002 12:25:15 AM by Loralee0607
Part 17

You know I love Alex but sometimes I wonder what the hell goes through his head. You want to know what he did this time? He decided that our next gig should be at prom and he booked it! Isabel was pissed! She kept ranting about not having anyone to dance with. I don’t blame her. I wanted some Max down time but whatever. Maria was surprisingly okay with it. Something must be up but you know Maria. I think Michael is relieved until Alex mentions that we will be playing for only half of it. Isabel seemed to be okay with that. My only question is how do I play guitar in my long dress. I’m lucky I can move at all. Isabel just tells me not to worry. But I can’t help it. I’m worry prone.

***

Okay so here’s Prom. Time just flew by. Sitting here getting ready has got me thinking. Why is prom such a big deal anyway? I mean us girls spend hundreds of dollars and hours for just one night. One Night!! We buy a dress that we wear once. We get hair done only for it to go flat an hour later. I don’t get it. Isabel is going to be here soon with my newly designed prom dress. We all needed some thing we could move in since Alex so stupidly said we would play at prom. Remind to hit me.

***

Prom. Prom. Prom. Prom. It’s here. It’s here. Michael better not forget the corsage. I’ll kill him! He better tell me I look beautiful. I hope he does his hair. He better not be late! Isabel hurry up!! Spaceboy is going to drop dead when he sees me!

***

Dresses? Check. Tuxes? Check. Shoes? Check. Limo? Check. Dinner Reservations? Canceled because Maria and Michael will be late. Corsages? OH MY GOD! The corsages, I FORGOT THE CORSAGES! MAX! He better be done in the bathroom. He’ll pick them up. I have to get Liz’s dress to her house. They’ll love them. I can’t believe he booked them for Prom. He is so going to get it.

***

Breath Assure? Check. Cologne? Check. Wow this is easy. I’m glad Isabel decided to plan everything. Money? Check. Of course she wouldn’t let me out of paying. The play list! Where’s the play list. Pocket. It’s in my pocket. Better tune up my guitar.

***

Come ON! COME ON! RUN! FASTER! FASTER YOU IDIOT! THAT WAS SO WRONG! HE WAS SAFE! OPEN YOUR EYES UMP! Idiot! Shit! I have to get ready! Maria will kill me if I’m late! Shit I’m so whipped! Don’t mention one word of this.

***

Isabel, the Prom Nazi, is driving me crazy! I picked up the corsages and every other little thing she wanted. I can’t wait to see Liz but this whole Prom thing is ridiculous. Liz is lucky I love her. At least our tickets are free since we are playing. I can’t believe they want us to be a cover band. Why not our own stuff? I can’t wait to see Liz. She is going to be so beautiful. Iz won’t let me see her dress. Almost time.

***

“Liz! Max is here!” Nancy Parker yelled. Max was waiting patiently with the rest of the group for Liz to come out. Nancy of course was snapping pictures of everyone. Michael was ready to break the camera. “You guys look great” Liz walked out of her room and Max’s mouth dropped down to the ground. Liz came out wearing a red halter top dress that flared out down to her knees. She had red heels that matched perfectly. Her was down and curled loosely with red glitter sprinkled in it. Maria and Isabel were wearing similar dresses but the were blue and green. The boys matched the girls wearing black pants and jackets and their shirt matching their dates dress.

“You look…wow…..look gorgeous” Max stuttered.

“You don’t look too bad yourself” All Max wanted to do was ravish her but he couldn’t do that in front of her parents.

“All right kids! Picture time” Nancy said. They all groaned but smiled and laughed for about a trillion pictures.

“Have fun you guys and be safe” Jeff said giving all the guys a stern look not to mess with the girls. They exited the Crashdown and headed out to the Limo. Everyone got in except for Max and Liz. Max leaned down and gave Liz the most passionate kiss ever.

“What was that for?” Liz asked a little breathless.

“For just being you” He kissed her again.

“Come on you two! We’re going to be late. You can make out later!” Michael screamed out. They got in and headed to the prom.

***

They arrived at the Prom and started to set up. Isabel was taking requests from people so she can feel like part of the band.

“How you guys doing tonight?” Alex said over the mic. Everyone screamed.

“We are Spiral and we are taking your requests. Isabel will you do the honors and give us our first request” Maria said.

“First request is ‘My Everything’ by 98 degrees”

The loneliness of nights alone
the search for strength to carry on
my every hope has seemed to die
my eyes had no more tears to cry
then like the sun shining up above
you surrounded me with your endless love
Coz all the things I couldn't see
are now so clear to me

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams
are suddenly reality
you've opened up my heart
to feel a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that'll never fade
there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
for the love you give
it won't let go
I hope you'll always know

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

You're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete for all time (for all time)

You are my everything (you are my everything)
Nothing your love won't bring (nothing your love won't bring)
My life is yours alone (alone)
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through (your spirit pulls me through)
When nothing else will do (when nothing else will do)
Every night I pray (I pray) On bended knee (on my knee)
That you will always be my everything
You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be My everything

[almost spoken:] Every night I pray down on bended knee that you will always be my everything oh my everything

After a few more boy band songs and Teeny bopper songs they finally started playing their own stuff. Max and Liz made googily at each other the whole night.

“Alright our next song is a new one. I hope you like!” Liz said and she began singing.

I wonder how I ever made it through the day
How did I settle for a world in shades of gray?
When you go in circles all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know how
And I looked into your eyes
With the world stretched out in front of me and I realized
I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived before your love

I wanted more than just an ordinary life
All of my dreams seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before you when my heart was in your hands
And I don't know how
I survived without your kiss
'Cause you've given me a reason to exist

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived
I never lived before your love
I never lived before your love
And I don't know why
Why the sun decides to shine
But you breathed your love into me just in time

I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived
I never lived before your love

Max sang the next song

It seems like every day’s the same
and I’m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there’s no color to behold
They say it’s over and I’m fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
‘cause I can’t seem to get this through
You say it’s over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well

And I’m not scared now.
I must assure you,
you’re never gonna get away
And I’m not scared now.
And I’m not scared now. No…

I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everything’s gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself

They played a few more songs and the were on their last song. Liz wrote so of course she sang it.

Touch my skin, and tell me what you're thinking
Take my hand and show me where we're going
Lie down next to me, look into my eyes and tell me, oh tell me what you're seeing
So sit on top of the world and tell me how you're feeling
what you feel now is what I feel for you
Take my hand and if I'm lying to you
I'll always be alone
if I'm lying to you
See my eyes, they carry your reflection
Watch my lips and hear the words I'm telling you
Give your trust to me and look into my heart and show me, show me what you're doing
So sit on top of the world and tell me how you're feeling
what you feel now is what I feel for you

Take my hand and if I'm lying to you
I'll always be alone
if I'm lying to you
Take your time, if I'm lying to you
I know you'll find that you believe me
you believe me

Feel the sun on your face and tell me what you're thinking
Catch the snow on your tongue and show me how it tastes
Take my hand and if I'm lying to you
I'll always be alone
if I'm lying to you
Take your time, if I'm lying to you
I know you'll find that you believe me
you believe me

Isabel came back on the stage to announce this years Prom King and Queen.

“Your votes made it happen and here it is. Your 2002 Prom king is………………OH MY GOD… Max Evans!!!!! Your Prom Queen is …………..drum roll please Michael………LIZ PARKER!!!!! Congrats Guys!!!! Now it’s time for their dance”


What if I told you
it was all meant to be
would you believe me
would you agree
it's almost that feelin
that we've met before
so tell me that you don’t think I'm crazy
when I tell you love has come here and now


CHORUS
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
for a moment like this
some people search forever
for that one special kiss


Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
some people wait a lifetime
for a moment like this


Verse 2
Everything Changes
but beauty remains
something so tender
I can't explain
well I may be dreaming
but still lie awake
can we make this dream last forever
and I'll cherish all the love we share


REPEAT CHORUS


BRIDGE
could this be the reign of love above
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
so let me tell you this
some people wait a lifetime
for a moment like this


ENDING CHORUS
Some people spend two lifetimes
for a moment like this
some people search forever
for that one special kiss
oh I can't believe it's happening to me
some people wait a lifetime
for a moment
like this
Oh, like this
some people search forever oh yeah
some people wait a lifetime
for a moment
like this.

Max kissed Liz all through out their dance not really caring about being King. He just wanted to hold Liz all night.

***

Prom was great! After we left we went to the crashdown and danced the night away. We had to Alex off after he started doing the robot. Isabel was embarrassed. I never want this night to end but it will and then I have to face tomorrow and graduation in a couple of weeks. I have news for everyone but not good news. I’m dreading telling Max. I love him so much I can’t behr to lose him.

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Well I hoped you like! It’s long because I haven’t written in forever.
The songs I used were: Kelly Clarkson’s ‘Before your love’ and ‘A moment like this’; Seether’s ‘Fine Again’ and Dido’s “Take my hand”. I need feedback. Only a couple of parts left!!





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posted on 24-Sep-2002 1:54:16 AM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hey! I'm not going to finish this fic because no one is reading it. For those of you who did, thank you!

Loralee
posted on 25-Sep-2002 10:41:01 PM by Loralee0607
Good news!!!!!! I am going to at least finish the srory for all of you who are reading it!!! Thanks for the feedback!!!!!!!! I love it!!!!!!!!

Loralee
posted on 21-Oct-2002 1:43:09 AM by Loralee0607
Hey Everyone!!! I promise I'm going to update someday this week!! Need the feedback!! Thanks for the feedback I have gotten!!

Loralee
posted on 7-Nov-2002 10:24:33 PM by Loralee0607
Hey I'm back with a new part!!!! I made it kind of long to make up for long lost time! WARNING: NC-17. This is my first nookie scene ever. I hope you guys like it!! Feedback Please!!

NEWYORKER18- Thanks so much for all the support and feedback! You are the best!

COLEY- I'm so glad you liked it and thanks for the advice. I have plans for that story line later if I continue the story. The book is not closed yet! Any other advice you can give me would be great!

TO EVERYONE ELSE- Thanks for reading my story. I'm so gald you like it!!!

Part 18

Have you ever had a secret that you couldn’t tell anyone because you are afraid how they would react? Did you ever love someone so much that you couldn’t behr the thought of leaving them even though you know you have to? That’s my life. I have a secret that I don’t want to tell. To tell it means that I have to face reality and I’m not ready to do that. I’m not good at goodbyes and in less than two weeks that’s what I have to do, say goodbye.

***

“Can you believe it? We are actually graduating!” Maria exclaimed.

“I for one can not wait to leave the hell hole we call school” Michael said

“I actually can’t believe you did it” Alex said.

“Spaceboy here worked extra hard to graduate on time,” Maria said proudly.

“Yeah who wants to spend another year at West Roswell High anyway” Michael said trying to nonchalant about it.

“Two more weeks and we are finally free!” Isabel exclaimed.

“Where’s everyone going?”

“Everyone is going to the University of New Mexico, right?” Maria said.

A chorus of “yes” filled the room. All except one person.

***

(I can do this. Just pick up the phone and tell them. They deserve to know. They’re going to find out sooner or later. Call him.)

“Lizzie I brought some boxes for you” Nancy said.

“Thanks Mom”

“I can’t believe you are going away for college. You’re growing up so fast. One more week.”

“Mom I should start packing”

“Yeah you should, my little valedictorian” Nancy left Liz’s room.

(Call him Liz)

***

“Tomorrow’s graduation” Max said to Liz.

“yeah”

“Are you okay” Max said looking deeply concerned. Liz has been out of it for a couple of weeks now.

“Yeah I’m just thinking”

“Liz what aren’t you telling me?”

“Max I’m fine, really.” Liz said trying to reassure him. She walked over to him and kissed him gently on the lips. “Everything is fine” She kissed him again but deepened it. Max pulled her closer. Their kisses ignited their passions for each other. Max laid Liz down on his bed and continued to kiss her. He moved down to her neck and gently suckled her skin causing her to moan. Hands were everywhere while tongues were mating. Liz needed to feel his skin. She tore off his shirt and tasted every part of his chest. She paid extra attention to his nipples. She moved back up and kissed him again. He pulled her shirt over her head and removed her bra exposing her creamy breasts to him. He kissed all around her nipple before finally taking it in his mouth. His flicked back and forth over her highly sensitive nipples. Liz held his head closer. He did the same treatment on the other breast. He kissed her again and he removed her shorts and she removed his last layers of clothing. Max felt how wet Liz was and it only made him even harder.

“God Liz I need you” Max moaned.

“Max make love to me”

“Are you sure? I don’t want to hurt you”

“please take away my ache. I love you”

“I love you too” Max claimed her mouth again. He positioned himself at her entrance and slowly entered her. I pushed past the barrier and soothed Liz’s cries of distress.

“I love you so much” Liz raised her hips motioning him to continue. It was a first slow and tender but their need for each other was too much.

“Faster Max” Max pumped harder and faster and reach down to rub her clit. They both came together moaning their love for each other.

“I love you Maxwell Evans”

“I love you Elizabeth Parker”

***

“I now present with the graduating class of 2002!”

***

“Chica we did it!”

“yeah it’s great Maria”

“You and I are going to have so much fun at UNM!”

“Maria I need to tell you something.”

“Anything babe” Liz starts to cry. “Lizzie what’s wrong?”

“I got accepted to Harvard. I leave tomorrow.”

Maria starts to cry “Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I didn’t want to say goodbye”

“Oh Lizzie we’ll be okay. We’ll visit all the time and if you don’t I’ll kick you ass.”

“Love you ‘ria”

“Love ya too” The two girls hugged both not ready to say goodbye. “Come on lets go party are asses off”

***

“Finally no more high school!” Michael said very enthusiastically

“In three months we will all be at UNM partying the nights away!” Alex said

“what partying do you think you’ll be doing?” Isabel said

“I…um..you know….only with you?” Alex stuttered.

“That’s what I thought”

“Yeah all of us except Liz.” Maria accidentally blurted out.

“What do you mean except Liz?” Max questioned.

“You know she’ll be studying all the time” Maria tried to cover.

“It’s okay ‘Ria. Everyone was going to find out anyway. I’m leaving tomorrow for Harvard” Liz said not looking Max in the eye.

“WHAT!!!” Max jumped up

“I was going to tell you tonight”

“Why didn’t you tell me before!”

“I’m sorry I just couldn’t face leaving you let alone saying goodbye” Liz had tears running down her face. “I’m sorry”

“You should have told me” Max said cupping her face and kissing her on the lips.

“I know. I just couldn’t. I love you so much”

“I love you too”

“I won’t go”

“Liz you have to. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity. You can’t pass it up”

“I don’t want to leave you”

“We’ll talk all the time and we’ll visit” Max leaned down and kissed her. “everything will be okay”

***

NOW BOARDING FLIGHT 245 TO BOSTON

“That’s me” Liz turned to Alex and Isabel and gave them both a huge.

“Call us when you get in” Alex said. Liz went down the row hugging Tess, Kyle, Michael, and Maria.

“Chica we can write songs over the phone and you can tell me every little boring detail of you life.”

“Bye Ria”

“Liz we should go now” Jeff said. They were taking Liz down to Boston to get her settled. Liz turned to Max.

“I’ll call you as soon as we land” She hugged him to her not wanting to let go.

“I’ll com visit you soon” He kissed her one last time with all the love and passion he felt. “I love you” Max started tearing up by now

“I love you too” Liz hugged and kissed him again and then headed down the terminal looking back at Max one last time.

***

Growing up is one of those things you never want to do. It means making a life for yourself. Being your own person. Who knows what is ahead of me. I have great friends, family and the most loving boyfriend a girl can have. I’m happy and what ever Harvard has planned for me, I’m giving it my all. Who cares as long as I have me. Harvard, ready or not here I come!

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Good? Bad? I’m debating whether or not to continue or have this the last part. What do you think? Feedback is a must and thanks so much for all the feedback! You guys are great!!!!!!

Loralee



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posted on 13-Nov-2002 9:26:05 PM by Loralee0607
Thanks for all the feedback and I hope you like this new part!!! It’s a transition into the next part.


Part 19

ONE YEAR AND 3 MONTHS LATER

“Liz can I borrow your red shirt?”

“yeah go ahead”

“Thank you so much. Shit he is going to be here any second” said a red head girl running around the tiny dorm room.

“Who is the lucky guy tonight?” Liz said not looking up from her books.

“Doug something. I’m not sure.”

“You don’t even know his name?” Liz said getting up to help her look for her shirt.

“He had a good looking face and an even nicer body. What can I say? I was distracted”

“Serena this I like the eighth date in row with a different guy each time. Don’t you get tired of going through all these guys?”

“Liz it’s like buying a pair of shoes. You got to find the right pair that’s is juuuust right. You try on a dozen shoes before you find the right one.” Serena said while adding the finishing touches.

“Serena you do realize you are talking to the girl who owns about three pairs of shoes and hates to shop for shoes”

“Yeah we really need to work on that”

“Shut up” Liz said tossing a pillow at her head.

“I’m joking Liz. What are you doing tonight?”

“Studying”

“Liz you have to get out of this room. Come out with me tomorrow night.”

“I don’t think so”

“Liz I’m not taking no for an answer. Find something hot to wear and you and I are going dancing. No buts about it. Okay?”

“Serena, I…”

“Okay Liz?”

“Okay”

“Good (a knock on the door) he’s here. Try not to have too much fun with out me”

“Very funny”

***

“Hey Max” said one of Max’s fraternity friends.

“Hey!” Max said while doing his homework.

“Dude you need a life!”

“Huh?”

“What normal guy actually sits and does his homework when he doesn’t have to.”

“I have a lot of work to do.”

“We are going partying this weekend”

“No thanks”

“Why the hell not?”

“I have bad experiences with parties.”

“Whatever dude” The guy left max sitting there contemplating about what happened the last time he went to a party.

(Flashback)

ONE YEAR AGO

“Yo guys Max is drunk!” Everyone turns to see Max walking around with a beer in his hand and his coordination completely gone.

“It’s okay. I’ll take care of him” said a dumb cheerleader. She led him up the stairs. “I’ll take care of you Max”

(Upstairs)

“Hey skank get your fucking hands off him” Maria said as she barged in on Max and the ho kissing. It was more like she was kissing him. Max was passed out.

“You the hell are you?”

“I’m your worst nightmare” Maria said as she knocked the bitch out. “Come on girlfriend lets get you home. Michael get your ass in here!” Maria and Michael grabbed Max and took him home.

(The Next Day)

“Liz I’m really sorry”

“Shut up Max. You kissed her and I saw you”

“Liz I was drunk I didn’t mean to.”

“here I thought I was going to surprise you but instead I’m the one who gets surprised”

“Liz I was passed out. I didn’t want to kiss her”

“It’s too late” Liz said as she walked out the room.

“LIZ!” She turns around.

“It’s over Max”

“Dammit Liz! Listen to me” Liz walked out the house to the car.

“Goodbye Max”

(END FLASHBACK)

***

Liz was sitting in her room thinking about the day Max kissed that girl. Tears fell down her face. She missed him but couldn’t behr to talk to him because felt so guilty for walking away from him. Liz lays down on her bed and cries. Before finally falling asleep she utters one thing.

“I love you Max”

***

“I love you Liz” Max says before he falls asleep.

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What do you think? I know it’s short but at least it’s a part. I hope everything wasn’t too confusing. I need feedback if you want me to post more!!!

Loralee
posted on 8-Dec-2002 10:50:06 PM by Loralee0607
Hey Everyone!!! I should be updating in a week or so. I have finals next week and after that I'm FREE!!!! Thanks for the feedback!!!!!!

Loralee
posted on 8-Dec-2002 10:51:55 PM by Loralee0607
One more thing!! NewYorker18 thanks so much for all the feedback!!! You are the best!!!
posted on 11-Jan-2003 12:47:47 AM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE Hey everyone! I'm starting to write a new part now. I know it has been forever. There's only a couple more parts left and I'm going to concentrate on my other fic 'It All Comes Down to You'. Hope everyone is still reading this. Thanks for the feedback!

Loralee

posted on 11-Jan-2003 1:59:45 AM by Loralee0607
Hey everyone! I'M BACK!! Here is the next part and just to warn you, there is only one part left and I really hope you like this part. Thanks for all the feedback but if you want the last part I need the feedback. It keeps me motivated. Well here it goes.....


Part 20

I know I love Max and I want to talk to him. I just don’t need Max. It took me a long time to figure this out. I needed the time away from him to realize that though I love him with every fiber of my being, I can’t depend our love alone. I’m going home to Roswell for summer break. I forgive Max for everything and I only hope he can forgive me.

***

“Lizzie it is so good to have you back” Nancy Parker said while pulling her only daughter into a hug. Nancy has been worried about her since she refused to come home for thanksgiving and Christmas.

“It’s good to be back Mom,” Liz said truly ready to go on with her life. Ready to go on with Max.

“You have missed so much.”

“Like what Mom?”

Nancy hesitated telling her daughter the news. “well Philip Evans has a new lawyer working with him and just little things that you probably won’t notice. Well gotta go.” Nancy said rushing out of the room. Liz was beyond confused. What the hell is going on?

***

“OMG Liz you’re here!” Maria said while hugging her till she can no longer breathe.

“Maria…..need……oxygen”

“Right..sorry. Lizzie college is so much fun! Frat parties and kegs. Guys but no just any guys, college guys. Of course you can’ t get rid of all the skanks and hos but baby steps.”

“Sounds like you had a blast” Liz said feeling a little depressed.

“there of course was something missing”

“What’s that”

“You. How could I survive college without my best friend.” Maria said smiling.

“well you don’t have to worry about that because I’m transferring to UNM.”

“WHAT!?!?!”

“Well the fall semester at Harvard didn’t really work out. I was put on academic probation and I just couldn’t deal. It really is a long story.” Liz said reliving in her mind everything that has happened.

“How about the cliff notes version?”

“It all started out great but then the thing with Max happened and then my roommate tried to get me back into the dating game and things went down hill from there.” Maria knew there was more to the story but didn’t push Liz.

“I’m glad you’re back” Maria said hugging Liz.

“Me too”

“Are you ready to write songs together?” Maria asked.

A smile came over Liz’s face “Most definitely”

***

“Yo Max I’m going to Maria’s.” Michael said putting on his jacket. Michael starts towards the door and when he opens he is surprised to find Liz getting ready to knock.

“Hi Michael. Is Max here?” Liz asks nervous that she will be turned away.

“Yeah come in” Michael says and then heads out the door. “His room is that one”

“Thanks” Liz turns toward Max’s door and knocks on it.

“Come in” Liz hesitates. Just hearing his voice does wonders. She opens the door slowly. She steps into the room and barely utters his name “Max”. Max turns around and is completely speechless. “Hi” Liz says while biting her lip. Max just sits there amazed that she is right in front of him. He does the only thing he can think of, he pulls her to him and holds her. She relaxes into his arms. “I’m sorry Max/Liz” They said at the same time. They start laughing. “I missed you” Max says. “I missed you too. How have you been?”

Max takes a deep breath “I’ve been better and I’ve been worse. Right now I’m better. You?”

“I don’t even know where to begin.” Liz confesses.

“How about the beginning?” Max says as he motions her to sit.

“well it all started when I came back to see u and …well you know”

“Liz about that..” Liz cuts him off “Max I know you didn’t mean for it to happen and it just took me a long time to realize it. My roommate Serena was pushing me to move on and I finally gave in. I needed some thing to get my mind away from everything. My grades sucked and I needed a get away. She had me meet this guy and he reminded me so much of…of….Paulie. He had the same eyes. I freaked out and people even suggested I go see a psychiatrist. I had nightmares about that night and I stopped sleeping. I was put on academic probation. I went to a doctor and after awhile she helped me figure out how to work through my fears. I refused to come to Roswell because I wasn’t ready to face everything. Serena was great and supportive. You would like her. She reminds me of Maria and Isabel all tied into one.”

“I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you Liz” Max said feeling guilty.

“Max you couldn’t have done anything. When it happened I didn’t deal with it. I put it in the back of my mind. My mistake was not dealing with it. I needed to do it on my own. I came back because I have dealt with it enough to where I could return but it will always haunt me. I can’t act like it didn’t happen.”

“I’m really glad you’re back” Max said while kissing her lips softly. “Me too” Liz said while pulling him to her and kissing him deeply.

***

It turns out my little break sparked a creative spark between me and Maria. For the next couple weeks Maria and I have been writing songs nonstop in between Max and I getting to know each other once again. Spiral is even thinking of doing a reunion concert for old time sake.

“Okay guys this is our official first practice since high school. Liz and I have spent a lot of time writing these songs and you guys should feel honored that we are letting you sing and play them.” Maria lectured the guys.

“Whatever Maria lets just play” Michael said.

Everyone starts to play their first song.

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

[Chorus]

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell


***

It was amazing hearing Max sing the song I wrote about when things were crazy in my life. Maybe things will be alright. I won’t heal completely but I found my way again. I can’t wait for what comes next. Too bad I can’t see the future but what fun would be in that. I prefer to be surprised.



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posted on 13-Jan-2003 10:17:31 PM by Loralee0607
AUTHOR'S NOTE: I just got done watching the pilot episode of Roswell on SciFi and I'm just so happy that they are showing episodes of Roswell. It's keeping it Alive. Also I wanted to let everyone know that even if you are not going to read my fic, I'm still going to finish it because I owe my readers at least that. For all those who read my fic, THANK YOU!!!! Look for the next part soon!

Loralee*happy*