|posted on 25-Jul-2002 2:10:24 AM by IllianaM|
|Title:Save My Soul|
Category:M/L ; AU
Summary: A young man haunted by his dark past. Angry and bitter at the life he was given he lashes out at all around him, caring for nothing and no one. A young woman born to a destiny she cannot deny, yearning for something more. Through a twist of fate their paths are crossed. This is their story and the story of those whose lives are intertwined with them. A tale of love and hate, pain and joy, betrayal and redemption, loss, and hope.
Authors Note: This is sort of based on part of the Please Save My Earth story.
The Child of War
For as long as I can remember I have been in darkness. Suffering is my only companion. I have no memory of parents, no home, no where I came from. I only have my name. It is the only thing I recall. Max.
Every moment of every day is the same for me. I spend the time being cautious, watching, worrying. Bombs are constantly falling from the sky. Raiders are always destroying everything they find. I am all alone.
All I have is myself to depend on. Survival is the only thing I know. I have to survive, I have to keep going, no matter what.
Right now I'm hiding in an old, abandoned building. I'm exhausted. I just used my powers to get here and I'm drained. It's a good thing I have no injuries currently, otherwise I might have died from all the energy I just spent. But I had no choice. I never have a choice.
Why is life so hard? I often wonder if anything besides cruelty exists somewhere out there, a place different from here. I think there must be.
I look around the room I'm in, hoping to find something to eat. I'm starving. I think it's been days since I last filled my stomach. I see something. A box with some food. I wonder how its still here briefly but then don't care. I run to it as fast as I can.
As soon as I approach it, I hear gun shots and then someone shouting, "Hold your fire, hold your fire. It's a child!". By now I'm already reacting, not listening to what's being said. I have to defend myself. I don't want to die. I scream and raise my hand.
Silence. There were no sounds anymore. I looked up. Blood. All over the place. Oh no. They're dead. They're all dead, lying lifeless on the ground.
I cried and cried. I didn't mean to do it. I was just protecting myself. I was just staying alive. I don't want to hurt anyone. But it's too late now. I'm a murderer. I'm a monster. That's all I am. That's all I'll ever be. Surrounded by the darkness that is my life. Why is this happening to me?
The Blessed One.
"Mommy? Daddy? Where are you?". I look around the house running. I have to tell my parents about what I've done. Again.
I don't understand this. I've always known I was different. Everyone knows it, even the other children. They stay away from me. I don't have any friends.
I have asked my parents over and over why I'm different, why I can do things others cannot do. All they ever say is let's not talk about it. So we never talk about it. But I know they know. I just don't understand why they won't tell me.
"Mommy? Daddy?", I call again. They must be downstairs. I run down the steps. I finally see them. But they're talking to someone. A woman dressed in white. An old woman unlike anyone I've ever seen before.
As I get closer I realize my parents are upset. They're pleading to the woman. "Please don't do this. She's too young. You can't have her. She's our only child". What are they talking about?
The woman in white speaks calmly. "You know the rules, at least you once did. Not that that has ever stopped the two of you. You knew this might happen, especially since both of you were.... You disgraced us all. Now you have a chance to make up for that. The girl must come to Paradise. This is not up for discussion. You cannot fight destiny."
Destiny? What's that? Why is this lady making my mommy and daddy so sad? I come closer. My parents have started to cry now. I finally speak.
"Mommy? Daddy?" All three of them turn and look at me. My parents rush over to me and embrace me in a tight hug, like they never want to let go.
I hear the lady in white call my name, "Elizabeth". I turn and stare at her. Her eyes are wise and kind. Why is a woman who seems so nice making my parents cry?
My mommy strokes my face. "Honey" she says. "Yes?" I respond. I look at her and daddy. "Why are you guys sad? What's going on? Who is this lady?"
They glance at each other, then the old woman, then back at me. "Elizabeth darling, you are going to have to go away from here.....". I stare at them in horror. What did my mommy just say. I have to go away! It can't be true.
"We have no choice. We tried our best but it wasn't enough. You have to go", My dad says. I begin to sob. "Did I do something wrong? Was I bad?"
"No, no" they both say, "You did nothing wrong. In fact its because you're special and wonderful that you have to go. You have to go where the other special people are".
"But what if I don't want to be special. I just want to stay here with you. Please let me stay". All three of us are crying now. It is then that the woman steps forward to talk.
"Elizabeth. I know this is hard, but you must try to understand. Your parents are right. You are a very special girl. I know you know this already. That you are not like other children, other people. Well now you're going to a place where there are people just like you. It will be difficult at first being away from your parents but, but I promise you you'll like it where you're going. It's a place called Paradise. You have great things ahead of you Elizbeth and you must accept your destiny."
TBC So like it? Hate it? Any questions? Feedback would be greatly appreciated in any form.
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