posted on 18-Jul-2002 12:11:42 AM by Apathygirl666
Title: Pushing Me Away

Author: Apathygirl666

Rating: pg13-r

Category: M/L, maybe a little A/I, M/M but probably not,

Disclaimer: I own nothing; if I did I would be cuddling with Max at this very second. Roswell belongs to Melinda Metz, Jason Katims, and UPN. Heartbreakers belongs to the writers and and ppl who own it. Don’t sue I am in high school and have about $5 right now. Lyrics and Title from Linkin Park’s Pushing Me Away

Summary: au, no aliens, heartbreakers challenge, here are the requirements:

1. Liz and Maria travel around the Universe (or the US, whatever). They're big con-artists, and their main scheme is to get engaged to rich men, and when the wedding night comes, the other seduces the groom to sleep with them. Then, the bride gets plenty of money in a divorce suit and they move on their way.

2. Their newest target is Max Evans, (practically royalty) and very, very rich. He's very inexperienced with women, so they think he'll be easy to reel in and trick.

3. Liz ends up falling in love with Max and doesn't want to go through with it.

4. There should be lots of conflict, whatever obstacles you want, a good amount of angst. Have fun with it... You don't need to have seen the movie at all to do this. Liz and Maria should both basically be good people, resorting to being con-artists for whatever reason.

Note: lyrics are in italics


Part 1 - I Never Wanted This

I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
Everything has to end, you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all unwind
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried, like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you

Everything falls apart, even the people who never frown eventually break down
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
Everything has to end, you'll soon find we're out of time left to watch it all
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

We're all out of time, this is how we find how it all unwinds
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
We're all out of time, this is how we find how it all unwinds
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

Pushes me away…
Pushes me away…

I never wanted to do this, I never wanted to be a con artist, a scammer, I wanted a normal life, but I was sucked into it by my step mother, Maria Deluca. She is the ultimate scammer, right now she’s in the wedding hall. She’s in her fabulous gown, with her hair in one of those amazing bun thingies that takes forever to master. And here I am, in the hall, hiding, waiting, watching, for her to come out, go up to their room, and give me the signal.

I never wanted this, this semblance of a life, I wanted to go to college, meet a cute guy, fall in love, but instead I hope from town to town with my crazy step mom, seducing her new husbands into bed. But, sometimes we don’t get what we want. I learned that the hard way.

I look down at my watch, 5…4…3…2….1! And here’s my cue.

I slip towards the elevator, just as the ‘newlyweds’ come out of the wedding hall. I reach the top floor, where all the penthouse suites are, the honeymoon suites. I hide, once again, like I always do, this time behind an old cart of room service, yip-ee. No, I don’t sound too bitter right. But I know it, Maria, she needs me, she reels ‘em in and I crush ‘em down, it’s been like that since I was 12. That was when my father died, and of course the coveted year my breasts grew to fill a bra.

But, it’s not going to be like that anymore, the next mission is definitely going to be mine, unless it’s an old guy, then ‘cause gross! I watch as Maria gets carried into the suite by her ‘husband’. This one was a cutie! He had wavy blond, hair, blue eyes and he was built! But, he’s not my type; I like guys who are dark and mysterious, not blonde haired jocks.

I wait until the next cue, until Maria comes out of the room in her fancy slip. She walks towards me and says “ The excuse is that I’m getting ice, you only have about 10 minutes, because the ice is by the restaurant, ok, but it shouldn’t take too long, this one is young, alright?”

“Yeah” I reply, pulling my top down a little to show some more cleavage, I know this will work I have everything under control, a reason to be there and everything.

I knock on the door and the man, Grant Sorenson, my current boss, walks to the door, shirtless, he’s only making this easier.

“Janna, what are you doing here? He asks me, using the name I’ve adopted for this scam.

“Umm…we’ll Laurie said she needed these for tomorrow, I really didn’t mean to interrupt, I should…I should go...” I say handing him the papers I swiped off of Laurie’s desk yesterday.

“No, I’ll just finish these you can come in, my wife is just getting ice”

“Alright” I reply, then looking around I say “Wow this is amazing” I continue seductively, coming up to stand underneath him, my head reaching his chin “And so are you.” I reach up, and pull his lips to mine in a long kiss, just as Maria walks in.

“Oh My God!” Grant, how? How could you?” I hear Maria exclaim behind me.

Three Days Later

I stand here, hiding once again, in the back of the court room, as Maria sits next to her lawyer, and cries her eyes out. She’s good.

I listen to the judge as he awards her 20 million dollars, and I slip out the door, hop into our car and pull up to the front as she gets in, ignoring the press. We both have kerchiefs around our heads. And they blow into the wind as I speed back to our temporary apartment.

4 hours later

“So, Maria, I thought maybe I could do the next one”

“Sure, I’ll wed him you’ll-” she starts.

“No, I mean the other way around, come on! I have a target and everything.”

“Who?” She asks tipping her cigarette into the ash tray.

I pull a newspaper clipping out of my leather Prada purse, I tap my manicured finger on Max Evans picture. “Max Evans, just inherited over 600 million dollars after his father passed away, and he’s took over his company as CEO, he’s single, 28 years old, fresh out of college, had minor girlfriends through college, broke it off with the last one before graduation, her name was Courtney Banks, he went to Harvard Law School after attending Harvard College. He has one sister and he’s still a virgin.”

“I see you did your homework, how did you find out the virgin bit?”

“I have my ways.”

“Alright you can have him, but if you screw up, it’s the normal way from now on.”

“You got it!” I say excited, watch out Max Evans!

“So where does this Evans guy live?”

“New Mexico”

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posted on 18-Jul-2002 8:22:00 PM by Apathygirl666
Bump Pt 2 will be out before 11
posted on 18-Jul-2002 8:55:10 PM by Apathygirl666
im glad you like this michaela ill give you a teaser for the next pt-theres a character named michaela in it! hehe *big*
posted on 18-Jul-2002 9:56:53 PM by Apathygirl666
michaela girl chill its only a cameo
posted on 18-Jul-2002 10:05:46 PM by Apathygirl666
thanks to
miss dreamergal

aZNroSweLl anglgrl






AngelDreamer86- I'm not makin any promises on what I put into the fic cuz I only saw the movie once and it was on a flight to hawii at 1 in the morning so I dont remember every little thing, but there is a pt about her butt in my fic anyway-just for u




A Rose Is True Blue -once again I'm not makin any promises to what I put in cuz im not sure- read what I wrote to AngelDreamer86

and a big big thanx to my stalked m14-u rock gurl!-4 times

Wench On A Leash
be back in a few with the new pt

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posted on 18-Jul-2002 10:11:24 PM by Apathygirl666
here ya go the last pt youll get till I come back from camp august 9-leave me tons of fb!


Part 2

I’m 28 years old, and I’m pathetic. I’ve never gotten past 2nd base, although I could’ve. See, in college, I dated a lot, Kara, Lauren, Terri, Samantha….the list goes on, then there was Courtney, she was special, I thought we’d grow up, get married, live a happy life, then she went behind my back and slept with that jerk Michael…and Sean…and Doug.
That was the end of that, she said I wasn’t giving her what she wanted. She thought I was umm…under developed or something, but it just wasn’t right, not with her, not at the time. I want my first time to be with someone I love, someone who loves me. I guess I want it to be special, I don’t want to just throw it away to someone I don’t love, not that I haven’t considered it before.

I’m successful, I’m handsome, at least most women seem to think so, I’m rich, now I am at least, but I think the problem is I’m simple, I’ve got charms, hidden somewhere but it’s been a while since I’ve used them, they need a little workout.

I just wish…I just wish I could find one woman, just one, that could care about me! I dream about her every sleepless night, someone pure and true, with raven hair and deep chocolate brown eyes, someone, who with one kiss would turn my world around.

I’ve only dated three girls since Courtney, one was Tess, I think all of the bleach she used affected her brain somehow, then there was Michaela, she was sweet, but ultimately she wanted me to sleep with her, and so we broke it off and then there was Rebecca, she was a gold digger, basically, she told me to give her my credit cards or she’d leave me and she did.

I guess I’m kind of choosey, but I want that feeling, the one in the pit of your stomach that warms you and pulsing through your very existence. I want to feel my dream girl’s porcelain skin, wet with sweat sliding against mine. I want that content feeling, I just want to feel alive.

Instead I’m here in my big lonely mansion, in Albuquerque, N.M. sitting here, staring off into space. Yeah I could go out and do something, call Alex, my sister’s boyfriend and best friend, who’s probably cooking for Isabel now anyway, or Kyle, but undoubtedly he’s hitting the clubs looking for a one night stand. I guess I could do something, but somehow I feel as if it’s all been done, I could go stargazing, but I feel like something’s missing. I don’t know anymore. Sarah, and Ally, my maids think I need to get out, have fun. But I have so much to do, I need to find a new secretary, and then…do…ok, nothing.

I just know she’s out there, my dream girl, and I’m going to go find her, I think I’m start with McKinley’s the best bar in town.


“Ow will you stop, I’m my lung is going to deflate!” I exclaims, as Maria tightens the bustier I’m wearing as a top.

“Well, we need something to draw the attention away from your butt!” she replies.

“And what the hell is wrong with my butt?”
“Nothing, just…nothing.”

“Whatever, let’s just go, I want to get in at least 30 minutes of spying before Angel is on.”

“TV Junkie”

“Bitch” I say turning around.

“Go, you look…well not as good as me, but…” she replies, while thoughts of how she would look in a body bag float to mind.

Off to McKinley’s the bar closest to Max Evan’s home, who knows maybe I’ll even spot him there.


I slip onto a stool at the bar, order a beer and settle back and watch the band play, at the front of the club. Now, two girls have come up to me, a blonde, who now has her hands all over my chest and a redhead who’s trying to blow in my ear.

Why me, oh why me!

I push them off me, and start towards the door, when I feel someone small and petite push into me and her hands brace on my chest trying to balance herself. She looks up and I see her face, she’s perfect, there are no other words to describe her.

She slides her hands down my chest brushing the top of my pants, and her mouth comes up to my ear, somehow I don’t mind it so much. She whispers to me “Do you want to dance?”

“Sure” I say over the soft yet danceable music. And we move to the dance floor, her arms link around my shoulders and she sways seductively, brushing her hands up and down my back. But it just doesn’t feel right, so I slow her pace, linking my arms around her waist so we’re swaying more gently. She seems surprised, but after a moment she adjusts to the new pace and moves to the music. Something is telling me she’s what I want but there’s this other part telling me she’s got to be trouble.

All I know is I’m going to take the time to find out which part is right.

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posted on 18-Jul-2002 10:16:48 PM by Apathygirl666
Sarah, hii!!!! I dunno, I told you I'm more of a dreamer...maybe I'll include a lil candy, but I highly doubt it, Michael and Max aren't friends in this fic...(as said in pt2)maybe....hehe that would be fun to write

posted on 18-Jul-2002 11:48:42 PM by Apathygirl666
m14 originally wrote:
ok...well after I got over the shock that ya made me as a slut *tongue* I read the rest lol

this is getting so good
I can hardly wait for august 9th (the 8th's my bday!!) but the 9th we get more!! yahooo

wow... okay so maria is hilarious..and liz picturing her in a body bag? that's so funny. she said her butt was huge! hehehehehe *happy*

love the dialogue between liz and maria... sounds just like the movie. wonder what will happen with the bar. that is liz with max right?
aww I sure hope so. but he won't give it up just for anyone. that is sooo sweet
uh-oh for liz though. good luck on that one
~michaela~ *bounce*

yopure not a slut in my story, michaela, I said u were sweet...hehe::evil laugh::

and girl your bday is 8 days before mine!! and 15 before my best friends!! hehe

and as for the m.l and maria stuff all will be revealed in time
posted on 19-Jul-2002 12:55:45 AM by Apathygirl666
that cool michaela, mine is the same as Madonna, and Edie Lawerence(an old singer), and a bunch of other ppl, I know cuz we had to do a report on it for school a while ago, stuff from your bday whatever......

and im gonna try and get a short part out tonight...
posted on 19-Jul-2002 8:27:45 PM by Apathygirl666
This is a note I’m posting on all of my fics: I’m leaving for three weeks tomorrow sand I’ll be back with new fic on August 9th, with new parts of all of my fics, meanwhile leave me tons of bump and you’ll get more fic when I get back and in the meanwhile read my other dreamer stories:

Amy’s Song
American Beauty-Roswell Style
Let Me Know That You Need Me
Time Of Your Life
Pushing Me Away

posted on 20-Jul-2002 8:04:52 AM by Apathygirl666
hey guys im checkin all m y thread before we leave, thanks for all the fb and remember the more bumps I get the more fic!
posted on 10-Aug-2002 3:25:22 PM by Apathygirl666
postin this on each of my fics:

hey guys, im back from camp and its so bittersweet, im happy to be home but I really miss the friends I made at camp,on the last night, after the art displays (I won two awards) and the drama show and the fashion shows and the floor awards (hehe-I got the floor award for always having a smile :D) there was the candle light and it was so sad, and yesterday morning my best friend from camp flew back to chicago at 9 am and I cried for about an hour, it was so sad, and everyone leaving, I swear it the worst part of camp, I loved camp sooo much, and I had soo much fun, anyway im gonna try to post later but right now its kinda hard to see the computer screen with the tears and all, it's just not the same anymore, I miss it all so much, I really miss my camp, and my friends, anyway im off to talk to some camp friends and then…I’ll be back….I guess…

posted on 18-Aug-2002 1:08:50 PM by Apathygirl666
going on a vaca - be back in a week!
posted on 11-Sep-2002 7:35:09 PM by Apathygirl666
September 11th, I remember