posted on 6-Oct-2002 12:43:44 AM by Bordersinsanity
I started this fic in August before Season 3... We were going between the old ezboard and the new and improved board but somehow this one never got posted over here so I'm doing it now.

I'll post a new part everyday since the fic is complete. Hope you like and just remember this was written purely on spoilers... some of it isn't really what happened during Season 3.

Just sit back and enjoy the ride.

Background


Title: In the Background
Author: Borders
E-Mail: BordersInsanity⊕yahoo.com
Category: Spoiler/Song Fic. Max & Liz
Rating: PG – PG-13
Disclaimer: I own nothing… Just wish I did!

Summary: Lots of songs… Each chapter is going to be another song. There is always music playing on the show and I am trying to recreate that feeling. Each chapter was written without the song and then the lyrics were placed in between the appropriate parts. Meaning, you ask? You don’t have to read the lyrics to have the story make sense, but it will help set Liz’s mood.

Ever wonder how Max and Liz end up in Utah?

Everything came from Spoilers.

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Part 1 – All You Want – Dido
Part 2 – Sick Cycle Carousel – Lifehouse
Part 3 – Come To Stay – Oleander
Part 4 – Turn Off the Light –- Nelly Furtado
Part 5 – In the End –- Linkin Park
Part 6 – It’s Been Awhile – Staind
Part 7 – I Shall Believe -– Sheryl Crow
Part 8 – Benign – Oleander
Part 9 – Wherever You Will Go –- The Calling
Part 10 – I’ll Be There For You –- Bon Jovi
Part 11 – Blurry –- Puddle of Mudd
Part 12 – Everywhere –- Michelle Branch
Part 13 – Live Your Life (Down) –- Tantric
Part 14 – Wouldn’t you believe –- 311
Part 15 – Giving in – Adema
Part 16 – Woohoo Song 2 – Blur
Part 17 – Short skirt/Long jacket –- Cake
Part 18 – The People that We Love –- Bush
You Don’t Know –- Econoline Cursh

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Part 1 — All You Want



“What do we do now, Max?” She just had to ask. It seems whenever I hear that phrase the outcome is not what I want to hear. I pulled away from Max knowing what he was going to say to his sister, Isabel and to everyone else. It wouldn’t be him if he didn’t. Always thinking about everything and everyone else, but not this time. This time he was thinking about himself.

“We find my son.” His son he says. I can’t believe he’s going to have a son.

That was two months ago and now here I am just sitting in my room contemplating what I’m going to do now.

I tune into the radio. “Here’s a request from a jaded dream girl. She didn’t want to tell me who the dedication went to, she just said he would know. So this song is for you mystery man. This is Dido playing All You Want.” I perked up a little. Even though I haven’t been talking to Max I have been. It’s really hard not to. I don’t know if he has been listening to the radio or if he is playing his CD’s. Isabel had said that he hasn’t been home lately, but she really doesn’t know much because she has been working at her father’s law firm.

I’d like to watch you sleep at night,
To hear you breathe by my side.
And although sleep leaves me behind,
There’s nowhere I’d rather be


I walk around the room listening to the song and replaying the events of last year. There had only been two times that I had slept with Max overnight. Once was when we were looking for the orb and the other time was when we stayed in the old beat up delivery truck when Pierce and his goons were chasing us.

And now our bed is oh so cold,
My hands feel empty,
No one to hold.


Stopping near the dresser drawers that had a few pictures on its top, I picked up the picture of the gang that was taken on a rare moment. If only things were different. Was the first time line really that bad? Yeah… There is no way that I could just stand by and let both Michael and Isabel die. But really, is it any better. I lost one of my best friends and lost the man that I was going to marry… It’s definitely a lose, lose situation.

I can sleep what side I want,
It’s not the same with you gone.
Oh if you’d come home,
I’ll let you know that
All you want, is right here in this room,
All you want and all you need, is sitting here with you,
All you want.


I haven’t felt right since that night Max came to me. I tried so hard to do what was right but I had failed. I have basically lost everything and everyone.

It’s been three years, one night apart, but in that night you tore my heart.
If only you had slept alone, if those seeds had not been sown.
Oh you could come home and you would know that
All you want, is right here in this room all you want
All you need is sitting here with you.


I get up and turn off the radio but I know what the rest of the song says. There’s nothing I can do to change the past. Nothing he can do to get the future back to where it should be. I made sure of that.

All you want, I hear your key turning in the door,
I won’t be hearing that sound anymore
And you and your sin can leave the way you just came in
Send my regards to her I hope you’ve found that all you want
Is right there in that room all you want
All you need is sitting there with you, all you want


I’ve been thinking for the last two months… Yeah me, Liz Parker, thinking. The end of the world came in the year 2014. There is fifty-two weeks in a year. Max came back from the future in October. It’s been almost a year. Fifty-two weeks of my life wasted. That leaves me with six hundred and seventy-six weeks left to live. That is if the world still ends at the same time… I might have more… and then again it might be less. Who knows? From this day forward I’m going to live my life as if there will be no tomorrow. Hold nothing back. I go to my desk and grab the pages and pages of print out. The translation of their book, it’s time for my daily ritual of going to the library and scanning the thousands of archives that could be related to anything remotely close to the subject of alien artifacts. You’d be surprised at what I found or maybe not… I really haven’t found anything. Nothing, zero, zilch… You get the idea.

I’d like to watch you sleep at night, to hear you breathe by my side.

All You Want by Dido


Why do I do it? Do you really have to ask? There is only one person that I do this for. Alex. It was hard to accept his death but that doesn’t mean that I have to accept that he died just so Tess could get back home with Max’s son. No. Alex’s life is worth much more. If it is the last thing I do I am going to find a way for Max, Michael, and Isabel to get home and to find Max’s son. That is if they survive the trip in the Granolith.

It could be possible. The book doesn’t really go into full detail but there is a loophole. I’m heading down the stairs and am almost out into the restaurant when Michael stops me. “Have you heard from Maria today?”

“No” I say. “She usually calls me at night after she calls you. Why?” It wasn’t like Michael to ask me, of all people, about Maria. We drifted apart when Sean said that he needed to leave town. That was what he was doing when Alex had died. He was trying to get the state to let him live on his own for the rest of his probation. They did and so he left. Maria knew it was because he liked me, maybe even loved me but he had the decency to let me go to follow Max. He had said that he couldn’t stand and watch me die. Maybe he was right. If I stay with Max I will eventually die.

“No reason. So, you off to the library again?” He says this while he looks everywhere but at me.

“Yeah. There has to be something in this thing.” I hold up the print out for emphasis.

“You know Liz. You don’t have to do this. I don’t think any of us really want to go there. After what Tess told Max I don’t think that we could make it alive for very long. It’s just best that we stay here.” He meant well, but I couldn’t let him lie down and surrender. There was too much at stake now.

“No Michael I do have to do this. This is what Alex died for; I can’t let his death go so easily. Besides, Tess knows where we are. There has to be answers to how long we have before they come back for you guys. I’m not going to let anyone else die because we underestimated her. No way.” I think I got my point across to him. He gave a weak smile and then turned back to the grill. “See ya.” I left it at that.

I walked through the swinging door and took in all the customers. I don’t know when I started doing that. It hasn’t done any good. Roswell isn’t that big and I don’t know everyone in town, but we need to. We needed to know the comings and goings of every Roswell resident possible. We had let the enemy in once; I wasn’t going to let it happen again. A few of the customer’s saw me looking at them and I acknowledged them... It never hurt to act normal instead of paranoid. That seemed to help a little. I had gotten good at knowing who they were. Even the tourists were easy to spot. After all I have lived here my whole life. What I needed to learn was how to spot the skins. Not that easy.

I headed outside into the sweltering heat. This summer so far had reached record highs and there was no reprieve in sight. The library was a good five blocks away. Before I turn to leave I look long and hard at the UFO museum. Max was in there. I can feel him. It’s amazing how the connection between the two of us got stronger the minute Tess left. She had to have had some kind of power that interfered with our connection. Another question that will go unanswered. The list was getting longer and longer. A truck drove between the museum and me. It was enough to make me go toward the library.

I had to stop by Kyle’s. He had once again pulled away from the group. I didn’t blame him but I still thought it was necessary to make sure that he was doing okay. I didn’t know how it felt to be mind-warped into carrying Alex’s dead body out of the house, and he didn’t talk about it. None of us did.

My mind tends to wonder when I am out walking. All of my senses are heightened when I am out in the open. That’s the paranoia creeping out. I don’t think I will ever be Liz Parker, smallest of small town girls again. The sprinkler is going on in the front yard. It looks like it has been going all morning. I knock on the door…

“Liz. What a surprise.”

“Hi, Mr. Valenti.” We can’t call him sheriff anymore because he never got his job back. After hearing him tell me that he wasn’t sheriff and seeing the pained expression on his face I made it a point not to call him sheriff anymore. It was one of the hardest things that I had done so far this summer. “Is Kyle here?”

“Yeah, come on in.” He held open the door for me to come inside. Looks like he is doing another one of his wood working projects.

“So, what’s this one going to be?” So far I think he’s made every kid at the Y a baseball bat. We all need to heal and if this is his way of healing, more power to him. Who was I to judge? No one, that’s who. I gave a small sincere smile. Standing in front of me was a man that we had all feared growing up and now we all considered him a good friend. He had lost his job protecting us. It doesn’t really matter who was responsible for him getting fired. We are all one. What one does affects us all, we just didn’t know it yet.

“Well, I’m hoping it’s going to be a oak dining room table for Amy, but I have a feeling that it will turn out to be another bat.” I didn’t want to tell him that baseball bats weren’t made out of oak. The wood is too soft, it didn’t matter to the kids at the Y they were happy getting their very own bat.

“Is it a secret?” The sheriff... I mean Jim… see there I go again. Old habits are hard to break. Anyway, Jim and Amy have been spending a lot of time together. I think that is part of the reason why Maria had to leave. I think deep down inside she still thinks her real dad is going to come back I’m not going to tell her any different. Look at me. I still think deep down that Max and I will get back together and everything will be back to normal. Ha! Keep dreaming.

“Yeah. I don’t want to get her hopes up about getting a new dining room table if it doesn’t turn out to be a dining room table.”

“I know what you mean.” Amy was like that. She would take anything from the man. So would he. You should have seen what he was wearing the other day when him and Amy came in to eat supper. Some god-awful shirt that she had sewn for him. The phrase ‘Love is blind’ comes to mind.

“Kyle! Liz is here.” I guess he didn’t want to talk to me anymore; either that or he wanted me to talk to Kyle. Speak of the devil.

“Hey. What are you doing here?” He was trying to be very strong. It didn’t work. I could see right through him.

“Nothing much. Just on my way to the library again. Wanted to stop by and see what you were doing later. I’ve been thinking a lot and I have something I want to do but if someone doesn’t go with me I think I will chicken out.” Please, please, please say ‘Do you want me to come?’

“So. Do you want me to come?” Yes! I could actually hug him right now but decided not to.

“Really? You would come?”

“What are friends for? Wait. It’s not like the time you came and ask me for a favor last fall. I don’t think I can do that again.”

“No. No. Nothing like that. I just need someone to hold my hand. I’m thinking about getting my belly button pierced.” I know Liz Parker with a belly ring. Never thought I would do something like that. But hey I only have six hundred and seventy-six weeks, give or take, to live.

“Really? I hear that really, really hurts. I thought getting my ears pierced really hurt. Have you seen the needle that they used to pierce your belly button?” He didn’t even wait for me to shake my head no. “Its huge.”

“Kyle you’re not helping. I thought you would come along for moral support, not to change my mind. I have been having enough of those thoughts running through my mind.”

“Okay… Sorry. What time?”

“I’m closing tonight so come by anytime. I have an appointment afterwards.”

“They give appointments for things like that?”

“Yes. I’m sure they take walk-ins too if you want to get something pierced. Maybe your tongue or…” I hesitated. I didn’t know if the next thing I said would keep him from coming at all.

“No way… I know you Parker and I’m not getting my nipple pierced.” I didn’t have to say it after all. I guess over the past year we have all gotten used to each other.

“I didn’t say it. Just remember you said it. Not me.” He was doing well.

“Guess what I finally did?” He had a smile on his face. It was something big.

“What?” I didn’t want to steal his thunder. Whatever he had done meant a lot to him.

He motioned me to follow him. I hesitated. We were going toward Tess’ room. No I couldn’t think like that. It was his old room. Yeah, that’s better. Right. “I finally did it.” He pushed the door open. I was amazed. “She had a lot of junk.”

“What did you do with it?”

“I packed it up and put it in storage. I didn’t want to throw it away incase there was something important in there. I had to get it out of the house.”

“I like the color that you painted the walls. I would have never thought of you as a ‘yellow’ boy.” It was a bad attempt at a joke. I couldn’t believe that he went through all of her stuff.

“It reminds me of the morning sun and helps when I am with Buddha.” I didn’t urge him on. I knew all too well what talking about things did to a persons will. This was his way of dealing. Who was I to judge? Once again, I’m no one.

“Hey. I gotta get going if I want to make it to a new book today.”

“Oh yeah. How’s it going? Found anything yet?” Nice try Kyle. I know you don’t want to really know.

“No, not yet. So, I will see you tonight?”

“Yeah, I’ll be there.”

“Thanks Kyle.” I hug him. He took it and held on a little longer than was necessary. We all have our ways of dealing. I seem to be saying that a lot. “I’ll see you later. Your room looks great.”

“Thanks Liz.” It’s funny that what he said had more than one meaning. It felt good.

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posted on 6-Oct-2002 12:50:09 PM by Bordersinsanity
See first post for disclaimer... Enjoy Part 2 of In the Background...

As far as the banner thing I hadn't thought of doing one but who knows... I just might do one? We'll see. Thanks for all the feedback I'll continue to post a part a day...

Jen



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Part 2 — Sick Cycle Carousel



I left the Valenti household and went to the library. After spending all afternoon there I headed back home just in time to start my shift at the Crashdown. Michael had gone home and it was pretty quiet for a Friday night. I went from table to table and filled the condiments, made sure that a certain booth had plenty of Tabasco sauce on it. With it being a Friday night he might decide to come in. It didn’t mean I’d have to talk to him. Agnes could handle it. Boy I sure miss Maria.

As if she heard my prayer the bell above the door rang and I looked up. “Liz! I missed you so much.” She was beaming and looked more like her old self. She almost ran me over as she hugged me.

“When did you get back?” I looked at Michael. “That’s the reason why you asked if I had talked to Maria today or not.” I slug him in the arm.

“Yeah, she wanted to surprise you.”

“She did. Maria, you straighten and cut your hair. It looks great. You look great.”

“Thanks. You really like it?”

“Yeah. I like it. So what are you guys going to do tonight?”

“We’re all meeting here to catch up on some stuff. I couldn’t wait any longer I made Michael bring me over before I even unpacked.”

She hugged me again. “I gotta go. Mom hasn’t even seen me yet.”

“Oh, okay. See ya later.” She hugged me one more time and they both left.

The supper crowd was going full blast. All my tables were full and everyone was pretty much taken care of. I made another round with the iced tea pitcher to refill any drinks that needed it. Just as I was heading for the cash register to help check a customer out the bell on the door rang. Max and Isabel came walking in. Isabel waved, but Max averted his eyes to make sure as to not make eye contact with me. Man, life sucks.

“Hey guys. Someone will be with you in just a moment.” It amazes me how the prerecorded lingo flows out of my mouth no matter who it is. That comes with years of practice I guess. I closed the register and went to put the tea pitcher back on the counter by the soda machine. Before I could turn around Michael and Maria were there, sitting down with Max and Isabel. Boy I miss Alex.

I take a deep breath and start filling the drink orders. I don’t know what I was thinking. Agnes isn’t going to get that booth knowing that my friends are sitting in it. Thanks a lot. Three cherry cokes and one iced tea, I hope that is what everyone is still drinking. I place the drinks in their appropriate places. The Cherry Cokes for the three aliens and the iced tea in front of Maria. “Are you guys ready to order or do you want me to give you a few moments to look over the menu?” Yep, I’m in waitress mode. The waitress lingo just flows from my mouth and I don’t even have to think about it. I stand back and wait for their response and notice the song playing from the jukebox. Sick Cycle Carousel by Lifehouse. How appropriate.

If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this?
Well here we go now one more time.


“I think were ready to order Liz.” Thank god for Maria. If she didn’t speak to me I don’t think they would have ever gotten their order taken.

“Isn’t Kyle joining you guys?” I was just wondering because Maria had mentioned it earlier.

“He said that he would be in later.” Maria filled me in. “He said that he had to do something at the house and then he would be over before you closed down. What are you two up to?” I noticed Max’s look on his face. It pained him to hear that I was doing something without him. You would think that with summer practically over he would be used to it by now. Not yet.

“Nothing. I have an errand to run and didn’t want to do it by myself. What can I get you guys to eat?” I gave Maria an evil eye. They gave me their meal order and as I was walking to the food window I continued to listen to Lifehouse.

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground and
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
You better believe that I have tried to beat this.


I brought the burgers to their table. “Is there anything else I can get you guys right now?” There it was again the waitress lingo.

“Nope” from Michael.

“Nope” from Maria.

“No Thank you” from Max.

“I think that will do it for now Liz. Thanks”

“You’re welcome Isabel. Holler if you need anything.” I turned and left. I went to the empty tables in my section and proceeded to clean them off. It helped to keep busy that way I didn’t have to hear them laughing and having a good time. Boy did I miss the old times. What I wouldn’t give to go over there and sit in Max’s lap. I shook my head and took the armload of dirty dishes to the cart and wheeled it back to the kitchen. The supper crowd was clearing out; it usually does about eight o’clock anyway. People on dates had to get to where ever they were going, while others without dates just went home to their solitude. I usually was like the last, but not tonight.

So where will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good.



“Lizzie?” Dad, great, what does he want?

I put on my sweet, innocent smile “Yeah dad?”

“Your mother and I are going out to the movies. You’re closing tonight right?”

“Yes dad.” He didn’t have to rub it in.

“I know you think that we have been tough on you the whole summer but it’s for your own good.”

“I know.” Don’t rock the boat. I don’t want to be grounded longer than necessary.

“I’ll see what I can do to change your mother’s mind.”

“Really? Thanks dad.” I lean up on my toes and gave him a kiss on the cheek. “You guys have fun.”

“We will. Don’t wait up for us.”

“Oooookkkkkaaaaayyyyy… Dad.” I gave him a smile. He knew what I meant.

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time.



I walk over to the booth that I been trying to ignore all night. “Can I get you guys some dessert or anything else?”

“No, we got to get going. We’re going to go watch The Other’s. Maria was kind enough to offer the information.

“Okay… Let me get your check and I will be right back.” I took some of the leftover plates that were on their table and then walked over to get their ticket. I only charged them for half of what they ordered. Hey, they are my friends and if I couldn’t shave a little off their check then what was the purpose for them to come in and eat here? I placed the ticket on the table and they divvied up their bill and left the money on the table.

“See ya later.” Maria called out.

“Okay… I expect a full report tomorrow morning. I have to hear what you did all summer.”

“You can count on that.” Michael, Maria and Isabel walked out the front door. Max had gotten up from the table and went to the restroom.

I finished cleaning up their table and was in the process of wiping it off when he sat back down again. “I wasn’t done.” He said.

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground and
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
You better believe that I have tried to beat this.


“Oh, sorry. Let me go get you a refill.” I turned and headed for the soda machine. Leave it to Max to stay behind. Didn’t he know that I wasn’t ready to talk to him? Maybe he didn’t want to talk. Maybe he felt like a third wheel.

“You’re not going to the movies with the others?” If nothing else works make small talk.

“No. I didn’t feel like seeing a horror movie. Had enough horror this year.”

“Yeah.” I turn to walk away and tend to the other customers in the restaurant.

So where will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this.


It was practically empty now. I told Agnes to go home. There was no point in paying both of us to stay when one of us could handle it. I turn around and notice that it’s just Max and me in the front. Jose was in the back doing dishes. Great. No point in avoiding him any longer. Where was Kyle? I’m not waiting forever for him. If it is the last thing I do I am getting my navel pierced.

Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle, yeah
Sick cycle carousel
This is a sick cycle, yeah.


The phone rang while I was sweeping the floor. “Crashdown, this is Liz. How may I help you?” Years of answering the phone.

“Hi Liz. It’s me; Kyle.”

“Where are you? I’ll be done in fifteen minutes and if you aren’t here I’m going by myself.”

“Look… I know I told you that I would go with you, but something big came up and I need to stay here with dad. He’s talking crazy. He’s decided that he doesn’t want to go back to work. He wants to get his buddies together and start up a band.”

“Has he lost it?” I know that was the wrong thing to say.

“Not completely, but close enough.”

“Alright, I will let you off the hook tonight, but remember you owe me big time.”

“Yeah, yeah… I owe you. Be careful Liz. I don’t know what I would do if something happened to you.”

“I will… what could happen to me here in Roswell?”

“You never know. Just be careful. Call me when you get back or if you want to come by if the lights are still on come in and show me.”

“Alright. I gotta go… Thanks for letting me know you weren’t coming.” I hung up the phone and sat on the stool by the phone. Max was still here. Kyle called and cancelled.

So where will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good.


I walked to the middle of the room. “Um… Max… “

“Yes.” He looked startled a bit.

“Did you by chance see Kyle today?” Something was up. It was too much of a coincidence to have Max sitting here and Kyle canceling.

“Yeah. I wanted to see if I could go through Tess’ things for some kind of clue, she had to know more than she let on, and I’m hoping that she didn’t think about destroying it when we left. She thought that we were going with her.”

“Of all people I thought you would be the last one to go through her things. I’m surprised. I thought I was the only one trying to get to the bottom of things.”

“You were for a long time, but then I started thinking about past events and your instincts were always right. You were right. I don’t know what keeps you here helping us but we owe you so much more than we can give.” He paused. It had taken a lot of courage to say those things to me. “I… I know you are going to go do something that you wanted Kyle to come with you for support. I… I was hoping that you would let me come. I want to be there for you. I want… no. I need to be there for you Liz. I need to make amends with you. If we can’t be friends then I don’t think it would do me... do us any good to stay in Roswell.” He squirmed in the booth. I had sat down on the other side when he started his long speech. I just stared at him. Everything that he was saying was what I was waiting for him to say, but it didn’t give me the sense of victory that I thought it would.

“What are you saying Max?”

“Tell me Liz. Is there any chance of us being friends again and I don’t mean friends that just say hi in the hallway or on the street, but friends that depend on each other and are there for each other?”

I started to shake my head no… “I don’t know. It’s going to take a lot of time, and then even after it is all said and done, I can’t guarantee that it will be like it was. Things have changed. People have changed. I’ve changed Max. I’m not the same girl that you once knew. I really hate to say this but my heart has been ripped out and stomped on by the one person I thought that would always be there to protect me. To love me…”

Where will this end it goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

Sick Cycle Carousel by Lifehouse


I take a deep breath. I had to go on. Get this out of my system. This was one of the six hundred and seventy-six things I wanted to do before the end of the world. I just never thought that it would happen so soon. “I still love you Max, but I don’t trust you.” I hold my hand up to quiet him. “I don’t trust myself. I know it wasn’t all your fault, believe me, I was a major factor in the events that led to the break up of us. If I hadn’t been so adamant about us not being together we wouldn’t be in this situation right now.” I saw Max’s reaction perk up.

“I know that I told you that I would never ask you this again, but why did you pretend to sleep with Kyle?

I stumbled on my words. What was I going to tell him? I stood up. I tried pleading with him with my expression. “I can’t tell you.” I got up and headed for the back to get the mop.

“Liz! Wait. I won’t ask you again. I trust your reasons. Whatever you did you did it for a good reason. It just pains me to see you take all this on your shoulders.”

“What do you want me to do Max?” I had the mop in my hands and started behind the counter. I hated mopping and to tell you the truth I did a half-ass job on it tonight. “What’s done is done. I can’t change the past. I don’t think I did a very good job of changing the future. What’s done is done and no matter what I want it’s not going to happen. We can never be what once was. I will always have to live with that but I will make sure that no one else has to live with that.”

“What do you mean you changed the future? How do you know you changed the future?”

“Nice try Max. I know. Believe me I know.” I put the mop back in the bucket and push it to the back room. I poked my head out the door and said. “If you still want to come along with me that’s fine. Let me change into some street clothes and we can go, but no more talk about what happened in the future. I’m not going to tell you. You don’t need to know what is never going to happen.”

“Okay, but can you tell me what you changed?” I shook my head no. He gave a small smile and I left him by himself.

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posted on 7-Oct-2002 11:08:00 AM by Bordersinsanity
Here's the next part. For disclaimer or summary see the first post... *happy*


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Part 3 — Come to Stay



I headed up the stairs and grabbed a pair of black hip huggers I didn’t want anything riding up on my belly. Always thinking ahead. I threw on my new black crop top with the short sleeves. I tied on my black belt and threw on the black Doc Martens. The outfit looked like something Michael would have worn if he were a girl. The thought made me smile. It fit my attitude, a lot of things in my wardrobe changed from the bright cheerful colors to black. I shut the door to the apartment and headed down the stairs. Max was sitting on the last step. I wasn’t surprised. I knew he wouldn’t stay out in the restaurant by himself.

“Bye Jose. I’m leaving. Everything is done. I put the deposit in the safe along with the receipts. If you don’t mind locking up I would appreciate it.”

“No problemo senorita. Buenos noches.”

We headed out the back door. “Where are we going?”

“Don’t worry about it. If you have to know then I guess you don’t have to come. Otherwise we’ll get there when we get there.”

“Okay.” He held up his hands in self-defense. A car passed by with its window’s down, it left a song blaring in the wind as it went by.

If you're sad and mad
But glad to be away and free
From all the pain you've known
Inside you feel you've grown
If you take your time
With every leap of faith you'll find
It's easier to grow
With every step you know
Come to stay or stay away
Come to stay or stay away


We took a left off of Main Street and walked a few blocks south. There wasn’t really any parts of Roswell that were run down, but it helped knowing that Max was there just in case anything went wrong.

If you take too long
pretending that there's nothing wrong
Don't waste my time 'cause I'll be fine
Either way you'll see
That who we are what will be
In the end it's time to show


After fifteen minutes of walking we were almost there. I could see the rainbow neon sign that read ‘TATTOOS’. Although I wasn’t getting a tattoo tonight I would be in the near future. I looked at Max and we stopped.

“You’re not getting a tattoo are you?”

“Not tonight.”

“Liz. This isn’t like you.”

“How do you know this isn’t me? I told you Max before we left. The old me is no longer available. If you want the old me you might as well just turn back and go sit at the Crashdown and wait. I will tell you now you will be waiting for the rest of your life. I can’t be like I was back then. I was naïve and I’m not going to go back. Ever.”

“Okay Liz. I hear you. It’s just that it’s just going to take some time getting used to that’s all.”

“Fine. Now are you coming or going? I have an appointment and don’t want to be late for it.” I went ahead and left him standing there.

Step up and let me know
Come to stay or away
Come to stay or away
I hope that you can see
Nobody loves you more than me
Come to stay or stay away
Away
Away
Away
While distance grows between us
Every step you take away you take a piece of me
If you say so long
Pretending that there's something wrong
It's all for naught
'Cause I forgot


“Hey Lizzie. Glad you could make the appointment. I did some searching and think I came up with something you were looking for.” Sam was a good man. He ate at the restaurant quite often. That’s how I learned about his little business on the south side of town.

“Sam.” I acknowledged him. “Let me see what you found.” I had shown him a picture out of my grandmother’s book about the Native American culture. I was looking for something in particular that resembled something that kept on reoccurring in most of her research.

He held out a silver ring that held a single onyx bead that had an engraving on it like the necklace Isabel had found at Atherton’s home the first summer. “It’s perfect. Where did you find it?”

“There is a little Indian reservation out by Hondo that has a lot of artifacts similar to this. I took a chance with the black one. I figured it would fit into your wardrobe quite nicely.” He smiled. Sam was an older man almost in his late fifties, but he looked like he was in the forties. Well kept, salt and pepper hair. It used to be thick at one time but had been thinning lately on top.

“You figured right. It’s perfect.”

“Are you ready?”

“Yeah, I gotta do it fast. My parents are at the movies and I need to make sure that I am home before they get home. Remember there’s an extra fifty in it for you if you don’t mention a word about all the work you will be doing for me.” I smiled at him a little.

“Not a problem. Sit down let’s get this over.” I looked around to see if Max was coming. I could still sense that he was close but he was still where I had left him.

I sat down and held on tight to the arm of the chair. It reclined like the one at the dentist’s office, but the only difference was this one was black leather. The one at the dentist’s was a bone color.

Sam took a clear plastic bottle of alcohol and swabbed the area good, making sure that he got real good inside my belly button. It tickled a little bit and made me relax as well. He then took a brown, almost black glass bottle and swabbed by belly area once more. My guess was that it was iodine. “Don’t want you getting any infections because I didn’t do a thorough job.” He smiled. I smiled and began to get really nervous.


If in time you find
The only leap of faith was mine
Is it easier to go
Or say we'll never know
Come to stay or stay away
Come to stay or stay away


Why did I have to be so hard on Max? Couldn’t I have kept my big mouth shut until it was over? As if he heard my thoughts the bell on the front door rang and in walked Max. A little pale, but hey, he was here. I smiled at him and held out my hand for him to sit and hold it.

“Thanks” is all I said to him.

“What are friends for?” He gave my hand a little squeeze and Sam did his duty. I tensed but it was over before I knew it. The last few bars of Oleander’s song were the only thoughts going through my head as the needle went in and the belly ring was in its home.

I hope that you can see
Nobody loves you more than me
Come to stay or stay away
Away
Away
Away - yeah, yeah
Away - yeah, yeah
Away - yeah, yeah
Away - yeah, yeah.

Come to Stay by Oleander


“You make sure to keep the area clean with alcohol at least three times a day.” I nodded and started to dig in my pants for the money that I owed him.

I handed him the money and he took it and shoved into his pants. “Is your young man interested in anything tonight?”

“I don’t think so.” Max quickly supplied Sam with an answer.

“So… Max. Do you like it?” I had both my hands in my pockets to push the front of my pants farther down. It didn’t really hurt but I knew there would be a time that it would.

“It’s cute. I never thought about it before, but it looks great there.”

“Really?”

“Yeah. So does it hurt?” I took my right hand out of its pocket and fingered the ring. Testing the water so to speak.

“Not too bad. Are you sure Sam can’t do anything for you?”

“Yeah. Maybe next time.” He joked.

“Liz, how about I schedule you in for your tattoo in a few weeks. That way it will give you some time to heal before I have you laying on your belly for over an hour.”

“That sounds good. How does the end of August work for you? I get paid on the thirty-first.”

“The thirty-first it is.”

I turn to Max. “Would you mind coming and holding my hand again?”

“Not a problem. I think I’m free that night.” He took my hand and we headed out of the tattoo parlor.

“Thanks Sam. See you in a few weeks.”

“Nice to meet you Max. Keep me in mind if ever you want to add some art to your body.”

“I will.”

We left and were out in the street when Max turned me toward him. “You know I could have done it for you without any of the pain. All you had to do is ask.”

“I know. I actually thought about it, but then it wouldn’t be a true experience.”

“What’s the deal with all this Liz? Why are you doing things like this?” He pointed to the tattoo parlor for emphasis.

“There are things in life that people never get around to doing because death caught them by surprise. I don’t want to die and wish that there was more time to do the things I put off.”

“Liz…” Max had a worried look on his face.

“No, Max. I’m not dying anytime soon. I just want to have all my bases covered before I go.” A gave him a small kidding smile to ease him some.

He took my hand and I let him. He needed comforting as well as I did. It was nice. The night had grown a little chilly and I let go of his hand and started rubbing mine up and down my arms.

“Are you cold?”

“Not really.”

“Here.” He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and we continued walking in silence.

We were in the alley behind the Crashdown and at the stairs that lead to the door to the apartment.

“Thanks Max. It meant a lot for you to come with me.”

“Not a problem.”

I started walking up the stairs and leaned over the railing “I’m going to try.”

“Try what” he said looking up at me.

“I’m going to try and be friends with you like we used to be. Give me some time.”

“Thanks Liz. It means a lot to me.”

“Me too, Max. Me too.” I continued up the stairs and quickly changed into my pajamas. It was going to be hard for mom and dad not to see the belly ring. I had to be careful.

Pajamas consisted of a black tank and a pair of Joe Boxers. Color? You got it. Black. However, they had rainbow happy faces on them. I turned the waistband down a few rolls so it wouldn’t rub on the ring. Sam did a good job. It didn’t really hurt that badly and the ring that he had picked out was perfect.

I had to go to Hondo to see the little jewelry shop. I made a mental note and added it to the list of things to do before the end of the world hits.

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tbc


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posted on 7-Oct-2002 8:28:29 PM by Bordersinsanity
If there is any song that you want to hear let me know and I'll post a link to it...

Thanks for all the feedback... You guys just make writing fanfic worth while.

take care
Jen
posted on 8-Oct-2002 9:13:35 AM by Bordersinsanity
Thanks for all the feedback...

~SciFiNut111 -- Yeah, the good old days. I totally agree. Wish they would have done a better job.

~Ari -- All I have to say... is wait and see... It will all come out in the wash.


Here you go! The next part...


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Part 4 — Turn Off the Light



I was tossing and turning in bed. I don’t know if it was because I was being cautious of the belly ring or what, but I couldn’t get to sleep. I got up and went out on the balcony. I lit the candles and turned on the radio. Nelly Furtado’s Turn Off the Light was playing.

I think I will always couple Nelly with Alex’s death. I went to turn it off but decided not to. It was her new song. I sat down and began to listen, really listen.

It's getting so lonely inside this bed
Don't know if I should lick my wounds or say woe is me instead
There's an aching inside my head
It's telling me I'm better off alone
But after midnight, morning will come
And the day will see if you will get some


I went back in and grabbed my journal. The last entry was prom night. After seeing Max kiss Tess I had left and went to find Sean. I don’t think I will ever look at a bowling alley in the same light again. Sean had been good for my soul, but now he was gone. I don’t want to fall back into the same groove as before.

They say that girl ya know she act too tough tough tough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
They say that girl you know she act so rough rough rough
Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light
And I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down
till' you see all my dreams
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems


I began to write down the things I had accomplished. I made a list.

Accomplishments:
    1. Belly ring
    2. Talked to Max
    3.


To Do!:
    1. Leather
    2. Jewelry
    3. Self-defense of some kind


So far the list was short, but I had a few other things on my list that I didn’t exactly want to write down. Too incriminating if it were found out. I blow out all the candles and turn off the radio. With the journal in-tow I go back inside and lie back down in bed. Nelly’s song is still playing over and over in my head. Tomorrow was a new day.

I looked above the other day
Cuz I think I'm good and ready for a change
I live my life by the moon
If it's high play it low, if it's harvest go slow and if it's full, then go
But after midnight, morning will come
And the day will see if you're gonna get some


My dad banging on my door wakes me up. “Lizzie. It’s time to get up. The breakfast rush is going to be starting soon.”

“Alright Dad. I’ll be down in a minute.” I felt like I had just fallen asleep. Why does it seem like you just fall asleep right when you are about to be woken up? Who knows? I drag my tired body into the bathroom and take a moment to admire my new belly ring in the full-length mirror. It looks good if I do say so myself.

I'm searching for things that I just cannot see
Why don't you don't you don't you come and be with me
I pretend to be cool with me, wanna believe
That I can do it on my own without my heart on my sleeve
I'm running, I'm running, catch up with me life
Where is the love that I'm looking to find?
It's all in me, can't you see, why can't you, why can't you see it's all in me


I troop down the stairs while I tie my apron on. I’m late. Who cares? My dad runs the joint. I step through the swinging door and to my amazement Max is in his usual booth. I give him a quizzical look, and mouth ‘what are you doing here?’

He smiles.

All in me


Dad was right the crowd was busy. I got the counter. Lucky me. The counter usually moves a lot quicker than the tables. During the morning rush I thought that it was a little convenient for me to have the counter instead of my usual station. I guess Dad was still a little hesitant about Max and me. *Note to self – remind dad that Max and I are friends again. It had been a long, long summer without him in my life. Two months down and one to go.

Where is your logic?
Who do you need?
Where can you turn in your delicate time of need?


I finally had the counter in pretty good shape and made my way to Max. “What are you doing here this early?”

“Mom was making some kind of quiche and I didn’t feel like forcing the food down. I told her that I had plans with you today.”

“Really?”

“I think she was glad to hear it. She practically scooted me out of the house before I was dressed.” The twinkle in his eye was back. There he goes again. Screwing around with my mind. I don’t need this.

I get up and start back to my station. I turn and tell him that I get off at one. “Do you want to meet me here and then we can go to the library for a few hours?”

“Okay.” I hadn’t stopped for his reply. I knew what it was. By the time I was back behind the counter he was out of the booth and paying dad at the register.

Follow me follow me down down down down
I do not need I do not need nobody


The rest of my shift went quick. Give a person a goal to look forward to and time seems to fly. I had gotten off early. Surprise, surprise. I went upstairs to shower and change. I put on another pair of hip huggers. The basis to my wardrobe now… and put on the red bandana top and a flannel shirt over it. I had buttoned the flannel up but kept the sleeves unbuttoned. I didn’t want my parents to notice the ring. I was back downstairs sitting out front waiting on Max.

Where is your logic?
Who do you need?
Where can you turn?

Turn off the Light by Nelly Furtado


I hear the church bell’s ringing in the distance. One strike. I look up and notice Max in his dad’s rental car. Right on time. He gets out as I stood up. I noticed that he had a new leather jacket. God did he look good in leather. Just one of the reason leather was on my things to do list.

“Did you get a new leather jacket?”

“Yeah.” He straightened it out so I could get the full effect.

“I like it.”

“Yeah? I just don't feel comfortable in my clothes anymore. That was someone else. It's the past.”

“Where'd you get it?”

“This thrift shop in Hondo”

“Take me there?”

“Sure.” We got in the car and drove off. My list was well on its way of having a few more items moved from one column to another. .

The library would have to wait.

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posted on 8-Oct-2002 10:01:46 PM by Bordersinsanity
I did know about the gun and the ski mask... I wrote this fic in about two to three weeks before the season 3 pilot aired so... the promos were out and all. I just had to race to get it done before the first episode showed. I think I remember post the final scene at 6:00 on Tuesday night right before the episode showed... nothing like cutting it close.

Anyway, I don't know how familiar you are to the spoilers but there was a couple of scripts floating out there as well as people that had seen the filming of the first episode so... that's basically all I had to go on...

A few things I had to include in the fic:

1. Max's new ride...
2. The new look that most of our podsters and their significant others received...
3. Finding the ship...
4. Having the crystal for the ship...
5. And getting to Utah...

Plus I had to make a believable reunion between Max and Liz. I had to find a way for Liz to want to be with Max and I didn't want her just to go crawling back.


You tell me how I did when we're all done... If you have anymore questions just let me know. I enjoy seeing what's going on in ya'lls head.

take care will post another part tomorrow...
*happy*
posted on 9-Oct-2002 11:03:20 AM by Bordersinsanity
Alrighty folks... here's the next part. Have fun!

All disclaimers and notes made in post 1

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Part 5 — In The End



It didn’t take us long to get on the road to Hondo. Hondo. I shivered just a little. A dark memory creeping back to the surface. //Tess and I were sitting in Max’s jeep. She was in the process of mind warping Pierce’s goons to go to Hondo.// I shook my head. I didn’t want to think about Tess, not today.

It starts with one thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try keep that in mind


“What’s wrong?” Great Max had noticed.

“Nothing. Just thinking.” I shifted closer to the window and rested my head against the warm window. The desert was dry and barren, just like my life, but it was all changing. I was making sure of that.

I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know


“So have you found anything at the library?” Small talk. Awkwardness. I hated feeling uncomfortable around him. What do I say? How do I act? What do I want to happen? All these questions were floating around in my head and he had to go and add another one.

“Maybe. I’m not really sure. I was going to research it today, but decided I wanted to do this first. Sorry.” I gave him a sympathetic look.

“It’s okay. I understand and maybe when we get back I can help you follow up on the lead that you have.”

“Sure” I didn’t want to give him false hope. It’s just that I think I may have found another key to the Granolith. I just wasn’t sure why there would be another one if the Granolith were basically a disposable piece of equipment. It just didn’t make sense.

Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal


“So what have you been doing all summer?” More small talk.

“Working. Brody gave me more responsibility. You are now looking at the manager of the UFO Museum.” He looked like he was proud. How weird was it to know that the man sitting behind the wheel of his dad’s car was an alien king from another planet. I guess he needed to take comfort in the little things. We all did.

“That’s great. I think. Where did he go?”

“Well, with the thing that happened with his memory retrieval device he decided that it was best to be closer to Sidney and his ex-wife. He thought that he had had a mental breakdown. Who was I to argue with him? He’s the boss. With Sidney being well and all I think he really wanted to have a fresh start with his wife. I guess having Sidney sick was the whole reason they were a part.”

“So he’s not even in Roswell?”

“Nope.”

“Did he by chance leave his alien room open for you to use?” It could be relevant in trying to find out information on a few things that were in the works.

“He did.” Max had a grin on his face. I’m sure he already knew that it would be helpful in pinpointing the specific’s when the time came for Tess and the rest of the bad guys to come for us. Yes, I still consider it US. No matter how hard we tried we will always be linked to the three of them… Always.

“So… How’s Isabel doing? I see she’s cut her hair and she’s told me that she is working for your parents. What’s that all about?”

I think I had hit a nerve. Max took a while to think about what he was going to say, or maybe he was trying to figure out how he was going to say it. I let him sit there and went back to looking out my window.

Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go


“She is working for them. I don’t know what possessed her to work for them; she knows nothing about the law. As for the haircut, I’m still not used to it. She says that she wanted to look mature so she could get the respect at the office. She didn’t want to be known around the office as Daddy’s little girl. She’s growing up.”

“Don’t you think it’s time that she does that?”

“I do.”

“I’m sure Alex’s death took its toll on her. Give her some time Max. We all need a little time.”

“I know.”

“Look at Maria. She did it. She looks great. She left Roswell for a few months and came back a new person.”

“Yeah, I know. Michael wouldn’t let me be while she was away.”

I slumped back into the seat and continued to look out the window. I didn’t know what else to say so I didn’t say anymore. Max continued driving. It just wasn’t the same. Nothing was. If only he wouldn’t have saved me that day in September. Sure I could have died, but it was worth a chance. I would gladly die if it meant that Max, Michael, Isabel, Maria and Alex would be safe for all eternity. I took a deep breath and blew it out. It was a way of relaxing.

“Are you ok? Do you want me to pull over to stretch a little?”

“Sure, if you want to. I have all day. Nothing too important waiting for me when I get home.” I gave him a false smile. I hated this awkwardness.

At the next rest area he pulled in. We both got out and went our separate ways. The rest area wasn’t the cleanest one. The pale yellow paint on the concrete walls was peeling off in thick patches. As I walked inside there was graffiti on the longest wall. Nicely done if you want to say so. They had plenty of practice. A neon green alien head was in the center. The words said, “They are out there!” If they only knew how true it was.

I did my business and after exiting the stall I went to the stainless steel sink. It only had one water control. Luke warm. The mirror wasn’t actually a mirror but a highly polished piece of stainless steel as well. Over the years of wiping it down with rough paper towels it was no longer useful. What will they come up with next? I undid my flannel shirt and examined the ring. It still didn’t hurt. That surprised me. I contemplated on whether or not to take the flannel off or not. I chose not to. I didn’t want to give Max the wrong idea. No, that wasn’t it... I didn’t want to be too forward. Me. Liz Parker. Being too forward. It was possible.

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter


I pushed my hair behind my ear and then took it out again. That was another thing I wanted to change. I made a mental note to put that on my list of things to do. That action alone was a sign that showed that I was nervous. It could get us all killed in the future. I had to make sure that when the time came I was a blank wall to all those that didn’t know me. I rounded the concrete wall and looked toward the car. Max was leaning on the hood. God he looked good in leather. The flash of future Max went racing across my memory. I just stood there and stared.

“What? Do I have something in my teeth?” Max stood up off the car pretending to dig at something in his teeth.

“No. Nothing. I walked over to the Coke machine. “Do you want anything to drink?” I was digging in my pants pocket to get the change out for a Coke.

“No. I’m good to go.”

“Are you sure? I have plenty of change. You know that with me having to work practically everyday this summer I have coffee cans full of this stuff.” I pulled my hand out of my pocket and held a hand full of change up for emphasis.

“Yeah.” He didn’t finish what he was saying and I guess it was his turn to stare. I looked at myself and realized that the flannel shirt had fallen off my left shoulder and my bandana top had ridden up exposing my midriff. I was showing a lot of skin and I do mean A LOT!

“What… Do I have something in my teeth?” It was my turn to tease him. I pretended to dig at my teeth. Yep, we both had the same feelings for each other. No use denying it any longer. I just had one question for myself. When was I going to drop the badass act? The answer, as soon as I knew that we were ready for the shit to hit the fan. That’s when. I adjusted the flannel shirt and deposited the money in the machine and punched the button for a root beer.

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try, keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme, to explain in due time
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me (in the end)
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I


I gathered myself and started for the passenger side of the car. “You can blink now.” I couldn’t help it. I missed where we used to be, and I liked the way he looked at me. It had been a long time, a really long time.

I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know


I drank some and placed the can into the cup holder in the center console. I adjusted myself in the seat and continued to stare out the window. Awkward silence once again. “So you said that you went over to Kyle’s to look at Tess’ stuff. Did you find anything?”

“No, not yet. I didn’t even get a foot into the storage room. I just stood there and stared most the afternoon. It was harder than I thought it would be.”

“I don’t mean to sound…” I was looking for the right word. There was no word that I could think of so I just blurted it out. “People are depending on you Max. You don’t have time to pussy foot around. There are innocents that could be harmed just by being in the same town as you, hell, the same world as you. What if the information that you put off finding tells you that Tess and Khivar will be back next week? What kind of leader does that make you? You have to push the personal feelings aside.” There I said it. It might not have been the best way of saying it but it got the point across.

I dared to look at him. He was gripping the steering wheel pretty tight, so tight that his knuckles were turning white. I undid my seatbelt and turned in the seat so I could face him. “I know I didn’t say that the right way.” I was prepared to go farther but he interrupted me.

“No. Don’t apologize. You’re right. Like always.”

“Max.”

“Stop it Liz. Comforting my feelings isn’t going to do us any good. You’re right. You aren’t the same person as you were before.” I turned back around in the seat and went to looking out window once again.

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter


“Buckle your seatbelt.” That’s all he said. I did what he said and nothing more was said between us.

I ran the events of the conversation over and over again and I didn’t come up with an alternative way. Those things had to be said and if it made the distance between us bigger then it was bigger. No regrets. My new motto.

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

In The End by Linkin Park


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posted on 10-Oct-2002 3:27:35 PM by Bordersinsanity
Sometimes we have to be hard on the ones we love in order for them to truly be the person they are destined to be.

I almost forgot to post another part today... Sorry for the delay...

Thanks for all the feedback.

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Part 6 — It’s Been Awhile



Hondo couldn’t come at a better time. Max dropped me off at the Indian jewelry shop while he parked the car farther down the strip by the second-hand shop. We had decided that we would walk from one shop to the other.

“May I help you?” It had to be an elder, an Indian woman she was. Long salt and peppered hair that was braided down to the tip. She was wearing faded blue jeans and a pair of moccasins. She was wearing a western shirt, like the one that I had seen Eddie wear so often in the visits with River Dog.

“Um… Yes. I was looking for something to go with this.” I lifted up the bandana top and showed the woman the belly ring. “The man said that he had purchased it here and I would like to see what you have in necklaces and bracelets to match.”

It’s been a while
Since I could hold my head up high
It’s been awhile
Since I first saw you
It’s been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
It’s been awhile
Since I could call you


“You have traveled a great distance to get to this place?” Her features were peaceful and caring. I didn’t mind telling here the information that she was looking for.

“No, not really. I came from Roswell.”

“No, child. I do not speak of a physical place but one that exists on another plane. You have gone through many battles at such a young age. It hasn’t been kind to you but you are a warrior.” Her words of wisdom surprised me. River Dog always had a way of doing that.

“How do you know?”

She smiled and giggled a soft giggle. I’m not really sure giggle was the correct word for it but it would have to do. Maybe a chuckle? “The way you hold your head and the way your body moves don’t represent the way your voice speaks for you. You are torn between to worlds, two destinies but they are one in and of the same.” I didn’t listen to the woman any longer. The word destiny never did me any good.

I interrupted the woman, “Maybe, but I was wondering if you have something that I would be interested in buying today?” The bell above the door rang. In walked Max. He didn’t have a smile on his face like he did the first time I saw him today. I had taken care of that.

“Ahh. This young man must be with you. You two belong together.”

“No, I don’t think so. Been there and done that and his destiny is much more important than mine is. I’m no one that he needs.” I’m sure Max didn’t hear what the woman had said but he might have heard what I said. It was too soon to see.

But everything I can't remember
as f***** up as it all may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means


“I see.” The elder started to walk behind a glass case that was filled with jewelry. “Your bead came from this section. I might have something else for you in the back excuse me while I go look.”

“Thanks.” Max was walking around the shop, basically everywhere where I wasn’t. I looked down at the rows and rows of jewelry. Nothing very interesting but I needed the woman to come back so she could pull it out for me to get a closer look

“Find anything yet?” I jumped just a little bit because I hadn’t expected him to talk to me.

“Not yet. She said that she might have something in the back that I would like.” I looked up at him. I really hated this distance between us. All I could do now was hope that things would get better.
It’s been awhile
Since I could say that I wasn’t addicted
It’s been awhile
Since I could say I love myself as well
It’s been awhile
Since I’ve gone and f***** things up just like I always do
It’s been awhile
But all that s*** seems to disappear when I’m with you


“Oh.” He concentrated on the glass case in front of him. The Indian woman returned with a black velvet tray lined with a few necklaces.

“I think you might find something in this bunch that might pique your interest.” It was hard to tell what the woman was really saying. Her words so far had a double meaning to them. I think she knows more than what she wants to put forth. What? Me being paranoid? Nah.

“Thanks.” She set the black tray on top of the counter. It was a better selection. The first thing that grabbed my attention was a choker. It had a lot of black strands and in the center was a bunch of sterling silver beads that were etched with some interesting carvings. “Is there a history behind any of this jewelry?” I looked up at the woman and put a piece of hair behind my ear. I immediately took it back out. I really needed to concentrate on that.

But everything I can't remember
as f***** up as it may seem
The consequences that I've rendered,
I've gone and f***** things up again.



She smiled at me and then at Max. “Why do you ask?”

“I was just wondering what the etchings mean. Everything in your culture tells a story. My grandmother studied your ways for most of her life. I was just wondering.” I don’t know why I wasted a smile on the woman, she knew me better than I knew myself. I wish that I had more time to spend with her.

I looked at Max he has a questionable look on his face. I’m sure he wanted to know what I was getting at. “You are correct, child. Much of our jewelry tells a story. This piece however, doesn’t seem to have much significance to our culture.” I didn’t believe her. I wondered what made her decide to start lying to us.

“I definitely want this one.” I held up the choker and tried to put it on. My hair was in the way and before I knew it Max was holding my hair up. “Thanks, Max.” I smiled a genuine smile to him. He smiled back. After I had the choker on he let my hair fall down onto my shoulders. His hands continued down my arms and lingered a little bit longer than I expected near my wrists.

The old woman had turned around while I put the necklace on and retrieved a mirror for me to look in. I ran my fingers up and down the beads lining them up and turning them so the etching was clearly visible.

“It looks good on you. It matches your spirit.” I looked up at the woman. She saw so much more in me than I did myself.

Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away,
Just one more peaceful day


I continued to look around and wandered back to the back of the shop. Max stayed up front with the elder. They had begun talking while I was still shopping. I wish that I could get some good information out of her. Maybe that is what Max was doing now. I looked back up front and they were too engrossed in each other so I turned and continued looking at another case. She was right, there wasn’t much in the cases that didn’t resemble anything in Grandma Claudia’s book.

It's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
It's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
It's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face
It's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste



I was looking in the mirror at the back of the room when I noticed that both the woman and Max were walking my way. I continued to watch them head my way through the mirror. Max was now standing behind me with the smile from earlier on his face. The twinkle in his eyes was back.

“What are you up to?” He smiled again.

“I found something and I want to see how it looks on you.”

“Okay…” I grabbed my hair and pulled it up so that he would be able to get the necklace on. His hands felt warm against the back of my neck. The necklace was something that looked definitely Native American. It had several round silver beads and in places between them were longer cylinder shape beads to break up the monotony of it. There was a feather shaped stone of turquoise, burnt sienna, burgundy and white after one of the cylinder beads, then there was three more round ones and then in the middle of the necklace was an oval piece of turquoise completely surrounded by sterling silver. Once again, there were engraved feathers on the side of the turquoise stone that framed it. I let my hair down. Max’s hands were still resting on my shoulders.

But everything I can't remember
As f***** up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me


I smiled back at him through the mirror. “It looks good on you.”

“It does. I like it. Where did you find it? It wasn’t on the tray that she had brought out to me earlier.”

“I persuaded her to let me buy something a little more unique than what was being displayed. It just looked like something that would look good around your neck. It brings the attention of anyone’s gaze up to your face.” He had started to blush, I leaned back into him.

“Thanks, Max. I like it.”

The old woman cleared her throat and then she touched us. As she was holding both of our hands she began to say something. “There is too big a gap between the two of you. The universe is spiraling down to nothingness. Your minds are clouding what is in you hearts.” Her touch made my head grow fuzzy and before I could pull away I slumped down to the floor. I felt Max go down with me.

It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since I said

I'm sorry

It’s Been Awhile by Staind


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posted on 11-Oct-2002 7:36:48 PM by Bordersinsanity
I was driving home and realized that I hadn't updated today. Work was hell please forgive me. I just hate it when I'm in meetings all day... Jeez the nerve...

Here you go! Please enjoy... I'll try and post another part tomorrow sometime.

No promises since my family is so demanding of my time on the weekends.


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Part 7 — I Shall Believe



~*~Dream~*~

The scene before me was one that I had tried to forget for ages. The time: October. Yes the old woman was forcing me to tell Max what really happened between Kyle and me. I looked around and yes, I was sitting on my lawn chair that always sat on my balcony and… wait. “What are you doing here?” Max was sitting on the ledge near the ladder that led down to the street.

Come to me now
And lay your hands over me
Even if it's a lie
Say it will be alright
And I shall believe



“I have no idea. What is the woman trying to get us to do? More importantly how was she able to do what she did?”

“I don’t know what she did, but I have an idea of what she wants us to do.” He just looked at me, but something had grabbed his attention to the window. I turned my head to see what he was looking at. Me. He was looking at the version of me in a sweatshirt standing in front of my oval mirror pulling the lace runner over my head.

Max got up from where he was. He walked over to the window so he could get a better view. I stayed where I was. I knew what was going to happen. “What are you doing?”

“I, Liz Parker, take Max Evans to be...” The past version was right on queue. How embarrassing.

I'm broken in two
And I know you're on to me
That I only come home
When I'm so all alone
But I do believe



“It’s October, I have tried so hard to make you go to Tess. Maria had just taken us to see a psychic. Well, she had told me that you chose love over destiny, she told me...” I paused trying to remember what the woman had said to me. Then it hit me, clear as day. “You marry your true love. You have happiness. This card here? Intimacy, sex. You will not be left wanting.” I was a little red from stating exactly what the woman had said.

Max shook his head no. What was she talking about?

“This is the night that you come and serenade me.” The flash hits the balcony. Max almost fell over backwards but held his place. The scene unfolded in front of us. I didn’t know whether or not if we talked if it would change the effects of the dream.

“What the hell?” Max had said as plain as day. The future version of him didn’t even notice us.

“It’s you, from the future.”

“How do you know it’s me? How did I get here? Liz…” Max looked scared, but he quieted down to watch the show.

“No, no, I don't...I don't know who you are, but you...you're not Max.” I was running around the room looking crazy. It was almost comical.

“Liz, I know this is all hard to believe... “

“Wh-what? You expect me to believe that the...the Granolith is like some sort of time machine? “ I glanced over to where Max was sitting near the window. He was too enthralled in the scene that was playing out in front of him to pay any attention to me.

“It wasn't intended to be, but it does have an enormous amount of power, and we were able to modify it to artificially create a tear in time space. “

“No! No! There is no such thing as time travel, okay...because it is against every rule of physics, of reality, of everything.”

“Look, I realize this is overwhelming.”

“No, you're not Max, okay? You...you're like a shape shifter. You are like some other kind of alien, with, like… the ability to look like Max with that beard and those...and those gray hairs.”

“Do you really see gray?”

“This isn't funny, okay?” I was now standing on my bed looking at the future Max. God did he look good in leather.

“Is this real?” My Max was asking me. I shook my head to quit my staring at the Future Max in leather pants.

“Yes. This is what changed it all for us. This is what I have been keeping from you.” I shifted in the chair and took my attention back to my room.

“Hold on.” Future Max was getting ready to tell me what is going to happen next.

“No! Let go of me!”

“Liz...Liz, it's me.” The pain on his face was quite noticeable. I had seen that same look on my Max’s face a few times since.

“Please, just let go of me. “ I shook loose of his grip and step down off the bed. I straightened myself for what was to come.

“If I were a shape shifter, there's no way I could tell the future. In approximately ten seconds, I will show up outside your window and begin singing to you...accompanied by a mariachi band. “

“A mariachi band. Max wouldn't do anything that cheesy. “ I looked at Max. His eyes didn’t move from the scene. He had wanted to know what changed my mind for so long and here he was getting his answer in person.

“3...2...1. “ Nothing happened.

“Well? “

“I said approximately. “ Even in that time of desperation Max was able to keep things light for me. He must have really loved his Liz.

Music starts down on the street. Max gets up and walks over to the wall and looks down. “It’s me… again.” Yeah, this was getting too weird. There were now three different versions of the same man.

The past version of me and the future version of Max are now out on the balcony.

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly you won't give up on me
And I shall believe
And I shall believe


“I spent a week learning the lyrics from Mr. Delgado at the hardware store.”

Past Max and his mariachi buddies start singing to the past me in Spanish.

“Wow, that's really embarrassing. “ She said.

“I know...but I had to do something to get your attention. You had shut me out.

Past Max throws up a bouquet of red roses to her.

“As I threw the flowers up to you, I remembered you preferred white roses.

The roses change from red to white as they are in the air. She catches them.

“Why are you here? “ She asks the future version of Max while she smells the roses.

“I can't tell you too much, Liz...only what you need to know...but fourteen years from now, we are taken over by our enemies.”

“Uh, who's taken over?”

“Everyone. Earth. I need you to help me keep that from happening. We need to change the future. What we do here has to be precise and surgical. No one can know I'm here, especially not me...that is, my younger self. “

“Uh, what is it you want to... “

“Not now...your dad's coming. “ It was amazing that in a fourteen-year time span he still remembered when my dad walks in. I never really thought about it, Max had remembered almost everything that had ever happened between us.

My dad knocks on the door and enters the room to find out what all the noise is about, he ends out on the balcony with the rest of us.

Open the door
And show me your face tonight
I know it's true
No one heals me like you
And you hold the key


“Lizzie? What the hell is going on out there? Is that Max again?” He leaned over the balcony “Max, is that you again? It's 11:00. Tomorrow's a school day... “ After he finished his speech he walked away, but not before adding “Aw, jeez. “ when he saw the flowers.

The past Max then walks away and the future version of him walks back into my room. He picks up the strip of photos that were taken in one of those photo booths the first fall that we were together.

The past version of me walks in and states, “That's private. Okay, I have some questions. “ When did I not have questions?

“I understand. “

“If you need Max to do something different, why don't you just go to Max directly?”

“It's complicated...but if a person encounters himself in another time period, there could be a...a reaction.”

“A reaction...”

“I don't entirely understand it myself, but Serena said...she's gonna be a friend of yours one day. It has something to do with quantum mechanics, but in essence, Max and I would both be destroyed if we actually came into contact. “ I still hadn’t met Serena. I wonder if I will ever meet her now?

“Oh. “

“Liz, what's about to happen over the next few days is critical to the history of this planet. Things between us are about to change...grow deeper. We become inseparable, and nothing comes between us ever again, until... “

“The...the end of the world? “

“That's right. “

“What happened? “

“The closer that you and I grew, the worse it got with Tess, and eventually she left Roswell.“

“Because of me? “

“Because of me, and how I treated her. And it turned out Tess was critical to our survival. The four of us - Michael, Isabel, Tess, and I...we made a complete unit. We all had different gifts, and with one of us missing, we weren't as strong, and everything fell apart. “

“So, um...you want me to help you and Tess get together? “

“Yes. “

“NO!” The present Max was standing up now. “This is ridiculous. I would never do this. I wouldn’t ever ask you to do this. This isn’t real.” He looked at me.

“It’s real. It happened.” That’s all I could say. He was still listening very closely to what was happening in the room.

“Why don't you just go to Tess? “

“It's you I trust. It's you I have faith in, and because it's not just about getting me close to Tess. I need you to help me fall out of love with you. “

The scene inside faded and it left Max with nothing to look at but me. “What happens next? Tess still left. Nothing I did helped.” Bingo! He now realized the agony that I had been living for so long. He was on his way over to me but the scene changed as if the powers that be were listening to him. Future Max and Past Liz where at the glass door at Whitaker's office.

Never again
would I turn away from you
I'm so heavy tonight
But your love is alright
And I do believe


“What are we doing here?” Present Max asked.

“This is where you go and meet Tess and then you catch me here.” I pointed to the past me talking to the future him.

“Good, you got her to wear that top. “

“Yeah, so you like that top? “

“Well, we have to...play every card we have. “

Past Max arrives promptly and sits down at Tess' table

“Here he comes. “ Future Max said.

“Just don't look at him. Let him come to you. Show him the book. Make sure he sees it. “ The past me was trying to coax Tess on what to do. I look back on it now and realize how stupid that was.

“He sat down. You got him to sit down with her. “

“Rah-rah... What? “ I started laughing. The present Max looked at me as well as the Future version.

“Shh.” Is all he said and I quit laughing. He had a right to quiet me down. He didn’t know what was happening and he didn’t want to miss anything.

“Nothing. It's just...seeing you at seventeen again is making it all come flooding back to me. How my stomach used to rumble every time I saw you. “

“So, um...did we get married? “ The present Max looked at me.

“Liz, you know I can't... “

“You...I know, you can't talk about it. I'm sorry. I know. “

“We eloped. We were nineteen. “

“We were nineteen? Wow, that is so young. That is too young. “

“That's what I said, but you said that Romeo and Juliet were even younger than us, so we drove to Vegas. Got married at the Elvis chapel. Congratulations, kids.“ Future Max’s version of Elvis was still cute. I shook my head. I couldn’t believe that I was looking back on these events without completely losing it. What was wrong with me?

“So we didn't have a real wedding. “

“Oh, we had a great wedding. You called Maria, Michael, Isabel, and Alex, and had them meet us halfway. We spent the whole night singing and dancing in some dive outside Phoenix, and at the end of the night, "I Shall Believe" came on the radio. “

“I love that song. “

“I know. Everyone else was exhausted, but not us. Oh, we danced...just the two of us. And ever since then, it's been our song. “

“If this works...I'm not gonna have that day. “

“No, you won't. “

“Then what happens to you if we succeed? I...I mean you, the future version of you? “ Give it to me I could always move on to the scientific point of any situation. I know now that it was just my way of making sure that Future Max didn’t hurt anymore than what he was already. It had to be hard on him to get me to do this. If this works he’s not ever going to be back with his Liz ever again.

“If we succeed in changing history, a different version of the future will take place. All the events that led to who I am fourteen years from now will be different. The man I am now will cease to exist. “

“Get outta here. “ The past version of me sees the past version of Max coming towards Whitaker’s office. Future Max leaves and hides in Whitaker’s office.

“Max. “ Why didn’t I hide? Fool.

“Were you watching? “

“Um... “ I was never any good at lying. Especially to Max, but that had changed I had been lying to him for almost a year now.

“So, it was all a setup. “ Past Max couldn’t believe what Past Liz was doing.

“Yeah. “ I couldn’t lie back then.

“You tried to get Tess and me together? “

“Look, I know that you must hate me right now. I, um... “

Past Max grabbed Past Liz and gave her a long, passionate kiss. I can’t really recall what flashes passed between us, but I know there were some.

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly
You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe
And I shall believe

I Shall Believe by Sheryl Crow


“I felt that...and I know you did, too, and I know you think that...that I need to let you go...for the sake of Michael, and Isabel, and my race...so you went to Tess. But she can't be you. Tess can never be you. “ That was too much. Tears were beginning to roll down my cheeks. Max was still staring at the past scene that had taken place so long ago.

“Max, we have to stop this. We have to. I am telling you that we have to. “

“Go out with me on Friday. There's a Gomez concert in Santa Fe. I have tickets. “

“No. No, Max. I can't go out with you ever again. Please stop doing this. “

“I can't. “

The scene fades into nothing and Max and I are sitting in a black void.

“Is this what really happened that night. Everything that you did was because of me. You did it all for me?”

“Not really. There were other reasons why I did what I did.”

“Tell me.” Again the powers must have been listening and we were transported back to my room.

“You're supposed to be breaking up with him, not kissing him. “

“You...you kissed me. I mean...you know, he kissed me. “

“You're only making me love you more. “

“I just said no to Gomez. “

“You said no the last time, too. I didn't take no for an answer. “ I was hoping that this part wouldn’t show up, but no such luck.

“So we went to the concert. “

“No. The night of Gomez I came to your room. That's the night that things between us were cemented. “

“Cemented. So when you say cemented, you... “

“We made love. “ Present Max whipped his head to me. I looked away from his gaze. I couldn’t look him in the eye right now.

“No, no, we...we didn't. “

“Liz... “

“No, I have no intention of making love to you or...or anyone else at this particular stage of my life. “

“I beg to differ. “ He was so smug. At least he got to live that one experience. I probably will never be able to have it. Only in my dreams.

“No. Making love to you is the farthest thing from my mind. I...I don't even have protection.“ My past self fought valiantly but it was no point arguing with someone that already knew the future.

“I did. “ Future Max said.

“Oh, that's great. There you are, Max the Saint, just walking around with a condom in his back pocket. I...I...I don't even care what happened in your reality. I am not making love to you or anyone until I am ready, and I am just not ready. “

Max looked at me. “Max the Saint?”

“It was the only thing I could think of. Did you really have a condom in your pocket that night?” I had to know if it was real or not. There was always a possibility with the past experience with Tess that this could have all been a mind-warp.

“Yeah, my dad had given it to me when I first started high school. I never thought about taking it out. I really didn’t have any intention of doing anything with you that you weren’t ready for.” I gave him a sympathetic smile. My mom had once given me the sex speech and I knew where he was coming from.

He turned his attention back to the past.

“Liz, I am telling you what happened, and we have to change that. We have to. And so far, we've failed. Liz, its not just Max that's the problem here, you are. You are not letting yourself change. Now you have to do something...before it's too late. “

The scene fades out to the balcony. Past Liz is crying and Future Max is reaching for a tissue and his hand goes through the box.

“What...what's happening? “ Past Liz was rubbing her eyes as she asked Future Max what was going on.

“This must be it. What you did must have worked. I'm leaving. “

“What, so you're just...you're going back to where you came from? “

“No. There's nowhere to go back to. “ He grabs for the box again, but this time he is able to take hold of it.

“It didn't work. We have to do something else. “

“No, I...I can't. “

“You have to. “

“Do you know how hard it was for me to tell him that I didn't want to die for him? He's the only reason that I'm alive right now. You...you've...you gotta come up with another plan. Please go to someone else. I...I just...I can't do this anymore.”

“Just twenty-five minutes before I came here, I held Michael in my arms...dead. Isabel died two weeks before that. Now you have to do this. You have to find a way. All of our lives depend on it. “

“How? What can I do that's gonna make you turn away from me? “

“I don't know. “ The scene fades to the black void.

“Liz…” I had been crying and didn’t hear him move towards me. “Liz.”

“Hmmm.” I looked up at him. He was squatting down on the balls of his feet. His hands were on both sides of me holding onto the lawn chair.

“What happened next? Did I hurt you?” I shook my head no. “What happened next?”

“You know what happens. This is Thursday night. Gomez is tomorrow. I didn’t have any clue on what I could do to get you to go to Tess. I went to Kyle’s house after school and asked him to help me. He agreed.” Just as I was telling Max about how the events happened to lead to when he walked in on us, the black void turned into my bedroom once again.

Max turns his head toward the bedroom window. He sees Kyle in my room. Kyle is undressing while my past self is in the bathroom. The view switches to my scene in the bathroom. Future Max is in there with her.

Kyle said, “So...we haven't really, uh...talked much lately.”

Liz returned, “Yeah! How's it going?”

“Not bad. I found Buddha. “

Future Max was getting cold feet, “I don't think this is a good plan.”

Past Liz turned to Future Max and said, “What are you talking about?”

“You really think this is gonna work? I would never be jealous of Kyle.”

“Can you turn around? “ I don’t remember telling him to turn around. I can’t believe that I was so in control. I knew exactly what was going to happen. The past me started to undress.

I yelled out to Kyle, “So that's like meditation, right? Incense, that sort of thing?”

“It's really about approaching life through a spiritual place and becoming in tune with different planes of existence.” Kyle sounded so silly when he talked about Buddha, but we all have to have a way of releasing.

“What a line of crap.” Future Max didn’t trust Kyle as far as he could through him. I had to keep him quiet by giving him a look.

“Am I taking my boxers off? “ Kyle was willing to do almost anything that night.

“No. Undergarments stay on. “

“Right. “

“If he tries anything... “ It must have been hard on Max to stay in the bathroom while all this was going on. My Max would be showing up in only a matter of minutes.

I had to reassure Future Max. “I've got it under control. Please stay out of earshot.”

I walk out of the bathroom with a towel around me so Kyle doesn’t get a free peep show. The scene follows me. I look over at Present Max and his face is so unreadable.

“This brings back memories. “

“Kyle, we were never in bed together. “

“What? No. I'm talking about the towel. The "Y" pool, summer before last? “

“Yeah. “ Back when we were dating. How come I always end up hurting the ones I care about?

“Liz...I, uh...I want you to know that, uh...uh...I meditated on this entire situation, and I'm, uh...I'm at peace with it. “

“Oh. Uh...that...that's great. “ What else was I suppose to say to him? I had no idea. I didn’t know at the time how things were going to work out.

“So shall we hop in? “

“Yeah. Um, Kyle, look...I just wanna make sure that I...I...I made it actually clear that we're not gonna... “

“Consummate. I understand. “

“Right. And when we kiss... “

“No tongue. I'm on board. “

“Yeah. Okay. “

“I'm here to help. My body's merely a vessel. “

“Okay. “

“So Evans must have really pissed you off to get you to resort to something like this. “

“I told you I don't really want to talk about why I'm doing this. “ It wasn’t that I didn’t want to talk about the situation; it’s just that I was afraid what my talking to people about things would do to the future.

“Jeez, I just figured since I'm giving you my last shred of dignity... “

“I...I really. I can't."

“So...we have something in common. “ We have more than one thing in common. We both fell in love with an alien only to have that said alien rip our hearts out. Life wasn’t fair. I should have never brought Kyle into the picture.

“Yeah? What's that? “

“We, uh...we're the only two people I know of who have died and were brought back by an alien. “

“Yeah. You're right. “

“You feel different? “

“Yeah. Kyle...when he healed you, um...did...did you see things? “

“See things? “

“Flashes. Images. “

“No. But since he healed me, I keep getting these flashes of Max Evans naked. “

That was funny. Not as funny as Alex would have been but it was close. Kyle was now our only vent for jokes. He tried his best to keep things light, but no one would ever compete with Alex. I missed him so much.

“Feels good to make you laugh again. “

“It feels like this is the first time we've talked...since... “

“Feels good to do that again. “

“Yeah. It does feel good. “

Past Max shows up with the Gomez tickets in hand, just like Future Max had predicted. He sees Liz and Kyle in bed together and is stunned. I look at the Present Max and he is staring at the situation with great concentration. The Gomez tickets get dropped and Past Max leaves the rooftop. Present Max doesn’t turn to watch himself leave. I guess he already knows what happened to him that night. He must be more interested in knowing what happens to me next.

“Well, I guess it worked. “ Kyle’s voice didn’t sound as cheerful as I remembered it being. I just shook my head and rolled over while Kyle took the hint really well and got dressed and left me crying.

Future Max came out of the bathroom. “Liz… Liz… Are you Ok?”

I wipe at my eyes. “Yeah, Just let me get dressed and I will be with you in just a moment.” Max walks out to the balcony. I wasn’t worried about him peeking in on me. I trusted him. I went to the bathroom to retrieve my clothes from earlier.

After getting dressed I walk out to the balcony. Max is sitting on one of the lawn chairs, he looks up and says, “I've fought a thousand battles...but watching you do that was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. “

“The look on his face...on your face. “ Past Liz started crying. I didn’t. I wasn’t going to cry anymore tonight.

“Maybe it's for the best. For you, too. “

“What are you talking about? “

“I saw you with Kyle. He's turning out to be a...a great guy. Maybe it would be better for you to be with a human. “

“Don't you realize what you are to me...and what you're always gonna be? You're the love of my life. Everyone else is gonna be second best. There'll never be another you. “

They just sat there in the silence. I remember sitting there with him. I had pushed my Max away but wanted Future Max to take me with him. I didn’t want stay in this Hellhole that I had created.

“So Max and...Tess are going to be together now. “

“I don't know. I don't know anything now. This is a different world. “

“I'm gonna be alone. “

“Maybe. Maybe not. From now on, the future is to be determined. It's what I’ve always said to you, Liz. We create our own destiny. “

“Could you dance with me? “ I didn’t want to watch anymore so I turned my back and concentrated on the scene across my balcony. A brick wall… That was better than seeing him disappear from my life again.

“What? “

“I wanna have my wedding dance. “

I Shall Believe starts playing and I know that Past Liz and Future Max are dancing. He’s just about to spin me around and disappear when Present Max turns me around and kisses me.

The kiss is long and hard, like the one in Whitaker’s office. The presence of flashes isn’t there but the meaning is there all the same. He pulls away from me. “You were trying to keep me from finding out because you knew how I would feel about myself for doing this to you?”

I shook my head. My lips were still on fire from the kiss and my bearings on things were still reeling. “You take responsibility for everyone, Max. You couldn’t stand the fact that both Michael and Isabel were dead so you did the only thing you knew to do. I was there in the future. I was the one that made it possible for the Granolith to be used as a time machine in the first place so I don’t want you blaming yourself. Like I said before, I hold the blame just as much as you do. Don’t feel sorry.”

“That’s why you are researching so much. The end of the world is coming.”

“I was hoping that I could find some kind of solution before it happens.”

“That’s the reason for all these outlandish things you are doing.”

I shook my head yes. “In the first time line we had fourteen years. I don’t know how much time we have now. I don’t know if Tess knew about the Granolith when she left the first time, so our time might be a lot shorter now. I’m guessing five to ten years max.”

Max began to fade. “Max! Max!” and before I knew it he was standing above me and I was lying on the floor of the jewelry shop. “What happened?”

“You fainted. When was the last time you ate something?” I don’t know. I do know that I didn’t faint because I didn’t eat today. I didn’t eat on a lot of days and I don’t ever remember this happening before.

“I can’t remember eating today.” Max held his hand out to me so I could pull myself up. “Thanks”

“Are you sure you are okay?” I look back and forth between Max and the Indian woman. What did she do to me?

“Yeah, I’ll be okay.” I start walking up to the front of the store. “How much do I owe you for the necklaces?”

“Nothing, all has been taken care of.” She looked at Max implying that he had paid for the jewelry. “Everything will be right in the future. Don’t fret over what has changed. Live for the now and for the new future.” I looked at her. She did do something to me, but did she do anything to Max. .

I look at Max, he didn’t look any different and his facial expression didn’t let anything out. “Thanks, Max. You didn’t have to buy them for me.” I had to see what he would say. If he said that he didn’t then I would know that he was actually in the dream with me.

“I know. I just wanted to.” Okay. This was really strange. Was Max really there? Does Max know what happened in October or was that just a dream that I was having? Maybe he would talk about it once we left the shop.

I shook the woman’s hand and said, “Thanks so much for all your help.”

“I hope that I have enlightened you child. You are strong as well as the ones you hold dear to you. They will understand and you must learn to trust again. Believe in yourself as well as the others.” Max was already at the door and was holding it open for me to leave.

“Thanks.” We left.

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tbc


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posted on 13-Oct-2002 12:30:47 AM by Bordersinsanity
Well, my updates might be affected... I slammed my finger in the window and sliced it on both sides. My husband says that I should go to the doctor and see if I need stitches or not. I think I'll be okay but my typing is greatly affected. I've never been one to hunt and peck... It's killing me to use all of my fingers except that one. So... a word of warning to all those that are reading LONG TO BE... getting 10 pages out is going to take me a little bit longer than normal, especially since all I have is PART 18 typed...

Well, since this one is written you won't have to worry about updates... and since it has taken me twenty minutes just to type this little note I going to post two parts. So make sure that you read the following post as well...

I'll check back in on Monday and will give you guys an update on how the finger is...

take care
Jen



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Part 8 — Benign



The New Mexico heat has risen to make me immediately start to sweat the minute I leave the jewelry shop. I want to shed the flannel shirt but am a little bit uncomfortable with what Max might think about it. I push back my doubts and stop in the middle of the sidewalk and take off the flannel shirt. I take the arms and tie them around my waist being careful not to cover my new ring.

Would it be so hard for you
To state just for the record
That you've done your best to do nothing at all
And that you stood around
And watched from every corner
As everyone around you hit the ground


I continue to walk towards our destination. “What did you think about the Indian woman in the jewelry shop?” I kept on walking expecting to hear Max’s reply sometime soon. No answer. I start to state the question again and notice that he’s not next to me. I look back and there he is.

Standing about five feet back with a blank look on his face. “What are you doing back there?” I knew he wouldn’t be able to handle me without my flannel shirt. “Earth to Max. Max… I guess I better put my shirt back on if you are unable to function with it off.” That put some spring in his step.

“No way. Don’t you dare put that shirt back on, you look great!” He caught up to me and immediately took hold of my hand. I looked at him and he began pulling me towards the thrift shop.

The warmth in his hand was absolutely wonderful. I had to ask what changed his mood but didn’t because I already knew what had changed him. I stop him in the middle of the sidewalk and pull him to one side so as not to be run over by the people on the street shopping. “You saw it, didn’t you?”

“What?”

“Don’t give me that. You know it all now. Don’t even try to hide it from me.” I was not moving from this spot until he told me out loud what he knew.

“Yes. I saw what happened last October. The woman told me that she didn’t know how much you would remember from the dream and told me not to mention it until you did.” He paused for just a moment probably to gauge how angry I was with him. We were still holding hands so he must have taken it as a good sign and so he continued.

“When I was up at the counter and you were at the back of the shop, she started talking about the pain that was keeping us apart. I questioned her on what she was talking about but there was no use. She had left the counter and when she came back she had the necklace with her. She said to put this on you and all will come forth. I had no idea what she meant by her words. As you know they seem to have a double meaning most the time.” I smiled at him. Everything was going to be all right.

“Max… You know that this doesn’t solve everything between us, right?”

“I know, Liz. But this is a beginning. What I saw today told me what my heart has been saying for a while now. I know I can’t take back my actions, but we can at least get pass them.” I knew what he was talking about. Tess… his infamous one night stand. “I saw the way I used to look at you, I saw the way you use to look at me. I want that again.”

I didn’t want to hear anymore. I started to pull him toward the shop. Max didn’t move. I looked at him. His grip tightened on my hand and we looked at each other for just one moment. His amber eyes were calling to me. I was only inches away from him and the force pulled our lips together. All thoughts of Tess and Future Max left my mind. The kiss was what we needed to bind us together forever. Or at least that is what I took it at.

We parted and once again my lips were on fire. I rolled my lips to rub them together as if I had just put lip-gloss on them. It was his turn to pull me to the thrift shop. He was almost running and I was behind him giggling. Yes, me, giggling.

Would it tear you up inside
To take on the reflection
Of everyone around you that you know
Instead of getting by
With lying and deception
Of everyone around you letting go


All of this time
It's been benign


We were in front of the store. “Are you sure this is a thrift shop Max?”

“Yeah, come on I’ll show you what I mean.” I didn’t question him, but there was no way that this was a ‘thrift shop’. It looked like some kind of store that belonged in California or New York. This was no way a thrift store. I guess if I kept on telling myself that I would begin to believe it.

He pushed open the door and I almost ran him down from the momentum that he had pulled me from. I didn’t expect him to stop as soon as he stepped foot into the store. I bowled into him and we both came crashing down to the floor. We were laughing. It was a deep cleansing laugh, something that we had needed for a long, long time.

“Here,” he held up his hand for me to take it. Once again he was helping me up off the floor.

“Thanks.” He continued to pull me up and before I knew it we were kissing again. It wasn’t as passionate as the one outside but good enough for me. God! I had missed his kiss.

Only heaven knows
Only heaven shows the way
Back to everything you know and love
Only heaven knows
Only heaven shows the way
Back to everything you know and love
Everything you know and love
Everything you know and love
Back to everything you know and
All of this time
It's been benign


Somewhere behind us someone cleared his or her throat. I turned around to come face to face with a young man dressed completely in leather. He was a little bit taller than Max and had dark hair that was cut short. The tips of his hair had been highlighted with blonde highlights and were heavily gelled to make sure that not a single hair got out of place. He had earrings in both ears and… is that eyeliner? Yes. Eyeliner “I welcome you to ‘Nothing to Hide’. My name is Todd and I will be more than happy to help you find the right piece of leather to fit your lifestyle.” Yep, Todd had probably worked here for some time. He had the lingo down pat.

I looked at Max and then turned to Todd. “Todd” I said, “I think we will look around for a little bit. If there is anything that we need assistance with, we will get with you. Okay?” I waited for him to say something but he didn’t. He just nodded his head up and down. “Alrighty then.” I grabbed Max by his shirt that clung to his nicely sculpted six-pack and we headed to the woman’s section.

This place was absolutely cool… I didn’t know what possessed Max to think that this was a thrift shop but I guess I would wait for him to show me his reasons. I turned to look at Max and out of nowhere these black leather pants came sailing through the air at me. I didn’t have enough time to put my hands up to catch them and they hit me in the face and chest. I knew I had made an ‘oomph’ sound when they landed on me and before I could take the clothes and put them in my arms Max was by my side.

“Are you alright?”

“Yeah, I just wasn’t ready to be attacked by clothes.”

“Go try them on.” He flashed his pearly whites on me. I had a warm fuzzy feeling in the pit of my stomach. It has been a real long time since I last felt that. I know, I know. I’ve been saying that a lot lately. What can I say? It’s been a long time coming.

Would it be so hard for you
To state just for the moment
That you've done your best to do nothing at all
And that you stood around
And wallowed in your splendor
As everyone around you hit the ground


I head back to the dressing room. They took up the entire back wall. The stalls were in different neon colors and had black patches to look like cow hides. The one I chose was hot pink and had black spots on it. My black attitude was suddenly changing for the better.

I started stripping down to my undies but then remembered that I wasn’t wearing a bra. My top had a built in one. I looked at the leather shirt that Max had handed to me and sure enough no bra. I shrugged and went ahead and pulled the shirt on first. You couldn’t tell that I wasn’t wearing a bra. You know me… not that big up top. I looked at myself in the full-length mirror and laughed. I really needed to get some new undergarments. The white underwear just didn’t fit my grown up attitude.

I put the pants on next. Black leather straight cut, I never knew how comfortable they would be. The pair Max had thrown me had a black lining that went to about mid-calf. They fit well. I was surprised. Before I made my decision on whether or not I really liked the leather, I looked at the price tag on the shirt and just about had a heart attack. The shirt was one hundred and twenty-five dollars and the pants were almost two hundred.

I opened up the dressing room door and poked my head out. “What did you do pick the most expensive outfit out for me to try on?”

All of this time
It's been benign


Max was sitting on one of the cow print lounging chairs that was strategically placed for the waiting patrons. “Do you like it?”

“That’s not the point.” He got up and swung the door open so he could see how I looked.

“Stand up straight.” He demanded. I did. “Now, turn around.” I did that too.

“What’s next, roll over and play dead?” He took two large steps and was about as close to me as he could get. I put my hands up in self-defense and he took them into his own.

Only heaven knows
Only heaven shows the way
Back to everything you know and love


“I would never have you play dead unless it would save your life.” He was whispering in my ear. His warm breath sent goose bumps up and down my arms. My defensive arms relaxed under his methodical kissing. He let loose of my arms and then wrapped his around my waist.

Still wrapped in his embrace I looked up at him. His lips were moist and I had to fight hard not to kiss him again. I don’t think Todd would like us making out. But what he didn’t know wouldn’t kill him. I kissed him and as I did I wrapped my arms around his waist and started walking back into the dressing room. “I can’t afford it Max. This outfit is over three hundred dollars. I was hoping to get a little bit more for my buck.”

He followed me into the dressing room all the while he was kissing me up and down my neck. Goose bumps were at full steam ahead and my mind was reeling from emotional overload. “Are you sure it will be over three hundred dollars?” His hot breath made everything in me stand at attention.

Only heaven knows
Only heaven shows the way
Back to everything you know and love
Everything you know and love
Everything you know and love


I looked down at the price tags once more and I knew almost without looking that he had done his alien voodoo on them. “Max. Don’t you think this is over doing it?” His lips and hands were still working wonders on my body.

“I don’t think Todd will notice if we go up there doing this. Keep the clothes on though. You look absolutely beautiful.”

“So, that’s the plan. Make out in front of the cashier and hope that he doesn’t pay any attention to what he’s doing. Is that how you got your leather jacket?”

“No. I wish you were around to help me with it. Even though Brody gave me a raise and all it doesn’t support the leather.” More kisses.

My hands were rubbing up and down his chest. “I was thinking that you had gotten some hot little momma to come with you and help you with the act.” Me jealous? Never. Well, maybe once upon a time.

His lips were at the base of my throat and were slowly working up my jaw to my lower ear. “I don’t think so. You’re the only one that I have ever wanted to do this with.” He tore the tags off the clothes and then paused a moment so I could pick up my old clothes.

We walked up to the cash register linked mouth to mouth and I set the clothes on the counter and while I took a breath I said, “I’ll take these, wrap them up for me.”

Todd stuttered and he couldn’t take his eyes off of Max and me. He scanned the tags and when his job was done he totaled it all up. “That will be one hundred and five dollars and ninety-two cents.” I didn’t even get a chance to slap the credit card out on the counter before Max laid down two one hundred-dollar bills.

“This is on me.” He whispered in my ear and then continued down my jaw to the front of my throat and down the front of the strapless shirt.

Back to everything you know and
Everything you know and love
Everything you know and love
And love
And love
And love


“Thanks honey.” I tilted my head back to allow him better access to my neck and turned my head towards Todd the most helpful employee ‘Nothing to Hide’ had. I winked at him and puckered up my lips. “Thanks Todd. You were most helpful. Too bad you can’t wrap yourself up as well.” Max didn’t want to hear anymore and he wrapped his arms around my waist once more and started walking backwards toward the front door. It dawned on me though that Max forgot his change so I ended up pulling back to the counter, still lip locked. I grabbed the change from Todd and then pushed Max back to the door.

Back to everything you know and love
And love
And love
And love
Back to everything you know and love


The minute we were out the front door Max took my hand and we started running and laughing. It was a cleansing laugh. We were so in tune that it was unbelievable. When we left the shop we turned the wrong way to go to the car. We were coming up to the corner. A four way stop to be exact. I was a little out of breath; I’m not sure if it was because I was excited from making out with Max, or if I was out of shape. I decided I needed to add another thing to my list of things to do. Pick up jogging to get into better shape.

We stopped. I looked up at Max and then followed his gaze to see what he was looking at. There it was… a blue Pontiac with black soft-top. I looked back to Max. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing. Let’s go see how much they want for it.” He took my hand and then looked both ways before crossing diagonally across the street. Forever the Boy Scout.

All of this time
It's been benign

Benign by Oleander


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posted on 13-Oct-2002 12:33:59 AM by Bordersinsanity
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Part 9 — Wherever You Will Go



We reached the car lot that was across the street. Max walked around the car and he took me with him because he had yet to let go of my hand. “I wonder how much it is?” He asked as we went around.

“I have no idea, maybe a couple of thousand dollars. I really don’t know.”

“Do you like it?”

“Do I like it? Yeah. It’s cool.”

I noticed a sleazy car salesman walking our way. The balding, short, skinny man and his tacky clothes started dabbing the sweat off his forehead the minute he walked out of the building. “Hi, isn’t she a beaut?”

“Yeah.” Max was standing up now after he was done peering in through the driver’s-side window. “How much is it?”

“Oh, she’s not for sale. We just use her to bring in the customers. The engine is completely shot.”

“Oh.” Max looked disappointed. He continued to walk around the car the twinkle in his eye had faded some.

“Could I interest you in something else?”

“Umm. No thanks.” Max was next to me and he grabbed my hand and led me back across the street. I turned around to look at the car again.

“What are you doing?” I took a few hastened steps to get along side with him.

“We’re leaving.”

“What! Why?” He couldn’t be serious. I pulled my hand from his and we stopped in the middle of the sidewalk. He was giving up so easy. I was beginning to think that nothing had changed at all.

“It’s not for sale.”

“Max. Everything is for sale. This is America.” I had placed my free hand on my hip while the other one was still toting my old clothes. “You haven’t learned anything have you?”

So lately been wondering
Who will be there to take my place?
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a greater wave shall fall
It'll fall upon us all
With those dreams that are set in stone
Could you make it on your own?


“What do you mean?”

“The dream Max. You didn’t learn anything from the dream that you shared with me about my experience with the Future you. The Future you wouldn’t give up this easy. What has happened to you? You can’t expect us to follow you if at the first site of a struggle you shrug your shoulders and walk away. Things have changed. There is a much greater risk than there was before.” I started walking toward his dad’s rental car. He infuriated me.

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go


I walked by ‘Nothing to Hide’ and was almost tempted to waltz right in there and get a refund and tell Todd exactly what Max had done. In fact I think I will. I turned back into the shop and scanned the area for Todd.

He was back by the dressing rooms. I walked up to him bag in tow and started my speech, “Todd.” He turned and smiled.

“What you decided that you couldn’t leave without me after all?” Todd was giving me all the pearly whites and let me tell you it was another good asset.

I smiled. He certainly was cute, but I don’t think that I could ever be with anyone else. Max had ruined me for good. If that’s what you wanted to call it. “I ripped you off. I want you to do a refund and then charge me the correct amount.”

“Are you crazy? I was just coming back here to see how you guys did it… You can get a lot of stuff for dirt-cheap… Do you want anything else?”

“What? Are you crazy?” It was my turn to ask the silly question. I was totally focused on the situation with Todd and hadn’t realized that Max was now in the store.

“Yeah, we’ll take this jacket.” I turned and my temper just flared. What was he thinking? I’ll tell you what. He wasn’t. Max has totally lost it.

“What? I don’t think so…” I went to Max and pulled him aside so Todd wouldn’t be able to hear us. “You just going to switch the tags right here and now?”

He shook his head. “He won’t notice. He’s too busy being infatuated with you. God Liz, have you looked at yourself lately? Any man in their right mind would be hot for you.” I slapped his chest. “It’s true. Besides, I think you need a jacket like mine, so we can match.”

Who could resist him? I definitely couldn’t. “I can’t believe that you are doing this… This is stealing Max and I don’t want any part of it.” I looked at Todd. How can he be okay with it?

“It’s okay… This shop is a complete rip off… The mark up on this stuff is outrageous. Come up front and I will check you out. The boss is a real jerk anyway. I’ll just tell him that I bought it with my employee discount… Come on Liz… Take the jacket.” It was sort of convincing. What was I getting myself into here?

“Okay Todd, I’ll take this one too.” I handed him the jacket not even looking at the price tag… I knew Max had already done his ‘magic’.

Todd walked around to the register and looked at the tag and then looked back at us. “How’d you do it?’

I looked at Max and he didn’t look like he was going to answer so I took the liberty. “Oh, you see he’s an alien and they have the ability to change the molecular structure of things. It’s one of the reasons I keep him around. You never know when I will need something changed from red to blue or from short to long… It’s really useful.”

Todd’s face just looked at me like I was crazy. “Yeah, right. Like I believe that there are aliens. Next you’re going to tell me that he is actually from the crash in ’49.”

“I am.” I looked at Max. I was surprised. I thought for sure that he would be acting all crazy over me telling the truth. I’m glad that he didn’t make a big deal out of it. “We really need to get going sweetheart, we have a lot of research to do to find our ship. Keep an eye open for us Todd if you don’t mind.” That was just priceless. I never thought I would see Max Evans actually telling who he was in this lifetime. One small step at a time. That’s all I needed to do…

This time I was able to put the charge on my charge card. I smiled at Todd and gave him a wink… It never hurt to play the part that Max had so graciously pointed out to me. “Thanks sweetie.” I blew him a kiss and grabbed another bag and we headed out.

“Come back and see me sometime. You too handsome.” Oh my god… Todd was just too cute… I wonder if he’s going to get in trouble for today’s sale.

And maybe I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a greater wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Then I hope there’s someone out there
Who can bring me back to you


We left the shop one more time. “Here I was playing this part of trying to be seductive and he was after you all along. How funny. Max… You going to go back and see him sometime.”

“Shush… I go for the opposite sex and then there is only one for me and that’s you.” He turned back and grabbed me around the waist. He kissed me and I was enjoying it way too much so I leaned into him and dropped my bags. Tongues going full blast we kissed on the sidewalk for a long time.

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
Run away with my heart
Run away with my heart
Run away with my love


We were back in his dad’s car again. Even though we were having a good time I still couldn’t put it past me that he just walked away on the car. I looked out my window like I had done on the trip up here. Tossing the ways to approach the subject with Max I shifted in my seat.

“I know what you are going to say. I realize now what you were trying to tell me. You’re right. I left too easily. I don’t want to be like I was before and I really appreciate you calling me on it.” He reached over and grabbed my hand. My stomach started to rumble. Guess I was kind of hungry. I looked at the clock and realized that it was almost six.

“Do you want me to stop to get something to eat?” He had a look of concern in his eyes.

“No. We’ll be home before you know it. Dad is probably having a fit because I’m not home for supper. I appreciate it though.” He pulled on my hand so I would get away from the side of the door. He wanted me close to him and I was grateful for it. Even though the past two days have been good I still can’t get pass the feeling that we are still going to fail. I still hadn’t told him about there being another key to the Granolith. I’m not thinking about this. Right now is about Max and me. Nothing out of this world.

I know now just quite how
my life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time


I force myself to think pleasant thoughts. I would give anything for this moment not to end, but it inevitably will. We make a turn on Main Street and go the last few blocks to home. Max parks the car in the alley and we just sit there hand in hand. Looking at each other. There it is again. The awkward silence has returned. I look at his eyes. The twinkle is still there. I would give anything to know what he was thinking now. My eyes move down the features of his face. His nose. Perfect. His lips. Soft, moist and burning to be kissed. As if the forces of nature were pulling us together I leaned in and made the first move.

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could turn back time
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Wherever You Will Go by The Calling


The kiss was hot and enticing. I could die a very happy woman right here and now. The world could end and I wouldn’t have been the wiser. Loving Max was what I was meant to do. Being with Max was what my life here on earth was for. Dying with Max is probably what I was destined for. He was the only reason I exist on this planet. The woman in the jewelry shop said that we had two destinies that were all in one the same. I needed to look into that option. I wonder if there is something in that stinking book of theirs. Maybe it was in Tess’ things. I needed to go with Max one day and take a look at it. Max wasn’t the right person to do it. He was too absorbed in his own feelings of betrayal that he couldn’t be objective.

Max had moved down my jaw line to my exposed neck. He knew my buttons and since we were in the seclusion of his car I let my moans escape. Just then there was a loud rapping noise at the window. We both startled loose and moved back to our appropriate seats in the car.

Great, it was my dad. I turned and looked at Max and told him good-bye. “Thanks for taking me to get some new clothes Max. I had a lot of fun.” I got out of the car and hurried to shut the door. I didn’t want my dad saying anything to Max about us making out in the car.

“Hi, Mr. Parker.” Great Max had to say something. Couldn’t he had just left?

“Max. I didn’t realize that you and Lizzie were seeing each other again.” He had given Max a stern look and Max didn’t back away. Go Max.

“Yes sir. I have come to realize that I love her and nothing will ever make me doubt that love.” My dad must not have liked what he was hearing and he hurried and shut the door. I was already at the back steps and was halfway up when I looked down at Max in his dad’s car. I mouthed “I love you,” and then continued my way up the stairs. The twinkle in Max’s eyes was enough for me. I didn’t have to wait for him to return the same three words. Today had been a good day.

I went straight to my room. I heard dad’s steps falling hard on the floor. He was mad. No, mad was too light. He was furious. “What do you think you are wearing?” Could he not tell?

I answered him. “Clothes.”

“You call that clothes. I don’t think so. What has gotten into you? Those weren’t the same clothes that you were wearing when he came and picked you up this afternoon.”

Observant he was. “No dad they aren’t.”

“What happened to going to the library. I’m sure you didn’t get your clothes at the library.” Da dad…

“No. Max picked me up and he was wearing a new leather jacket. I asked him where he got it and he told me at some thrift store in Hondo.”

He interrupted me. “Hondo. You know you aren’t supposed to go anywhere without letting your mother or me know where you will be.”

“God dad. I’m almost eighteen years old. When are you going to realize that I am a big girl? I’m no longer Lizzie the five-year-old. I’m Liz Parker adult!” I wanted to slam my door. Why not? I slammed the door in his face. “If you don’t mind I want to change into something that YOU can call clothes. If you come in here you are going to see something that you don’t want to…” Ha… I told him.

“Until you are eighteen you will obey my rules while you are living under my roof.” Where did parents get these stupid rules? Did it come in some manual or something?

“Fine.”

“Fine.” He stormed off. Needless to say I lost my appetite. I took off my clothes and hung them up neatly. My shirt smelled of Max. I held it up to my nose and inhaled deeply. Someone should try and bottle this stuff. I’ve seen the commercial for Irish Spring the one with Bob on it… I will forever put Max wherever Bob is…

I waited for my parents to go to sleep before I went do to the Crashdown to grab something to eat. I did this because I didn’t want to make a lot of noise in our kitchen. Besides I felt like eating junk food. My head was still swimming from spending the day with Max. I finished making a sandwich and grabbed a handful of chips and a Root Beer and headed back to my room. I wanted to go to writing in my journal about today’s events before I forgot about them. Tomorrow I needed to go see Kyle and see if he would let me in to see Tess’ things.

I looked at the phone and decided that I really needed some advice. Things with Max were going way too fast. What I needed was Maria. I dialed her number and no one answered. I dialed her cell and I got the damn recorded message stating that the cell phone customer is not available. There was only one other place she could be. Michael’s. I dialed his number and it rang and rang and rang. I guess they are out doing something together… and they don’t want to be disturbed. Just great! I’m in the middle of a crisis and my one and only best friend is probably banging her boyfriend. Life wasn’t fair.

I ate my breakfast, lunch and supper in about an hour. Between bites I wrote. By eleven I was done and in bed. My final thought for the day: Tomorrow was a new day…

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posted on 13-Oct-2002 11:26:55 PM by Bordersinsanity
Yeah, well... parents have a way of doing that sometimes.

thanks for the feedback. Look for a new part tomorrow.

Jen
posted on 14-Oct-2002 8:40:59 AM by Bordersinsanity
I'll work on uploading the files to the net and I'll post the links in part one...

I'll let you know when I'm through with it.

Thanks for your feedback.

As for my finger... it's looking pretty good right now. I'm actually contemplating letting it get some air... but then if I type I may just break it open because the band-aid is what's keeping me from using it as much as I normally would.

Thanks again.
Jen

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Part 10 — I’ll Be There For You



I had fallen asleep with a smile on my face for the first time in almost a year. I take that back. I had a smile on my face the night of midnight mass on Christmas Eve. Other than that time this was the first time.

I guess this time you’re really leaving, I heard your suitcase say goodbye.
And as my broken heart lies bleeding, you say true love is suicide.


I had fallen into the dream plane and really looked forward to where the dream was going. I heard Max calling my name and had begun searching for him. I was in a dark secluded area. I didn’t really recognize anything and nothing was really familiar except the sound of Max’s voice. “Liz.” It was a soft whisper.

I called back to him. “Max?”

Again… “Liz.”

I rolled over in my sleep. I noticed because I had conditioned myself to sleep on my right side. Why you may ask? I girl has to be prepared when there are evil aliens out there and one of them hates you with a passion… I was slowly becoming a Boy Scout… ‘Always prepared’.

I heard my window close and I was instantly awake. I lay there on my bed perfectly still. I kept my eyes closed so I could concentrate. There it was. That smell. I began taking deeper breaths so I could concentrate on the smell. . I had a death grip on the knife that Max had returned to me right before he went to New York… That was my only weapon that I had but I was already working on something else… Those kinds of things take time… Anyway. You ask why I was concentrating on the smell. Well because I had to make sure that it wasn’t my overactive imagination running wild. My room was filled with the sweet, musky smell of Max. I loosened the grip on the knife. I knew who was at my window and was now next to me by my bed.

I decided to play along. He could think that I was still asleep. I wanted to know what he would do while I was asleep. “Liz.” His voice was soft and warm and the scent of him filled my nose.

I wiggled in my bed. “Oh, Bob.” I stuck my leg out of the covers and squirmed a little bit more. “Bob.” I breathed again. God what I wouldn’t give to see his face. What was taking him so long? Get on with it already.

“Liz. Wake up.” He nudged me… Couldn’t he do anything better than that?

“Bob.” I still acted like I was asleep. “Where are you?”

“Liz.” He was next to my ear. His breath was warm and made the little hairs on the back of my neck raise.

You say you’ve cried a thousand rivers, and now you’re swimming for the shore.
You left me drowning in my tears, and you won’t save me anymore.
Now I’m praying to God you’ll give me one more chance girl


I sat up. Rubbed my eyes and focused. I know he wasn’t Bob but he didn’t know I knew he wasn’t Bob. “Max?” Had to keep the story going…

“Yeah.” His facial features held a note of worry in it.

“What’s wrong? Is everything okay?” He was starting to scare me.

“Nothing. Nothing’s wrong.”

“Are you sure?” I needed to be reassured that everything was okay.

He was now holding my hand.

“Yeah, I…Liz… Who’s Bob?”

“Bob? What do you mean who’s Bob?”

“Are you seeing someone named Bob?” That was pretty good. I didn’t expect him to come right out and ask.

“Bob? I don’t know any Bob. Why? What’s going on Max? You are starting to scare me.” Come on spit it out already.

“I had to come see you again. I had a wonderful time and I didn’t want it to end… Can you come out with me for a little while?”

I’ll be there for you, these five words I swear to you.
When you breathe I want to be the air for you.
I’ll be there for you, I’d live and I’d die for you,
Steal the sun from the sky for you,
Words can’t say what love can do.
I’ll be there for you.


“Yeah, let me get dressed.” I got up off the bed and Max stood back so I could walk past him. I grabbed my clothes out of the closet… Yep, you guessed it… black… jeans, shirt and shoes. I went to the bathroom and hurriedly put on the clothes. I looked at myself and flinched at the reflection that was cast from the mirror. I looked like death warmed over.

I splashed some water on my face and then wetted a hairbrush so I could tame some of the frizzy that had taken over my hair. I ran mousse through it and then sprayed. It had a waviness that it normally didn’t have when I did my hair after a shower.

I put some foundation on to give me a little bit more color and then put on the eyeliner. Yes, I own eyeliner. After a few more touches and another glance in the mirror I was ready. I opened the bathroom door at the same time as I turned off the bathroom light.

Max was sitting on my unmade bed… He looked lost… I wondered what he had planned. I walked to my desk and started scribbling a note to my parents. I didn’t want another episode. “What are you doing?” I guess he was wondering just like you were.

“I’m writing a note to my parents telling them that Maria needed me… and to call me on my cell if they need to get a hold of me… They are on this big kick about knowing where I am at all times…” I left to go hang the note on the refrigerator… They would surely see it there. I was back and Max was waiting by the window.

“You ready?” He handed me my new jacket. “You might need this, it’s raining outside.”

“As ready as I’ll ever be.” He stepped through and held out his hand to help me through. I took it and once again was overwhelmed by the warm sensations travelling throughout my body. We were over the edge of my balcony and headed down the ladder. Max first and me next. When he reached the ground first he held his hands up to grab me by the waist. He took my hand and we raced towards the car that was parked around the next block.

I know you know we’ve had some good times,
Now they have their own hiding place.
I can promise you tomorrow,
But I can’t buy back yesterday


We climbed inside the dry car and Max began to drive to our secretive destination. The radio was playing Bon Jovi’s I’ll be there for you. Coincidence? Maybe. Maybe not. “So, You going to tell me where we are going?”

“I guess it wouldn’t hurt. The state fair has been going on and this is the last weekend for it. I’ve always wanted to go with you. Is that okay?”

He didn’t have to ask. It was and I showed him. I leaned over to kiss him and when I was done I rested beside him for the remainder of the trip. “Won’t it be closed by the time we get there?” It was a fair question.

“Nope, but it will be deserted enough for us to think that we are all alone… That’s the plan.” Leave it to Max to cover all bases.

The rest of the drive was traveled in silence. We were enjoying each other’s company as well as the closeness that we were sharing. Sure enough the carnival was practically empty and all the rides were quiet. We parked the car and were amazed that there were a few patrons still working the rides for some teens. It wasn’t quite empty but was close enough.

Max opened the door for me and held out his hand. We walked hand in hand into the fair grounds. “So what do you want to do first?” he asked.

“I don’t care. What do you want to do?” We were in front of the gaming booths.

One of the carnies yelled out to us. “Why don’t you win the little lady a stuffed animal?” I looked at the game. It was the one with the three bottles and the ball. Test of strength.

Max looked at me and I gave him a shrug. I didn’t care. I was enjoying this time with him. Max paid the man his money three balls for a buck. He aimed and then let the ball loose. The hairs on the back of my neck began to stand on edge. All three bottles went flying. He had won. Unfairly, but still he had won. “Give the man a prize. Double or nothing?”

“Sure.” Max was grinning from ear to ear. The carnie had no idea who he was up against. Max knocked the bottles again and again. By the time he was done I had the biggest stuffed alien at the fair. Let me tell you this thing was huge. The guy didn’t beg Max to try again. He knew when to count his losses. I bet that no one ever won this game, at least anyone from this planet.

We continued to walk the main lane of the rest of the games. I kept Max away from them. I didn’t think I would be able to carry anything else for the rest of the night. This thing was getting heavy the more we walked. The rain wasn’t helping any either.

We got to a secluded part of the fair. The carousel and the rest of the easy going rides. None of the teenagers that were out tonight wanted to ride these rides so needless to say we were the only ones here. Max grabbed my hand and walked me over to the empty ride. “I think we need to get some things out in the open.” He said as he took my alien away from me and sat him down on one of the benches.

He pulled me up onto the carousel so that we would be protected from the rain. He looked at me… What was he waiting for? “Go ahead. What’s up?” I was ready. I put up my steel wall that I had been working on for most of the summer.

“Well… I don’t really know where to begin.” I don’t know about you but I knew where he should have begun.

I didn’t push it with him. I could see that he was having a difficult time so I offered my two cents worth. “I think I know where you are going with this.” I paused to see if that was in fact where this conversation was going. He looked puzzled.

“Liz, I know you have doubts I can feel them rising in you at times and I don’t blame you.” He shuffled and then continued. “I know it’s hard for you to let me in like we used to be. After all that’s happened. I don’t deserve you as a friend or even as a girlfriend. I’m hoping you do something that I wasn’t even willing to do. You asked me to trust you and the first minute you needed me I turned my back on you. It took me seeing the past in order for me to get rid of all the doubts that I had for you.”

“You doubted me?” I couldn’t believe it. Max the one that said at Christmas time that he believes in me but not in God is telling me now that he had lost his belief in me. He didn’t acknowledge my question. My head was spinning.

“I yelled at you. I said really mean things to you. I don’t know what happened to me during the days between Vegas and Alex's death; but when push came to shove I wasn’t there for you. I wasn’t the one that you felt that you could turn to and to top it off I even hurt you in ways that I can’t even bear to remember. You were so strong and I was so weak, so very weak. I didn’t want to deal with anything or anyone except her. You didn’t let me stop what you believed in. Even when I was being so mean to you, you didn’t stop. Not only did you save us once by turning me away from you; but you also saved us again by not letting us get into the Granolith with her. I must have been blind and to tell you the truth since she has been gone the fog has lifted. I know more than anything that I want you in my life.” He was now on bent knee in front of me. His eyes were almost full of tears that wouldn’t fall. “I need you in my life Liz. My life has always been in your hands and I couldn’t think of anyone better to keep it and take care of it. I can’t promise you things that I don’t have any control over. ” He paused and I grabbed his hands. I was now down at the same level as he was. We were both on the floor of the carousel.

“It’s okay Max. I’ve come to terms. I know that you won’t be here for always. Tomorrow you might be gone but I’ve decided that life is too short not to live fully. If I can only have you for a little time than that’s better than nothing. At least we can have now.”

And baby you know my hands are dirty,
But I wanted to be your Valentine,
I’ll be the water, when you get thirsty, baby,
When you get drunk, I’ll be the wine.


He was shaking his head no. “That’s not it. That’s not how I feel, Liz. I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. The Granolith is gone. There is no way home. That’s over. You’re the only reason to stay. You’re the only reason.” He paused and searched my face. I could tell that he had really thought about everything. He continued. “I want to be with you.”

I had to know… so I asked. “What about your son?” There I said it. It was part of the reason I have been at the library almost every day this summer. I wanted to help him find his son and I needed to know if and when Tess and the others would be able to come back. I needed to know how he felt about the subject. His expression was enough. I had hit a nerve that had been buried months ago. Max Evans had given up on his own flesh and blood. Part of me wanted to jump for joy and the other was sinking lower and lower and crying for the loss of a man that I had only had the pleasure of meeting for a few days.

I’ll be there for you, these five words I swear to you.
When you breathe I want to be the air for you.
I’ll be there for you, I’d live and I’d die for you,
Steal the sun from the sky for you,
Words can’t say what love can do.
I’ll be there for you.


“There's nothing I can do about my son. He's gone. I have accepted it.” The pained expression created quite a picture for me to look at. “Liz, you've paid a lot to know me. You've been hurt. You've been put in danger. Now I want to make it up to you.” I had no idea how he planned on doing that but I also knew that by his knowing me he too had been put in danger.

Max put his hand down on the floor of the carousel while I looked at him. It began to come to life. The lights and music came on and it began to spin around. It reminded me of the time of my blind date with Doug Shellow. Max had the car horns playing a soft melody and the street lamps were twinkling like a thousand stars. He was drunk then and I knew for a fact that tonight he wasn’t drunk. This was the side of him that he kept hidden from everyone including me. He was finally letting the real him out. The real him was running his life. Max Evans was no longer hiding his true feelings. Mark one for the home team.

“I want to make your dreams come true, Liz. Will you let me do that?” He looked like a scared little kid. He should be. He was opening himself up to be hurt in a big way. He had just given me his heart, lock stock and barrel.

I looked up at him and smiled. It must have said it all for the lights on the carousel pulsed into a bright light. “This is how happy you have made me.” He said. Max always had a way of making me feel special.

“Like I told you once before. All the others will be second best. You are the only one for me.” I cupped his face and leaned up on my tiptoes to kiss him. He wrapped his arms around me and we started twirling. It was amazing that he was able to keep us standing while the carousel was spinning and we were spinning. I didn’t feel dizzy at all. I felt solid. We felt solid and I knew right there that there was nothing and no one that would come between us ever again.

I wasn’t there when you were happy, I wasn’t there when you were down.
I didn’t mean to miss your birthday baby, I wish I’d seen you blow those candles out.
I’ll be there for you, these five words I swear to you.
When you breathe I want to be the air for you.
I’ll be there for you, I’d live and I’d die for you,
Steal the sun from the sky for you,
Words can’t say what love can do. I’ll be there for...


“I love you Max. Always and forever… I love you.” I grabbed hold of his neck and looked deep into his eyes.

“I love you too. You’re the only one that I have ever loved. Believe me when I say that. It was always you, Liz. Always.”

“I know Max. I know.”

“Hey!” Ut oh, the carnies must have seen the bright light and came to inspect it. Max let me down and grabbed my hand. We were beginning to run and were off the carousel when I let loose of his hand.

“Liz! No!”

I looked back at him and said, “I can’t forget my alien. He’s mine always and forever.” He smiled he knew what I meant and I did. I couldn’t leave this behind I wanted everything that Max Evans ever gives me. I grabbed the little green man by one of his arms and began running. Max was waiting for me a little ways away.

“Hurry.” He held out his hand I thought to take mine but then I heard the yells of the carnival workers. I looked back and saw that the carousel was going around and around at an unbelievable rate. I turned back and looked at him. He took my hand and began running once again.

As we went through all the rides running from the workers, Max was busy starting all the rides. The spider, the rockin’ rocket, the rainbow and more. I didn’t know all the names of the rides but it did cause quite a distraction for our get away.

I’ll be there for you, these five words I swear to you.
When you breathe I want to be the air for you.
I’ll be there for you, I’d live and I’d die for you,
Steal the sun from the sky for you,
Words can’t say what love can do.
I’ll be there for you.

I’ll be there for you by Bon Jovi


We reached his car and got in it. We ducked down low so that the running employees of the New Mexico State Fair wouldn’t see us. We were soaked through and as if he read my thoughts he passed his hands over me and dried my hair and clothes.

I sat up and looked out the window. “I think its clear. Let’s go home.” Home. Max Evans had finally given me something that I have been looking for all summer. Peace. I only hoped that it would last for a little while. I leaned my head on his shoulder while he drove and I fell in and out of sleep.

“We’re here.” I looked up at Max. He kissed my forehead. I looked outside.

“When did the rain stop?” It was the first thing I thought about.

“Awhile ago. Did you sleep well?” Always the gentleman.

“Yeah, I don’t think I’ve slept that well in a long time. Thanks.” I rose up and noticed that I had a kink in my neck. Not for long. Max’s soothing hands were on my shoulders and the warm tingling sensation was traveling down my body. “Um, Max. Can I ask you something?”

“Sure.”

“You know… when I got my belly ring and you were holding my hand.” I paused. I hadn’t been very good at being tactful lately. “Well, did you heal it? I mean me?” He looked guilty, but still remained silent. “Okay, listen to me. From here on out we’re in this together, Max. Together until the end… You hear me. Together until the end. That means no more lies between us. No more secrets.”

“Alright. Together ‘til the end. Yes. I healed your piercing. I didn’t want you to be in pain. Don’t be mad.”

“Look, I’m doing these things for a reason. They are experiences that I want to experience. I’m going to quit asking you to come with me if every time something rubs me the wrong way you fix it.” Max just looked at me like I had grown a second head. “I mean it Max. I will give you my opinion when you ask and I hope that we can talk about our actions in an open matter before jumping headfirst and doing it. I will stand beside you and I will support you until the end, but I won’t have you running my life. Is that understood?” I hope he got the message.

“Loud and clear my sweet. Loud and clear.”

“Good.” I leaned into him and kissed him. He got out of the car and I followed out the driver’s seat. He held my hand and helped me up the first rung of the later. I climbed up steadily and crawled over. The sun was just beginning to rise over to the east and I wasn’t even tired yet. I waited for him to come on up. I held my hand out for him when he climbed over the wall.

“I bet you’re tired. It’s been a long day. What do you have planned for today?” Max smiled from ear to ear.

“Spending it with the girl of my dreams. That’s if she will have me.”

“I think I can arrange it. Since we’ve agreed not to keep anything from each other there is one thing that I think you should know.” I hope he doesn’t change on me.

“What’s that?”

“I think I’ve found another key.”

“To what?”

“The Granolith or… or something. I don’t know exactly but it looks just like the one we already found.”

“Where? How? When?” I knew he would have questions.

“When I was going through some news articles at the library, there was this article about Shirley Maclaine and her interest in aliens and alien artifacts. They showed a picture of one. I hope you are up for another road trip. Her mansion is on display this Thursday, Friday and Saturday.”

“I’m not ready, but if I can convince a certain hot vixen to accompany me back to Hondo to pick up a certain blue car I will be.”

“Really? You’re going to go get it?” He shook his head yes. That’s the Max I know… and want. “You know you can count on me. I’m there. Anything special I should wear?” I already knew what he would want me to wear but I just wanted to hear him say it.

“Your leather. Must you even ask?”

“No, I just wanted to hear you say it for me.” I leaned in to him not wanting him to leave. “You better get going before you get in trouble.” We kissed and kissed and one thing led to another and he was groping my neck like we were back in Hondo already. “Down boy. We have the rest of our lives to do this. Get going.”

He looked like I had kicked him. I didn’t mean to hurt his feelings. “I gotta go Max. I need to get the note from the kitchen before anyone is up.” I kissed him again and he returned it.

“Together til the end Liz. Remember that. Nothing’s going to come between us ever again. I swear to you.”

“I know, Max. I know. Now go. I love you. Be careful.” He disappeared over the ledge and I immediately felt alone. All alone, but then I felt him, his touch but not his touch. He was sending me his love.

I walked through the living room to get to the kitchen. No one was up yet. Thank God. I didn’t know how I would cover it up if mom or dad were up already. I yanked the note off the refrigerator and headed back to my room. A smile beaming on my face.

Once again I stripped down to almost nothing and stepped into my pajamas. I set my alarm for nine o’clock. I needed to get a hold of Kyle to see if he could do me a favor. The Shirley Maclaine thing was going to happen whether or not I was ready and I owed it to myself as well as to Max, Michael and Isabel to be ready.

I crawled into bed and rolled over to my right side. The knife in its place I fell into a deep resting sleep. No dreams and no interruptions.

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posted on 14-Oct-2002 11:38:17 PM by Bordersinsanity
Here are the links to the songs used in this fic... Enjoy!


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Part 1 – All You Want – Dido
Part 2 – Sick Cycle Carousel – Lifehouse
Part 3 – Come To Stay – Oleander
Part 4 – Turn Off the Light –- Nelly Furtado
Part 5 – In the End –- Linkin Park
Part 6 – It’s Been Awhile – Staind
Part 7 – I Shall Believe -– Sheryl Crow
Part 8 – Benign – Oleander
Part 9 – Wherever You Will Go –- The Calling
Part 10 – I’ll Be There For You –- Bon Jovi
Part 11 – Blurry –- Puddle of Mudd
Part 12 – Everywhere –- Michelle Branch
Part 13 – Live Your Life (Down) –- Tantric
Part 14 – Wouldn’t you believe –- 311
Part 15 – Giving in – Adema
Part 16 – Woohoo Song 2 – Blur
Part 17 – Short skirt/Long jacket –- Cake
Part 18 – The People that We Love –- Bush
You Don’t Know –- Econoline Cursh

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posted on 15-Oct-2002 1:30:58 PM by Bordersinsanity
Well, I'm home all alone and am working on the next part of LONG TO BE... wish me luck. The finger is doing much, much better. I think I'm at 60%... Thanks for all the feedback. I've posted the link to this parts song in the title. Enjoy!
Jen

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Part 11 – Blurry –- Puddle of Mudd



I rolled over and shut the alarm off. It had been going for almost fifteen minutes. I was surprised that no one came in to get me up. I looked up at the ceiling remembering the last two days. Pure bliss.

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's so empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl


I rolled over to my left side and dialed Kyle’s number. I needed a few things and thought that maybe he could pull a few strings for me. “Hello?” Great, the sheriff, I mean Jim.

“Hi, this is Liz. Is Kyle up yet?” No small talk just give me your son. I have things to do and people to see.

“Hi, Liz. How are things?” The man is slowly going crazy if he prefers to make small talk with his son’s ex-girlfriend.

“Not bad. I really need to talk to Kyle.”

“Oh, yeah. Hang on a minute.” I hear him put the phone down on the desk. “Kyle. Telephone.” A pause. “It’s Liz.” Another pause. The telephone ruffles like it is being picked up again. I hope its Kyle. “He’ll be with you in a minute.” Nope.

“Thanks.” I didn’t offer anymore information. What he didn’t know was better for him and for me. I didn’t want him talking me out of things.

The phone was silent between the two of us and then, “Hey Liz. What’s up?”

“Hey Kyle. I was wondering if you can meet me at the library when it opens.”

“Sure. Let me get ready and I will come by and pick you up.”

“Great. I was up kind of late last night and I really don’t feel like walking anywhere. I’ll get ready and be downstairs in an half hour.”

“Ok. See you then.”

“Bye.” I hung up the phone. That was easy, but what did I expect? I hadn’t even asked him the hard stuff yet. I walked into the bathroom and turned on the shower. I waited for the water to turn warm while holding my hand under the water I turned the hot water on more. I needed a really hot shower to make me wake up.

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that I’ll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you’re doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far


I’m downstairs in record time, sitting at the counter mom insisted that I eat something. She places a western omelet in front of me. Ooh yummy… “Are you feeling ok?” She asks. Oh, God. Here is goes again. The last time she asked me if I were feeling ok was when Max and I were hot and heavy looking for the orb.

“Yes, mother. I’m fine.” I flash her a sympathetic smile.

“Are you getting enough sleep?” Ut oh. I hope she didn’t know that I was out all night last night. I thought I had looked at myself in the mirror to ensure that I didn’t look too pale or too dark under the eyes.

“Yeah, last night I slept like a baby. No problems sleeping.” Should I attempt to ask her why the sudden interest in my appearances? Why not? “Why?”

“Oh, no reason. Can’t a mother baby her only child before it’s too late? It seems like you have been really busy this summer and I don’t know anything that is going on. Your dad said that he caught you and Max making out in the alley the other night. What’s that all about?”

“Mom!” I can’t believe she came right out and asked that. That is definitely none of her business. “I can’t believe you.” I said it jokingly. “Well… I would have to say that that is true.” I was getting excited about the conversation. Since Maria hasn’t been around for me to talk to this was probably going to be the only way for me to vent. “I know we had a rough time last year and I know that there is so many things that could go wrong between us, but this time it’s for real. I can’t believe it. I think Max and I are finally going to be able to have a normal relationship.” I was hoping that she could see my enthusiasm in my facial expressions. I looked at her and studied what was going around in her eyes.

“Really?” That didn’t sound promising. “Do you think that you guys are at the stage of making out already? So soon?”

“Mom I’m not a little kid anymore. Max and I are both reasonable adults. We won’t move to the next stage in our relationship until we are both ready.” That last statement seemed to work miracles with her. She seemed to relax a little.

“Well, I knew that’s what you would say so I had a long talk with your dad and told him that we were being too hard on you. I’m… we’re really glad that you are finally acting normal. It isn’t that we don’t love you it’s that we were really worried about you. You practically closed yourself off from everyone including Maria after Alex’s death. Your father and I agree to lift your grounding as long as you continue to let us know where you are at and if you think you will be running late. All we ask is that you be considerate of our feelings and I think that we will get along better.” Wow… Ok, who stole my mom? I demand one of you to tell me where she is… This is absolutely incredible.

“Really?” She shook her head up and down. I had to go hug her. I stood up on the stool and reached over the counter and embraced my mom with a huge hug. “Thanks mom. It means a lot to me. I won’t let you down. I promise.”

“You better go hug your dad too… I think he’s taking you growing up harder than I am.” She let go and before I could pull away she added, “I love you.”

“I love you too mom.” I hopped off the counter and went running to my dad. I realized now that he had been paying real close attention to me and mom’s conversation.

I ran and jumped into his open arms. “Thanks dad. You won’t regret it. I promise.”

“I hope not Lizzie. I hope not.” That was it. He gave me a peck on my cheek and then we separated. He continued to tally the register receipts and I went back to the counter. Kyle should be getting here any minute now. I better tell mom what my plans were for today. I didn’t want to get off on the wrong foot so soon out of the pen.

“Hey mom. Kyle’s on his way to pick me up. We’re going to the library and then he’s going to take Max and me to Hondo so Max can buy a new car that we saw yesterday. We should be back by ten tonight. Ok?” Please say ok.

“Ok. Just remember if you are going to be any later than ten let us know. Make sure your cell phone is charged so if you guys run into any trouble you will be able to call someone for help. And what ever you do BE CAREFUL.” Gotta love it… I was in hog heaven. The jail sentence has been lifted. All those in favor say YEAH!!!

I put my omelet plate in the dirty dish cart and as I was heading out I saw Kyle’s red mustang pull into a parking space out front. “I’m leaving. See you later.”

“Ok… remember be careful.” Mom hollered again.

“I will.” I waved to dad and ran out the front door.

Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
when ya shoved it in my face
explain again to me


I jogged to Kyle’s car… That reminds me… I needed to start jogging regularly. I opened up the passenger side door and hopped in. “Hey Kyle. Thanks for picking me up.”

“No problem. What’s with the beaming smile?”

“Mom and dad lifted my grounding… You are now looking at a free girl. A free girl that thanks to you is now dating Max Evans.”

“No way… You guys are dating again? So soon?” What? What was I missing? I had no idea so I decided I better ask.

“What’s wrong with that?”

“Ummm, Nothing.”

“Come on Kyle. Spill it already. Surely you can’t complain too much you’re the one that’s responsible for it. If you would have just come with me to get my belly ring I wouldn’t be in this situation.”

“Oh, yeah. Blame it on me. That sounds logical. That was two nights ago. What could have happened in a time span of two nights?” He looked over at me. It must have been something on my face. “No way. You didn’t? Did you? Look you can’t blame that on me… All I did was tell Evans that there was no reason for him and you to be miserable. That I was sure that you guys could be friends and I sent him on his merry way. That’s it… You can’t blame any sexual activities on me. No way.”

“Wow! Down boy. Max and I haven’t had sex… No way… We have too much to get through before we go and do a silly thing like that. I’m just saying that because of you Max and I have made up and are talking again. Since it is because of you and I can’t get a hold of anyone else I was wondering if you would drop us off in Hondo so Max can buy a new car. That way we don’t have to drive separately.”

“I see just use me… When are you guys going to get it through your thick heads that I’m not here to be at your beck and call? You’re lucky” he continued pointing a finger at me, “that I even talk to you. You know I could say the same exact thing about you. You’re the one that got me mixed up in all this alien crap… I was happy when I was just a jock that didn’t know anything but noooooooo. You have to drag my sorry but into all this mess, not to mention that I had the evil alien bitch staying in my room. You are one to talk.”

“Ok Kyle. I get it. I owe you one. Whatever you want just holler and I will be there for you.” I smiled. He was just a hoot.

“I know. That’s always been one thing that I can count on out of the bunch of y’ll. You’re a constant Liz and I appreciate your friendship.”

“Thanks Kyle.”

“So are we still heading to the library or do you want me to go straight to Max’s and pick your lover boy up?”

“No… I need to do something at the library and I need to see if you’ve seen anything in Tess’ things while you were packing them up.”

“Ok… To the library then.” He took a few more turns and we were at the library in no time. Things were definitely looking up.

Can you take it all away


can you take it all away
when ya shoved it my face


We walked into the library and I headed to the section that I always did. “It’s over here. We need to get an inside entrance into the Maclaine mansion. Any suggestion?” I showed him the news article of the open house. Invitation only.

After reading it he spoke up. “It should be easy. You and Max go in tux and gown and when they ask for your invitation act like you are looking for it and then have Max do one of his alien magician acts and change a regular piece of paper into the invitation. Of course you have to know who will be on the invite list so the invitation will match. But other than that it should be a piece of cake.” Sure it sounded easy enough.

“Yeah, right. How are we going to get the registration list? We don’t have any connections.”

“Oh, grasshopper…” Funny. I smiled. “I’ll call them on Monday and inquire about it myself. You’ll be amazed what a security guard can find out for the star that he is guarding… “

“What?” I wasn’t following him.

“And you’re going to be valedictorian of the senior class? Let me explain.” He turned his head from side to side so that he could pop his neck… Rough night? Maybe… “I’ll call and see if I can find out what company the security for the event is coming from.”

“You can find out?” I was amazed. When had Kyle gotten so many connections? I let him continue.

“Yeah, dad has all of them in his office. All I have to do is call them. Piece of cake… A walk in the park. Another drop in the bucket.”

“Ok synonym man.” We were both laughing.

“So, I’ll get you guys in how are you going to get the key?” I hadn’t thought that far ahead. I actually thought that it would take us longer to get Max and I in.

“I haven’t thought that part out yet. I don’t even know what kind of security there is going to be.” Kyle was holding his hand up to stop me from talking. So I did. I waited for him to start whatever it was that needed me to be quiet for.

“Let me take care of it.” That’s all he said. “Is there anything else that you wanted to show me?” I shook my head no. We had pretty much taken care of everything that I could think of.

“Can you drop me off at the storage facility that has Tess’ things?” I might as well see if I can find out if she knew why there was a second key.

“Yeah.” He took a few copies of the Maclaine Mansion layout as I waited. When he was done we left the library. Time: ten thirty… Cool.

Everyone is changing
there's no one left that's real
to make up your ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl


“Bye Kyle. Thanks for helping me.” I waved as he pulled away. I was glad that we were finished at the library as soon as we were because the heat was slowly starting to creep up. I took the combination out of my pocket that Kyle had given me and when the lock unlocked I took a big cleansing breath.

Tess, who was my archrival from day one. Now she was gone and she was still causing havoc on the ones left behind. It just wasn’t fair. I bent down and pulled up on the orange garage door. The heat hit me like a ton of bricks. I just stood there for about ten minutes not doing or thinking about anything.

“Come on. If you can’t do it then no one can do it. Keep focus. Remember what she did to Alex. To everyone and what she might be doing right now to Max’s son.” There is nothing wrong with talking to myself since there was no one here to take my mind off of the inevitable.

I took a step in and started at the front. Boxes and boxes of clothes. Why on earth would Kyle keep them? I stood at the first and then finally ripped into it… I’m lucky I was wearing a halter-top that tied around the neck… because if I had to open all of these boxes in anything heavier I would absolutely die. Then they could chalk one more human up dead because of Tess. I dug into my bag and found a pony tail holder and in an instant my hair was on the top of my head in no time.

I pulled everything out of the box. Nothing but clothes. I threw them back in and set it outside the storage facility. When I was done I would call Good Will and have them come pick everything up… Surely someone somewhere would love to get some new clothes.

You could be my someone
you could be my sea
you know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you’re doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far


I had ten boxes stacked up out side the storage facility door when my cell phone rang. “Hello?”

“Hi.” A deep sexy voice rang out and was music to my ears. “Are you still at the library? I can be there in ten minutes if you are.”

“Nope. I’m done with the library for today. I’m actually a little ahead of schedule than I thought I would be.” I looked at my watch it was one thirty-five. “Are you just now getting up?”

“Yeah, if someone wouldn’t have kept me out all night I probably would have gotten up before noon. How long have you been up?”

“Since nine. I didn’t want to waste the whole day sleeping… I will catch up on that tonight. That’s if someone doesn’t keep me up all night.” I was smiling and I started to feel like a dork. I felt like a little kid with a crush on the new kid in school.

“So where are you? I need to see that beautiful face.” How sweet…

I didn’t really want to tell him, but I knew that I had too. “I’m going through Tess’ things. You want to come help me? I’m getting tired lifting all of these boxes…”

“Why did you go by yourself? You should have called me I would have gone with you.”

“It’s not a problem Max. I’ve only gone through the boxes marked clothes and I pulled them out so when Good Will comes by they can pick them up. There’s no use keeping them…” I paused. What if he wanted them? I hadn’t thought about that. Who was I to say that we didn’t need to keep her clothes? I stiffened my posture and trudge forward with what I was going to say. “You didn’t want them did you?”

“God no, Liz. Why would I want them? If you are satisfied that there isn’t any clues in any of them then there is no need to keep them. It was a good decision.” I sighed. Thank you for answering the right way. When was I going to get over this insecurity that I had because of Tess? Hopefully pretty damn quick. I hated the way it makes me feel and I had sworn to myself that I wouldn’t go back to that. Ever.

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you where to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you where to runaway


“Liz? Are you still there?”

“Oh, yeah. Sorry. I was just thinking.”

“What about?” I could hear it in his voice he thought I was thinking about him. How could I tell him that I was thinking about the way that Tess use to make me feel and just being here in this hot storage room was taking me back to that place in time.

“Well… not exactly. I was actually thinking that you wanted to keep her stuff and even now when she is gone I’m still worrying whether or not you should be with me.” There I said it. We swore to each other to tell the truth and to keep nothing from each other. If Max Evans couldn’t deal with what I had said then tough. Deal with it.

“Liz.” He paused. Evidently thinking about what I had said. “Don’t go through another box. I’m on my way.” Click… He hung up… Great. He didn’t want me going through her things without him being here. My mind began throwing out questions.

Is he afraid that I might find something personal that only the two of them shared?

Is he afraid that I might throw something away that was important?

Did he want me out of here so he could do it all by himself?


Question, after question ran through my mind before I knew it I was ripping box after box open and flinging her crap all over. Looking back if I had a chance to I would say that I had to have looked like a mad woman by the time that Max had shown up.

“Liz! Liz! What are you doing? Liz.” He grabbed me by wrapping his strong arms around me and turned me into his chest. I was sobbing like a little child. How did this happen. Tears were flowing from my eyes like the waters fall at Niagara Falls. I was pathetic. How could this happen? “Shhh, babe. It’s ok… She’s gone… We can do this as long as we are together. We will make sure that we get through this… I promise you…” My sobs grew louder and the tears were heavier but Max didn’t move. He rubbed my back and just held me tight.

A few moments later I pulled back and wiped away my tears. So much for being strong. I finally had the nerve to look into his eyes. They were filled with just as much sadness that was in my heart. “She hurt us all and we all didn’t make it out alive. I can’t help but think that we won’t be ready for her when she returns.”

“We will be. Who knows, the way that you are working on getting information we might be able to surprise her as well as Khivar on our home planet. Don’t give up just yet. Everything has a way of working out. Especially now that we have found each other.” He grasped my chin so that I couldn’t look away. “I love you Liz and nothing’s not going to happen to us as long as we are together.”

“You’re be naïve Max. We’re teenagers and half of us don’t even have any super human abilities. How do you expect to beat a whole alien nation with just a handful of us? Think about it. I have.”

“You’re right. A handful of us isn’t going to help but if we can get in contact with my people we might stand a chance. All I’m asking is that you hang in there. Do you have any idea how much I depend on you? If you crumble I won’t be able to make it. I know this is a lot to put on your shoulders but I need you, Liz. Please.”

Explain again to me
you take it all
you take it all away...
explain again to me
you take it all away
explain again to me
take it all away
explain again

Blurry by Puddle of Mudd


A sense of belonging came over me as well as an unbelievable urge to kiss Max. He must have felt it too because in one smooth motion we were both being pulled to each other and the kiss that followed was absolutely amazing.

~*~FLASH~*~

I couldn’t believe it. Our first vision since our reunion. It went by so fast that when Max tried to pull away I grabbed on as if my life depended on it.

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posted on 16-Oct-2002 9:07:19 AM by Bordersinsanity
Here's the next part. Thanks for all the wonderful comments. I'm glad the links are working out well.

Take care,
jen


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Part 12 – Everywhere –- Michelle Branch



I pulled back and put my hands up to my lips. They were burning with fire. “What?” Max was looking at me with deep concern in his eyes. I just took a moment to compose myself and before I could answer him he asked again. “Liz. What’s wrong?”

“I’m not for sure. Kiss me again.” He did. Nothing. “I’m not sure Max but I had a flash.”

“A flash?”

“Yeah. It went by so fast and I wasn’t ready for it so I don’t really remember what it was.” I paused trying to recall what blurred my vision for a few seconds during our kiss. “There’s something here.”

“What do you mean? Did you see what it was?”

“No. It’s more like a feeling. I know there is something that has to do with her stuff, something that’s important.” I looked at him. We were in for a long haul if the visions weren’t going to be anymore clearer than the first one. Yes there will be more. “Max. It’s happening again. Like the time we were looking for the orb. I feel the pull between us but this time it’s much stronger. Much more stronger.” I lick my lips and I was suddenly filled with the sensation to have Max close to me. Not even thinking about where I was I practically attacked his body.

His arms wrapped around my bare back as mine went up the front of his T-shirt. Our lips were locked and our tongues were searching every crevice they could find. The pit of my stomach was flip-flopping and my body was burning with desire. Everywhere he touched me was on fire and the places that weren’t in contact with his skin were ice cold and filled with want. My body was yearning to be touched and whatever was calling to us made us loose all concepts of the things we were doing.

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
And when I wake you're never there
But when I sleep you're everywhere
You're everywhere


We must have walked deeper into the storage facility and our bodies fell to the floor on a conveniently placed beanbag. At least that’s what I think it is… It’s really hard to tell with everything calling for me to pay attention to Max. He must have forgotten what I had told him about there being something here, because his hands were roaming as if he was just getting to know me for the very first time.

His lips parted from mine and they continued down my jaw to my neck. It was busy rubbing circles in my neck when,

~*~FLASH~*~

This time I was ready. I actually felt it coming. Weird. There wasn’t any sound like there was the time before with the orb, at least none that I was registering. The first scene was a flash of earth from space. We were in space coming uncontrollable down to earth. We were in the spaceship. This flash I had seen the once before. The time we were in the eraser room making out. As soon as I registered what the scene was it switched to another one.

I really don’t want to tell you what the next one was. I find it really hard to believe that she could ever invade the precious moments between Max and I, but it is important. The next scene was of Tess. Yes, Tess. I immediately wanted to pull away to stop it. I didn’t want to see Tess every time I kissed Max. No. I started to pull away and that’s when I saw the flash wasn’t of Tess but of a box that she had kept on the vanity in Kyle’s room. There it was as plain as day. She was putting a piece of paper in the lining of it.

I jerked away from Max. We had done what was needed to find whatever it was that was calling to us. I pushed him off of me and started opening boxes like a mad woman.

“Liz? What did you see?” If I were to look back on the moment between Max and I, I probably would have done it differently. I didn’t even acknowledge him. I just kept on ripping open box after box.

“Where did you pack that damn thing Kyle?” I was talking out load. Hearing my own voice must have knocked some sense in me for I stopped in mid-motion and looked at Max. The look on his face was one that I hoped that I never saw again. He was scared of me. I straightened myself and smoothed some hair back that had fallen loose during our groping session. Yes, I will call it a groping session. I wouldn’t want to call it anything else because it wasn’t just us it was something alien that was running our movements. When I had regained composure I began to fill Max in on the situation. “Max…” I paused for emphasis to let him know that I was in control again. I took a few steps closer to him and he stepped back.

“Don’t,” he said. I didn’t understand. It must have shown on my face that I had been hurt by his actions, because he took a step back to where he was. “It’s not that I don’t want to touch you, it’s just that I’m scared to touch you. Look what it’s done to you Liz. You’re running around a ten by fifteen storage room like a mad woman.

“I know you think that I have gone mad but if you saw what I saw you would know what that would do to me. That thought did cross my mind too. I don’t think I could handle seeing her every time we touched or even kissed.”

“You saw Tess?”

“Yes. I saw her in Kyle’s room. She had this little wooden box that had alien engravings on it and it was lined with red satin. Underneath the lining is a paper clipping or something. I’m not really sure. We need to find that box Max.”

I expected him to start tearing open boxes like I was doing earlier but he just stood there. After a brief moment of looking at each other we both took a step closer to one another and wrapped each other in our arms. We said nothing; just the act of holding was enough. At that moment it was understood that we would never really be rid of Tess. She was forever a thorn in our side and we wouldn’t let her get in between us ever again.

“Together till the end Liz… Remember.” He melted all doubts away and I pulled back to look once again in his gorgeous face of his.

“I’ll remember Max.” I smiled a small smile at him and then continued. “Let’s hurry up and find that box so we can finally get rid of all her things once and for all.”

Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
you're never there
And every time I sleep
you're always there


He kissed my forehead and then turned and started at the closest box. We opened practically all of them by the time my cell phone rang.

“Hello.”

“You’re in… I hope you and Evans have something to wear.” What on earth was Kyle talking about and then it dawned on me.

“Really? Great!” I covered the mouthpiece to my phone and said. :”It’s Kyle he got us in on the private viewing of the Maclaine mansion.”

“Great. Ask him if he knows where the box is so we can get out of this place.” Good idea.

“Hey Kyle I was wondering if you ever saw Tess’ wooden box that she kept on the vanity in her room? We’ve gone through practically everything and haven’t come across it yet.”

He was really quiet for a moment. “I have the box.”

“Why did you keep it?”

“There was a few personal things in there that she had kept and it reminded me of better times. I don’t know. It’s hard, real hard Liz for me to hate her. Especially when I look at the things that she kept dear to her.”

“I know. It’s going to be ok. Umm, look Max and I will be there in ten minutes what we’ve been looking for is in that box. Ok.” I waited to hear his answer.

“Ok… I’ll be here.”

“Thanks Kyle… “ He knew what I meant at least I hope he did. He had kept something of hers to remind him of the girl he fell in love with not the alien that betrayed us all. Who could blame him? We all wanted to love someone and be loved back in return. We all had faults. We were human.

I slapped the phone shut and looked at Max. He was patiently waiting for me to tell him what our next move was. “He’s got the box at his house. Let’s shut this place up.” I turned and started for the office. “I’m just going to tell the office that they can have goodwill come pick this stuff up.” I looked at my watch and it was almost four o’clock in the afternoon. Time had flown by and I was getting hungry.

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone


“Come on in you guys.” Kyle was at the door leading us to the couch. “Well… here it is.” It was true… There on the coffee table, that sat in front of the couch and between the TV, was the box.

“Thanks Kyle. I really appreciate you letting us see this. I know how important it is to you.” I gave him my sympathetic smile and then sat down on the couch in front of the damn box. Max and Kyle both followed suit.

No one moved we just sat there in front of this small wooden box about the size of those little jewelry boxes that had the twirling ballerina in them. I finally took charge and opened it up. So far so good. Nothing happened when I opened it up. I didn’t want to invade into Kyle’s memory of Tess so I hurriedly pulled the photos, corsage, probably from prom, and the rest of the stuff out. I gently placed it all on the table in front of Kyle.

I took one more look at Kyle because I was about to rip the lining out of the only thing that he held on to of Tess. I took a deep breath and thought to myself that Max would be able to mend anything that I had damaged. I ripped the lining out and there it was just like it was in the flash. I folded piece of paper and a piece of metal. I pulled the two things out and handed the box back to Max. “Fix it for him please.” He did and I handed it back to Kyle. “Here you go Kyle. Thanks for all your help.”

“What that’s? I want to know what that is.” He pointed to the two items that I held in my hand.

I unfolded the piece of paper. It was in Tess’ handwriting.

Michael gave me this piece of metal. It’s from our ship. He said that some airforce guy named Hal had given it to him and he didn't want it at his place so he asked me to hang on to it. While looking at it I noticed that there is no way to destroy this piece of metal. It made me wonder how they were able to get a little piece of metal off the ship. If this piece of metal is able to reform itself back to original form then maybe our ship might be able to mend itself.

I stopped reading the note and looked at Max. “If this is true…” I broke off.

“The ship is repairable?”

“Cool.” Kyle had to add his two cents in.

“You can’t know that by this little piece. If we had two pieces, maybe… but you can’t make that assumption by one piece alone Max. It’s not scientific.”

“It’s all I’ve got Liz. It’s the only way left to get home. We’ll find a way to make it work. I know we can. Maybe if we can find another piece we might find out that they can be put back together. Maybe we can help it along just like we do with everything else.” He was up now pacing back and forth in front of the TV. “What else does the paper say?” I take it that Max is a better thinker on his feet.

I looked at the paper and read on to the next entry. That’s what it was she was researching and writing things down as she goes.

We now know where the Granolith is but we have no idea how it works. The destiny book is the only thing that we have and I think I’m going to get Alex to work on it… If I do it right no one will suspect that I am using him. I need to think of a plan on getting him out of Roswell while he works on the translation.

“It doesn’t sound that she purposely set out to harm Alex… I don’t know what happened.” Kyle was still searching to find a way to make Tess the person he always thought she was. I think we all had at one time or another.

“It doesn’t matter if she didn’t mean to hurt him. We trusted her; all she had to do was ask and I’m sure we would have helped.” I know what I was saying but I don’t really believe the words that are coming from my mouth. I stood up and had started pacing the floor. Max had been silent while Kyle and I hashed out our differences about Tess. “Max? What are you thinking about?”

“Nothing.” I waited for him to say something else. I can’t believe he already forgot about our pact. No secrets and no lies… Maybe it just had to do with Kyle. I need to remind myself to push the issue later.

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me


“Come on. Let’s go…” I was walking towards the door.

“Hey, don’t you want me to take you guys to Hondo so you can buy that car?” I guess I was the only one that knew that car dealerships aren’t open on Sunday’s. Kyle didn’t know and I looked at Max and saw that he hadn’t thought about it either.

“No. Can’t buy the car today. The dealerships aren’t open on Sunday’s. How about tomorrow?”

“We can’t wait too long because we are going to need a car to get to the Maclaine residence.” Max’s first words. He was in another place right now and it was starting to bother me. A little… Just a little.

“Yeah, sure. I’ll take you guys tomorrow and will work on the Hal theory. Anyone seen Michael lately?”

“He had the weekend off. I haven’t seen him since Maria came back.” It was true. I looked at Max and he just shrugged his shoulders. Interesting. I sense something is wrong amongst the pod people…

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I am not alone
Whoa, oh, oooh, oh


Max and I left Kyle’s. “Do you want to come get something to eat at the Crashdown?” I wanted him to open up to me.

“Um, I can’t. I promised Mom that I would be home for Sunday dinner.” He wrapped his arms around my waist and we got into his dad’s car. “I’ll drive you home.”

The drive home was really quiet. I turned in my seat so that I was facing him. I really wanted to bring up the fact that he was thinking about something that involved both of us and he wasn’t telling me anything. “You promised.” I was hoping that would jog his memory of last night.

“Excuse me?” Evidently not.

“We promised.” One more try.

“What?”

He was starting to get at me. “I don’t know what is going around in that mind of yours, but you better let me in on it or you can forget about me being around anymore. I don’t know how to make you realize that there is no more you and I. It’s us, Max. US. Whatever you do, we do. Now I can only guess what you are thinking. I have to assume that it’s about Tess and your son. I’m not going to let her run my life anymore and I can only hope that you don’t let her run your life as well.” Any time now he can but in. I was waiting.

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
I hope there never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so


We were now stopped outside the Crashdown. I was waiting for him to say something. Anything will do. I took one more look at him and began to open up my door. “Liz, wait. You’re right. I didn’t want to hurt your feelings. I thought that the search for my son was over, but that was before this. How was I to know that we would be able to find another way home? I always thought that someone would end up coming for us, not the other way around. I’m confused. I confessed my undying love for you and thought that I had dealt with everything but when I talked to Michael this morning he didn’t want to hear it. They’re happy here on Earth and they don’t want me… us stirring up any trouble.”

“Wait. Let me get this straight. You talked to Michael today about there being another way home and that we were trying to find it.” He shook his head up and down. “What exactly did he say?” He better tell me or I will do some serious damage if he doesn’t.

“I did tell him that we may have found another key and that we were looking into the reason why there might be and he cut me off.”

“What? Why did he cut you off?” Something was definitely wrong. I was hoping that Max would elaborate. I looked at him with my ‘give me something’ look.

“Well, I will start at the beginning. When we were getting ready to leave he was going to stay. He was going to stay for Maria. I can’t blame him. He’s always wanted to have a family and right now he has that in Maria. I don’t know for sure but I think that he has told Maria that he’s not looking for a way home. Why should he? I can’t blame him.”

“That makes no sense at all Max. Just because he will be staying when you go home to find your son doesn’t mean that he can’t help you.”

“I think it’s more than that. I think it has something to do with Isabel as well.” Now this was getting good. He must have seen me question why Isabel was acting strange. “She still blames me for Alex.”

“That’s ridiculous I don’t even blame you for Alex.” It was true even when I thought that Alex’s death was alien related not once did I blame Max.

“I know. We haven’t been the same since. His death took a lot out of her and I think what the problem is, is that she needed me and I wasn’t there. I failed everyone and it all comes around to me being with Tess. I don’t know what I was thinking alienating everyone like that. Even Kyle was there for her more than I was. How can I be any kind of leader if my judgement can be swayed so easily.”

“Max. Look at me. They need time to heal but you have to make them see what their actions will cause if they don’t get their heads into the game. If we don’t beat Tess to the punch everything that we have now or will have later is for nothing.” They were all acting like children. We can’t hide our heads in the sand and hope that the evil aliens will pass us by…”We have to be ready and I’m not going to let their child like attitude get us all killed.” I can’t help but say it again. This is fucking ridiculous. “Look. I’m going to go inside and relax. This is just unbelievable. We all need to be on the same page and it’s a good thing that you promised your mom that you would eat Sunday dinner at home.” I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and then pushed open my door. I was shaking my head no because I couldn’t believe how selfish everyone was being. I heard Max drive off and I didn’t even look back. I was starting to feel bad for the way I took the other’s problems out on him, but after thinking about it I wasn’t. He was their leader after all and it was time for him to lead, damn it.

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
it's you I breathe
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone


I walked into the Crashdown and glanced around to make sure that I saw everyone. I hadn’t done it since Max and I had gotten back together and after hearing how Michael and Isabel were acting I couldn’t take the chance of letting Max get the better of me too. Everyone looked familiar with the exception of one man sitting at the corner booth. I hadn't seen him in town before and it really is weird for someone to be travelling alone. People just didn’t take vacations alone unless maybe he was a businessman. That could be. I would have to ask Agnes if she had seen him before.

I walked upstairs. “Mom… Dad… I’m home.” No answer. Interesting. I go to the kitchen table and notice that there is a note on it.

Liz.
Your dad and I went out to eat but thought that we would let you know just in case you got home early. If you get hungry there is left over chicken and potatoes in the refrigerator.
Love
Mom

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

Everywhere by Michelle Branch


That worked out pretty well. No one was home and Max had plans. I had new information that I needed to sort out and maybe tonight would be a good time for me to see what is up with Maria. She’s been back for three days now and I haven’t heard anything from her. Before I call her, let me eat, shower and change into something more comfortable.

Then it would be time for me to get things straightened out between us. Hopefully. Who knows?

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posted on 17-Oct-2002 5:53:30 PM by Bordersinsanity
Okay... just a reminder. Although this was written purely off of Season 3 spoilers most of this was just my imagination... So if its not like Season 3 don't kill me... I know that there are a lot of discrepancies and I debated whether or not to go back through and fix them but chose the easy way out and kept the fic as is...

Thanks for all the bumps love ya all!


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Part 13 – Live Your Life (Down)

I had called the Deluca residence and found out that Maria was in fact at home. I told Amy not to tell her that I was on my way over. I wanted to surprise her. I visited the freezer and grabbed our favorite ice cream and then headed for the only best friend that I had left.

Dressed in sweat shorts and a t-shirt and armed with a brown paper sack full of Ben and Jerry ice cream I was now on her porch. I pushed on the doorbell and waited.

“I’ll get it mom.” Maria called out. The door swung open and we stood there for an awkward moment. Was she going to say anything? Nope. I guess I will start it off.

“I’ve missed my ice cream loving, over reacting, high strung, who really knows me buddy. I think I’m in too deep and I need to get some things off my chest. Have you seen this person known as Liz’s best friend lately?” I was trying to break the ice. It had been a long time since we’ve had a good chat.

She said nothing. She stepped forward and embraced me. “Come in. Let’s see if we can find… Let me see did you say high strung, over reacting?”

“No… I said over reacting, high strung.”

“Ok…because I don’t think I know a high strung, over reacting person, but who knows you might be able to find her in my room.” I’m thinking to myself that I had made a good call in seeking Maria’s advice. Who knows I might be able to see what the deal is between Max, Michael and Isabel?

“Well it might help if you told her that I have her favorite Ben and Jerry’s ice cream in this sack.” I held up the sack and rattled it a little.

“Oh, hi Liz. Haven’t seen you around lately. How have you been.” Maria’s mom was heading out the door.

“Good. I’ve been good.”

“That’s good. Maria I’m going over to Jim’s he wanted me to see something. I don’t know exactly what he has in mind but it was all mysterious and all.” I wonder if it is the oak table? I doubt it. I don’t think that he would have time to finish it. It’s only been three days since I last seen him.

“Ok mom. Have fun.” Amy left and Maria grabbed the sack out of my hands and we ran into the kitchen to fetch a couple of spoons. “Bovinity Divinity! Ok… what have you done with my best friend?” She was only joking. Maria knew that I only broke out the Ben and Jerry’s when times were really tough.

if you live your life
if you live your life this way
it's gonna change
it's gonna change
time and time again


We were in her room now. I was sitting on the hot pink beanbag and she was sprawled across her bed with the already open carton of ice cream.

“I’ve missed our talks, Maria. It’s been a really hard summer and things have changed. I’m not the same small town girl that you used to know.” I paused to see if she understood where I was going. “I know this is a sore subject for you but I need a place to start and the only place I know where to begin is at Alex’s death.” I said it. I took the chance the ice cream would ease the pain.

Nothing. Her face was emotionless and the spoon was in mid-dip between the carton and her mouth. “I know. I’m sorry, but we have to move on. We can’t ignore it for the rest of our lives. That’s the part of me that has changed. I’ve harden quite a bit and I’m finding myself starting to fall back into where everything could be like it was before. It can’t Maria.”

“Wait. I’m lost. You said that you were starting from the beginning. This doesn’t sound like the beginning to me.”

She was right. I had already skimmed over everything and had gotten to the part of where I am now. It wasn’t fair. Ok… Start at the beginning. I took a deep breath. “I had lost everyone. First of all, Max… and Alex to Tess… I lost you to Michael and then Sean decided that he couldn’t stay and watch me loose myself.” Looking over what I said I realized that I didn’t make any sense… Come on Parker this is Maria the Maria that has been there for always. She will understand and if she doesn’t then you’ve been doing pretty good so far with out her.

“Sorry. I jumped ahead a little bit. When Tess came my perfect little world crumbled. When Future Max showed up, my heart crumbled. When I saw Max kissing Tess on prom night my soul died and when Alex died there was nothing left to give except what was barely there. What I’m about to say may hurt you at first but I promise you now if you listen to what I’m about to say I think we can make it. I mean our friendship can make it.” I looked at her with pleading eyes. Please Maria don’t shy away from the truth. Don’t hide anymore in ignorance. She shook her head in acknowledgement.

I continued. “I know you blamed me for messing with Sean’s mind. It wasn’t fair and I just wanted to say that without him I probably would not be the person I am today. Everything happens for a reason I know that now.”

“Liz… I don’t blame you for Sean. He’s a big boy and can do what he wants to. I was just a little disappointed that I wasn’t the one comforting you. Now. What’s going on… What are you trying to say?”

“Let me ask you a question.” She nodded and motioned with her hand to come on with it already. “Do you think we are safe now that Tess is gone and the skins are defeated?”

“Well, yeah. Why?”

“Don’t you think that they will come back? Come back to get the rest of them?”

“I hadn’t really thought about it.

I cannot find the reason
why my life is all right
but I just can't stop the pain


“That’s all I’ve been doing all summer. Sure Tess is gone but anyone would be a fool to think that things will be normal. They’ll be back and there will be more of them. Why is it I’m the only one that thinks this is plausible?”

“Look. I don’t know what you’ve been doing and just because we choose to act like normal teenagers for once in a very long time doesn’t mean that we don’t think of the possibilities.”

“Good. That’s what I wanted to hear. I know I’ve taken my new attitude out on Michael a few times and I was hoping that it wasn’t all for nothing, but Max said something to me today that is rather disturbing.”

“Wait! When did you and Max start talking?” I guess I didn’t get a chance to start from the beginning.

“Well, you know Friday when you guys went to the movies and Max stayed behind.” I waited for her to acknowledge it. “Well, he went with me to get this.” I lifted up my shirt and showed off the silver ring with black bead the hung snugly in my belly button.

“Oh my God! Liz. You didn’t. Did it hurt? What made you decide to do this?”

“Ok. First, I did do it. Second, it didn’t hurt that much because Max healed me as he held my hand. I about killed him for it. I’m not doing all these things that I have thought about doing forever, to get the effect of the whole thing diminished so the alien prince can feel better.”

“He healed you. Did you guys have any flashes like before?”

“Nope, no flashes. I didn’t even know that he had done it. Until yesterday. Anyway.” I pulled a piece of hair back behind my ear and continued. I reminded myself that I really needed to stop that habit. “Where was I… oh yeah. Third the reason I’m doing this is because of Max. I mean future Max.”

“I don’t understand.” She was about the third of the way down the carton of ice cream and I had hardly eaten any of my Best Vanilla.

“Ok… Future Max came back to me to tell me that the End of the World happened because Max and I alienated Tess.” Bad use of words but who cares. “She left because of us. Well he was from the year 2014, thirteen years from now. In thirteen years the world should end.”

“But it’s not. You changed the future.”

“Did I really? Tess is still gone but now instead of just leaving Roswell she’s taken the Granolith back to the home world. We won’t have thirteen years before the end of the world this time Maria. It’s going to come much sooner and catch us off guard if we’re not ready.”

“What do you mean?”

look into your heart
look into your mind
look into your soul
let it go and you don't know
what to say


“They’ve built one ship and have sent it to earth already, don’t you think that it is possible that there is another one ready to go again? Think about it. They spent the first fifty years looking for Max, Michael and Isabel, we won’t have the luxury of them taking that long this time. They know where we are and they know what they look like. I’ve been wracking my brain trying to find a way to calculate their return but haven’t had any luck. I’ve been wracking my brain trying to find a way to get them back and until this week I hadn’t had any luck.”

“Wait. Michael’s not going back. We’ve agreed. He promised.” She was up off the bed now and was pacing the floor. “Damn him. He lied to me. He said that he didn’t care and that Max and Isabel could do what ever they wanted to do. He’s was staying with me. He promised.” She practically had tears in her eyes.

I stood up and went to her. I wrapped her up in my arms and said soothing things that I didn’t even know I was saying. “Maria, we have to be strong. If you love him then you will push him to find another way home.”

“No. I won’t do it.”

“You have to do it.” I started shaking her back and forth. “Listen to me. They will come back and not only will they kill the ones we love but they will probably kill the ones they love just to get to them. Do you understand me? Be strong.” I was still shaking her with every word that was coming out of my mouth.

“What’s happened Liz? Why are you like this?”

run away run away
with the pain that I told you
once I could not spare
its only satisfaction now
this time of the year


“You want to know why I’m like this? I’m like this because if we don’t stop acting like normal teenagers everyone and everything that we hold precious to us will be gone. We only have five to ten years, if we’re lucky, before the evil guys are back on earth. Believe me Maria they will start right here in Roswell. No if, ands or buts. They are coming for us.” I was now pacing the room. “I’ve found another key like the one that started the Granolith. We’ve found a piece of metal that Michael had given to Tess for safekeeping. She believes that the ship might be repairable. So does Max. I’m thinking that the key I have recently found is for their ship.”

She was quiet. Too quiet if you ask me. I turned and looked at my best friend that I had just shredded to pieces. This really wasn’t the way I wanted it to happen but what’s done is done and we will have to mend one fence at a time. How could I get through to her that it wasn’t logical, or even the right thing, for the aliens to give up on going home. I know this was their home now and we are their family but the rest of the world didn’t ask for an alien war to be waged on this planet. Hell ninety percent of the population didn’t even believe in aliens. It just wasn’t fair for the three of them to make the decision for billions of people.

run away run away
with the pain that I told you
once I could not spare
its only satisfaction was fear


“Maria… I need you now more than anything. I don’t know what to do. My heart is saying one thing and my mind is making me do something completely different.”

“What.” She had been crying and still was. She wiped at her eyes. “What do you want?”

“Max knows about Future Max.”

“What? How?”

“I’m not really sure how it happened but when we were in Hondo at the jewelry shop that my belly ring came from we shared a dream. Maybe I should say we shared the memory. It doesn’t really matter how anymore. What matters is that we are back together and Tess is gone. The two main things that I set out to make sure wouldn’t happen has and now more than ever I believe the fate that I thought I had changed is inevitably on its way back.”

“You and Max are back together?”

“Yep.”

if you live your life
if you live your life this way it's gonna change
if you live your life
if you live your life this way it's gonna change


“How?”

“One thing led to another but mostly the Indian woman helped the most. Once he realized what had happened between Kyle and me there was no way of stopping it. I’m happy but I’m not. We’ve vowed not to have anything come between us but I can’t help feeling insecure.”

Maria had an expression on her face and that expression told me what was on her mind. “No. We haven’t had sex yet.” I smacked her arm. I was serious now. “Maria, I’m scared. You know how I told you that when Max healed me that we didn’t have any flashes.” She shook her head, yes. “Well, That changed today.”

“What do you mean.”

“I got another flash. I think there is something out there that is calling to Max and I just like the orb did. Like right now, I’m having a really hard time staying here. There’s something pulling me to him. The force is pulling me to be with Max.”

“I just don’t get it. Why does it always happen to you? You have all the luck.”

“No I don’t. I would give anything to know that the reason Max and I are together is because of us and not some lost alien artifact that wants to be found. I would give anything to know for sure that the feelings that Max has for me is more than a way of finding a way home to his son. You don’t know how lucky you are.” I meant it and I think she got my point.

“All the times I thought you and Max had something special, I never thought about it that way. I’m sorry Liz.”

“Don’t be. This time is different. He’s finally given me all of him and I plan on holding him to his word.”

“What do you mean?”

“We’ve pledged not to keep any secrets from each other and to tell each other what is going on.” That reminded me I really needed to go check on Max I have this feeling that there is something more than him and Michael not getting along.

“That’s great. I’m really happy for you. Now if we could get Isabel over her hump maybe things could be like they were before.’ Hello… didn’t she just hear what I said. Nothing can be like it used to be.

“Maria, it won’t ever be like it was before. It can’t. We have to be prepared. We have to be the best we can be.” I sounded like an army commercial. But when you think about it that’s exactly the state of mind we needed right now. We were no longer high school kids who was worried about whether or not someone liked the way we dressed or what someone thought about who you were seeing, we needed to be prepared for war. It was coming and time was something we couldn’t take for granted.

“You know what I mean. You take everything so personal.”

“Maria, you’re not helping me at all. I came over here for some girl bonding. I’ve missed you.” I guess that must have been what she was waiting for because she launched at me and hugged me so hard that I almost couldn’t breathe. I patted her on her back… “Maria… Maria… I can’t breathe.”

“Oh, sorry. I’m glad you’re back, but you aren’t really back are you?”

I shook my head no. “No, Maria. I won’t ever be the person I was before this all happened. It wasn’t healthy and when looking back I don’t want to be that person again. I was weak and naïve.”

always breaking off
I would forget it anyway
trying to run from myself
and at the same time fade away
never bothered to
never bothered you
never bothered me
when I left and I said
what I had to say


“Ok. What do you want me to do? What do we need to do to get ready?” That a girl. I knew I could count on her.

“Well… “ I thought about it. “I need you to work on Michael. He’s going through life like there is no worry. You need to make him see that by helping us find the ship he’s not breaking his promise to you to stay. He doesn’t have to go back with Max. Hopefully the ship can get us in contact with others that can help us. I know I said that we can’t be the way we used to be but we need to be the unit we were before Tess showed up. We worked well together. We have to believe in each other and we need to communicate. There is no more separation. It’s us or no one.”

run away
run away with the pain
that I told you
once I could not spare
its only satisfaction now
this time of the year


Maria was smiling now. The tears that had once trailed down her cheek had dried up. She wrapped me up into another hug. “I love you Liz. I don’t know what we would do without you.”

“I love you Maria , even though I don’t always show it. You’re my best friend and I’m the way I am because I want you safe as well as the others. It’s our time now. No more waiting. We need to act and do instead of sit and wait.”

That was the best I could do. I did love her. She was family to me and I didn’t want anything happening to her like I did with Alex. No more mister nice guy.

My ice cream had all melted into vanilla mush and I had looked at Maria’s cup and it was completely empty. I never understood how she could pack ice cream away that easily. It was Maria and I had missed her so much.

run away
run away with the pain
that I told you once
I could not spare
its only satisfaction was fear
I told you before I opened you up
and then you shut me down


I left Maria’s house with a spring in my step. The world was on its way of becoming a place that I could stand to live in. Max and I were all good. Maria and I were all good. Maria and Michael were all good. The only problem that I had to face was what was going on with Michael, Isabel and Max. I wasn’t a psychologist and I didn’t know how to fix it but something needed to be done.

I looked at my phone. It was almost nine o’clock. I hope Max was in his room. I didn’t feel like meeting his parents right now. What would they think about Max and I so soon after him and Tess?

I went home to put something else on. I’m sure that Max wouldn’t mind me in my grungies but I didn’t want him seeing me like this. I still got butterflies every time I was around him. I ran up the stairs and opened up the door and was surprised to be greeted by my parents.

“Hi honey.”

“Hi mom.” Great. How was I going to get out of the house with them home?

“How’s Maria?”

“Good dad. We had a long talk. Everything is back to normal.”

“That’s good. What are you going to do now?”

“Well, I was going to go over to Max’s and watch a movie. If that’s ok with you? I won’t be too late because we didn’t get a chance to go to Hondo to get his car and we were going to do that tomorrow.”

My mom and dad looked at each other. I’m sure they communicated volumes with no use of words. That’s what being married for over twenty years can do to a couple. Mom pleaded with her eyes and dad gave in with a sigh. “Ok. As long as you aren’t too late. I’m sure his parents don’t appreciate a house full of kids when they have to get up early in the morning.”

“No problem dad.” I ran into my room and changed into a pair of jeans and a different shirt. I looked at myself… Surprise, surprise, I was in my traditional black. I kept my hair in a ponytail and slid the choker on. Eat your heart out Max.

I was almost to the door when mom hollered. “Liz, honey… Why don’t you take the car? I don’t like you walking alone at night.” Wow… ok, who abducted my parents? I want to thank them.

You’re right. I’m taking it out on them too hard. All parents love their children and wish that they would never grow up but this was just too weird. I grabbed the keys off the key rack that hung by the door. “Thanks mom. I won’t be out too late.”

I ran down the side stairs and got into the car that my parents owned. Nothing too fancy it was transportation. Pretty soon we wouldn’t have to rely on our parents vehicles because Max was finally getting a new car. One more day.

I started it and backed out of the alley took a right and was well on my way to Max’s house. When I was almost there I realized that by my parents giving me the car I would have to park it somewhere and if I didn’t want he Evans’ to know about me talking to Max I would have to park it some place out of site. I decided my parents were genius’ they knew exactly what they were doing when they gave me the car.

I took a deep breath and parked in the drive anyway. A few more steps and I would be at the door. Ring the doorbell and wait. “Liz, how nice to see you. It’s been so long.”

“Hi, Mrs. Evans. Thanks… Is Max here?”

She moved aside to give me enough room to enter the house. “Let me get him for you.” She walked back to the edge of the hallway and hollered. “Max. There’s someone here to see you.” We waited. He didn’t come down.

if you live your life
if you live your life this way it's gonna change
if you live your life
if you live your life this way it's gonna change


“Max! Liz is here.” She started walking toward his room. “I’ll go get him for you. Why don’t you have a seat on the couch.” She disappeared.

I had to say that this was going rather well. What on earth could Max be doing? I wonder if he had sneaked out? If he did where did he go? During the time that Diane was gone my mind played out several scenarios. I looked around the room. Where was everyone? Isabel? Phillip? No one was in the living room. They were probably in their rooms like Max was. I guess it was pretty late. Hopefully I wouldn’t be here that long.

I really needed to find out what was eating at Max. “He’s on his way out. I don’t think he was expecting you.” She was tactful.

“No he wasn’t. I just needed to ask him something that’s all.”

“He’s cleaning his room right now. I think he’s nervous that you are here. I know I said this already but it really is nice to see you and Max as friends. I’m not sure what happened but I’m glad that everything is back to normal. Now if you can work on Isabel that would be great. She just hasn’t been the same since… well you know.”

I shook my head up and down and gave a small sympathetic smile. Isabel was always hard to reach. Alex was the first one of us to reach her. I would have to think about a way of getting through to here.

if you live your life
if you live your life this way it's gonna change
if you live your life
if you live your life this way it's gonna change


What was taking him so long? Just as I had finished the thought he walked out. “Hey.” He was wearing a smile I didn’t really notice too much else. I was glad that he had a smile on instead of a worried look. “What are you doing here?” Did he really have to ask?

“Um… Can we go outside and talk?”

“Sure.” We went through the kitchen to the back yard. Wow. His mother must really love gardening. The back yard had almost every corner filled with roses.

“Wow. It’s so peaceful back here. Your mom must really know how to take care of flowers.”

He was laughing under his breath. “Not really. Isabel and I usually have to make sure they survive. We haven’t found anything that she can do. She tries to cook and she meddles in the yard but other than that we have no clue.”

“Max. Your mother’s gift is her patience and her heart. Nothing else is important.”

“I know. You’re right.” Here it comes. The awkward silence. “So Liz, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing. How about you?” I felt like such a dork.

“Nothing.”

“Really? I’m just wondering. I had a good talk with Maria.”

“Really? That’s good.”

“Yeah, it was good. I think I may have figured out why Michael was so adamant about not wanting to hear about the … you know… stuff.” Could never be too careful.

“Really? What?”

“Well,” how do I go about telling him that he doesn’t want to leave Maria behind, unlike him who will probably leave me behind? I shook my head. I wasn’t going to do this. Be strong. “He doesn’t want to leave Maria behind.”

“I already knew that but that’s not a very good reason not to support me?” If I didn’t look like a fool already I should have slapped my forehead. I knew he already knew that. Duh.

“I agree.” Damn him. “Max?”

“Yeah?” He turned his head and looked at me. I think he already knew what I was going to say. He closed the distance between us and I was now wrapped in his strong arms.

if you live your life
if you live your life this way it's gonna change

Live your Life (Down) by Tantric


“Will you leave me here when you go?” There I said it. There’s no turning back now.

“Liz.” I could tell he was thinking hard about what he was going to tell me but I didn’t have to wait too long. “I already told you. Together till the end. Remember?”

That was the perfect Max thing to say. As usual. “I know. But Max. What’s the end? I mean what are you considering the end? You know it could be when we find your ship. It could mean when we make contact with your home. It could mean when we know your son is safe or you have him back. Or…” I hesitated not looking in his eyes. I realized that I was slowly slipping into that girl that I used to be. I depended too much on him. It wasn’t fair to me and it wasn’t fair to him.

He tilted my head so I had no choice but to look at him. “The end is the end Liz. I’m not for sure when or where that will be but I do know that I’m not living without you. I tried once and was miserable. Never again, never again will we be separated.”

“Really?”

“Really.” He leaned down and kissed me.

The kiss deepened and I felt the heat rise between us and before I could pull away from him I had another flash.

~*~FLASH~*~

I pulled away. “Max.”

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posted on 19-Oct-2002 12:03:26 AM by Bordersinsanity


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Part 14 – Wouldn’t you believe

“Liz? What did you see?”

“Max?” This flash was different than the other time. He reached for me and I backed away. “Don’t I need to think.”

“Liz. Please don’t shut me out.”

“I’m not Max. Just let me think for a minute.” I needed to concentrate on what I saw. Nothing really stood out to me except a feeling. I looked at Max.

“Tell me. You saw something didn’t you?” He didn’t have to say anything I could tell by the look in his eyes that he had. “What?” He better tell me. “I need to know what you saw Max. I have to know in order for me to put it with the information that I have.”

“I saw it.”

“What?”

“The ship. I saw it Liz. There’s a secret door behind…” He had paused as if searching his memory for what it was. “bread. A store of some sorts. It wasn’t really like a grocery store but more like a convenience store.”

“Is that all?”

“No, the other key that we know is at the Maclaine mansion is the key for the spaceship.” I started pacing back and forth. My first instinct was to kiss Max again but for some reason I knew that wouldn’t help. I needed time to think… We had a lot to do this week and there was nothing more I could do tonight.

“Remember what you saw just in case we happen to get anything else later. I don’t think that we are going to find anything else out tonight.” I started walking around to the side gate so I could go home and Max followed. “I promised my mom and dad that I wouldn’t be too late and I’m really pretty tired right now, so I’m going to head home.”

“Liz?” I stopped and turned around so I was facing him. “Are you ok?”

“Yeah. I’m fine, just tired is all.” I smiled and held out my hand for him to take it. He did and then he led me out to my car.

He opened the driver’s door and held it open for me to get in. I did and he shut it for me. I rolled down the window and Max leaned in on the window frame. “I love you Liz. Get a good night sleep.” He winked.

Max was definitely one in a million. And he was mine. I put my right hand on his cheek and pulled him further into the car. “I love you too, Max.” We kissed. Was there flashes? Nope. It was just us and it was wonderful. He pulled away and I rolled my lips inward as if I had just applied lip gloss and wanted to make sure my entire lip was covered. I closed my eyes and stored the entire sensation in a place that I would never forget it.

My Max place is what I’m calling it. He stood up and stepped back for me to leave. I started the car and began to back out. I looked at the man that said that he had loved me from the first day he had seen me. At that moment in time I believed him.

The drive home was quick. Mom and Dad were already in bed by the time I got home at ten thirty. I changed and went to bed. Tomorrow was a new day.

He was a king 'til she laid waste
Now he can not fill up the space
And I just see him drifting
while he’s drifting
On bourbon alley
feeling low
Just because she let
him go
I don’t think he
even knows
He’ll ever be fine


The ride to Hondo was easier this time. Max was sitting in front with Kyle and both of them were jousting with each other on who was better at everything. I decided to stay out of the competition.

Seeing how the two of them were getting along I now wished that I would have told Max about the future version of him a long, long time ago… It hasn’t been fair for Kyle to be kept out of the loop for doing something for me. My world was finally settling down to its norm.

Now don’t get me wrong my norm would be the same as what I was calling my norm before my sophomore year. It’s amazing how someone’s life can change in a two-year time frame.

Kyle parked the car in the street. “Which one you getting?”

Max answered him. “The blue convertible.”

“Cool man… Real cool.” It must be a guy thing but I had to agree the car was pretty cool. Bench seats always made it handy when making out. I know. Stop it… Yeah right.

Max got out of the car and held his hand out to help me out as well. “Thank you.”

“Anytime.” He was just too sweet.

I turned around, “Thanks Kyle. We’ll see ya later.”

“Bye... Good luck on the car Evans.”

“Thanks man.” We turned and walked once again to the blue car that sat at the corner of the lot.

And he’s got
a head full of ideas
Let me tell ya
That you wouldn’t believe
And he’s got
a heart made of pure gold
And something else
Many tricks up his sleeve
You might think he’s a jester
because he’ll
make you laugh til’ you cry
And what else
You better come with your best
if you test him
Unless you’re ready to die


Standing in front of the blue car with its black soft top dressed in the same outfit that I wore on Saturday, Max once again was walking around the car looking at everything. Here comes the salesman. It was the same one that we saw on Saturday and guess what he was wearing the exact same clothes as well.

“She's a beaut isn't she?” He said to Max but he ignored him. Max reached under the hood and he must have pulled the lever to allow for the hood to open up. I was waiting for Max to say something to the salesman but he didn’t so I decided to do business. After all we were in this together… If Max didn’t want my help then he wouldn’t have asked me to come. Right? Right.

“How much is it?” I asked him.

“You don't want this, honey. The entire engine was destroyed in a fire. It's just a little eye candy to draw people to the lot.” Honey? Where did he get off calling me honey? I looked at Max to see if he was going to correct the man or not.

“I'll give you five hundred bucks for it.” He must have been in his own little world either that or he didn’t mind the man calling me honey. I swear if he calls me sweetums I’m leaving… I waited for the salesman to state that the car wasn’t for sale again like he did last time but he didn’t.

“I'll get the keys.” He walked back into the sales office and Max pops the hood. We hadn’t had much time to talk today and I had thought of a few things last night while I lay in bed. I looked at Max and the car. The engine is completely burnt out.

“So, I don't think I'm getting all this. The thing we're trying to get from Shirley Maclaine's is a key to a spaceship.” He didn’t look like he was listening to me. He waved his hand over the engine and began to repair it.

“According to Tess' records, yes, but its not just any spaceship. It’s my spaceship, from 1947.” I must have missed something what else was on that piece of paper. I should have looked at it better.

“Now this is where I need a little help. You actually believe if you take a key from Shirley Maclaine's collection of weird ****, and put it in the ignition of a spaceship that crashed into a million pieces fifty years ago, that it will work?” I still found it hard to believe that he could repair anything that destroyed. If the piece of metal that we had in our possession were any clue of what we are up against, there would be a lot of little pieces.

Max finished using his powers on the engine. I wasn’t really surprised that the engine started. “If I can get this thing running, I could probably get the spaceship to work too.” I find that hard to believe. The ship was going to be much harder than this. I looked up and saw the salesman coming with the keys. He was grinning from ear to ear. Proud that he had sold the only car on the lot that was supposed to be junk. I found it funny when Max walked forward and met him halfway. He handed him the money and the salesman kept walking towards the car. He was surprised that it was running especially with out the keys. He held out the keys and I grabbed them.

“Thanks, honey.” See how you like being called honey. Max opened the driver’s door for me and I hopped in. He handed us the paperwork and Max drove off. I would give anything to see his face in awe. But I didn’t, Max had his new car and we were on our way home. At least that’s what I thought.

Wonder woman got rid of
wonder man
that man’s not part of
her wonder plan
Letter to the so called
better bet on my man
Believe it you will
find out baby
Damn


I started rummaging through the car. It was actually pretty clean. When I reached the glove box it was locked. I tried the key but it wouldn’t work. “It’s locked Max.” I didn’t have to say anything else for him to lean over and use his voodoo to open it. It opened with a pop and the door fell down. There were a bunch of papers in there. I started to pull them out and when I got to the bottom you never guessed what I found.

Nope.

Nope.

I found a gun. I take it out and hold it up. “Do you have any idea what we’re going to do with this sweetheart?” It was cute. I was in a good mood. Max had a car and it was a beautiful day to be out cruising in a convertible.

He took a double take and then looked at me again. “Where’d you get that?”

“It was in the glove box. Evidently the dealership didn’t think it was important to get it open.” It was heavy. The grip was a bit too large for my small hands. I started to move it from hand to hand to get the feel of it. “You know it might come in handy for me to have a gun.”

“You are not having a gun.”

“Why not? I’m a big girl. Besides what will happen to me if the evil aliens have already come back and they come for me first to get to you? I need protection and this is exactly what I need.”

“Have you ever fired a real gun before?”

“No, but I like playing the games at the arcade that have those ones that look like this one.” I know it wasn’t really the right thing to say and believe me I know I will regret it.

“That’s not the same. Is it loaded?”

I looked at the gun and sure enough there were bullet. “Yeah.” I don’t know what he was worried about, but he took a turn off the side of the road and we were now driving on nothing but desert. I was surprised how smooth the car handled the hard desert ground. It must have been because of the length of the car. “Where are we going?” I had no idea on what he had in mind. Maybe he wanted to get rid of the gun? I didn’t have a clue.

“If you want to keep the gun then you are going to learn how to use it.”

“Really?” I couldn’t believe my ears.

“You had a valid point. There’s no way I could protect you from clear across town. This way you could probably catch them off guard. You would be able to put up a fight.” I looked at him. He had a worried crease in his forehead and his hands were gripping the wheel until his knuckles were white.

“I can do this Max. I’m not the same girl that you saved that day.” Why did I say that? Next month will be two years. I wonder if he’s going to do anything. I decided to change the subject. “School starts next week.”

“I know. At least we don’t have to go until Friday. Freshman orientation is a blessing in disguise. I want to be able to spend every day with you. I can’t believe that we’ve blown the whole summer ignoring each other.”

“I know. There’s so much that we need to get done and it’s only going to be harder when we start school again. Do you think we could get Isabel to help us? Maybe she could look up some records on how Shirley Maclaine came about having the key or something like that. We all need to be working on it if we ever plan to accomplish anything.”

“I know. I’ll ask when I see her later.”

“Alright. You work on Isabel and Maria’s working on Michael. Kyle’s already helping.”

“Who’s working on you?”

“What?”

“I want to work on you. Do you think you can work me in?” The car came to a stop. We were in some kind of valley. There was nothing and no one around us. With the engine off and the top down everything was perfect at this very moment.

Head full of ideas
Let me tell ya
That you wouldn’t believe
And he’s got
a heart made of pure gold
And something else
So many tricks up his sleeve
You might think he’s a jester,
because he’ll
make you laugh til’ you cry
And what else
You better come with your best
if you test him
Unless you’re ready to die


“I think I can work you in.” I was on my knees working my way over to his side of the car. Before I was to him he had reached between his legs and scooted the seat away from the wheel so my body could fit. I straddled my legs across his hip. I was looking down into the soul of the only man that I would love in this life or the next. “Is this what you had in mind?” I said it right next to his ear making sure that the words were filled with hot breath.

“Yeah, something like that.” He reached up with his hands and grabbed my waist. I continued to work on his neck and then up along his jaw.

I pulled away and looked at him seriously. “I thought you said you wanted to work on me. This looks like I’m working on you.”

“It may look like that right now but give me time, I’m just beginning to warm up.” His hand moved up to the back of my head to force me down to kiss him. My body was on fire. The kiss was going deep down inside and everything was hot with fire. I deepened the kiss and began to pull up on his shirt I needed to touch his sculpted chest and feel that silky smooth skin.

Time seemed to stand still because the time between his kisses was pure agony. The emotions that were flowing between us were whirling around us like a cloud. I could almost feel the connection open up between us.

~*~FLASH~*~
Max getting off the bus and our eyes locking.

~*~FLASH~*~
Max saving my life that fatal day in September.

~*~FLASH~*~
Max telling me that his life was in my hands now.

~*~FLASH~*~
Max and I in science class and his touch sending me over the edge.

~*~FLASH~*~
The white room.

~*~FLASH~*~
The night we stayed together in the van after escaping from Pierce. “Whether I die tomorrow or fifty years from now, my destiny is the same: it's you. I want to be with you, Liz. I love you.”

~*~FLASH~*~
Max watching me run down the hill after hearing the message from his mother.

~*~FLASH~*~
The first time we saw each other after I had returned from Florida.

They just went on and on. Our whole life history was flashing before our eyes.

~*~FLASH~*~
Max standing outside the observatory and Tess walking up to him.

I steeled myself to see what was next. I didn’t want to see it and then again I wanted to see. I wanted to know what it was like for him to be with her.

~*~FLASH~*~
It was me!

A million people come and go
Through a person's ebb and flow
And faces keep on changing
While they're changing
A certain few will
stay in tact
When they’re not they'll don an act
I know this important fact
Don’t get confused like


I couldn’t believe it. After everything that had been between us I finally found out that the only way that Max could be with her was to trick his mind that he was making love to me. I pulled away.

We said nothing. We were both absorbing what we had seen in our visions. “Are you ok?” he asked me.

“Yeah, I think so.” I got up off of his lap and sat down. I was in shock. I didn’t know what to say or what to do.

“Liz. I’m sorry you saw that. I didn’t mean for you to see that.”

“Max.” I didn’t know where to begin I was shocked. How come he didn’t tell me that is how it was like for him. He never did love her. He never had any intention of loving her. Why was he saying he was sorry? I didn’t see him making love to Tess I saw him making love to me. “You know what I saw?” I wasn’t for sure we rarely had the same visions. I figured with the connection open between us I saw what was on his mind and he saw what was on mine… I wasn’t for sure what he saw.

And he’s got
a head full of ideas
Let me tell ya
That you wouldn’t believe
And he’s got
a heart made of pure gold
And something else
So many tricks up his sleeve
You might think he’s a jester
because he’ll
make you laugh til’ you cry
And what else
You better come with your best
if you test him
Unless you’re ready to die


“Yeah. I’m sorry. I never wanted you to see that. I’ve tried and tried and I can’t seem to get that out of my mind. I’m sorry, Liz.” I cupped his face in my hands and looked him straight in the eye.

“There’s no reason for you to say you’re sorry about that night Max. I understand what happened and how it happened. I couldn’t love you more right now if my life depended on it.” I knew I had confused him totally so while I had my hands around his face I told him I wanted to make another connection with me. “Make a connection with me Max. I want to show you what I saw.”

“Are you sure?”

I shook my head up and down and smiled sweetly at him. He was so cautious. He never wanted to hurt me again. “I’m sure Max. Relax… Connect with me, I want to show you what I saw and hopefully it will give you the reason why you aren’t able to get rid of that memory.”

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I’m taking Max’s hand and leading him to a pallet right behind the telescope. I’m down on my knees urging him to join me. We kiss and begin to make out. I roll him over and he takes my shirt off. I take his while we are still kissing. We made love for hours until our bodies dropped because of sheer exhaustion.

The connection ended and he pulled away. “What was that?” I smiled.

“It’s what you saw that night. It’s what you thought you were doing. She knew that you would never let yourself make love to her so she made you believe that you were making love to me. Don’t you see she mind warped you? Sure, I’m hurt that you made love to her but you thought it was me. You wanted it to be me.” I was smiling and tears of joy were starting to trickle down my cheek.

He was shaking his head. “I would have remembered. I should have remembered.”

“Max you couldn’t have remembered. She mind warped you. She made you remember what she wanted you to remember. I’m not for sure if you really did have sex with her. I’m not for sure if there really is a baby but I know that YOU didn’t make love to her that night. It was me. Baby don’t you see? She lied to you to get what she wanted.”

First you love him
then your loving him not
All the while he just
smiles giving all that
he’s got
Do you find it in your
heart to say he’s not
what you sought
Do you want me to
continue with this
or what


We sat in silence a little while the information that we had just found out sunk in. I was sitting in the middle of the seat and Max was still behind the steering wheel. “So why did you pull off the side of the road to begin with? Was it just so you could make out with me or was there an ulterior motive?”

He looked at me and smiled. “I really enjoyed making out with you but the reason I turned off the road was I wanted to try and teach you how to use the gun… You were right when you said that they would come for you. That’s the only thing I regret getting back with you. They won’t come for me, they will come for you to get to me.”

“Max… No regrets… Never. You hear me. No regrets. I’m glad that you are finally seeing what we need to do. We all need to be prepared. We can’t look as each other as our weakness but as our strength. Together we are stronger than we ever were apart. Do you hear me?”
Whoa yeah, whoa yeah
Head full of ideas
Let me tell ya
That you wouldn’t believe
And he’s got
a heart made of pure gold
And something else
so many tricks up his sleeve

Wouldn’t you believe by 311


“I hear you.” He opened up the door and got out. He held the door open for me to get out. I did. I stood up and walked right out the driver’s door.

“I really like this car.”

“Me too. Are you going to bring the gun?” He was teasing me. I turned around and got the gun out of the glove box. I made sure to keep it pointing down. I at least knew that much. I handed him the gun and we began to walk out to a place where Max could set up some targets. We had found a few cans in the trunk of the car.

He taught me the basics. The hammer. The safety. The trigger. After going through the list of things to do and not to do he stood behind me and told me to try. “Go ahead and pull the trigger. You don’t want to fight the force of the gun but you don’t want to force it either. Just let it flow.”

I shook my head in acknowledgement and eased my finger back on the trigger. **BANG** I noticed when I squeezed I closed my eyes. “Hang on. Let me try again.” I aimed the barrel at the target that was probably a good twenty yards away. I squeezed again making sure I had a solid stance as well as a good grip on the gun. **BANG** I didn’t close my eye and I sent the can flying across the ground and I looked up behind my should and saw Max’s approval. See I knew I could do it. Nothing to it.

“Good. That was real good.” I leaned into him and he kissed the top of my head. “Go ahead and shoot the rest of them. Get some practice in, I’ll get some more ammo in town.”

After a few minutes I was done and had done pretty good fifty percent. A little more practice and I could become real good. We got back into the car and Max pulled back out onto the road. My head was on cloud nine and I didn’t feel like coming down just yet.

I rested my head on Max’s shoulder and my left hand on his thigh. He covered it with his hand and we drove on in silence.

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posted on 19-Oct-2002 8:46:18 PM by Bordersinsanity
Part 15... doesn't even seem possible. We're almost to the end. Can you believe it? Wow!

Jeannine & Ari~ Thanks for all your feedback you guys rock!

Enjoy!
Jen

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Part 15 – Giving in

Part 15 — Giving In



“Go change and meet me back here in an hour,” he said. I didn’t know what plans he had but I wasn’t going to question. I wanted to be with him and even though it was only an hour it was going to be sheer torture.

“What should I wear?” Maybe that would give me some idea of what we were going to do.

“Surprise me,” he said.

“Max. I can surprise you but I don’t want to walk into a restaurant that has a dress code wearing only jeans and a tank… Give me some idea. Please.” Begging would have to work.

“Don’t worry there’s no dress code. Wear what you want. Anything will be perfect just as long as you are there.” Boy, was he laying it on thick. I smiled at him and leaned over to kiss him. The kissed deepened as if we wouldn’t see each other for a lifetime. He pulled away and said “Go.” I looked at my watch and saw that it was four thirty. We needed to start taking something along with us for a snack. I was starving…

I walked through the front of the Crashdown and went straight back to the back. Michael was working and he stopped me before I could get up the stairs. “What the hell are you doing with Maxwell?”

Wow… I would have never thought that it would have bothered him that much. “Excuse me? I don’t think I like your tone but if you must know we’re going out to eat.” I knew my attitude would piss him off but he pissed me off first.

“That’s not what I mean. What’s going on between the two of you?” A valid question and I didn’t feel the need to lie to him… After all I swore to Max that I wouldn’t lie to him so why should I lie to the others? I had nothing to gain by babying them.

I took in a deep breath and thought of the best way to approach the subject. “We’re together now.” Short and sweet and no bull.

“What! How did that happen?”

“What do you mean what? Oh, I see as long as you and Maria are having the time of your lives pretending that nothing is wrong and everything is normal. Max and I have to live in misery. We deserve a happy life just as much as you do. Don’t we?”

“Look. All I’m saying is the last time he was ‘having the time of his life’ the bitch betrayed us.” I held my hand up to stop the thought that he had not finished. He ignored me. “I don’t think he can handle it if it doesn’t work out between the two of you.”

“I don’t know what you think of me Michael, but I’m not going to betray you guys. Max is my life and I will do anything to ensure that he survives. If that’s wrong then I guess there’s nothing more for us to say to each other. You’ve made your point very clear.” I turned to go up the stairs.

“Liz. Wait.” He had his hand on my forearm. I looked down and then up at him. I think he finally thought about it. “How serious are the two of you? I mean…” he was searching, “you’re not going to break his heart again.” Oh I see where this was going. I would have thought that Maria would have told him the truth by now. I guess not.

I wanted to tell him the truth but it just felt self-serving right now. I didn’t need to justify the relationship between Max and I to the whole world. “Will it help if I told you that we were taking things slow?” He shook his head yes. “Fine.” I had my bitch face on to make sure he knew where I was coming from.

“I just have one thing to ask and then we can end this conversation once and for all.” He shook his head yes. “Are you prepared if the bad guys come tomorrow? Are you prepared to lose Maria? Is she prepared to lose you? The end is coming Michael and you better be ready. They know who we are. They know where we are. Think about it.” I continued up the stairs not waiting for him to answer the questions that I had asked. Let him think about it. We had to start working as a team; if we ever had any hopes of getting pass this.

I opened the door to the apartment. Mom and dad were sitting in the living room doing their separate things. “Hi.” I said walking towards my room.

“So did Max get his car?” Mom asked.

“Yeah, he did.”

“I hope he got a good deal on it.” Dad forever the pessimist.

“Yeah. He only paid five hundred dollars for it. I think he did good. Don’t make anything for me to eat tonight. Max is taking me out.”

“That sounds nice. Where are you going?”

“I have no idea. He wants to surprise me.” I was beginning to get in a better mood since I wasn’t in the presence of Michael.

“Well if you’re out too late make sure and let us know.” My mom was the only one speaking and I couldn’t read the look on my dad’s face.

I yelled behind me… “I will.” I stripped off the black top and leather pants and hopped into the shower. The shower’s heat made my shoulders ease some. Why did the others have to be so difficult? Couldn’t they tell that Max and I were meant for each other?

I had turned the radio on before I had gotten in and the song that was playing was a good one. It was Adema’s Giving in. I was singing the lyrics as I passed the sponge over my body parts. I rinsed and turned off the water and grabbed my towel and went out to stand in front of my closet. What to wear?

Will you walk me?
To the edge again
Shaking lonely
And I am drinking again
Woke up tonight
And no one's here with me
I’m giving in to you
Take me under; I’m giving in to you
I’m dying tonight; I’m giving in to you

Watch me crumble, I’m giving in to you, I’m crying tonight, I’m giving in to you

It would really help if I knew where we were going? Do I dress up or do I wear my usual? After thinking about it a little I decided to go in between. I had a black slip dress and then added a black silk top over it. The only thing I didn’t like about the dress was that it didn’t let me belly ring show. I looked at myself in the full-length mirror and decided that this wasn’t the right outfit. What to wear? I ask myself again.

Then I see it; there hanging in the back of my closet was a long tight fitting skirt that had two long slits up the sides. It would go good with the black tank that had the lace around the neckline. If I add the red see-through silk shirt that has long sleeves it would complete the look. I grab the other pieces and began putting them on.

I was done dressing and I would have to say that everything was perfect. The tank stopped just above my belly ring and with the long sleeve shirt on I could get out of the house without the parents seeing it. Perfect. What should I do with my hair? I walked into the bathroom and began blow-drying it.

When it was dried I took it into a pony and fastened it with a clip. There were some loose strands of hair and I ended up curling them. Time to move on to makeup. I hated foundation and being out in the sun most the day I really didn’t need anything but some eyeliner and lip-gloss. I ran the wand over my lips and puckered at the image in the mirror. Eat your heart out Evans.

Caught up in life
Losing all my friends
Family has tried to heal all my addictions
Tragic it seems to be alone again
I’m giving in to you


I stepped over to the bed and got down on my knees so I could look under it for the black go-go boots. I found one and was still missing the other. I sat back on my heels and thought. I jumped up and went straight for the closet. Underneath some clothes that I had tossed in there when mom had asked me to clean my room was the missing boot. I grabbed both of them and sat down on the bed. I pulled one on after the other and zipped them up. One more look in the mirror and a little twirl and I was done.

I went to the door and took a deep breath hoping that I could get out of the house with out my parents giving me the once over. After letting it out I opened the door up and proceeded to the door. “Bye mom. Bye dad.” I couldn’t have been luckier… They weren’t anywhere in sight.

“Bye honey. Have fun and be careful.”

“Thanks mom I will.” Yes. I’m free. I looked at the watch on my wrist and I had five minutes to spare… I decided to go out the back way for two reasons. I didn’t want to see Michael right now and I didn’t want to take a chance with dad being in the restaurant. The back screen slammed against the doorjamb and I scrunched my shoulder from the loud racket. I pulled the shirt tight in front of me because I had felt a chill. I looked around the alley to see if there was anything out of place. No… nothing. I didn’t see anything out of the usual. I was probably just nervous about going out with Max.

I rounded the corner and saw Max sitting on the top of the seat. The top on the blue car was down and in less than a second as if he could tell that I was coming our eyes met. His mouth immediately dropped. I had to give him the full show. I stopped and held my arms our so the red silk shirt opened up to reveal the black tank and my bare midriff. I began to spin around and in doing so the slits to my skirt showed my thighs. “You look beautiful.” He hopped over the driver’s door and met me half way.

“Thanks.” I think I blushed because my cheeks grew hot. “You don’t look that bad yourself.” He was wearing leather pants and a blue button down and of course his leather jacket. “Don’t you have any other jacket to wear besides that one?”

“I thought you liked this one?”

“I do. It’s just that it makes it really hard for me to concentrate.”

“Really?”

“Yes.” I slugged him in the arm and he grabbed my wrist and then pulled me close.

“You know I could ask you if you have any other shirts that don’t show off your new ring but I don’t because I don’t want to see you in anything else… It’s hard enough to concentrate when I’m close to you let alone with your skin poking out of almost every piece of clothing that you are wearing.” He kissed me. The kiss was gentle and told me that he had missed me. It deepened and my arms went up around his neck so I could play with the hair that met his collar. I had to admit I liked the fact that he was letting his hair grow out some. It looked good on him… Then again what didn’t look good on him.

There was something else in his kiss that took me by surprise. He was tense. “What’s wrong,” I said as I pulled away. His eyes clouded over and he turned away and took my hand to lead me to the car. “Max. What’s wrong? What happened? Is everything ok?” The only thing that popped into my mind was Isabel. “Is Isabel ok?” I pulled on his hand so that he would have to look at me. “Answer me Max. What’s wrong?”

“Not here.”

“Ok. Let’s go then.” I wanted to get to the bottom of this. He helped me into the car and I did my best to show off a little more leg than was called for. He stared at the naked leg and waited patiently for me to pull it into the car. When I did he shut the door gently. He leaned over the car door and kissed my on the cheek and when he pulled back he was smiling.

He jumped into the car not even opening up the door and in an instant it was purring like a kitten. The engine gave a steady humming that was a comfort. I scooted over so my hand could rest on his thigh. I wanted to reassure him that everything was going to be ok and whatever was going on with Isabel was going to work its way out. Being with Max gave me the confidence that everything was going to be ok as long as we were together. He looked at me and gave me a small smile and then his hand settled on top of mine.

“What’s wrong? Please tell me.” We were out of town now and were once again on the old highway where we had the accident. He must have felt the tension in my arm because he squeezed my hand just a little bit tighter than he had been.

He pulled over. Once again we were on the side of the road with no one around us for miles. He looked into my eyes and the pain that I saw would have brought me to my knees if I had been standing. “You’re right. It’s Isabel. I don’t know if we will ever be the way we were. We’re drifting apart and nothing I say or do helps. What can I do?” He pleaded with his eyes and his mouth was calling to me. I wanted to wipe all the misery away with my kiss but knew that would only mask the problem and wouldn’t solve anything.

“Tell me what happened. I won’t be able to help you if you don’t let me hear what happened.” I pulled on his hand with both of mine. He turned toward me and looked me in the eye for courage.

“I asked her if she could help look into how and when Shirley Maclaine came in contact with the key.” He stopped.

“And?”

“She threw her magazine down and said that she had more important things to do at work than look up some strange artifact that you think has to do with us. I couldn’t believe what she was saying so I asked what was wrong and she said that she didn’t want to talk about it. I thought we were getting along pretty well. We sat together Friday night and she didn’t seem like anything was bothering her.”

I shook my head in acknowledgement. Isabel seemed fine. “Has there been anything strange going on with her lately?”

“Not that I know of. I’ve been out of the loop most of the summer up until we got back together. It’s all my fault. I just know it.”

“Max you can’t take the blame for everyone. We all are responsible for what we do.”

“Liz. I’m their king. I’m the one that’s supposed to keep us together. I haven’t been doing that lately. If we aren’t prepared by the time Tess comes back it’ll be my fault.”

“Look at me. We’ve talked to Michael. We’ve talked to Maria. We’ve talked to Isabel. We’ve even talked to Kyle. If they decide not to do anything then so be it. It just means that we have to work harder to get to the end of this nightmare.”

“Is that what this is to you? A nightmare? Liz. This is my dream come true. Being able to love you openly and to be able to spend as much time with you as I want is the dream that I have dreamt about my entire life. I don’t care what happens tomorrow as long as I know that you love me. I feel like I can do anything as long as you are with me and you believe in me.”

“Max.”

“I want to make your dreams come true Liz. Tell me what I need to do so you can feel like I do when I’m with you.”

“Max… you are my dream come true. All I ask and all I want is for you to give me everything that is you. I need you to be you. Whatever you are I want. So, if you are a king from another planet fighting a war with a rebellion race, I want to be there. If you are a brother that is having a hard time with his family, I want to be there.” I placed both my hands on his face and brought his lips to mine. I sealed my pledge to him with a kiss. I poured everything that I felt for him into that one kiss and that’s when I saw it.

~*~FLASH~*~
Max walking into Isabel’s room asking her for help. She threw the magazine down and looked up at her brother in disgust. I felt Max’s heart being broken because his sister no longer wanted anything to do with him.

“I need time for me. I had the love of my life stripped from me right when I knew that he was the one. I’m not going to be dragged back into that Max. I want to have a normal life and if you feel that this is important to you then so be it. Go do what you need to do but leave me out of it. If it makes it any easier for you, you can pretend that you don’t even have a sister. Your sister died when the slut that you were bedding killed Alex. Now if you don’t mind I’m trying to read the new fashion trends for the new school year.” Isabel had cut Max to the core.

He backed out of her room and shut the door quietly.

The flash ended and I pulled him into me for reassurance. “It’ll be ok. She’ll come around. We just have to be patient. That’s all. Be patient.” I started rocking back and forth and his hands moved around to embrace me even tighter than before.

Take me under,
I’m giving in to you,
I’m dying tonight,
I’m giving in to you
Watch me crumble, I’m giving in to you, I’m crying tonight, I’m giving in to you


He turned his head into the crook of my neck. He took a deep breath and inhaled my scent. It must have been an intoxicating scent to him because he immediately started leaving little kisses all over my neck. His breath was coming in short bursts and the heat traveled down my spine and landed in the pit of my stomach.

I tilted my head to give him better access to what he wanted; to what he needed. He needed to know that I would be there for him when everyone else turned their back on him. Max’s life had been hard this last year. I had to admit that he didn’t make the most rational choices this past year but I had to let him know that it’s ok to make mistakes as long as we learn from them.

He was now to my right ear and he was nibbling on it like it had an answer to one of his many questions. His hot breath made its way to my ear and the passion that was building in me erupted. I grabbed the back of his head by his hair and forced his mouth onto mine.

During the kiss I pushed off his jacket and started to unbutton his shirt. He peeled off my silk shirt and the thin tank top was the only thing between his hands and my bare skin. I was hot with need and felt the urge in him as well. I leaned back on the seat and pulled him on top of me. His hands were beginning to roam the flatness of my stomach and I was pulling his shirt apart so I could feel his sculpted chest with my own skin.

I look forward to dying tonight
Drink till I’m myself
Life’s harder every day
The stress has got me
I’m giving in, I’m giving in, giving in, NOOO....
(I’m killing all the pain)

Take me under, I’m giving in to you, I’m dying tonight, I’m giving in to you
Watch me crumble, I’m giving in to you I’m crying tonight, I’m giving in to you

I let out a deep blissful moan and sat up so I could taste his skin with my tongue. I didn’t get that far before a car from nowhere came zooming by us. We jerked apart and looked at each other. That was close. We were so close to actually throwing all logic away and giving into our sexual desires. I wanted Max there was no doubt about it and I’m sure he wanted me.

He started to button up his shirt and said, “I think we better get going before they give our reservations to someone else.” He leaned over to give me another kiss and I scooted back so he would be able to sit down behind the steering wheel.

“Ok.” I sounded disappointed because I was. I was almost eighteen and still a virgin. I shook my head to get rid of that thought. It would happen when the time was right. Not because he needed comforting, not because I was insecure but because it was the right time for both of us.

I straightened out my outfit while Max worked the car back onto the road. I looked at my watch and saw that it was almost six thirty. An hour later than when we had started out. I hoped that the restaurant wasn’t that far away. I was absolutely starving. I scooted over to once again place my hand on his thigh. He covered my hand and then brought it up to his lips for a gentle kiss. “I love you.”

“I love you too.”

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posted on 20-Oct-2002 9:53:55 PM by Bordersinsanity

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Part 16 – Woohoo

All I have to say was the date was fantastic. Dinner was scrumptious and the atmosphere was to die for. We danced and talked as if we were a normal couple very much in love. Afterwards we went out to the pond that he had found over the summer and sat on the dock and looked at the stars and reminisced about the old times.

I don’t want to get side tracked because I need to get along with the story because there’s not much time before everything turns upside down. Today is Thursday and tonight we will be invited guest at the Maclaine Mansion.

Max and I told our parents that the gang decided to take one last camping trip before our senior year. You’re probably wondering how that can happen if no one is willing to help us search. One person. Maria. I personally think she is going after the wrong career. She should be an actress because when she wants to put on a good show she can. Let me tell you how it happens.

I was upstairs packing a backpack for the weekend events. The plan was for Maria to pick me up. All decked out in the camping gear… You know the look. Backpack, tank top with long sleeve shirt over the top, shorts, pushed down socks, hiking boots, and the one accessory needed to finish off the motif. A bandana head thingy… I know that’s not what you call it but hey. I’m not Isabel. The know all of fashion. If this were her story she would know what that was called but it’s not and it’s a good thing because you wouldn’t even know what was going on with anyone but her.

I know that sounds really bad but if you would have heard what she told Max when he asked her to cover for her you would be acting the same way as I was. Ok… Let me play it back for you. Max walks into the house Monday night after our fabulous date and knocks on her bedroom door. Of course she’s on the phone and is really upset that Max had the nerve to come to her. Believe me after that night I don’t think he will ever ask her for anything for a long, long time. Anyway. She covered the mouthpiece and asked, “What.”

“I need you to cover for me this weekend.”

“Why?”

“Liz and I.” That’s all he got to say. She cut him off.

“Look. I don’t want to know anything. Tell me the story so I can get back to my telephone conversation already.”

Yeah. Bitchy is right. Anyway Max told her that the story was everyone was going camping for the weekend before school starts on Monday. “Ok. I’ll make sure to let them know that that’s where you guys are at.” She shooed him out of her room and continued talking as if he was never there. Poor Max.

Maria was easy. She needed an excuse to tell her mom so she could spend one last weekend with Michael before school started. They didn’t have a problem with not being seen. I think Maria’s words were “I think I can keep him busy for a few days. Don’t worry Liz they won’t find out that we didn’t go with you. So, how serious are you and Max?”

I remembered how Michael had taken the news and decided to tell her what I had led him to believe. “Were taking things slow, Maria. You know.” I didn’t have to finish the thought because she knew what I was hinting to. Yep. Tess.

So now that you know the background here we are, once again in the new blue convertible. I’m still not sure what kind of car it is. It doesn’t really matter as long as it gets us where we want to go. The radio works well and its got good sound… It’s playing an old song by Blur. I once thought that it was called woohoo but really it’s called Song 2. Weird huh.

I got my head checked
By a jumbo jet
It wasn't easy
But nothing is, no


We just made it out of town and Max is getting into the song “Woohoo,” he let’s loose of the steering wheel and sticks his hands out the top of the car.

“Max! What are you doing?” I’ve never seen him act this way.

“I’m having fun.”

“Max you’re driving.”

“You’re right.” He pulls over and stands up on the seat and says; “You drive. I want to enjoy the ride for awhile.”

I started to laugh at him. He was just too adorable when he was acting like this. “Let me see what this car can do.” I always wanted to try and do a fish tail but never had the guts or the car to do it in. Now I do. I slammed my foot onto the accelerator and the wheels spun in the dirt that was on the side of the road. It wasn’t the best fish tail that I had seen but it was my first one.

We were well on our way to Sedona Arizona. Home of Shirley Maclaine’s Mansion as well as Cathedral Rock, Courthouse Butte, Bell Rock, Airport Mesa and Boynton Canyon. You want to know the significance to this little bit of information?

It’s been said that these places are known to carry a vortex. What’s a vortex? A vortex is an energy spot or a place where the natural geophysical emissions interact with the human system creating strong emotional, psychological and even psychic reactions. I looked it up on the net. You can find it at www.sedona.com. Interesting uh? Thought you would like that.

I know what you are thinking. How? I’ve already thought about it, the consequences of Max and I being together in a very sensitive area. What could possibly go wrong? Nothing. That’s what. I’m hoping that the vortex will help lead us to the bottom of the visions that we’ve been experiencing.

“Did you know that Anazasi tribe once lived where Sedona is now, Max?”

“The who?”

“The Anazasi. They built these great civilizations in Arizona, Utah, Colorado and New Mexico and then just disappeared. They were concentrated around the red rocks of Arizona because it was believed that they held a power in them.”

I looked at him. I knew that he wasn’t getting the full gist of it. I always got ahead of myself whenever I was excited about anything. “Just wait until we get to the hotel. I’ll bring up the information for you. I found it a few weeks ago while I was researching.”

“What did you find Liz?”

I didn’t know how to continue. I know I promised not to keep anything from him… so I continued. “It’s been rumored that the rocks have the power to bring on the psychic phenomena.” I knew that he didn’t understand what I was getting at so I explained myself. “Meaning that our flashes might get more intense. They might give us more information.” I was getting excited. “I don’t think it’s a coincidence that the key is here in Sedona Max. I think that everything is happening for a reason.

When I feel heavy metal
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Well I lie and I'm easy
All of the time but I'm never sure when I need you
Pleased to meet you


We pulled into the Sedona Super 8 Hotel and got out. I had gotten us reservations online and knew there wouldn’t be a problem. Max was over eighteen and I’m sure I looked old enough to have a room. Of course, I ordered double occupancy. There will be a bed for Max and a bed for me. That way neither one of us will feel uncomfortable.

We walked into the lobby and there sitting pretty behind her desk was the receptionist. “Hi, welcome to Sedona. My name is Susan. How can I help you?” Isn’t it funny how the lingo just rolls off of everyone’s tongues when they have worked the same job day after day after day? Susan had bleach blonde hair cut about shoulder’s length and had a wavy curl to it. She wore bright blue eye shadow and was wearing a top a little to tight for her bust. Reminded me of Tess if she was in her late thirty’s and had fallen apart… Only in my dreams.

“Um… Yes, we have a reservation.”

“And your name sir.” Come on Max she’ll need your name.

“Max Evans.” Susan started typing on her keyboard.

“Yes, your room’s all ready but there is a slight problem. We had a whopper of a storm here this past weekend and half our rooms have water damage. Due to this being our peak period the only way we were able to get you into a room is by giving you a single with a roll-a-way. My manager has already given me permission to give you a fifty percent discount on the room and you can take your pick of one of these tours that we will throw in for free as well.” She had placed about six brochures onto the counter. One looked like a hot air balloon ride. That could be cool. Another one was a tour on some pink jeep. No thanks. Horse back ride and a romantic dinner under the stars. That had its possibilities. There were a few more but I decided that we needed to get a move on.

Max and I looked at each other. “That’ll be fine.” I said. We were adults and besides what could go wrong. Max and I had been able to stay the night together once before and nothing happened that we couldn’t control.

“Liz. Are you sure?”

I didn’t look at him. I looked at Susan and held my hand out. “We’ll take it.” I looked at Max and repeated myself. “We’ll take it. It’s a good deal. Besides, we get to pick one of the great tour deals for free.” I looked at Susan as she handed me the key. “Do you mind if we take a moment to look over the brochures awhile?”

“No, no sweetheart. You take your time.” She smiled at us as we left the lobby and went to our room. Room 14. We went back out to the car and grabbed our bags. I had given Max my evening gown a few nights before so it wouldn’t look to odd when I was going ‘camping’.

I had the backpack strung over my shoulder and the gown over my forearm. Max had basically the same thing as I did. We went around the corner to our room. The sudden chill of the air conditioner hit us as soon as we stepped into the room.

The room was done in a southwest tribal decoration and was actually pretty roomy. I set my backpack down and started to put up my clothes. Thank God for Downy wrinkle guard. I sprayed, smoothed and tugged on all my garments and hung them up on the clothes rod that most hotels had. If that didn’t work I had noticed that they had an iron hung up on the wall.

By the time we were unpacked it was four thirty. We needed to start getting dressed if we were going to make the invitation by six thirty. “I’m going to jump in the shower and start getting ready.”

Max’s ears got all red and I think I embarrassed him a little. “Oh, ok. I think I’m going to go walk around while you get ready.” Yep he was embarrassed.

“Max. We are both adults and besides it won’t take me that long. You can stay if you want to.”

“Ok.” That didn’t take much persuading.

I grabbed my clothes and my toiletries into the little bathroom. I turned on the shower and started to get undressed. Max knocked on the door. “Liz, I’ll be right back. I forgot something in the car.”

“Ok.” You would swear that I was his mother. He kept telling me everything he was going to be doing like it needed my approval. I stepped into the shower and tilted my head back under the water. It really felt good. I liked Max’s convertible, but I didn’t like what it did to my hair.

I got my head done
When I was young
It's not my problem
It's not my problem


I don’t think I need to go through all the details of what my shower consisted of. You know the usual, wash, rinse, repeat if necessary. Today it was necessary. I had forgotten my razor in my bag. I thought about not even bothering but decided against it. What would I look like in an evening gown with stubble in my armpits? Not a pretty picture. I reached out and grabbed the towel that was hanging above the toilet and hopped out of the shower. The small bathroom was all steamy and as I opened the door the steam rolled out. I had wrapped the towel around me as tight as I could. I knew I was alone in the room but didn’t want to risk the chance of Max coming in and my towel falling down. It would be my luck if that happened.

I was thumbing through my backpack when the lock on the door clicked. I froze like a deer trapped in headlights. I was staring at the door waiting. Why on earth was I waiting? I had no idea. Yep, you guessed it. In walks Max, flowers in hand. I bet you didn’t expect that. I didn’t that was for sure. He was just too sweet. How could a woman not fall in love with him? I stood up. “Umm I forgot my razor.” Stupid. I had held up the razor for emphasis.

“Well, I wanted to surprise you with these, but I guess the surprise is ruined.”

“Oh, no Max. They’re perfect.” I walked over to him, forgetting that I was dripping wet and only covered in a towel. I took had the razor in one hand and was making sure that the towel wouldn’t fall down with the other. I leaned over to smell them. The white roses were filled with their sweet aroma. “Mmmmm. They smell wonderful. Where did you get them?”

“Ummm. I noticed that there were some flowers around the corner. Since I didn’t want to leave you in the room by yourself for too long I decided that I would do a little voodoo on them. You like ‘em?”

“Are you kidding they are beautiful. Thank you.” I leaned up and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around me and deepened our kiss.

~*~FLASH~*~
I’m in a towel kissing Max.

That was enough to break our kiss. I felt what Max wanted to do with me in that towel and I didn’t think it was the right time for that right now. Once again I was rolling my lips together to taste our kiss. “Umm, I better get back in there before I use up all the hot water. I left the shower running.” I was looking into his eyes that were burning with desire. I’m sure my eyes were saying the same thing.

“Yeah, hurry up will ya. I gotta get ready too.” I turned and headed for the bathroom. I looked over my shoulder. He was mine. “Thanks for the flowers Max. They’re perfect.

I was done in the shower and decided to go ahead and get dressed out in the room where it was cooler. I once again opened up the bathroom door. “Your turn.” I stood beside the clothes rack and waited for him to get up off the bed and make his way into the bathroom so I could finally dry off and start getting ready.

“Don’t come out unless it’s clear.”

“I wouldn’t do that to you. I’ll make sure that you are dressed before I come out of here.”

“Thanks Max.” He shut the door and I started getting ready. He actually took quite awhile in the bathroom, which gave me time to get into my black dress. It wasn’t anything elaborate. Think of the one that I wore in Vegas but in black and back less. Simple.

I was busy drying my hair when Max came out already dressed in his black pants and white undershirt. “It’s too hot in there.”

“Why didn’t you come out earlier? You didn’t have to stay in there for that long. I’ve been dressed for quite awhile now.” I had my hair pulled up trying to decide if it would look good in a French twist or not. Holding my hair in place I turned in almost every direction so I could see how it would look. “What do you think? Up?” I held my hair in place for him to see. “Or down? Which looks better?”

“Can I have it both ways?”

I started to giggle. “You would have to be difficult wouldn’t you? I’ll see what I can do.”

When I feel heavy metal
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Well I lie and I'm easy
All of the time but I'm never sure when I need you
Pleased to meet you


I was looking at the clock that was on the radio. We had a half-hour to get where we were going. It’s amazing what you can get over the Internet that is if you know what you are looking for. I had directions down to the tenth of the mile on how to get there. Max gave the keys to the valet and we walked on the red carpet to the host. Lets hope that Kyle did a good job. Max handed the gentleman who was fielding all incoming people before they came into the door our fake invitation. Guy, that was his name, looked down and back up again on the list before he stopped and then smile. “Here you are. Mr. Evans you and Ms. Parker can go in. Please enjoy the evening.

Max and I walked into the mansion. “Should we split up?”

“I guess now is best before anyone notices that we are even here.”

He didn’t look too confident so I gave him a kiss and told him, “good luck.”

“You too.” We separated. I went left and he went right. The house was huge and it wasn’t what I expected. The formal living room was the first room I came to. It wasn’t much but had a lot of Native American artifacts like the ones that my grandma had spent most of her life documenting. I continued on my path, weaving in and out of people. I was going down a narrow corridor when it ended in a close door.

I opened it and was immediately inside what appeared to be the master bedroom. It was elaborately done in red silk and white plush carpet. There are candles everywhere. Something catches my eye and I begin to walk to a glass case. Inside is what we’ve been looking for. I better go get Max and see what he thinks we should do.

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah
Song 2 by Blur


“The intelligence level of aliens has been greatly exaggerated.” The man was standing giving a speech to a room full of people. I notice Max’s head off to the right side of the man who thought he knew everything. “In fact, at complete maturation they can only achieve the intellectual capacity of a firefly.”

I was watching Max as I approached the group of UFOlogist. He was shifting from side to side. He looked a little bit perturbed about what Dr. Solomon Browning was saying. He mumbled “Firefly.”

The doctor must have heard him because he looked directly at Max and answered, “If that.”

“Well, I'd just like to say that I am an alien, and I'm no firefly.” Whoa Max. What in the world was he doing? These people were not Todd from Hondo. These people had money and they could have friends in high places…

“You're an alien?” Dr. Browning gave a little chuckle like he couldn’t believe it.

“Yes, from the infamous '47 Crash.” Max’s face was as steady as ever.

“I find that hard to believe. You look like a relatively normal homo-sapien.” Dr. Browning was going along with Max as if it were rehearsed.

“Actually, I'm a hybrid. I'm a mix of human DNA and Alien genetic material. And just for the record my alien side is much smarter.” Ok. I would have to talk to him about that. Was he just saying that he is much smarter than I am because he’s half alien? We’ll see about that. The last thing I knew I was the one carrying us to an ‘A’ in Biology.

Dr. Browning came back with an “Interesting.”

I finally reach Max and put my arm around his waist and lean in to give him a hello kiss on the cheek. I whisper into his ear, “We should go, honey.” I look around the room because all eyes were now on us due to the fact of Max’s earlier accusations. I decide to be polite as I take his arm and start to leave the crowd. “Excuse us, excuse us.”

Dr. Browning called after us and I turned my head over my shoulder to look at him. “Oh, young lady. You might be interested in knowing that your date is an alien.”

“Oh, I knew that.” I continued pulling Max behind me and we head towards the master bedroom.

“Why did you say to them?” I was worried. Max had openly exposed himself for what?

“These people have zero credibility in the world. I could say whatever I want. It's actually freeing.” That’s good as long as he feels free now, I will have to remind him how ‘freeing’ it was when the federal government has him in lock down.

“I found the key.” We were almost to the room.

“Where?”

“You'll be happy.” Yeah, just wait till he sees what Shirley Maclaine did with the key that starts his spaceship. Won’t he be happy?

I wish I knew what Max was thinking when we entered the room that was designed for ‘spiritual oneness and great sex’. Those were not my words but the words on the plaque that was nailed to the outside wall. My eyes once again went straight to the red satin sheets, and the hundreds of candles. There in the corner of the room was the display of alien and spiritual artifacts. I stood there waiting for Max to take in the room.

He finally found the words and it wasn’t what I was expecting. “Tell me you'll never be in a better place to consummate anything?”

“That thing looks like it’s sealed. How are we going to get it open and the key out of there without the security guards catching us?” I could see that the wheels in Max’s head were weaving an intricate plan.

“Come on, let’s go look at the rest of the house while we think of something. Surely dinner is going to begin any moment. It wouldn’t hurt to get something in our stomachs.” He took my hand I we headed to where the rest of the crowd was waiting.

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posted on 22-Oct-2002 11:07:22 PM by Bordersinsanity
Well, I prolonged the finally by a day. I forgot to post so here's the next part... Look for the last part tomorrow.

take care to all...

thanks for the feedback.
Jen


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Part 17 – Short skirt/Long jacket

Dinner was glazed chicken and green beans with almond slivers. The conversation between Max and I wasn’t much. I think he was in a zone of trying to figure out what to do next.

I want a girl
With a mind like a diamond
I want a girl
Who knows what's best


Some one at one of the head tables clanged a utensil against their water glass. “May I have your attention please? Quiet everyone. Please…” Once the crowd quieted some, the speaker began to speak. “I would like to introduce you to Dr. Solomon Browning’s wife, Delores. She has spent many years...”

“And my money” Solomon had added and the crowd giggled.

“Trying to add to the Maclaine estate with things that would be appropriate. She will be giving a brief speech in the master bedroom in a half-hour. Those of you who are interested in the diamonds that have been on display, please meet there directly after dinner. I don’t want to take up anymore of your time, so, everyone please welcome Delores Browning.” The woman sitting beside good ol’ Solomon stood and did the beauty pageant wave. Delores is probably in her forties and is quite attractive. She looks well taken care of. She should be if she can afford to buy rare alien artifacts as well as diamonds and let them sit around.

I want a girl
With shoes that cut
And eyes that burn
Like cigarettes
I want a girl
With the right allocations
Who's fast and thorough
And sharp as a tack


Dinner ended and Max grabbed my arm and escorted me out to the back yard. “I think I know what we are going to do.” He looked around and then walked over to the flowerbed that housed one of the garden troll ceramic dolls. He looked around I guess to see if anyone was looking. He must have been pretty sure that no one was around because he swiped his hand over the troll and turned it into a replica of the cylindrical diamond that was on display in the bedroom… Excuse me, it’s not the bedroom its the spiritual oneness and great sex room. I had to laugh again.

It was just too funny thinking that the key to an alien spaceship was being used in the great sex room… Just too funny. Max stuffed the fake key into the sleeve of his jacket. “This is what we are going to do.”

We were now in the master bedroom. I had to stay away from what it was really called or else I would just roll on the floor laughing… I was pretending that I was interested in some art on the wall.

Max is at a table set up as a bar, near the diamond. He’s serving a drink to Delores Browning. I hear her tell him thank you. I wasn’t out of hearing distance just far enough to let Max do his magic.

“The honor is mine.” Give me a break. Although I had to admit he could be smooth when he wanted to be.

Delores stood up as if she was about to leave but stops and takes a second look at Max. Max doesn’t want her to leave so he says, “So you're the Delores Browning”

She smiles. “Well, I don't usually put the article before my name.”

Max gave her one of his cute smiles and looked up under half lidded eyes. “So what's it like to actually own all these diamonds?”


She's playing with her jewelry
She's putting up her hair
She's touring the facility
And picking up slack
I want a girl with a short skirt and a lonnnng jacket......



“I only own some of them. Well, most of them. Anyway.” I get the signal from Max. It wasn’t anything that anyone would have noticed. I get myself worked up to be angry. I really couldn’t do it so I imagined him flirting with Tess and that was it. I was ready to pounce on Mrs. Delores Browning, owner of most the diamonds on display here.

“Yeah. Sorry, I never fraternize. I couldn't help myself. You're very beautiful.” Good one Max. A way into a woman’s heart is to tell her how beautiful she is. I was still imagining her as Tess and my temper was beginning to flare.

“Oh. Oh, well oh. So you're…” There she fell for it. If it ever comes up that something is missing they will be looking at the caterer’s. She thinks Max is a waiter and not an invited guest. Good job, Max.

“I’m here to make sure that your drink is never empty.”

“You’re here for me?” Max nodded his head in agreement before she could finish her thought. “I get it. So you're not really a waiter, you're really an aspiring artist, or actor, or---

“No. I'm just a waiter. I’m not here to ask you for anything. I just really wanted to meet the Delores Browning that I’ve heard so much about."

She's playing with her jewelry
She's putting up her hair
She's touring the facility
And picking up slack
I want a girl with a short skirt and a lonnnng jacket......


“God bless you.” She was no longer trying to figure out what Max was up to. She was swallowing it hook, line and sinker.

I took my cue and went over to the two of them. “What the hell are you doing?”

“Oh, Liz---“ Max could probably make it as an actor if he was the last man on earth…

“Don’t oh Liz me. What the hell are you doing?”

“Nothing, nothing.” He had his hands firmly place on my upper arms. The heat and the passion that was in that little touch was making it hard for me to concentrate. I shimmied out of his grasp.

“I can't believe you. How many times have I stuck my neck out for you and you stand here obviously all over this woman who's obviously like twice your age.”

“Liz calm down.”

Delores decided that she didn’t belong here and made her goodbye speech. “I better be going.”

I want a girl
Who gets up early
I want a girl
Who stays up late


Max looked at Delores with a sympathetic look on his face. ”I'm sorry about this.”

I was still imagining Delores being Tess and the words just kept on flying out of my mouth. “You're apologizing to this bimbo!?”

“Excuse me?” I think I had gone too far. I had insulted the guest of honor. Oh, well that was the plan.

“Let's just walk away.” Max was acting nervous and the crowd was building. Their murmurs were growing louder and Max thought it was the right time to address the crowd. “Forget it. Everythings ok. Just forget it!”

I was still in acting mode and continued on the path I had started. Nothing was going to stop me. I don’t know if I had taken too many sips of champagne or what, but I wasn’t about to let this slide. In a way I was venting for everything that happened in the past. “That's your answer isn't it? Forget everything. Ignore everything.”

I want a girl
With uninterrupted prosperity
Who uses a machete
To cut through red tape


I must have been causing a real big scene because it was about this time that the security guard approached us. “Excuse me ma'am. Could you come with me, please?” He was a typical security guy, bald on top… spare tire around the middle and probably too slow in the head. I had ignored him and I take it he didn’t like that too well. He reached out to take my arm but I pulled it away before he could reach it.

“Don't touch me!” I yelled at him and then I saw out of the corner of my eye that Delores was backing up. All my attention was looking directly at her now. “He does this. Okay? You're not special. This is what he does. He professes his everlasting love to me then he goes off with some other woman who's obviously too desperate to see through---” What? I wiped at my eyes. Tears. I was crying. Way to go Parker. Way to get into the role.

“Liz, stop it!” Max knew I was acting, but I think the tears were a little too much for him. I was beginning to scare him. I decided to tone it down a little. That’s if I could.

“Young lady, I don't have any idea if you know who you are speaking to.” Delores was trying to act like the smug rich woman that she was. I must have reacted to her words because the security guard tried to intercede once again.

With fingernails
That shine like justice
And a voice that is dark
Like tinted glass


“Okay, okay!” He was speaking loudly because we must have attracted everyone in the entire mansion.

“I don't!” I answered her question about who I thought she was. I knew who she was but I had to act like I didn’t. She looked down at me and once again Tess’ face flashed before my eyes. All the hatred and the anger that I had inside of me needed to escape, so I picked up the champagne glass that was sitting on the makeshift bar and flung its contents into her face.

She screams! Do you believe that she screamed over a little bit of champagne? It was enough to get rid of Tess’ face. I looked around and the place going crazy! There are security guards coming out from nowhere. They are heading right for me. I was standing between Max and Delores and she moved out of the way so they could reach me.

“Hey! Don't touch her!” Max was now in between the security guard and me.

Max grabs the first security guard and as he touches his arm, he must have used his powers on him because he went flying straight back and hit the podium that held the alien key. The alarm sounded, and the diamond fell. Max made a diving catch like a centerfielder, and caught the falling diamond. He rolls over and comes up standing. Holding the diamond out in front of him. Everyone is quiet and they just stand there watching Max. Max walks to Delores and hands her the diamond.

She is fast and thorough
And sharp as a tack
She's touring the facility
And picking up slack

I want a girl with a short skirt and a lonnnnng.... lonnng jacket


Yes. The fake diamond… I had to admit that was really smooth how he did that.

“I believe this is yours. I am very sorry.”

I was behind Delores and Max was looking right at me. I stood straight and said, “Get me out of here, Max.”

“Liz” He was searching the crowd to see if they were going to do anything to me.

“You've humiliated me again, now get me out of here.” I had to keep the act up.

Max steps around Delores and says, “Excuse us. I’m sorry for any inconvenience.” He had touched her shoulder and a small smile escaped her lips. Max wraps his arm around me and we walk out. Everyone stands there amazed at what they had just seen. We walk out scott free.

I want a girl
With a smooth liquidation
I want a girl
With good dividends


Max hands the valet our ticket and in about two minutes our shiny blue convertible is in front of us. Max holds open the door for me and I get in. “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.” He smiled at me. I looked back at the mansion and not a single person was coming out the front door. How strange… I guess they were glad that we had left.

Max got into the car and I was immediately by his side. We were quiet until we reached our hotel room. I walked in first and he followed. I was facing him as well as the door and waited for him to turn around. When he did I practically plowed him over.

“We did it! I can’t believe we did it!” He lifted me up and we began to twirl around and around.

“I was beginning to worry about you. You were so real. You do know that I didn’t want to have anything to do with Delores right?”

“I know. It’s just that I couldn’t get mad at her at first and then I finally made myself believe that it was Tess. It felt so freeing.” There was that word. Freeing. I just hope that neither one of us will end up being caught for what we just did.

I slid down out of his arms and he stopped to look at me. “Can I see it?” I held out my hand to accept the alien key from him. It was cool and smooth. Just like a diamond. I could understand why they thought it was one. What if it actually was? What if it wasn’t the key after all? “Is it really it?”

“I think so. It has a particular feeling like the other one had.” He moved closer to me. He took me in his arms and looked me straight in the eye. “I couldn’t have done this without you.” He leaned his head down to give me a brief kiss. When he pulled away to look at me again his eyes were shiny. They were happy.

“It’s been a long time since I’ve seen your eyes smile Max.”

“It’s been a long time since you’ve let me love you Liz.” That couldn’t have been truer.

And at the city bank
We will meet accidentally
We'll start to talk
When she borrows my pen


The night was hardly over and we found ourselves sitting on the bed with nothing to do. Max was flipping through the TV stations to see if anything good was on. I had gone into the bathroom to get out of my dress and into something more comfortable.

Sweats… There wasn’t much I could fit into a backpack so sweats and a t-shirt was the only thing I had. When I emerged from the bathroom Max was already changed into a pair of shorts and shirt. “What do you want to do?” He asked.

“I have no idea. I didn’t think that we would be back so soon.”

“Yeah, I know what you mean. We can go walk down Main Street and see if there is anything to do.”

“We could go out to Boynton Canyon and see if we get any sensations or flashes.”

“Really?” He got up and headed for the bathroom. I assume that he’s going to put on a pair of jeans.

Yep. Max came out decked in jeans and I grabbed my sweatshirt just in case I got cold. “You ready?”

“Yeah, let’s go.” He opened up the door for me and waited while I walked through. I stopped right in front of him. “What about the key?”

“I got it.” He held up the key to the room.

“No Max. Not that key the other key.”

“Oh. Don’t worry; I hid it in the bathroom wall. No one’s going to find it unless they saw me do it.”

“Good. I’m glad that you thought about that.”

“Come on lets go.” We got in the car. I had the map as well as the brochure and we headed for the bluff.

She wants a car
With a cup holder arm rest
She wants a car
That will get her there


I began reading out loud. “Did you know that Boynton Canyon is considered to be both a masculine and feminine energy vortex?”

“What’s that got to do with it?” Max had both hands on the wheel and was heading west on Highway 89A.

“It says here that masculine and feminine energy vortex’s are known for an overall heightening of the senses. They are good for enhancing psychic and clairvoyant abilities and past life memory.” I looked up from the brochure and looked at Max. He didn’t flinch at all. I continued reading. “This is the perfect place to practice meditation. It is reasonably accessible and takes about three hours to hike one way, so plan a day to explore this vortex. It is considered sacred grounds to the Native American Indians. Located in West Sedona off Dry Creek Road to the end where you turn left to the end and turn right to the parking area on the right.”

“Do you know what this means?”

“Yeah. We probably should have brought our sleeping bags and other stuff.”

“We did. I had to make it believable for my mom. The stuff is in the trunk… It says to spend the whole day there. Do you think that we should try and get someone to take us on a guided tour?” At least he was thinking, but I don’t think he realized what we would look like when we get our flashes.

“I don’t think we want anyone around if and when we get our flashes.”

“I guess you’re right. Remember when Maria walked in on us at Michael’s place. That was really embarrassing.”

“Yeah.” I didn’t feel like I needed to elaborate on the subject any further. We were almost there. The drive was relatively short since our hotel was on Highway 89A. The brochure said that it was only six miles off of the highway.

She's changing her name
From Kitty to Karen
She's trading her MG
For a white Chrysler LeBaron
I want a girl with a short skirt and a lonnnnggggggggg jacket
Long skirt and Short Jacket by Cake


Max parked the car and we put the trail packs that Max had brought on our backs. “Where do we begin?” I looked around and just started walking. Max followed and didn’t ask where we were going. The trip was long and quiet. Since the moon was the only light we had we didn’t move very quickly. I was watching my step as well as for any snakes that were out and about.

As if we both hit a wall we came to an abrupt halt and looked up the tall rock that stood before us. “This is it.” He said.

“Yeah,” I took off the pack and started to feel the rock. It was amazingly cool since it was so hot during the day. I would think that the red rock would hold more warmth than this. Maybe. I don’t know this might sound stupid but it was worth a try. “Max…”

“Yeah?” He moved closure to me.

“What do you feel when you touch this rock?” I had to know if he thought the same thing I did.

He rubbed his hand along the wall and began walking alongside it feeling every groove every crevice that there was. “It’s cool.”

“Yeah, too cool for it being out here in the hot sun all day… I wanted to see if you thought the same thing as I did.” At the same time we both said, “It’s hollow.”

“That’s what I was thinking.” I walked closer to him and then placed my hand over his that was still resting on the rock. We started walking again as if an invisible thread was pulling us we walked in unison to what seamed to be nothing, but was it really nothing?

We stopped and look at each other and then back at the surface that we were standing in front of. All of the sudden my mind went blank and I couldn’t move from the spot in which I stood. “Max!” I was beginning to get scared. I looked at him and he was pale. “Max!” I screamed at him. Nothing. “Max!” All of the sudden he collapsed and whatever was holding me there let me loose and I ran to him.

“Max! Answer me. Max!” He was starting to sweat. I was starting to get hysterical. What was going on? “Oh, please God. Don’t take him now. Please. Come on Max. Hang in there.” Nothing. I looked up at the night sky. What was I going to do? Once again we had been dealt a crappy hand. Tears started running down my cheeks. I made one swipe at them and took in a deep breath. “Hold it together, Liz.”

I stood up and bent over to pick him up underneath his arms. I needed to carry him to the car. “Come on Max. Hang on. We’re going to make it.” Why did we have to walk so far away from the car? I stopped and took off my jacket. I looked down at Max for just a brief second and got my bearings. I said a small prayer once again and reached down to pick the love of my life up. We had to make it.

Somewhere in the darkness a lone wolf howled at the moon. It was a howl that made the hairs on the back of my neck stand on end. I was walking backwards and must have loss my train of thought. I tripped over a weed that was stretched out. The momentum of hauling Max made me fall backwards and he landed almost on top of me. I once again started crying.

“Think.” He was sweating like the time Michael was in the hot house. What can I do? Water. I needed to get him some water and cool his body down. Yeah, that sounded good. I got up and took one more look at Max. He wasn’t convulsing anymore. “Hang on Max. I’ll be back real soon.” I hurried as fast as I could to get back to the packs.

It was amazing how fast I could go or maybe I just thought I was going fast. My mind was racing. What if he died while I was gone? I shook my head no. Don’t think like that. Think positive thoughts. This is all my fault. If I wouldn’t have told him about the key he wouldn’t be in the situation that he was in right now. I swung the one pack over my back and took the other one in my left hand.

By the time I got back to Max I was out of breath. I ridiculed myself for not exercising like I had told myself last week. “Now’s not the time to do this.” I told myself. I opened up the bottle of water that was in the side of the pack. “Thank you Diane.” I knew only a loving mother would make sure that her kids had fresh drinkable water. I ripped a piece of my t-shirt off. I needed it to pour water on so I could cool Max’s head down.

I was no longer crying. Max was no longer shaking and it looked like he was getting some color back into his face. I was still too far from the car; my cell phone was there I could call for help. Why didn’t I think of that sooner? Should I risk leaving Max one more time? “Max. Max. Can you hear me? Max!” He wasn’t responding to me. I looked back in the direction of where the car should be. I couldn’t see it and come to think about it I wasn’t really sure if I was looking in the right direction.

I didn’t belong out in the desert. I wasn’t what you called the outdoorsy type. I was best running hypothesis and figuring out solutions to problems. I pulled Max onto my lap and continued to swab his forehead. “Max. Please don’t leave me. Please not after all that we’ve been through. Please.” I was crying. I had no idea what was going to happen.

Then it dawned on me. I was reverting back to the person I used to be. I straightened my back and took in a big breath. I laid Max back onto the ground stood up once again and slung the pack back onto my back. I had to be careful when I bent over to drag Max so I wouldn’t teeter over and fall on top of him.

“You know you can wake up any time now. I know. You just want to see how far I’m going to drag your sorry butt around aren’t you?” I was talking to myself to keep me calm and I was hoping that Max would hear it and decide to wake up. “Just wait Max Evans, you are going to wish that you never made me drag you clear across the desert. Maybe what I need to do is find a good healthy cactus and let that rub up against your backside. What do you think about that?” I paused as if I were waiting for his reply.

“Well, you’re lucky I can’t see in the dark. You know you are going to owe me big time when tonight is all said and done.” I was still walking backwards and took another look over my right shoulder to see if I was still going in the right direction. At least the direction I thought was right. There in front of my eyes was the sweetest sight I had ever seen… tonight. It wasn’t the greatest of my life but I could admit that it was the best of the night. The car reflected the full moon in its windshield.

I dragged Max the last few yards and then took off the pack and laid his head down on it. He was still unconscious and I wasn’t for sure how long it had been. I reached inside the car and grabbed my cell phone. I turned it on and then tried to dial 911. “Shit! Shit! Shit!” I was out of range. “What else is going to go wrong tonight?” I looked up and said another silent prayer. “Ok… Keys… I need keys.” I went back to Max and started going through his pockets. “Where are the damn keys Max?” I went through them all and came up empty. They must have fallen out of his pocket while I was dragging him.

I sank back down next to Max and felt his forehead. It was much cooler than before and right when I started to relax again he started convulsing again. I didn’t know what to do so I took his head in my lap and just started rocking back and forth. No keys, and no cell phone. Whatever was going to happen was going to happen. I had no control over anything. As I rocked back and forth and the tears poured down my cheeks I ran the events of tonight through my head.

What could be causing him to react this way? Maybe it’s the vortex? Maybe it’s doing something to his system. He’s shutting down. He’s going to die if I don’t get him away from here. How am I going to get him out of here?

I must have been tired because I woke up from dozing. Max’s head was still in my lap and it was still dark outside. What had woke me up? Maybe my subconscious woke me up when it realized that I was asleep. That sounded logical. I checked Max again and realized that he was getting colder out here. He wasn’t wearing a jacket. I set his head down and decided to lay the sleeping bags out. I linked the two together by using the zippers. I rolled Max over onto the open sleeping bag.

His body was so cold. I closed the sleeping bag after I got in with him and then I snuggled up to him. I started kissing his face. “Max. Please come back to me. I’ll be here waiting for you. I’m not going anywhere. Please, just come back.” You could be rich for the number of times I asked him to come back to me tonight. I was desperate and the shaking had started again. His body was still cold.

I had once seen a movie where a couple was stranded in an avalanche and they combined their body heat together and it was enough to keep them alive. I was willing to try anything so I stripped Max down to his boxers and myself down to just my undergarments. His body was cold and just me being this close to him made me start to shiver.

I fell asleep in his arms and him in mine. One last prayer was the last thing I remembered before I lost consciousness.

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posted on 23-Oct-2002 8:58:00 PM by Bordersinsanity
Here it is. The final part. I want to thank all those that left feedback. I wasn't expecting it because this had already been posted last year but since I don't recall it ever being on this board I thought I had better post it. So, thank you...

Enough said already. Here you go.


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Part 18 – The People that We Love

I tossed and turned with flashes that I had no idea what they were while I slept next to Max. I had woken up almost every ten minutes to check on him. His body temperature was back to normal and it seemed like he was resting well. Just great. Max gets a good night sleep and I get nothing… Well, I couldn’t really say that. If he makes it I will be happy enough. Damn this vortex… Damn it to hell. I know that this is the reason he’s acting this way. I rolled over and began searching the night sky. Looking at nothing in particular until I notice the ‘V’ constellation of Max’s home planet.

All these questions come flooding my mind.

Did Tess really make it back?

Did Max’s son survive the trip back home?

Will he know anything about his father?

Will they come back to finish what she had failed?


As I looked up Max’s hand took hold of me. In that first moment of contact my body tightened up and my skin got the goose bumps. I turned to him and noticed that his eyes were still shut. I rolled over. “Max… Max wake up. Max please. Do you hear me?” Nothing he was still unaware of his surroundings. I couldn’t think of anything else to do but try and make contact with him. Isabel did say that if there were anyone Max would always hear it would be me. It was worth a shot. I had to try and form a connection with him.

Speed kills coming down the mountain
Speed kills coming down the street
Speed kills your presence of mind
Speed kills if you know what I mean


I cupped his face just like the time he had cupped mine in the Crashdown. The day he let me see what a wonderful man he was. After a few minutes of concentrating I got nothing. Nothing at all. Crap!

Since Max’s body temperature had leveled out I decided to get dressed. The sun was beginning to come up. Maybe I could find the keys to the car. I began to walk away to go search for the keys when Max sat straight up. “Liz!!!” He was breathing hard almost to the point of hyperventilating. “Liz!!!!” He was screaming my name. I ran back and was down on my knees next to him.

“I’m here Max. I’m here.” He buried his face into the crook of my neck and I began comforting him almost immediately. Together we rocked back and forth. He was sobbing and I didn’t know what to do except say, “shhhh. It’s ok… I’m here. I won’t leave you. I’m here Max. I’m here.”

When he had calmed down I took him by gripping the side of his face so that I was now looking directly into his eyes. “You scared me. What happened? Is everything ok? Are you Ok?”

He grabbed me in the same fashion that I had him and he kissed me. He pulled away and was quiet for awhile. “Max? What’s wrong?” He was scaring me.

“I’ve seen it all Liz. I’m not sure I want to continue the search.”

I got to feel woke up inside again
I got to feel this broke or fix
I got to feel, I got outside myself
I got to feel when I touch your lips


“What do you mean you don’t know if you want to continue? Max we have to continue. Our lives depend on us continuing. The lives of our friends and family depend on us continuing. I don’t know what happened to you and I have no idea what’s made you make this decision, but we are in this together. I have to know Max. Please. Tell me why you don’t want to go any farther.”

He got up and realized that he was only wearing his boxers. “Umm Liz.” His face was beet red. “What happened to my clothes?” Now I was red.

“You were so cold and just being in the sleeping bag wasn’t helping any. I had to get your body temperature up so I used my body heat to help yours get back on track. Nothing happened if that’s what you were worrying about. Nothing.” I shifted under his gaze and I couldn’t help but stare at his almost naked body. He was sexy no doubt about that. I realized that he was waiting for me to point him in the direction of where I had placed his clothes. I got up and headed for the car. I reached over the door and got his t-shirt and jeans. I stood up straight and walked over to where he was standing and gave him his clothes. I turned around so I could give him some privacy. I don’t know why now of all times, but it felt like the right thing to do.

“Where are the keys?” Max asked. I turned to look at him.

“Ummm I’m not for sure. They have to be someplace between here and the rock. I was just getting ready to go look for them.”

“How did they get lost?”

The things we do to the people that we love
The way we brake is it something we can’t take
Destroy the world that we took so long to make


I didn’t know what to say. “You collapsed back at the rock and I didn’t know what to do except get you to the car. Well, while I was dragging you, your keys must have fallen out of your pockets. I’m not for sure how or where. All I know is that when I got to the car I had no keys.” There… how hard was that. I wasn’t looking at him. I knew I had disappointed him about losing the keys.

He walked over to me. I could tell because I could see his feet before me. “Look at me.” He took my face in his hands and made me look at him.

“I’m sorry Max.”

“Don’t be. You did your best.”

“Yeah, but my best wasn’t good enough. I know now more than ever that I need to be stronger. I need to get stronger. If I ever had to carry you or anyone else I wouldn’t be able to do it. I would have failed. Last night only showed me what I need to do… What kind of person am I if I don’t do what I expect everyone else to be doing?”

“Liz, don’t. You’re being too hard on yourself. You did good. You did nothing wrong.”

“Max, you don’t know that. You didn’t see me crying my eyes out because nothing was going the right way.”

We expect to come for some time
I wish us safe from home


“Liz. I was there. In a way that is.” He was smiling at me. I could see that he loved me and he didn’t think that I had let him down. “Besides, the keys don’t really matter. We can get the car started without them.” He turned around and bent over to pick up the sleeping bags. “You’re right. We do have to continue. Everyone is depending on us whether they believe it or not. We got a long drive ahead of us. We need to go check out of the hotel and get back on the road. I hope you don’t mind going to Utah.”

“Utah? What’s in Utah?”

“Our ship.”

“You saw where the ship is?”

“Yeah, and a lot more. Come on I’ll tell you on the way there.”

We were back at the hotel. I was scurrying around picking up odds and ends from the previous night. Max was in the bathroom. I had already showered and changed into a pair of black cargo pants, black tank and my black Doc Martens. We were going to Utah to see if what Max saw in the visions were true.

To find yourself, in a foreign land
Another refugee, outside a refugee


The plan was to scope it out and see if the convenience store actually existed if it did we would come up with a better plan later on… Today was Friday and we had to be back home on Sunday afternoon. School started Monday and there was no way that we could miss the first day.

Max walked out of the bathroom dressed pretty much in the same attire as I was. Black. He looked good in black but better in a deep, deep blue. “You got everything?”

“Yeah, it’s all in the car.” Max had made new keys for the car. He wasn’t too worried about the lost set. The only thing on the key ring were the car keys… No one would know to whom they belonged to.

“I think I have everything let’s go.”

We got in the car and pulled out onto the highway. “So where exactly are we going in Utah?”

He turned his head and smiled. I didn’t know what was so funny so I asked. “What’s so funny?”

“You are.”

“What? What’s so funny?”

“You were there. I saw you in my vision. You were there all along.”

“Max. I don’t know what you are talking about. I don’t remember having any visions last night. The only thing I did was haul you from one end of the desert to the other. I didn’t have time to stop and experience any visions.” I know I had said earlier that I tossed and turned with flashes while Max had a good nights sleep but I wasn’t aware of what they were. “Maybe your subconscious just put me there because I kept on trying to get through to you?” That sounded reasonable.

How’s it feel she’s coming up roses
How’s it feel she’s coming up sweet
How’s it feel it’s all in spite of you
How’s it feel when she’s out of your reach


“Maybe.” He looked over at me and held out his hand. I took it and he pulled me closer to him. I really liked being this close to him. I always had the feeling that this is where I belonged, by his side.

Every muscle in my body relaxed and I drifted off into a restful sleep.

~*~FLASH~*~
Max and I are in front of a convenience store. We’re dressed like we were when we left Arizona. I have the gun pointed down in front of me and Max is following. We’re staking out the convenience store and are about to get to the ship.

I startled awake. “It’s not going to work.”

“What? What’s not going to work?” Max was looking at me worry written all over his face.

What happened to you
What happened to you


“Where are we?”

“We’re about three hours out of Blanding Utah.”

“Max. I saw what we did. We can’t go in there like that.”

“What do you mean?”

“We held up the convenience store in broad daylight. That’s never going to work. We have to do it right before closing and at night. We will need ski masks and we need to have a good plan.”

“You had a vision?”

“Yes.”

“It showed you the future?”

“I think so.” I hadn’t thought about that. “Do you think it could have been?”

“I think so. The visions that I experienced were nothing like I have had before. It looked like someone was leading me.”

“Not something?”

“No… I felt…” He drifted off and didn’t finish his thought.

“Max what did you feel?”

“Huh?”

“You said you felt something while you were having the flashes. What did you feel?”

Max took the next exit. He ignored my question and said, “I have to tell Michael and Isabel what’s going on. They need to know that our search maybe over.”

The things we do to the people that we love
The things we do to the people that we love
The things we do to the people that we love
The things we do to the people that we love
The things we do to the people that we love

The People That We Love by Bush


“Ok.” I sank deeper into the seat and was looking out the passenger side of the car now. Max got out and placed his hand over the coin slot of the telephone. It was best that he didn't use my cell phone. There are ears everywhere. Nothing’s safe.

He wasn’t that far away so I could hear his conversation. “Michael, its me. I can’t tell you. You know the key we’ve been looking for? We found it.” Michael must be trying to catch up. “I need you to come get it.” There was a pause evidently Michael was bucking the order. “It’s not safe. You can find it under a billboard that says "Mormon Life-Family Values; A Family Valued." It’s on highway 89 North just as you turn right onto Highway 160… Got it.” He paused. “Michael I need you to get it. It doesn’t matter what Isabel says. She doesn’t have to save her son. She doesn’t know what it’s like being me.” He paused yet again. Isabel was calling the shots at home? That was weird. “Michael, please. It’s not safe if I keep it.” So, I finally find out that Max does still think about saving his son. I didn’t expect him to forget about him; it’s just that I guess I was living in a fantasy world. I didn’t hear the rest of the conversation because I was still dwelling on the fact that Max had said that Isabel had no idea what it was like to be looking for his son.

I jumped when Max returned to the car. “Max, why is it so important that we get rid of the key?” He looked at me. It didn’t look good. “What? You’re killing me.”

“I’m sorry. It’s just like you said earlier. You think you saw the future, well, so did I.” He was now turned so he was facing me. He grabbed my hand and then gently cupped my face. “I can’t asked you to go any farther with me. This isn’t your fight. The road ahead is too dangerous. I don’t want you to be involved.”

I started shaking my head from side to side. “No! We promised. No matter what. No! I’m not letting you go the rest of the way by yourself. No! Don’t tell me that.” He was pleading with me with his amber eyes. Please, they were saying. “No. I’m not leaving you. Whatever happens to you will happen to me. Don’t make me go back on the promise we made to each other. I can’t believe that you are even asking me.”

“Liz, please, there’s a chance that it could get dangerous and I don’t want you to get hurt.”

“No! Max there’s a chance that I can get hurt in my own home, or at school, or in the grocery store. There’s possibility everywhere and I know that I have a better chance of surviving when I’m with you. So, don’t even think of me not going any farther. I’m going and that’s final.” I pulled my face from his hands and sat back in the seat with my arms folded across my chest. “I can’t believe you!” I was fuming… If he knew what was best for him he would drop the subject of me staying behind.

“Ok, but we have to change the way we did what we saw.” I knew what he was talking about. We needed to protect ourselves. Our identity most of all. If anything went wrong we didn’t want anyone to be able to identify us.

“Fine. I think that is the best thing you’ve said in the last ten minutes.” We continued down the road and Max threw the key out of the car right where he told Michael to look. I hope he finds it. It would be just our luck to find the ship and not have a key to start the damn thing.

After a few miles I decided to break the silence. “What’s going on with Michael and Isabel?”

“Isabel doesn’t want us to pursue this venture anymore. She says that we should just stay here. We are just going to get killed if we go back. Why take our chances?”

“Doesn’t she realize what could happen if you don’t find your ship? Her life won’t ever be the same again.”

“I know that and you know that. Michael probably knows that but is refusing to admit it, but Isabel has changed. I haven’t really pinpointed what is going on with her.”

I mulled over what Max had said about Isabel. I know that Alex’s death was hard on her, it was hard on us all.

We had stopped at a truck stop to fill up on gas and to get something to eat. I was scanning the restaurant and no one really jumped out at me. We ate and made small talk. Max didn’t want to say anything about what we were about to do. We both knew that we wouldn’t hurt anybody but if we ever got caught the officials wouldn’t know that we didn’t mean any harm. We just wanted back what was ours.

We were back on the road and before the sun went down all the way we went into the convenience store where Harlan worked. He was a man in his fifties, chain smoker and bone thin. His diet evidently consisted of cigarettes and black coffee. Nothing more. The bell above the door rang and Max and I went in. We went to go get drinks out of the refrigerator unit and then scanned the room for everything else we needed to know.

There on our right was the bread rack that Max had seen in the vision he had while in the backyard of his house. There weren’t any security cameras except the one focused on the cashier. That would be easy enough to take out. I went up to Harlan and gave him the two bottles of soda that we had picked out. “So, Harlan, is it always this slow around here or what?” I was probing.

“Yeah, but they just won’t close this place down. It’s been here for over fifty years and has never made a profit. Can you believe that? What idiot would continue to lose money? I would cut my losses and take what I could and go to California.”

“I know what you mean.” Harlan didn’t know what he was really sitting on. The government needed a front and this store was perfect. Who would believe that the alien ship that crashed in 1947 is hidden here? Not me. That is not until I met Max and the others. I took one more look around the cashier’s counter and noticed that there was a camera monitoring the parking lot as well as the gas pumps. We would have to do something about that as well. I slapped down my five-dollar bill and waited for my change. Harlan was a nice man. I really didn’t like what I was going to do to him tonight; but if everything went well we would be back in Roswell and Harlan would still be working. I hoped.

It was dark now and no one had been into the convenience store all day. Max turned to me and he took me with his hands. “You ready?

“I think so.” I had hesitated just a bit.

“Liz, you don't have to do this.” It must have been more than a bit of hesitation.

“No. We're in this together. That's what we said. Together ‘til the end.” I leaned up and kissed him. I paid extra attention to his lips. I inhaled his scent. I ran my hands up and down his chest and through his hair. I wanted to remember everything that was him. I knew we would be ok, but just in case I wanted one more kiss. We broke away from the kiss and I closed my eyes reviewing what all I would be doing in the next few minutes of my life.

“Let’s do this.” We looked one more time at each other and then pulled the black ski masks that we had purchased in town earlier, over our faces.

You Don’t Know –- Econoline Cursh

Did you give up?
Did it get easier?
Did all those things that you wanted come together in the end


Was I the one?
Was I even there?
Did you ever really notice?
I never really cared, She smiled and looked at me and said


You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like
You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like
I feel like nothing at all
You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like


Did you forget?
Did you believe in me?
Did all those things I promised come out empty in the end?


Any regrets
Any dreams you missed
Comfort comes with patients
Serenity
Yeah, yeah


You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like
You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like
I feel like nothing at all
You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like?


I feel insignificant
I feel nothing at all
I feel insignificant?


Did you give up?
Did it get easier?
Every little word lingers and slips down from?


You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like
You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like
I feel like nothing at all
You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like?


You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like
You don’t know what its like
What its like
What its like
I feel like nothing at all
I feel like nothing at all
I feel like nothing because
You don’t know what its like?

You don’t know by Econoline Crush



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posted on 24-Oct-2002 9:02:36 AM by Bordersinsanity
I don't think Econoline Crush ever played in the episode. It was just on the promos.

Rereading the fic as I posted I hadn't remembered that I had given Liz those premonitions. Hmmm... Makes me wonder now if I read them somewhere in spoilers or if it was just me. I know spoilers weren't out that far. I think they were only to episode three when I wrote the fic so... I guess I did okay on that part.

Max did take Liz on a hang glider ride I think in the third episode but I'm not sure. I really need to go back and watch my files again.

Anyway... thanks for the feedback now I can go back to concentrating on Long To Be... my goal is to have it finished before Thanksgiving Holiday...

take care
Jen