posted on 14-Feb-2003 4:02:40 PM by Itzstacie
*Title: Crossroads
*Author: Itzstacie
*E-mail: sschall1⊕tulane.edu
*Rating: N-17 language
*Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters; they all belong to Jason Katims, and whoever else wants to claim them. The songs used are credited to Arvil Lavigne, (and to be used later) Michelle Branch, Sarah Mchachlan, Enigma, Don Mclean
*Category: All Couples M/L, M/M, A/I, K,T . Tess is not evil in this story*
Summary: When Liz Parker comes to the crossroads in her life, which way will she choose?
Spoilers: This follows EOTW, the skins; dupes do not exist in my story.




Prolouge


I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now

There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening, but there's no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
Cos nothing's going right and
Everythings a mess
And no-one like's to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

Oh, why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah Yeah Yeah
Yeah Yeah

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you





She wondered around the darkness searching for a way out, she couldn’t see anything in front of her. She closed her eyes trying to fight back the tears. She wanted to disappear, let the darkness swallow her. When she opened her eyes she found herself standing in a meadow, the wind slightly blowing her long brown hair. She tucked her hair behind her ears and surveyed her surroundings. Seems so peaceful here she thought to herself and started walking to the lonely tree she saw in a distance.


As she walked to the tree, she wondered why she didn’t feel scared or worried, for once in a long time she felt at ease, she felt like she was safe. Safe she tried to think back to the last time she felt safe. Her thoughts drifted towards Max Evans. I used to feel safe when I was with him.

Leaning against the tree she wondered where everyone else was, why was she here and where was she. Her head hurt like hell and she didn’t know why. 'Hello’ she called out. No one answered her. Where the heck am I she thought. She started to walk away from the tree and felt a dizzy spell kicking in. 'Ill look around right after I rest my eyes for bit’ she said aloud. Kneeling down on the trunk of the tree, she rested her back to its base and closed her eyes.

She didn’t see the figure walk up and stand over her. 'Hello Elizabeth Parker’ the voice said. She raised her head to see the figure standing before her 'who are you?’



Authors Note: I’m really nervous about posting this, this is my first attempt at writing fan fiction, and this story actually came to me in a dream.. I have the first three chapters done already and will continue if you are interestd please leave feedback good or bad, Thank you



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posted on 15-Feb-2003 11:44:01 PM by Itzstacie
Thank you for your feed back, it really means alot to me. I can't tell you who is with Liz just yet but will find out later on in the story. Chapter 1 is posted Below enjoy.



*Rating: N-17 language
*Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters; they all belong to Jason Katims, and whoever else wants to claim them. The songs used are credited to Arvil Lavigne, (and to be used later) Michelle Branch, Sarah Mchachlan, Enigma, Don Mclean, I have used a few quotes from the show thru out the story also.
*Category: All Couples M/L, M/M, A/I, K,T . Tess is not evil in this story*
Summary: When Liz Parker comes to the crossroads in her life, which way will she choose?
Spoilers: This follows EOTW, the skins; dupes do not exist in my story.







Chapter 1

Liz Parker sat there looking at the bottle in her hand and her journal in the other, taking a sip she looked down at the words in her journal. Why does life have to be this hard, you start with a secret, you tell a lie to cover up that secret, and the lies only get bigger until it destroys everything? Even now I Liz Parker have the biggest secret of all to keep. The secret that only I carry the burden of knowing, the secret that has destroyed my life. Its funny how one little instant can change your whole path in life. She closed her journal and threw it across in room.


She closed her eyes and let the tears flow softly from her face. Opening her eyes she looked back out the window listening to the song on the radio come into focus. She started to think about the night her and Max were in the park.

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by



'Liz please slow down we need to talk about this’ Max pleaded with her. 'I know you Liz, I know you would never hurt me like that’ Liz slowly turned to face him.

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,


'Max please just let it go, its over and done with you have to move on with your life we have been over this already’

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to


'So far, all I know is what I saw, and what I saw can't be true, because it means everything I felt in my heart for the last year is a lie! Now, you owe me an explanation, and I want it right now!

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right



'Max, I am not who you think I am, I am not perfect okay, I made a mistake, me and Kyle slept together, end of story’ Max didn’t say anything just looked at her, turned his back towards her and walked away leaving Liz standing there alone in the park.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to



Lost in her thoughts she didn’t hear the door open.


"Liz what are you doing" shouted Maria.

“I want to be left alone,” shouted back Liz. “Are you drunk,” Maria asked. “Maria, please just leave me alone" continuing to look out the window taking a big swig of the liquor bottle... “Give me that" Maria said as she stole the bottle out of Liz’s hand. "I know your hurting Liz and you won’t tell me what's going on, but I can’t help you if I don’t know what’s going on"


I don’t want to talk about it" Liz said coldly. " Please come downstairs with the rest of us I don’t like you being up here alone like this" Maria pleaded. “Who’s the rest of us?" Liz asked. Knowing that Maria would not leave her alone until she came downstairs with her. " Kyle, Alex, Michael and Iz are here, we are having a little get together before school starts back up next week". Stated Maria.

"I really don’t feel like dealing with anyone right now, but I know you wont leave this room until I agree to go with you, just give me a minute to use the restroom and I will come down" Liz said as she staggered into the bathroom. “Five minutes chica then im coming back up here and will drag you downstairs,” Maria said as she headed to the doors. Looking in the mirror at her red eyes she thought could this night get any worse?

“Is she coming down?" asked Alex. Michael and Iz turn their head to the door as Maria is coming out “She will be down in a minute, but there is something you should know." “What" they all ask. “Well Liz is not herself right now" said Maria. “What do you mean?” Kyle asked. “She’s drunk" Maria said, “She’s drunk? The perfect Liz Parker". Asked the Ice princess. This I got to see thought Michael.

'I do not know what’s going on with her” Alex said as he started to hook up the Karaoke machine. 'Something must have happened between her and Max, he’s been moping around the house for the last two weeks’ Isabel said. 'I’m sure they will make up and suck face sooner or later’ Michael stated. 'I hope so, the way Max looked when he came home two weeks ago, looked like someone had just ran over his dog’ Isabel said. 'What do you think Kyle?’ Maria asked. 'No telling with those two’ said Kyle as he got up and walked over to where Alex was standing, hoping to change the subject. 'Hey Alex, let me help you with that’


Inside the Evans house

Max layed there in his bed staring up at the ceiling listening to the counting crows. Still after weeks of seeing the love of his life in bed with another man, not just any man, a man he begin to think of as a friend, he didn’t know whether he wanted to cry or to scream. I have to get out of herehe thought and grabbed his jacket and headed out of his window. After hours of walking around he found himself sitting on the park bench.


He seemed to be finding himself here a lot lately. Sitting there looking up at the stars, he didn’t see Tess walk up 'mind if I sit down’. Max shook his head no 'how are you doing’ he asked. 'I guess im doing ok, I thought Kyle and I were headed somewhere, but I guess his feeling are not the same.’ Tess started to look up at the stars also 'you know I keep thinking, It does not make sense’ 'what doesn’t?” Max asked. 'You would think the two of them would be all over themselves after what happened, but they act like nothing happened at all’.

'I don’t know Tess, whatever their reasons are its over and done with, I saw them with my own eyes.” 'I know you told me’ she said. 'you know I should be the angriest at her’ 'Why’ Max asked. 'Because this is the second time Liz Parker has taken something from me’ 'Tess, I was never yours for her to take’. '

'I know that now, back then when I first came here I had it set in my mind that we were meant to be together, that it just had to be that way it was our destiny’. Max turned his head towards her 'what made you change your mind’ Tess stood up and faced Max 'It was that night at the pod chamber when we got the message from your mother, when Liz walked away I saw the hurt in your eyes and I realized that you would never love me, that no one would ever replace her’.


Tess pushed a blonde curl away from her eyes 'so I took your advice when you said we create our own destinys and - 'you went after Kyle’ laughed Max. 'Sorry’ he said after noticing the death glare she was giving him. 'I always felt what Nasedo told me to feel, I never thought I would have feelings for someone so fast feeling on my own’. Placing her hands behind her neck and tilting her head back in a stretch' Buddha boy just kind of grew on me, I thought that he was feeling the same thing then he and Liz slept together’Slept together those words pierced Maxs heart closing his eyes remembering how he stood outside her window seeing the two of them in her bed. 'Can we not talk about this anymore please”. Tess shrugged her shoulder 'Okay, by the way are you going to the Crashdown tonight?’

Max stood up and started stretching 'I hadn’t planned on it, are you going?’ Tess smiled a little 'well lets just say that if I don’t show up, I will have a nightly visitor plaguing my dreams’ 'She told you that to huh’ laughed Max. Tess stood up and took his arm' well, shall we head over there?” 'why not, I really dont want a certain blonde to haunt my dreams' Max said

posted on 18-Feb-2003 10:55:42 AM by Itzstacie
Thanks for the Feedback guys,, I will post Chapter 2 tonight when I get home from work. so be on the lookout for that..
posted on 18-Feb-2003 8:02:33 PM by Itzstacie
*Title: Crossroads
*Author: Itzstacie
*E-mail: sschall1⊕tulane.edu
*Rating: N-17 language
*Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters; they all belong to Jason Katims, and whoever else wants to claim them. The songs used are credited to Arvil Lavigne, (and to be used later) Michelle Branch, Sarah Mchachlan, Enigma, Don Mclean
*Category: All Couples M/L, M/M, A/I, K,T . Tess is not evil in this story*
Summary: When Liz Parker comes to the crossroads in her life, which way will she choose?
Spoilers: This follows EOTW, the skins; dupes do not exist in my story.



Chapter 2


Liz stumbled thru the double doors of the Crashdown, looking at everyone staring at here she thought good at least I don’t have to face those two tonight 'What are you all staring at, you act like you have never seen someone drunk before’. Maria walked over to her and slid her arm around her arm 'come on Chica, we are here to have some fun’ as she walked Liz over to a bar stool. 'You are not actually thinking we all are going to sing Maria?’ Kyle asked as he handed Alex a wire to the Karokee machine. 'Oh you bet your jockey butt you are going to sing, we all are’ she said as she glared at Michael noticing the look on his face.

'Ria I can do it myself’ Liz slurred as she went to sit on the bar stool and missed the stool landing on her butt. 'Looks like you are doing a real good job by yourself’ Isabel laughed. Liz glared back at Isabel. Maria starting to feel the tension spoke up 'So who wants to go first’. She asked.


They all looked at each other and groaned. 'Fine ill go first, but you all are going to get up here and sing’. Maria stated as she walked over and took the mic. With a big smile on her face she laughed and said 'For my first number it is going to be-“as the music started playing.

Turn around
And smell what you don't see
Close your eyes
It's so clear

Here's the mirror
Behind there is a screen
And with wings you can't get in

Don't think twice before you listen to your heart
Follow the trace of a random star


Alex headed over to Liz 'How you doing kiddo?’ he asked. 'would be better if everyone stopped asking me that, and if I had’ she stood up and started walking to the kitchen 'I’ll be right back, I need to get something’ she said and disappeared behind the door.

What you need
And everything you feel
Is just a question of the day


In the eye of storm you can see a lonely dove
The experience of survival is the key
To the gravity of love

The path of excess leads to the Tower of Wisdom

Try to think about it
That's the chance to live your life and discover
What it is
It's the gravity of love



Tess and Max walked into the Crashdown, good shes not here thought Max as he gave a nod to Alex and Kyle and sat down in the booth next to Michael. Tess gave a weak smile to Kyle and headed over to the booth sitting down next to Isabel. 'So, I see you decided to come’ Isabel said. 'Well as much as I love you, my sister is the last person I want to see in my dreams every night’ laughed Max. 'Ditto’ said Tess smiling. Isabel laughed out loud. 'What’s that about’ Michael asked. 'Nothing’ laughed Isabel 'I just threatened the both of them’

Look around just people
Can you hear the voice?
Find the one who'll guide you
To the limits of your choice

If you're in the eye of storm
Just think of the lonely dove
The experience of survival is the key
To the gravity of love



Liz walked back into the front as Maria was finishing up her song. ‘Oh shit, what is he doing here’ she said to herself as she dropped the bottle of Tequilla in her hands. They all turned and looked at her. 'Elizabeth Parker, what do you think you are doing’ Maria yelled as she grabbed a towel off the counter and walked over to Liz.


Liz fell to her knees and starting crying (sniff) 'th- the bottle, I just wanted’ (hiccup) 'I brought it down for everyone’ (sniff). 'I thought we could all’ (sniff). Michael got up and came over, he bent down and waved his hand over the bottle bringing it back to its natural state. 'Get a hold of yourself Parker, its just a bottle of liquor no need to cry about it’ he laughed. He picked her up and handed it back to her 'see good as new’ he smiled. (hiccup) ' thank you’ Liz said as she hugged the bottle to her like it was a baby.

'Whats up with her’ Tess asked. 'Um, shes just a little drunk’ Isabel said 'OH!’ Tess and Max both said. Bringing their gaze back to Liz they watched her stumble back to the counter and put the bottle down, then bending down she brought up a couple of shot glasses and some lemons. 'Now we can really get this party started’ Liz said as she opened the bottle and started to pour the Tequilla in shot glasses.

'Kyle Valenti, Alex Whitmen and Michael Geruin get your butts up here your next’ Maria yelled as she changed the disc in the machine’ Oh Man’ Kyle stated 'Think I might need this’ he said as he took the glass and did a shot. 'Me too’ Alex said doing the same thing and walking over to the machine. 'That’s not fair’ Michael stated. 'I can’t drink’ Kyle laughed and said ' It’s not my fault if you aliens get all freaky when you get a drop of alcohol in you.


'Since no one wanted to pick one, I picked one for you’ Maria said smiling. ‘Oh man, I can only imgine’ stated Alex looking at the screen the words started to come up and they started singing low. A long, long time ago I can still remember How that music used to make me smile And I knew if I had my chance 'Louder’ Tess hollered. The three of them just gave her a glare and started singing louder That I could make those people dance And maybe they'd be happy for a while But February made me shiver With every paper I delivered Bad news on the doorstep I couldn't take one more step


Soon the three of them started getting into it and dancing around the floor laughing and cutting up. I can't remember if I cried When I read about his widowed bride But something touched me deep inside The day the music died So bye, bye Miss American Pie Drove my Chevy to the levy but the levy was dry And good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye Singin' this’ll be the day that I die, This’ll be the day that I die.


Maria walked up to Max, Isabel, and Tess and sat down 'your next’ she said with this evil looking grin on her face. ‘Im not singing Maria’ Max said. 'Oh you will sing if I have to pull you by your hair up there to do it’ she said laughing. 'and just because you are giving me such a hard time your gonna go by yourself’. She looked at Tess and Isabel. 'we got one, we got one’ putting their hands up in defense laughing.

As soon as Kyle, Michael and Alex were finished Isabel and Tess stood up and walked over to the mics. 'If we have to sing, then you have to get up and dance’ Isabel stated. 'Noone danced while we were singing’ Alex shot back. 'well we don’t sound as bad as you do’ laughed Tess. Kyle stuck his tongue out at Tess, all she could was smile.

“Ok here we go’ the girls said looking at each other. Uh Huh, life's like this, Uh Huh, uh Huh, That's the way it is. Cuz life's like this,Uh huh, uh huh, That's the way it is, Chill out, Whatcha yelling for? Lay back it's all been done before, And if you could only let it be you would see, I like you the way you are, When we're driving in your car, And you're talking to me one-on-one,But you've become-



Maria got up and started to dance, she walked over to Liz 'come on babe, lets dance’ pulling her up 'Ria, I don’t want to’ Liz protested. She looked over at Max and saw him staring at her 'ok, but just for you’ she said. 'By the way your next’ Maria stated. The four boys just sat there and watched as the two girls danced on the floor an the other two danced while they were singing.


'Ok you ready?’ asked Maria 'No Maria, I don’t want to sing, you can’t make me’ Liz said as she started to walk back to the counter 'nope your gonna sing, Kyle!’ Maria hollered as she motioned for him to come here. 'Bring her up there, she refusing’ Liz just glared at him with her eyes. 'Man I am glad you don’t have death ray eyes’ he laughed. The others just broke out into a laugh, even Max Evans let a smile creep across his face. 'Liz, I love you like a sister, but if I had to do it, so do you’ Kyle said as he picked her up and threw her over his shoulder. Tess and Max just looked at each other.


'Fine, let me get this over with’ Liz said as she snatched the mic out of Maria’s hand. 'You know I love you’ Maria laughed 'yea, yea’ Liz snapped back as she turned towards to screen to sing. She turned and glared at Maria when she saw what song it was, she gave her this I’ll deal with you later look and started to sing.

It's been a long long time since I looked into the mirror
I guess that I was blind, now my reflection's getting clearer
Now that you're gone things will never be the same, again

There's not a minute that goes by, every hour of every day
You're such a part of me but I just pulled away
Well I'm not the same girl you used to know
I wish I said the words I never showed


Max sat there and stared at her, listening to her sing and noticing she was trying to look everywhere but in his direction, he didn’t even notice the other six get up and start dancing.


I know you had to go away
I died just a little
And I feel that now, you're the one I need
I believe that I
Would cry just a little
Just to have you back now, here with me
Here with me

You know that silence is loud when all you hear is your heart
And I wanted so badly just to be a part
Of something strong and true but I was scared and left it all behind



Tess layed her head down on Kyles’ shoulder and closed her eyes. She heard him mumble 'this is the way it should be’ She looked up at him 'what did you say’ she asked. Meeting her eyes he said 'this is the way it should be, me and you’ 'Kyle’ she said looking at him confused 'I never knew you had feelings for me, I thought you and Liz-‘ He stopped her before she could say anything else.


'Since the first time I saw you, I knew you were the one for me’ he said. 'What happened between Liz and I cant explain its not my place’. He gave her a soft kiss on the lips. Tess wrapped her arms around him tighter 'You don’t know how long I’ve been wanting this’ as she rested her head back on his shoulder.

I know you had to go away
I died just a little
And I feel that now, you're the one I need
I believe that I
Would cry just a little
Just to have you back now, here with me
Here with me

And I'm asking
And I'm wanting you to come back to me please



Standing there singing, Liz tried to fight back the tears that wanted so badly to fall from her face, she glanced at Max sitting there in the booth looking back at her, she wanted so badly to run to him to tell him everything.


I never will forget the look upon your face
How you turned away and left without a trace
But I understand that you did what you had to do
And
I Think im going to be sick!


'Is that part of the song’ Isabel asked laughing and looking at the others, ‘No’ Alex said and watched Liz run towards the bathroom covering her mouth. Max got up and started to head to the back 'I’ll Go” Maria said and ran off to the bathroom after Liz.


Maria crept into the bathroom and saw Liz on her knees hugging the toilet. 'How are you doing’ she asked and she kneeled down beside her and held her hair up. 'How does it look like I’m doing’ Liz snapped as she continued to throw up in the toilet. 'Liz why do you do this to yourself, talk to me chica’. 'I told you I didn’t want to talk about it’ Liz said as she rested her head down on her arms. 'Does this have something to do Max’? 'Maria, stop being so damn nosey, and take the hint I DO NOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT’ she yelled.


'Jeez, message received your bitchness, now if your finished worshipping the toilet god let me at least help you upstairs and put you to bed’ Maria said pulling Liz up off the floor. After making sure Liz was in bed Maria came back downstairs 'how is she’? Alex asked. 'She’s passed out cold’ said Maria.


'Well it looks like we should just call it a night’ Max said as he stood up to leave. 'Stop right there your highness, who said this party was over’ Maria said smiling and picking up the mic 'I believe it’s your turn to sing’.

TBC
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Hope you like guys,, Next Chapter they Find out about FM

posted on 21-Feb-2003 10:33:50 AM by Itzstacie
Thanks for the feedback, it really means alot to me,.. I wanted to let everyone know that I am going to wait until we move to the new board to post the next chapter, since the move is scheduled for tommorrow.

Stacie