posted on 17-Dec-2001 12:38:05 AM
Title: Let me In
Category: Max and Liz ... is there any other couple?
Summary: What if things were different and everyone met in College?
Authors Note: I'm tired of school ... so I figure write yet another fic ... LOL

Let me In Part One ~


She watched him from across the lecture hall, he was writing notes down furiously.

She grinned at his studiousness. There was just something about him. His dark hair and amber eyes, the few times she had looked into those eyes she’d gotten lost.

‘He’d probably run screaming if he new the truth about me’ she thought to herself.

“Miss. Parker?” Liz looked up from her dreaming.

“Yes.”

“Do you want to join on the discussion of evolution and creationism?” The professor looked at her as did the entire lecture hall.

“Not really.” Liz looked back down at her notes.

“And why is that Miss. Parker?”

Liz looked back up at her professor’s smirk. “Because it’s a discussion that will never have and end and I really don’t feel well enough to argue over something that neither science or religion can remedy.”

The short blonde girl next to Liz started laughing. “Ms Harding you have something to add?”

“No sir.” The blonde girl was grinning.

The professor turned back around to write something on the board.

The blonde girl turned to Liz. “I’m Tess. He’s so boring.”

Liz smiled back at the girl. “Liz. Tell me about it. He picks on me cause he’s my step-father.”

Liz snuck a look at the brown haired god on the other side of the room and she could have sworn that when she looked up he looked away.

“Really? Well you told him.”

“Yeah.” Liz sighed.

“That’s all for today class. Ms. Parker. See me after.” Liz heard a few ooo’s and ahh’s and rolled her eyes.

She turned to Tess. “Off to face the firing squad.”

“Good luck.” Tess smiled back.

Liz walked down to her step-father, she noticed Tess talking to the dark haired guy and gesturing towards her.

“Liz.”

“Yes Mr. Walker?”

“Why do you have to act like that in my class?” He asked almost angry.

“I would act like that in any class. You don’t have to pick on me.”

“I don’t pick on you. Any student whose attention wasn’t focused on the lecture I would have called out. Get your head out of the clouds Liz. You’re mother wouldn’t appreciate her money going to waste.”

“Don’t you dare!” and Liz stormed off.

************************************

“Max!” Tess looked at him he was in a trance looking across the cafeteria at Liz Parker.

She wanted to be jealous, to yell at him and scream and cry that he shouldn’t be looking at Liz, but she liked the girl, and Max wasn’t hers anymore.

“Oh Sorry. What did you say Tess?”

Tess sighed and looked into those dark amber pools that showed nothing but friendship for her. “Max we may not be together anymore, but you can’t let her in. You can’t.”

Max looked at her. “Tess … I … “

“No we’ve talked about it, and I get it. But you can’t risk yourself or us by telling her.” Tess pleaded with him.

“Who said anything about telling her? I just want to get to know her better. You talk to her, why can’t I?” Tess sighed.

“Because Max, I’m not the one who’d fall in love with her. I … “

“Tess …” Max interrupted.

“No Max, I’m serious. Yeah she seems really nice but what do you think she’d do if she found out. I mean yeah there is something about her … “

“What?” Max stared at her shocked.

“What did I say?” Tess looked back at him worried.

“You said that there is something about her. You feel it too don’t you?” Tess looked away from him.

“You do don’t you Tess you feel it.”

“It’s nothing Max just wishful thinking.”

“I don’t …” Tess looked at him waiting for him to continue. She turned to figure out what had him so entranced.

She turned around and saw Liz Parker walking with her roommate they were headed straight for her and Max.

“Oh my god she’s coming.” Max blushed quickly and Tess turned towards the two girls.

“Tess right?” Liz said sitting down.

“Liz.”

“That’s me” Liz smiled and looked at Max.

“This is my roommate and all around best friend Maria DeLuca.”

Tess smiled at Liz. “Hi Maria. I’m Tess Harding and this is my friend Max Evans.”

Liz looked into those deep amber pools and was lost.

“Hi.” He smiled and her heart melted, it seemed almost familiar.

The conversation continued for a few minutes and soon they were talking and laughing like old friends.

“Uh Oh.” Liz looked at Tess confused, only to hear a loud voice behind her.

“Max, Tess … we need to talk.” Liz saw Max stiffen and Tess roll her eyes.

She looked behind her and saw a tall blonde haired girl and a tall spiky haired guy glaring at her.

“Now” The girl said.

Tess glared back at them. “Liz, Maria, meet Isabel, Max’s sister and Michael the annoying best friend. Michael, Isabel meet Liz and Maria.”

“Hi.” Liz was laughing at Tess’s annoyance and her introduction of her obviously life-long friends.

Suddenly two guys ran up to the table.

“Liz! It’s Mom. Come on!” The shorter guy said.

The tall one grabbed Liz’s bag and they took off. Liz’s heart dropped and she got up and ran out behind her brother and her friend.

“Maria … I …” She turned around in after thought.

“Liz go I have you covered.” Maria sighed and watched her friend’s retreat.

“Is everything ok?” Max asked also watching Liz’s retreating figure.

“Her mom’s got cancer. She’s been hanging on by a string. It’s only a matter of time before …”

“Oh my!” Tess gasped.

“Is she going to be ok?” Maria looked back at the guy she now knew as Michael, surprised by the concerned tone. She didn’t notice the alarmed looks of the three others at his tone as well.

“I don’t know. I’d better go talk to her teachers. I’ll … uh see you guys later.” Maria got up to leave.

“Hey Maria. Let us know if you or Liz need anything.” Maria looked at Max.

“Thanks I will.” She waved and hurried towards the academic building.

*********************

“Oh god Alex, this is really it.” Liz hugged her best friend.

Alex pulled her closer. “Shhh... Liz it’s ok.”

They heard the door to the hospital room open and Liz ran to her brother. “Kyle Oh My god. Is she awake?” They hugged for a few minutes before he could speak.

“She’s asking for you Liz.” He said quietly.

Liz kissed her brothers cheek and walked into the room. Her step-father watched her and kissed his wife’s forehead crying before moving to the door.

“Liz? Honey.” Her mother said weekly.

“Oh Mom!” Liz cried. She looked over her mothers small form, she’d gotten so much worse since the night before.

“Liz. Come here.”

Liz walked slowly towards her mother and carefully took her hand. She ignored the pain she instantly felt, only glad she could relieve her mother of any of the agonizing torture.

“Liz. You know I love you like you are my own daughter don’t you? You know that.”

“Of course I do mom I’d never think you didn’t.” Liz’s tears began to fall harder.

“I just want you to know that I love you. You have such great things out there for you. You were brought to me in such a spectacular way I just know your destined for greatness.”

Suddenly Liz’s eyes grew wide. “Mom I could …”

“No Elizabeth you can’t. You can’t risk that.”

Liz looked at her mothers dying form; she pushed her long dark hair out of her face and stared into those beautiful blue eyes.

“Mom. I love you so much. I can’t loose you.” Nancy Walker looked at the beautiful girl in front of her.

“Find him honey. Find your soul mate, your King. That’s all I ask of you.”

Liz shook her head in protest she just wanted her mother.

“Mom …” Liz cried harder as her mother got a faraway look in her eyes.

“Take care of Kyle and Peter. I’m going to join your father now, he’s calling me.”

“Mom …” Liz sobbed. And her mother was gone.

The machines around her began to beep and a group of doctors came rushing in. She felt arms trying to tear her away from her mother.


“Noooo …” she screamed.

“Liz … come on it’s ok”

“No … Kyle it’s not ok … I could have … “

Kyle’s eyes went wide and he pulled her too him hugging her.

“Shhh … don’t Liz don’t say it.”

He pulled her out of the room. His own tears spilling over. Alex moved them into the small chapel of the hospital and no one was around.

“Nooo …” Liz screamed.

“Take me back to her … I can …”

Alex stepped up and caught her from running back to the room.

“Let go of me I can HEAL HER!!!!!!!”
Liz tried to pull away from Alex.

“Liz. Shhh … don’t say that.” He pulled her to his chest.

“But … I could have saved her you know that.” She sobbed.

Kyle pulled her from Alex’s arms into his own.

“You couldn’t risk that Liz. Mom knew that.”

Liz looked into his eyes. “I know. She wouldn’t let me.”

Kyle brought her back to his chest.

“We have to protect ourselves Liz. It’s important. She knew that.” Liz looked at Alex.

The door burst open and a teary-eyed Maria walked slowly into the room. Liz walked up to her and pulled her best friend into a fierce hug.

“I’m so sorry Liz, Kyle … I’m so sorry.” The four friends hugged until the door opened again.

“Kids. It’s time to go.” Alex looked at the man.

“We’ll be out in a minute Mr. Walker.” The man nodded and walked out.

“We have to protect ourselves now.” Kyle said.

“She was the only adult left who knew. What are we going to do?” Maria said with tears in her eyes.

Liz looked at her friends. People she was bonded to with her life. Her brother, her second, and her best friend.

“We have to find the others. That’s what my mother wanted. So that’s what I’m going to do.”


Liz and Maria drug themselves into their dorm room. Maria plopped on her bed and Liz looked around. She pulled out her journal and found what she was looking for.

“See … we … god we have to figure this out.” Liz paced and Maria looked at her.

“Liz your mother just died. Get some rest.”

Liz sat down defeated and cried. She hit her night stand and some kool-aide fell onto the floor staining the carpet. Liz continued to cry and Maria walked over to the stain and waved her hand over it. It disappeared and Maria sat down and put her arms around Liz.

“It will be ok Liz. It will.”

**************************

Liz was laying in her bed watching T.V.

She hadn’t been to classes in two days and the funeral had been the day before. Alex and Maria had been keeping her and Kyle company for the past few hours but now it was just her and him wallowing in their misery together. Kyle had his arm draped around her shoulder and she was laying against him.

There was a knock on the door.

“Come in” Liz yelled.

The door opened hesitantly and Liz looked up into those beautiful amber eyes. He took one look at her and Kyle and started walking out the door.

“Oh. I’m sorry. I’ll uh … bye … “ Liz got up quickly.

“Max wait!” Max stopped unable to deny her request.

He looked back around and Liz was sitting up staring at him. The guy on the bed with her sat up.

“Liz I need to get going. Call me if you need anything. Love you.” Liz smiled at Kyle.

“Love you to.” He kissed her forehead and looked at Max measuring.

Kyle left leaving Max and Liz to stare at each other.

“So …” Liz started tearing her eyes away from him.

“I … um … I brought you some assignments. Of the classes you have with Tess, Isabel, Michael and me. We thought we’d get them for you.” He handed her a stack of notes and papers.

“Oh … thank you.” She said disappointed.

“I didn’t mean to interrupt you and your boyfriend.”

Liz stifled a giggle.

“Max. That’s my brother. Kyle.”

“Oh.” He smiled.

Liz smiled at him and watched him look around her room.

“Is that your mom?” He asked looking at a picture.

Liz walked over to him and smiled. “Yeah.”

“She’s beautiful.” He said looking intently at the picture.

“She is.” Liz said back.

“How come you and your brother don’t look like her?” Liz looked at him slightly alarmed her defenses coming up.

She looks into his eyes. “Uh … Kyle and I were adopted.”

She looked at him gauging his reaction. There was something about him that she couldn’t put her finger on. Something familiar.

“Really?” She could have sworn he gulped.

“Isabel and I were too.”

She looked at him … ‘Could it be … ‘ she thought.

“Well I have to go. Call me if you need any help with anything.” Max smiled at her. “I will thanks.

He walked out and Liz noticed a drawing in the mass of noted and she gasped. She picked up the phone and quickly dialed the familiar number

“Alex get over here now. Bring Maria and I’ll call Kyle!” She hung up and called Kyle. Looking down worriedly at the notes.

“Oh My god!” she says out loud.
“So all we know is that he drew this?” Alex looked at his three friends and then down at the paper.

“We know one of them drew it.” Liz corrected.

“I have all four of them in one or more of my classes and one with all of them.”

Liz was pacing her room. The others were watching her carefully.

‘Could it be?’ She thought.

“Can’t you just check the handwriting, it may just be a doodle anyway.” Kyle watched Liz pull her hands through her hair, she was pacing.

“Liz, You have to stop.” Kyle says motioning to her.

Maria walked up to her and stopped her. Liz just looked at her.

“It’s the only thing on the paper, no notes to look at the handwriting. But think guys,” she pauses and looks at her friends, “there are four of them. It makes since. I know you haven’t spent much time with any of them, but I have, with Max and Tess and … god I wish you guys remembered, then you might know what this could mean.”

Alex looks at her and sighs.

“Are you sure this isn’t wishful thinking Liz?” his face was serious and she looked away.

‘How can I make them understand?’ she thinks to herself.

“Liz, Hon, I know what your thinking. But what if you’re wrong. What your thinking of exposing would put us all in danger, them too.”

Liz looks at Maria. “Listen. I know it could be a fluke, and that you guys are damn paranoid, it’s they way we grew up. But I feel it when I’m near him … them … It’s so familiar. And that symbol. There is no way that’s a coincidence. It’s the foursquare. Do you know what that could mean?”

Liz looks at Maria expectantly, expecting her best friend to understand.

“You think it’s him don’t you? You think Max is Zan,” Maria looks Liz straight in the eye and Liz looks away, “But what if that Michael guy is Zan. What would you do Liz? Huh? Just cause you have some crush doesn’t make him ZAN!”

Liz walks away from Maria and angrily says, “I need air.”

Kyle glares at Maria and turns to Liz, “Want company?”

She looks at him then back at Maria. “No.” and she walks out.

____________________________________________

“Did you give her the notes?” Tess looked at Max curiously.

“Yeah” he looked like he was thinking again.

“What Max? What are you thinking?” Max’s head snaps up and he eyes Tess.

“The Truth?” He questions.

She looks at him and can tell he just needs a friend. “Am I going to like it?” She asks quietly.

“Probably not.” He replies simply.

She sighs and sees the pleading look in his eyes. “I’ll get over it. So shot.”

“It’s about Liz.”

Tess looks away and lowers her voice, “I know.”

“There is just something about her Tess,” he looks at her downcast eyes “I don’t want to hurt you by saying this. So just forget it.”

Tess looks at him, realization dawning on her. “Max. I’m a big girl. What we had, it wasn’t right. I let Nesado grind it into my head. You gave me a chance and it didn’t work out. Now you’re my friend. I cherish that. I can handle it. I promise.”

He looks into her trusting eyes almost wishing he could reciprocate her feelings.

“I want to tell her all my secrets Tess. I know it sounds crazy. And I would never knowingly put you, Michael or Isabel in danger. But … god I don’t think I could lie to her.”

Tess looks down at her hands and take a shaky breath. “Max. Without sounding like Michael or Isabel … or even a broken record. You can’t tell her.”

He looks up at her sadly. “I know.”

Tess’s voice is solemn but sincere, “But that doesn’t mean you have to stay away,” she sighs, “I know Izzy and Michael won’t agree but you know how they are. There is no reason not to be her friend. You just can’t let it go to far.”

Max looks away. “I know,” then he smiles

“thank you.”

Tess’s eyes accept his unspoken apology. Something across the quad catches her attention.

Max turns around and his heart nearly breaks.

Liz is sitting at the base of a tree, her head buried in her hands; it’s obvious she’s crying.

“Go on”

Max turns back to Tess. “Uh maybe you should go?” he says shyly.

“Max. Now is not the time to go scared school-boy on me go to her.”

Tess smiles and Max smiles back. He gets up and kisses the top of her head.

“Thank you.”

She watches him walk away a single tear runs down her face.

___________________________________________

Liz wipes her eyes.

“Gosh. I don’t need this right now. Get it together Parker.” She says to no one in particular.

“Liz?”

Liz looks up and shivers involuntarily at the soft look in his eyes. She meets his gaze and the soft timbre of his voice warms her from the inside out.

“Are you ok?”

“Not really.”

She sighs through her tears and looks at ground. Max sits down next to her and leans against the tree.

“Want to talk about it.”

She looks into his eyes searchingly, “God. So much Max but I can’t.”

She looks over at the table where Tess has been joined by Michael and Isabel, both are glaring at her.

“Why?” Max asks cautiously.

She looks back at him and hands him the drawing then gets up.

“Cause I don’t think I could lie to you.”

She walks away leaving Max dumfounded. He looks down at the paper and gasps.

Seeing his expression Tess, Isabel and Michael run to him.

“What’s wrong?” Isabel asks concerned.

Max hands her the drawing. Michael takes one look at is and angrily shouts, “SHIT!”

Max gazes in the direction Liz went. “Who is she?” he asks aloud.

________________________________

“She is going to tell him isn’t she?” Alex looks at Kyle.

“I don’t know. I mean what if she’s right?” Alex’s eyes looked hopeful but his voice reeked of doubt, “But what is she’s not? How would he react? What’s she’s going to say? I’m an alien from another planet and I think you’re my alien King? That would go over well with your average 19 year old college boy.”

Maria held her laughter, Alex could always lighten a situation.

“You guys have no faith in me do you?”

Alex, Kyle and Maria looked up at Liz in the doorway.

Her face held no emotion.

“Where did you go? The drawing is gone.” Maria said almost accusing.

“I had to think. And I gave the drawing back.”

Liz sits down on her bed.

“You did what?” Kyle gets up and grabs her arm.

“Liz,” Liz’s eyes tear up at his hard grip but she refuses to speak.

“Kyle!” Alex screams.

Liz looks up in her brothers eyes.

“What did you tell him?”

“Nothing,” a voice for the doorway says.

The four friends look up at Max who’s standing in the doorway. Michael, Isabel and Tess are standing behind him.

Kyle looks at them and back at Liz whose eyes are locked with Max’s. He’s still holding on to her and he accidentally squeezes her arm tighter.

She gasps, “Kyle. Your hurting me.”

Kyle quickly releases her arm. Liz shakes off her tears and turns to Max and the others.

“Come in.”

They walk into the room and Liz walks to the door shutting it.

Catching Maria’s eye she nods and Maria stands in front of her blocking her from their eyes.

Liz locks and “seals” the door. She turns around and looks Max directly in the eye, her body shudders at his intense gaze. His eyes linger on the already forming bruises on her arms.

Finally Isabel holds up the drawing. “Where did you get this?”

Liz takes in a shaky breath and tears her eyes away from Max to look at Isabel.

“It was with the notes Max brought to me.”

Michael curses, obviously he’s the one who’d drawn the symbol.

Tess looks at Liz curiously.

“And. Do you know what it is?” She questions.

Liz looks from Kyle, to Alex, to Maria, to Tess and then her gaze settles on Max.

“Do you Liz?” He questions.

Kyle gives her a warning look and she shrugs him off.

Not being able to lie to Max she simply replies. “Yes.”



Part 4

“So what does it mean?”

Liz is broken out of her trance by the sound of Michael’s voice. She promptly receives a glare from Kyle.

“If you don’t know already, then maybe you don’t need to.” Maria says to him icily.

“It’s the foursquare.” Both Liz and Tess say at the same time.

Tess continues, “It represents the four of us and our … Purpose if you will.”

Alex grunts.

“Well, Tess, You’re half right.” Liz takes in a deep breath.

“What do you know about us? How do you know all this?” Isabel asks Liz, not meeting her eye.

Liz looks at Kyle, Alex and Maria her eyes asking for permission. All three of them sigh and nod to her.

“The foursquare doesn’t represent the four of you.” She looks at Max, “it represents the eight of us.”

Max walks to her, “What?”

Alex rolls his eyes. “God, could you be anymore dense? She’s telling you we are like you guys.”

Isabel looks at her hands, unwilling to believe it, “I don’t … understand.”

Alex looks at her with an amused expression. “Come on Princess, You know. We’re not from around here. Not of this earth.”

Isabel gasps and Maria rolls her eyes at Alex. She walks to Liz and puts a hand on her shoulder.

Tess looks at them and looks as though something is coming to her.

“Oh My GOD!” She exclaims.

“Tess what is it?” Michael is by her side in an instant.

“I just remembered. Two people complete each square in the foursquare, that way we are more protected. Why didn’t I remember before?” She looks at Maria and Liz. “Which one of you is Shayelia?”

Liz’s eyes go wide in surprise and recognition.

Max, Michael and Isabel look at the two with interest.

Alex, Kyle and Maria watch Tess with fear.

Tess takes in Liz’s expression, “You’re her aren’t you? You remember don’t you Liz?”

Liz looks away. “Yes.”

“What do you remember Liz?” Max asks carefully.

She looks at him with a tear in her eye and he wants to wipe it away so badly.

“Everything. I remember everything.” Liz looks away from all the eyes on her.

“Like what? Who are you to us?” Michael asks.

Liz looks at Max and Michael. “The King’s second in command is my,” she hears Max quick intake of breath and continues “my twin brother.”

Max sighs in relief, so afraid that somehow she couldn’t be his.

“You’re … You’re my sister?” Michael looks at Liz.

She smiles at him, glad that Max wasn’t her brother – the issue of falling in love with her brother wasn’t something she wanted to deal with.

‘Wait. Love?’ she thinks to herself. She looks into Max’s questioning eyes and sighs to herself, ‘I’m a goner’

“Wait, I thought Kyle was your brother.” Isabel questioned.

“I am. I was younger than them.” Kyle looks at Michael and Liz, who were hugging.

Michael looks up, “So you all remember?”

“No. Space boy,” Maria chides “Just Liz. She filled us in though.”

Maria rolls her eyes and gives Liz a warning glare.

“We already knew Max was the King. Momo-gram told us that.” Isabel counters.

“Momo-gram?” Alex looks at her like she’s crazy.

“Yeah. When Tess and Nesado found us, we activated the orb. We got a message from Max and My mother. It said that Tess was Max’s bride and Michael and I were betrothed.”

Isabel didn’t notice the halt in activity at the mention of Nesado.

“Nesado?” Kyle said through clenched teeth.

“Yes.” Tess looks at him. “Why?”

“That Bastard killed my father. In both Lifetimes.” Kyle clenches his fists.

“What?” Max asks surprised.

Liz looks at him warmly. “Nesado was sent here with Lanai to protect us. Nesado was to protect you four while Lanai was to protect us. Nesado was Tess and Maria’s uncle. Yes they are sisters. Anyways. Lanai placed Kyle and me with Jeff and Nancy Parker.

Maria was in foster care and the Whitman’s adopted Alex. Our parents, that is Kyle’s and mine, knew; Lanai entrusted them with us. A few years ago, Nesado came looking for us, me specifically, dad got in the way and Nesado killed him. And on Antar he was responsible for killing our father.”

Michael looked enraged, he had trusted Nesado, even thought the man was his father, and turns out he killed his father.

“Why was Nesado after you Liz?” Max looked into her eyes, somehow he already knew the answer, he just wanted, no … needed to hear it from her lips.

“Cause she’s the Queen.” Tess looked at Liz.

Liz looks away, Isabel gasps and Max smiles.

“I knew it.” He says without thinking.

Liz’s head snaps up to meet his eyes.

“I’m still a bit confused.” Isabel says trying to get answers.

Maria sighs with exasperation.

“Ok, here is the short version. Tess and I are sisters. Our father died, so Nesado took care of us, the bastard. Our 4 families are all the ruling families. But yours has held the kingship justly for years. The other three families wanted in on it a little more.

When two of those families had girls around the time of King Zan they looked at the star charts. Tess, Liz and Michael were all born on the same day.

Ok … well Liz was actually born the day before at like 12:59 or something. Except Nesado wanting to further his claim to the throne messed it up to make Tess the betrothed. They look at star charts, something in our mythology.

Anyways, so they usually keep the families separated and so the only one of us allowed to see Zan was Ava, since they were to be married. Eventually though, Zan realized he didn’t love Ava.

One day we all met, Zan and Shayelia met, instant sparks. They feel in love but hid it forever. Zan and Shayelia were miserable because they couldn’t be together. Then Me, being the greatest best friend that I am, and doting sister cause turned out my sis Ava was in love with someone else to, found out the truth and revealed my uncle’s treachery. Rah rah for me.

So Shayelia and Zan married, loved, and loved happily ever after until Kivar came and mucked up our lives and pretty much just killed us all, including his own brother.”

Maria took a deep breath.

Michael chuckled. “If that was the short version, wait, Kivar’s brother?”

“That would be me.” Alex spoke up and raised his eyes.

Max watches as the others talk, he walks up to Liz and whispers in her ear.

“Will you take a walk with me?”

She nods and they get up, “We’re going for a walk.” She unlocks the door and they walk in silence.

Back in the room Kyle smiles. “We better not wait up.”

“So. What are all of our names again?” Isabel asks.

Kyle speaks up. “Max is Zan. Liz is Shayelia, Tess is Ava, Isabel you are Vilandra. Michael is Rath. I’m Dane, Alex is Kalel, and Maria is Pixie, I know … her parents were odd.”

Maria glares at Kyle then laughs, not noticing Michael’s trained eyes on her every move.


I've been watching you and all you do
For quite some time
Knowing all the ins and outs of you
I should've known what was on your mind
But all the world is spinning round and round
Inside my head tonight
I will fall into the darkness
And I fear I will never see the light
(repeat)


Liz and Max walk through the large campus silently. Max stops and stares at the small pond in the middle of the large quad.


“This is all so much.” Max sighs.

Liz looks over at him then back to the pond.

“Tell me about it.” She watched a baby duck struggle to catch up to its mother.

So let me in
All that I wanted from you
Was something you'd never do
So let me in
Oh please tonight
Don't let this end
Tonight
I'll Fall



“So … I just had to talk to you, you know.” Max blushes.

“It’s so weird you know. Remembering. To remember living before, to remember … you, God, I felt something for you and I felt alive, Max. Alive for the first time, but I also felt guilty, I felt like I was betraying Zan. And when I first thought you were … I was so afraid that you weren’t him.”

Liz turns away hiding her tear soaked eyes. “Why do I have to remember.” Her lip trembles.

“You really remember everything?” Max asks sympathetically.



“From birth to death.” She laughs shakily.

Max’s face is pensive.

Through no light the darkness seems to be
So very strong
How does one alone against the world
Find the strength to carry on?
What happened to the way we used to love
It seemed as though life had just begun
But now that love has come and gone to fade away
Like the setting sun
Cuz' you won't let me in.


“Tess doesn’t remember everything. Just bits and pieces.”

“And what Nesado planted in her head. That momo-gram was a mind game you know. Vilandra and Rath were never betrothed.”

Liz sighs and runs her hand through her hair. Max stares at her. ‘Could she be more beautiful?’ he thinks to himself.

“What?” Liz eyes him suspiciously.

“The first time I saw you, all I wanted to do was tell you all my secrets. When I’m near you I feel alive. I dreamt about you being my Queen Liz, and you are, you’re my Queen. I went years hearing about my destiny and being with Tess when I knew something was missing. You know about me, you’re like me and you’re my queen. And all I want to do right now is kiss you.”

Max cups her face in his hands and looks into her eyes. Liz stares at his lips in anticipation.

All that I wanted from you
Was something you'd never do
So let me in
Oh please tonight
Don't let this end
Tonight
Cuz' I'm starting to fall
So let me in



“So what’s stopping you?”

Before he could respond she presses her lips to his in a soul-searing Kiss. Her arms snake around his neck and his arms circle her waist pulling her closer. Breaking the Kiss and gasping for air he leans his forehead against hers.

“Wow” Liz breaths.

“Yeah.” He smiles back. “How did I survive nineteen years without that?”

Liz blushes.

It was all that I wanted from you
It was something you never knew
To let me in
But not tonight
For this is the end
Tonight
I fall


“Max. Can I just make one request?” Liz pulls back, thought never removing her hands from around his neck.

“Anything.”

“Can this be about you and me? Not Zan and Shayleia. Who we are now and not who we were. I remember how I felt about you then and it’s overwhelming. I want that now. I don’t want it to be based on what was, but what is.”

Max looks at her. “It’s only you Liz.” He places a kiss on her forehead.

“How about we do this right. Liz Parker, will you go out with me tonight?”

She smiles up at him and pulls his face down to meet her. She completely opens herself up to him. The images assault them both quickly.

Max pulls away and a tear trickles down his face. “Oh God. Liz!”

Liz looks at him concerned.

His voice breaks. “You triggered something. I remember everything. I watched you die. Oh god …”

Liz gently places her hand on his cheek wiping the tears away with her thumb. She shivers as his arms wrap more tightly around her.

“Shhh … I know … baby,” she makes him face her. “We died together. Always together.”

(Part 5)

Maria watched as Alex and Kyle tried to flirt with Tess and Isabel. They hadn’t manages to get to the rest of the back-story. The one concerning her sister, Kyle, Alex, Isabel, Michael and her relationships on Antar.

She snuck a peak at Michael who was sitting in a corner quietly; he was obviously reeling from the news he’d received.

She looked away shaking off the familiar feeling in her gut.

“I’m not tied to him, just cause we meant something to each other in another life, one I don’t remember. It doesn’t mean we have to have a repeat performance does it?” She’s talking to herself quietly.

Maria looks up and finds Michael staring at her.

“What?” she asks annoyed.

“You’re talking to yourself.” He stated simply.

“Yeah so?” she looks at him completely irritated, but only cause she’s praying he didn’t hear her.
“It’s cute” he smiles.

Maria blushes slightly.

“I’d like to know more about Liz, Kyle, my father, you … Can you tell me?” Michael uncharacteristically looks down at his hands.

Maria instantly sighs wanted to say no. Their past had always been a sore subject between the four of them, Liz had wanted to embrace it, until she met Max, and then when she thought Max was Zan she’d wanted to embrace it again.

Maria however didn’t like the idea of something, someone who she wasn’t anymore controlling her actions. It didn’t make her feel warm and fuzzy, she knew that if she remembered that life things might be different.

She took one look into his eyes and was taken in by the vulnerability there, she’d never seen him with that look and it warmed her heart.

“Liz tells it all better cause she’s the one who remembers. I just know what she told me.” She looks at him.

“You don’t have to tell me if …”

“No,” she cuts him off, “it’s ok. MMM … Where to start?” She thinks.

“Tell me about you?” He looks into her eyes and just all but melts.

“Well … Liz says I’m exactly the same. How does she put it? Oh yeah, I’m a Paranoid firecracker.” She rolls her eyes.

“You’re one of those people who isn’t easily forgotten. You touch people and leave pixie-dust in your wake. The name is fitting. As for the paranoia … must be an alien thing, all four of us are like that.” Michael smiles at her, surprised by his honesty.

“Yeah we are too. When Liz was trying to convince us about Max we all but tied her down to keep her from talking to him. We were afraid she was just … delusional.” She looks at him carefully.

“We’ve always had this philosophy, not to let anyone else in. From when we were kids, then when Tess came, it changed a little. She and Max got close, but it was never right between them. When we got here and Max started making eyes at Liz I freaked. I had these weird conflicting emotions, like I needed to protect her. I didn’t know what it meant till now. God, I have a twin sister, and I don’t even know her.” The regret in his voice is evident.

“She’s a great person. Beautiful on the inside and out.” Maria smiles.

“I can tell.”

The door opens and Max and Liz walk in holding hands. This doesn’t go unnoticed by anyone in the room.

Kyle looks on shock by his sister’s boldness. Isabel does the same at her brother. Alex smiles at his best friend and a look of jealousy flashes over Tess’s face for an instant and then it’s gone replaced by a look of appreciation. A look of protectiveness graces Michaels face and Maria just shakes her head laughing but then she notices the grave looks on her friends face and the way she’s clutching Max’s hand.

“Liz what’s wrong?” Maria asks concerned.

Liz looks up at Max searchingly. He nods his head and brings her hand to his lips and places a ginger kiss on her knuckles.

“Max remembers everything.” She says solemnly.

“H … How?” Isabel chokes out.

Max clears his throat. “Liz and I kissed and somehow she triggered my memories. I remember everything thing, from birth to …” Max looks away.

“Death?” Michael supplies.

“Yeah” Max looks at him and a tear escapes his eyes.

Liz notices this and turns to Max burying her head in his shoulder. His arms go around her instinctively. He gently kisses her forehead. Their friends are amazed at this simple gesture.

Michael looks at Maria longingly and clears his throat. “Isabel, Tess we should go … it’s been a long day. Max I assume your staying for a while?”

Max nods and Tess and Isabel say their goodbyes. Kyle and Alex remain for a minute and say their goodbyes leave Max, Maria and Liz.

“I’m just going to work on a paper ok.”

Liz smiles at Maria, “Ok, I think we are going to take a nap.”

Max sits down on the bed exhaustion overcoming him. He lays back and inhales Liz’s scent, he instantly feels at home. Liz pulls of her sweater revealing a gray tank top. She lays down next to Max snuggling into his chest. She breaths deeply and soon they are both sound asleep. The best sleep they’ve ever had.

(Part Six)

Maria growls at her computer in frustration. “Predestination what a joke!”

“Maria.” Liz says groggily.

“Sorry Liz.” Maria looks over at Liz who is still in the tight clutches of Max’s sleeping form.

“Go Back to sleep.” She smiles at her best friend.

“Are you sure? I can help with your paper.” Liz looks at Maria, knowing how she was dreading the subject.

“No, No … I need to do some more research. I’m going to go to the Library.”

Maria begins to pack up her things to go out, being careful not to wake Max. Her brow furrows and she looks around. Her gaze falls on Liz whose brushing the hair away from Max’s face lovingly.

Something about seeing them together, legs interwoven, Liz’s eyes so full of love make Maria want to cry. A sob escapes her lips.

Liz instantly looks up concerned. Maria waves her away, but Liz removes Max’s arms from around her. He moans at the loss of her in his arms, but stays asleep. She gets up from the bed and wraps her arms around Maria.

“Shhh … Ria? What’s wrong?” Liz pulls Maria to the door of the bathroom. She opens it and Pulls Maria inside.

“Liz … I don’t know … I just saw you and Max. The two of you, together it’s beautiful. I want that Liz, that you saw him for the first time and just knew he was yours …”

“Maria, Hon … What’s this about?” Liz looked into her friend’s arms concerned. Her anger from the past hours forgotten.

“Liz forever you’ve told me about Zan, and I knew you weren’t lying but it was so hard to believe. A love that pure; Even Lanai would get misty talking about it. And … I …”

“What Ria? You want that to?”

Maria nods.

“You can have that. I know I told you about the past, and who you were and what my brother was to you, but I never meant to make you think that you had no other choice. It’s hard remembering Maria. Hard to see you, my best friend, My second, and my twin brother not together when I remember it so clearly.”

“I just don’t like to think that I have no choice in the matter Liz. You have to understand that.”

“I do Maria, I don’t want what me and Max have to be overshadowed by what we were, but what we are. But remember Maria, just because you choose Michael doesn’t mean it wasn’t a choice in the beginning. Just don’t be closed-minded about him, let yourself be free to the idea. You don’t have to embrace it like I have, just don’t shut it out. Cause you don’t know what you could be missing out on. That’s the difference between me and you Maria; I knew what I was missing with out him. You don’t”

“I know Liz … it’s just so hard.”

“I know.”

“I don’t think you do Liz. You just met Max and he’s already asleep in your bed.”

“Maria! For one thing you know we just slept … and Two, I don’t think you know how hard it is… To be with him, now that he remembers, god how do I know he’s not caught up in what used to be? Have you ever thought of that? If you and Michael do end up together you’ll know it’s because of you and not who you used to be. You have no idea how hard it is, and yes I just met him. I realize that but I’m falling in love with him Maria.”

Maria looked at Liz, Tears brimming in her best friends eyes.

“Oh Liz, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to imply … God …what’s wrong with me?”

“Your scared Maria. And that’s ok. I’d be worried if you weren’t. But don’t let fear be your driving force. I was scared shitless with Max, but just looking in his eyes calms my soul. That’s how I knew.”

“Ok. I’m going to go to the Library now. I promise to think about what you said. And I’m sorry for snapping at you.”

Liz hugs Maria. “It’s ok Chica.”


Liz lays back down beside Max. He opens his eyes and looks at her bringing her body closer to his.

“Is she ok?” He asks concerned.

“I knew you were awake.”

“I didn’t mean to over hear, I just didn’t want to embarrass her. She seems a lot like Michael. All stone wall-ish. So she knows about Rath and Pixie?”

“Yeah, She hides from it. It’s been a sore subject with the four of us. They hate the idea that they have no choice. But I keep telling them that they do. I think meeting you all and now having us together makes them feel suffocated by “destiny”.”

“I wish they remembered.”

“I’m glad they don’t.”

“Why? I heard you in there Liz. Do you really doubt us?”

Liz looks into his eyes, fear evident in them.

“I just don’t want this,” she points her finger at his heart, “to be about what you remember.”

He looks into her eyes. “Liz. Zan was in love with Shayelia, that’s not an emotion I can forget. But Max is falling in love with Liz. The sweet beautiful spark of a girl who sits before him, not the Queen he remembers.”

Liz looks into his eyes looking for a shred of doubt.

“How can this happen so fast? I mean I know that I remember and everything. But god Max, I never imagined this …”

She leans down and places her lips to his tenderly. He threads his hands in her hair and parts his lips to allow her access into his mouth. She explores the sweet recesses of his mouth with her tongue as he does the same.

They part breathless and looking into each other’s eyes.

“I still want to know how I went so long with out that Liz. You are like this drug, and I never want to give it up.”

“Please don’t Max. Whatever happens never give me up.”

“Never.”




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posted on 17-Dec-2001 11:40:11 PM

(Part 7)

Maria walks into the Library and sits her books down on the nearest table. She begins her search for materials to use on her paper.

Soon Maria is in the back of the Library trying to reach a book up high. She pulls on it and it falls and hit her hard on the head.

“Dammit!” She yells.

Her body becomes unsteady and she’s about to loose her balance when a strong arm catches her.

“You ok?” Maria looks up into his warm eyes.

“Mi … Michael. I um … the book fell.” She tries to find the words, but his arm is still around her and his scent is making her dizzy.

“I gathered that. Now are you ok.” He removes his arm from around her and winces in pain when he traces the cut on her forehead.

“I uh … Whew I feel faint.” She doesn’t know if it’s because a book fell on her head or just his proximity.

Michael’s arm instantly goes around her waist again and he ushers her to a nearby couch. He looks around for any sign of life in that part of the library and finding none he puts his hand on her forehead barely grazing the scratch.

Maria’s breath becomes ragged and she feels the warmth spreading through her and the pain easing away.

“I’m not that good at it but I can do the little stuff.” He looks down at her again.

“Thank you.” She says shakily.

“So what book was so important … Ah … Predestination and Freedom?” He cocks his eyebrow up questioning.

“I have a paper for philosophy, seemed an appropriate topic, considering. What are you doing here … you don’t seem the Library type.”

He smiles, “I come here to think, something about this place just calms me, I like it almost as much as the art gallery, but it’s closed for renovations. It’s like you can feel the peace in this place, so much emotion in every page.”
He looks at her amused face. “What?”

“Mr. Guerin, You are just full of surprises.” She crinkles her nose at him and he laughs.

“So how are you handling all this … stuff?”

“Um… I … I just … I dunno.” She stutters.

He instantly picks up on her uncomfortable tone and looks at her again concerned.

“That bad?”

“Well I’ve known about this for years … but you guys … How is it effecting you?” She tries to change the subject casually, but he notices, instead of pushing like he normally would he just gives up.

“Well. It’s all a lot. I mean, I’ve known that I’ve lived before for a while now, but meeting you all, and Liz – My sister & kyle … For the first time in my life I have a real family, I’ve never ever had that. Max and Isabel had each other and their nice comfy home, Tess even had Nesado – bastard that he was she still had him. I had nobody.

Now I have a twin sister, a brother and people who are just like me. It’s all so much. And knowing that Isabel and I don’t have to … well it’s a relief, Nesado always pushed us all together, Max and Tess me and Iz … But none of us really felt it.

Sure Max and Tess tried for a while, and I think in some way Tess did have feelings for him, but he never felt the same. It was a relationship doomed for disaster. Isabel is like a sister to me, I could never go there. But I still don’t know everything.”

Michael stops and realizes he’s just bared part of what makes him tick to this … this pixie of a girl.

“I’m sorry, My mouth ran away with me.” Maria smiles at him.

“You don’t know everything Michael and I’m not sure you want to know. Liz, Kyle, Alex and I fought for years over the things that she knew. The supposed Destiny …”
“I’ve always hated that word, but now it seems so fitting.” He responds pensively.

“Do you think that Max and Liz had any choice of coming together? Now that you know?”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, Do you think that just because they were together in the past that they had no choice but to be together in this one?”

He looks at her, wondering what exactly she means.

“Well. I think everything in life is a choice, except who you fall in love with, that’s something that just happens. Two souls that interwoven with each other will always find a way back together. However, the choice to be together is still there. Loving someone, and being with them are two totally different things.”

Maria nods her head, she’s still not convinced.

“well thanks … I need to get back to research.” She gets up quickly and walks away from him.

Michael sits there, lost in thought, he’s watching her retreating figure trying to figure out the swirl of emotions running through him.

“Damn that little pixie girl.”

~~~~

Tess stares blankly at the door. She’s still processing everything that has happened in the past weeks.

Max and Liz have become inseparable. Michael is always moody especially when Maria’s around.

Isabel is helplessly flirting with Kyle, which for some reason upsets Tess.

Alex is barely around; he’s been going out with a bunch of different girls lately.

The eight of them get together everyday, to eat or study or something, and no matter what is going on in their lives they seem to bring peace to each other.

Tess gets up from her bed. She knocks on the bathroom door “IZ!! I need to shower I have class in an hour.”

“Oh! I’ll be out in a minute.”

Tess rolls her eyes and sighs.

She hears a knock on their door and get up to open it. She opens the door and is surprised to see Liz standing there with tears in her eyes.

“Liz? What’s wrong?”

A sobs escapes Liz’s mouth and Tess stares at her helplessly. Isabel walks out of the bathroom and gasps at Liz.

“Liz what’s wrong? It’s not Max... Oh God is he ok?”

“Max is fine … peachy keen.”

“Whew … I wish I could stay and help you Liz,” Isabel looks at Liz with genuine concern in her eyes, “But I have to work and if I’m late again I’ll get fired.”

“It’s ok Isabel.”

With that Isabel leaves leaving a still confused Tess in her wake.

“Now what’s wrong Liz?” She pulls Liz over to her bed and sits her down.

“I can’t go to Maria, Kyle, Michael, Max or Alex … I don’t know what to do …”

“Liz … what happened?”

“He’s back oh god he’s back!!!”

posted on 18-Dec-2001 8:10:58 PM
(8 b)

Isabel rushes into work and into the back of the small coffee shop.

“Isabel Evans you’re late again.”

“I’m so sorry. My brothers girlfriend was having some sort of crisis and I had to practically slam the door in her face.”

Isabel looks around hoping Kyle hadn’t overheard that little comment.

“Fine. But I swear if it happens again.”

“I know. I’m sorry it won’t.”

Isabel puts on her little black apron and goes to work. She walks out in the front of the shop and sees Alex glaring daggers at her.

‘What the hell is his problem.’ She thinks to herself.

Alex walks up to the counter. “Isabel what’s wrong with Liz?”

She avoids his piercing gaze and just shrugs. “All I know is that she came to our room as I was leaving, crying her poor little eyes out. At first I thought something was wrong with Max, but She just said he was ‘peachy keen’”

Isabel watched as Alex’s eyes got a little wide. “She only says stuff like that when she’s upset. What did he do to her?”

“Nothing. I saw him on my way over and He said he was going to go find her.”

“Go find who?” Isabel turned as Kyle walked to the counter from the back storage room.

“Liz was upset and the Ice Princess would belittle herself and think about someone else’s feelings for a change.”

Isabel looked at Alex shocked.

“Alex.” Kyle says in a warning tone.

“What. I’m so tired of walking around on eggshells just to spare the princesses feelings. She never hides her contempt for Liz and Maria, and Liz is the last person in the world that deserves it.”

Isabel is speechless. ‘Why do I care what he thinks of me? Why did that hurt so much?’

Kyle is shocked by his best friend’s words. He’s about to yell at Alex when someone calls his name from the back.

“Yes?” He looks at his manager.

“Phone for you. It’s your sister, she says its an emergency.”

Kyle looks at Isabel and Alex worriedly. He walks back into the back.

Alex and Isabel just glare at each other.

“Why do you hate Liz so much Isabel? What has she ever done to you?

“I … don’t … I …” Kyle’s cursing cuts off Isabel.

He stalks out of the backroom and throws his apron down.

“I’m going to see Liz. She needs me. Alex you coming?”

Alex nods and just glares at Isabel. They Leave.

“Mark. I need to go to the bathroom I’ll be right back.”

The guy at the register nods and Isabel walks back to the bathroom. AS soon as the door is shut the tears flow freely down her face. ‘Do they really think I hate Liz?’

~~~~~~~

Liz hangs up Tess’s phone and looks at the blonde.

“I didn’t mean to scare you or make you uncomfortable. I just didn’t know what else to do. I know Isabel hates me, but I don’t know.”

“Liz. There is no need to apologize, I’m glad you felt you could come to me. And Isabel doesn’t hate you; I don’t know what her problem is. But she’ll get over it.”

Max walks back into the room with Kyle and Alex in tow.

Kyle automatically pulls Liz into a Behr hug. When he lets go Alex does too. Then She sits back on Tess’s bed and Max pulls her into his lap. Tess stands there awkwardly.

Watching Max and Liz together always seems like she’s intruding on a moment and it awe’s her, every moment together for them is cherished. She glances at Kyle who flashes her an innocent smile and she smiles back feeling calmed.

“So what is this about?” Alex looks at Liz and Kyle shoots him a warning glare.

“I’m waiting for Maria to get here. I don’t wanna go through this twice.” Liz takes a deep breath.

Isabel busts in the door with tears in her eyes.

“Iz?” Max immediately begins to move towards his sister he’s about to ask Liz to move but she gets up without hesitation.

“I don’t hate you Liz!” She cries.

The room goes silent.

“Isabel. What’s wrong?” Max looks at his sister.

“I need to talk to Liz.”

Liz gets up and nods towards the door.

“We’ll go to my room upstairs. You guys just wait for Maria, myswell call Michael too. Tell them to wait and don’t let them kill each other. We’ll be back in a little while.”

Liz opens the door and her and Isabel walk silently to her room.

They get to her room and walk inside. Liz sits on her bed and waits.

“Liz, Alex said something to me this afternoon. It upset me so much cause I hadn’t even realized. I don’t hate you Liz. I don’t know why I’m acting like this. You are so good for my brother I could never hate you.”

Liz looks at her.

“Then why Isabel? You treat me like it’s horrible to be in my presence. You undermined everything I say and you always glare at me when I’m around Max and even Michael.”

“I’m scared.”

“Why? What are you so afraid of.”

“Liz for ten years it was just Max, Michael and Me. Then Tess came and it changed a little. But Max and Michael are the only family I have.”

“What does that have to do with me?”

“Your Michael’s real sister, and Max – You are all he thinks about now. I can’t lose them Liz. I don’t know what I’d do without them.”

“Is that what your afraid of. That I’ll take them away from you?”

Isabel doesn’t answer but slowly nods her head. Liz is taken aback by her vulnerability.

“I could never ever do that. Yes, Michael is my brother and I love him dearly but I could never replace what you’ve been to him all these years Isabel. He loves you just like you were his sister. And Max. Max is your brother; He’d do anything for you. I could never stand in the way of that. I would never want to. Max is my heart Isabel, and Michael is my twin. Those things will never change. I would never take them away from you.”

Isabel wipes away her tears again.

“But please don’t take them away from me either.” Liz’s voice gets very low.

“Liz … I”

“I’ve lost you all once Isabel. All of you. Did you know you were one of my closest friends? Vilandra was my matron of honor. I can’t behr to loose any of you again. I’ve just found you.”

Isabel looks into Liz’s eyes, all she sees is concern and sisterly love.

“You were my sister in law, the closest thing I had to a sister. I grew up with two brothers remember?” Liz voice showed her smile.

“And I will be again someday Liz. I’m so sorry.”

“Don’t apologize Isabel. I understand, I do. I’m just glad that you do to.”

Isabel nods again and before she realizes whats she’s doing she’s hugging Liz fiercly.

“Thank you for not hating me.” Isabel says quietly.

“Never.”

posted on 19-Dec-2001 12:00:16 AM
(part 9)

Liz and Isabel walk quietly back to Isabel and Tess’s room. Both of them are slightly teary-eyed and have their arms around each other as if they’d always done so.

Liz opens the door and the conversation in the room stops immediately.

Max looks at his girlfriend and his sister with concern. Liz smiles at him and he’s instantly put at ease.

Liz notices that Michael and Maria are there and she’s taken back to the reality of what she’s about to reveal to them all.

Max instantly picks up on Liz’s anxiety and get up, he walks over to her and looks back at the others.

“Just give us like two seconds.”

He rolls his eyes at the frustrated sighs coming from the room. Max pulls Liz out into the hallway and wraps his arms around her.

“You don’t have to do this.”

She looks up at him. “Yeah I do. Maria and Alex will know something is up. It will spill over onto Michael and then the whole group will be up in arms. It’s not worth it. It’s just hard.”

He kisses her forehead lightly and a shiver goes down her spine.

“Are you sure?”

“As long as you’re holding me I’ll be fine.”

He smiles at her, “Now that I don’t think we’ll have a problem with. Is everything ok? With Iz I mean?”

Liz looks up at him, “I think we aired our dirty laundry, we’re ok. She just needed to be reassured that I wasn’t here to take you and Michael away from her.”

“She thought that?” Max looks at Liz.

“It’s a natural reaction Max. I don’t blame her … I just wish she could have come to me sooner instead of acting like she did.”

“Isabel is known for her Ice Princess attitude.”

“Did she ever act that way when Tess came? And you two … um.”

“No, never.”

“That’s odd.” Liz looks skeptical.

“Not really.” Max takes in Liz’s questioning look. “Tess was never anything to me, Liz, Isabel had no real threat. But you … You … God … You’re everything.”

Liz smiles. “Ditto Mr. Evans.”

Liz steps up on her toes and gives Max a quick kiss, which turns into a not so quick Kiss and soon they are lost to each other. Someone clears his or her voice and Liz sighs breaking the kiss. Max grumbles and Liz laughs.

Maria gives them a look and shoo’s them back into the room.

Max sits down on the bed up against the headboard. Liz automatically sits between his legs and his arms go around her. It’s the most natural thing to them, to be touching.

“So what’s this about?” Michael speaks up. Ignoring the urge to tell Max to keep his hands off his sister.

Liz takes a deep breath. “Ok. First I want to say don’t interrupt me. Alex, Maria don’t get angry at me, Kyle don’t say a word. Michael & Isabel – just listen.”

“What about Max and Tess?” Maria asks curiously.

Liz feels Max rubbing her shoulders and she looks at Tess who seems a little uncomfortable.

“They know, and Kyle sorta does to.”

Kyle gives her a questioning look but she shrugs it off.

“Maria. You remember your cousin Sean?” Kyle’s reaction to the name doesn’t go unnoticed by Liz, Max, Tess or Michael.

“Yeah. You went out with him for what 5 months before you just broke it off for no reason.” Maria had never understood what had caused Liz and Sean’s break up.

“Oh there was reason Maria. Very good reason.” Kyle once again glares at Maria.

“As I was saying,” She looks at Michael’s confused expression, “Michael I went out with Maria’s foster cousin Sean, for about 5 months my junior year. Anyways For a while things where fine. He was really sweet to me. One night … We went out for dinner … and a movie,” Liz was beginning to have trouble breathing just thinking about it.

Max pulled her Back and kissed the top of her head and she was instantly comforted.

“We came back to my house for desert, cause my mom made the best pumpkin pie ever and he loved it. We were … just sitting around talking and laughing. Mom was at work late; Kyle was off somewhere so we were alone. I …

I went to my room to get something, god now I don’t even remember what it was … and he … he … attacked me. He pushed me … on … to the bed and I fought him so hard. I was so afraid.

He started ripping my clothes off me, and right before he could … Kyle walked in screaming at him…” by this time Liz was crying and Max was trying to comfort her.

Maria looks over at Liz, “I’m so sorry Liz, You didn’t tell me. Why didn’t you tell me?”

Liz looks up at her. “He was all you had Maria. You always use to talk about he was the only family you really had.”

Maria walks over to Liz and pulls her into a hug. “No Liz, you are the only family I ever had.”

The two friends cry for a few minutes. Tess notices Michael fidgeting in the corner.

Michael is about to explode. Someone hurt his sister, someone made her feel so insignificant that she wouldn’t’ even tell her best friend.

“Why didn’t you kill him!” Michael screams.

The whole room goes quiet.

“I couldn’t kill him, I knew if I tried to use my powers that I’d end up killing him Michael. I couldn’t live with myself if I had taken someone’s life.” Liz is startled by Michael’s reaction.

“I was talking to Kyle, Liz. Why didn’t you kill the son-of-a-bitch that hurt my sister?”

Kyle is angry now. “Don’t you think I wanted to kill him, I’m the one who saw her after, the one who sat with her for hours and hours while she cried. I was set to kill him.”

“I locked Kyle in his room so he couldn’t go after Sean. He was enraged at the time. I had to talk sense into him.”

“That’s why Sean just started avoiding you at all costs Liz. Kyle you did do something to him.” Alex speaks for the first time.

“I kicked the living shit out of him.”

“Why are you telling us this now Liz? And why were you so upset earlier.” Isabel’s voice is shaky.

The tension in the room could be cut with a knife as they are awaiting Liz’s answer.

“He’s back.” Max says, not wanting Liz to get caught up in the questions.

“What!?!?!” Michael screams.

“Michael Calm down.” Max starts.

“No! I will not calm down. How can you be so calm Max? She’s your girlfriend, how can you sit there so calm knowing what that bastard tried to do to her.”

Liz puts her hand on Michael’s arm.

“Michael please. I didn’t tell you to get you upset or for revenge. I’m just scared. I saw him this morning. He gave me that look, the one like just before … And I was scared. I’m ok now. He’s not going to hurt me.”

“You’re right he’s not. Not if I have anything to do with it.”

“Michael.”

“Don’t start Max.”

“I will start Michael cause you are only seeing how this affects you. Look around Michael there are eight people in this room, not one. Dear god don’t you think I want to rip this guy to shreds? Don’t you. But as Tess so eloquently said earlier that’s the precise reason why Liz didn’t want to come to me, or Alex, or even Kyle. She doesn’t need this shit right now Michael.”

Michael looks at Liz whose sitting on the bed again with her face buried in her hands.

“I’m sorry Liz.”

She looks up and his heart almost breaks at the tears in her eyes.

“He’ll never hurt you again.” And with that Michael storms out of the room.

The room is silent beyond Liz’s muffled sobs.

Max goes over to her and picks up in his arms. Alex opens the door for them and Max Silently takes her up to her room. He places her on her bed and sits there watching her.

After some time her breathing evens out and Max starts to get up.

“No Max. Please don’t leave me.”

He almost loses it by the desperation in her voice.

“Never Liz. Never.”
~~~
Crawling in my skin
These wounds / they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real


Michael walks through the small “streets” on campus. His anger is overwhelming him. How could anyone do that to Liz. She was a part of him, his twin sister. And her soul was so beautiful. It was hard to believe they were from the same blood.

There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming / confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling / I can’t seem
To find myself again



Michael balls up his fist and hits a tree. “Dammit!” he screams into the new forming night around him. ‘Why did they split us up? How come I didn’t get to have my sister. Why did Kyle have her and I didn’t?’

His breaths are shallow and ragged.

“Michael.” He spins around and is startled.

‘She is so beautiful’ he thinks to himself.

My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I’m convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure.


“Are you ok?” Maria asks carefully. She’d come running after him almost on instinct.

Michael looks at her almost defeated.

She tentatively takes a step forward. She looks at his hand which is bleeding. She takes his hand and places her own over it.

Michael revels in her touch as the warmth invades his arm. The pain is gone.

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting / reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It’s haunting how I can’t seem
To find myself again



Maria looks at his hand. Not a scratch on it.

“Thought I’d return the favor.” She smiles weakly at him.

He looks down. “Thank you.”

“She’s ok you know. Liz. I understand how you feel. She’s like my sister.”

“She is my sister though.”

“Yeah but I’ve known her all my life and she just now told me this. Michael there is nothing you can do now. Just come back …”

My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I’m convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]



“I just can’t … not yet.” Michael looks into her pleading eyes and almost can’t turn away.

After a moment he turns and walks away from his little pixie.

I’ve felt this way before
So insecure...