posted on 29-Aug-2002 4:11:11 PM
Title: Fear
Author: Me
Disclaimer: Own nothing.
Rated: PG-13
Category: M/L
Summary: Au-ish. Liz POV. She knows about them. And they don't know her.
Author's Note: Feedback please.

Part 1

Fear.

I see fear in their eyes.

I know what they fear.

I watch them.

From the beginning.

When they became a group.

There's 7 of them.

4 of them aren't normal.

But the other 3 is.

The Sheriff is in it too. So that makes 8.

But there's 7 of them who is always together.

It's weird if you know them.

If you really really know them.

They don't know what I know.

But nobody seem to notice. Only me.

Everybody thinks their normal. Just a groups of friends who likes to hangout at the CrashDown.

I know their fear. I know their secret.

They don't know that I know.

I'm always watching them.

You can call it stalking but it's not.

They don't notice me.

Nobody does.

People just walk past me.

Teachers just skip me and go to the next person.

I sometime wonder if I'm invisible.

But when I take orders from people at the Crashdown they know I'm there.

They don't look at me. They don't say hi.

They don't know my name. They don't want to know. They just order.

It's just that way.

How do I feel?

Normal.

I'm just an unnoticeable girl. An invisible girl. A loser. Loner.

I just watch them. I observe.

I know everything about them.

And they don't know me.

Part 2

You should of seen the things they been through.

Not normal teenage stuff. Stuff you never imagine.

Killing skins, alien parasites and a whole lot of weird things.

There's one thing I didn't figure out yet.

Destiny.

I wanna know why Max won't just be with Tess.

She's a nice person.

She really really wants to be with him

It's there Destiny to be together.

King and Queen.

But something is pulling him back.

I don't know what. But I will figure it out one day.

Did you know how they became this group that I watch?

It was back in freshman.

I was there. But they didn't know.

It was a Hit and Run on 285 south.

Someone hit the Jetta and left.

I was going to call the police.

But then this Jeep comes.

And they pull those people out of the car.

And they told him to heal them.

Because they are meant to be.

Michael had a thing for Maria.

And Alex is Maria best friend so you can't leave that out.

Isabel complained. She was afraid.

Fear. They all have fear.

Some guy shot the wrong guy and it hit Kyle and Sheriff Valenti was there and Max healed him.

That's how it began.

That's how the group formed.

From that day on there are always together.

Group of 7.

Part 3

They're here again. All 7 of them.

They always sit there.

A habit I guess.

I need to take their order.

I walked up to them.

No need introduction.

They ordered.

I serve them.

Then he said, "Thank you"

You know who he is?

Max.

The first time one of them talked to me.

Maybe they had this bet going on.

To know if I can talk or not.

But these people are different. They got more important stuff to deal with.

But they are still teenagers.

"Welcome" I muttered.

It's my job to make happy customers.

There's this booth over there. Kinda scary.

Every time I ask if they want refills on coffee they would look at me and grunt.

I think that mean yes.

I walked over there and they started arguing.

"Give me my money," he yelled.

The guy pulled out a gun.

A gun.

Whoa.

I did one thing.

Duck under the nearest table.

Safest place some far.

I need to call the police.

And I hear the sound.

The gun went off.

Where did it go?

Then I felt something gushing out of me. Warm too.

I look down.

Blood.

My blood.

I'm bleeding.

Pain.

I'm dying.

I'm gonna be lifeless.

This is how it feels to get shot and about to die.

Pain.

Nobody going to call the ambulance for me.

They'll call the police.

They heard the gun go off but they don't know where it went.

It's in me. It's in my stomach.

Pain.

Everything is getting blurry.

Gray to black.

Everybody is far away.

Away from the place I am.

Pain.

I'm going.

I'm going gone.

I'm gonna die.

I wanted to die. I didn't want to live.

I'm gonna be cold and lifeless.

Now is my chance.

All the pain.

Before I reach my dream.

I feel something warm.

I can hear sound.

Everything is getting clearer.

Still Pain.

I see someone in front of me.

It's getting warmer and clearer.

The coldness is gone. Death is gone.

I cheat death. It was my destiny to die.

Right there. But now I'm not.

I can feel.

Pains gone.

"Liz" it said.

My name is Liz.

Someone knows my name.

Somebody is talking to me.

I don't want to listen I want to go.

I'm closer to life. Far away from my destiny.

I'm back.

I'm living.

There goes the chance.

Part 4

I'm supposed to be dead. But I'm not.

I see clear now.

It's him.

He healed me.

In public.

He endangers all of them.
He risks his life and their life for me.

Why?

Then I remember Christmas. Miracle.

He healed all those kids.

But no one was there.

Watching.

But people are here now.

I looked at him.

"I'll explain everything later" He said.

I don't need an explanation. I know.

"Just say you duck and broke the ketchup bottle," He said.

With that he left.

Does he think people will notice?

I think I can escape from this mess.

I hear the police siren.

Sheriff Valenti is here.

I'm sure he's not gonna say anything once they tell him the truth.

He's going to let it past.

One of the tourist is telling him the description of those guys.

And how the gun went off.

I took a look at their booth. They left. Gone. Just like I would have been.

He's writing everything she's saying.

I think she's exaggeration something about an alien healed a gun wound. And she points at me.
Uh-oh.

The sheriff tense when he heard alien. Fear in him.

I guess unnoticeable moment is not here when you need it.

"Look she got a blood on her" she said.

Nope no escape.

"It's ketchup, see"

I show them the broken bottle.

"I'm gonna go change now."

"All right" the Sheriff said.

I think he might know.

I closed the CrashDown early.

After I change I'm going to his house.

I know he's there.
:::::::::::::::::::::::

I walked to his house.

I wonder why he healed me.

I bet the group is yelling at him for doing what he did.

It was dangerous.

He saved me. From my destiny.

I knocked on the door.

He opens it.

"Come in" he said.

I walked in and they're there too.

"You know them right?" he asked point to them.

I nodded.

"Um…Liz we're not normal…me Isabel, Michael and Tess" He said.

It's hard telling someone you're an alien.

"I know"

After I said that everyone looked shock.

Surprise I know your secret.

"What do you know?" Isabel asked.

"Everything"

"You know we're not normal?" Tess asked.

"Yeah"

"So what are we?" Michael asked.

What part of 'I know' do they not understand?

"Aliens"

One easy word.

They look shock again.

"I know from the beginning. Mostly all the things you guys did"

I think they're gonna think I'm a stalker.

Which I kinda am but I'm just watching.

"How?" Alex asked.

"That night when Max healed you and Maria. I didn't know if it were you guys but then after that night you guys hung out a lot."

That was true.

"It could have been friends with friends you know" Maria said.

I wonder why Max is quiet.

"You guys never hung out together. It used to be just you and Alex. Michael and Max. Isabel and Tess are always with the cheerleader. And Kyle with his jock friend"

More shock.

"You know how I got in this group?" Kyle asked.

"Yeah and your Dad too"

He nods.

"Are you like stalking us?" Tess asked.

Not what I call it.

"I just watch."

She muttered something.

"You didn't tell anybody," He said.

Who is there to tell?

"Nobody cares what I say, they don't need to know"

They look relieved.

"I thought we weren't suspicious," Alex said.

"You're not."

Then this shrill voice said, " Max why did you heal her?"

That was his sister Isabel.

I looked at him. So did the rest of them.

He doesn't look comfortable.

"You put us in danger." Tess said.

I knew they yelled at him for what he did.

"You ruin us," Isabel piped in.

"It wasn't my idea I didn't know it was her" he said harshly.

That was mean. I never asked to be healed.

"It's all your fault" Tess said looking at me.

"It wasn't my fault to be healed. You could of let me die. I was so close. But you had to heal me. I wanted to die. To get out of this shit. Nobody ask you to heal me. God why didn't you just let me die. It was my destiny to die. Just let me die. Oh wait it's too late no thanks to you" I yelled at him.

With that I left out the door.

He called after me.

I can't hear him.

Everything is silence.

I don't care.

I'm running back home.

Where I can dream.

I never ask to be healed.

I never ask to be living again.

I never ask him to ruin my destiny.

That stupid asshole.

Just let me die next time.

Part 5

It's been a week.

You can say normal.

The whole shooting thing is over. It's old news.

It's back to normal.

Like it never happened before.

But not everything is normal.

Not everybody in the group is here.

Everyone except Max.

He hadn't been here since that day.

I wonder where he eats now.

I don't watch him.

He space himself from the group.

That's why their here deciding who's next to make him come back.

Talk to him.

They're trying to figure him out.

But so far no luck.

I don't care what his problem is.

I changed them.

I put more fear in them.

They fear that I'll tell someone.

It's all my fault.

Not the whole thing. But part of it.

Their not a group.

They have to be in a group to be strong.

If something happen to any of them they would help each other.

But now they can't.

If things don't go back to the way it is then something bad might happen.

Fear.

Now it's my job to help.
~~

Can you imagine me Liz Parker in front of someone's house.

To be exact Max Evan house.

I knocked on the door.

No one.

Guess he's avoiding everybody.

Should I use the window?

There's a ladder by that window.

I can go through there.

I climb up the ladder and through the window.

And it's Max's room.

He's facing the other way sitting on his bed.

"I don't want to talk right now" He said quietly.

In this situation what do you say?

"Max?"

This got to be awkward.

He turned around fast.

"What are you doing here?" he asked.

Get the group together.

Part 6

"Help you?"

I think this is gonna be weird.

"Help what?" He asked.

"You" I think he's getting weird.

"You have a problem, that's why you're not there with them"

"No, I don't" He said. Stubborn.

"We need to go somewhere else to talk or someone might here us"

"You don't want anyone to know your secret right?"

"I'm not going or talking to you"

Where is his keys? I looked around the room.

Found it.

"Well, I guess I get a free jeep for awhile" I said taking his keys.

I climb out the window.

"Later"

"Hey" he said.

Since when did I became so bold.

I can't believe I did that. I'm about to steal a jeep.

There's just somethings you just have to do.

I walk to the jeep got in and start the car-jeep-Bob.

"Fine I'm only coming cause I don't want anything to happen to Bob." he said.

"You know who Bob is right since you know everything about us" he said.

He had to say that. Bastard.

"Yeah whatever"

Silence. A silence ride.
***

I put the key in my jean pocket.

"O.k. I came here now give me my key" Max demanded.

"No, we talk now"

"No we're not. Give me the keys now." He said.

"Bob is mine for now"

"You asked for it" he said walking closer to me.

The next thing I know I can't stop laughing.

He's tickling me. Pervert.

"Stop it Max"

I can't get away from him.

I step back and trip in something. Maybe a rock.

If I go down he is too.

I grab his arm.

"Ow." That hurt.

"Are you ok?" he asked.

"Yeah"

"Not anymore" he said tickling me again.

Pervert.

"Bob is mine"

"Not anymore" he said smiling.

What?

Then he shows me the keys.

Pervert. He went through my jean pocket.

"Haha" he said.

"Sick pervert"

Breathe.

I look up.

He looks down.

Crap.

He's on top of me.

He's straddling me.

Uncomfortable.

"Um…Max…can you um…get off of me"

"Oh yeah, sorry" he said blushing.

He's turning all red all the way till his ears.

I gotta say he looks good. Maybe even adorable.

Crap.

"We still need to talk"

"No" he said.

"You got the keys now we talk"

"Fine" he said looking at me.

"You have to go back to your group"

"Why?" he asked.

"Because you guys are a group you need each other if not then something bad might happen and you can't do anything"

"If you believe in all that so where's your group?" he asked.
My group?

This is not the way it suppose to go.

"Take me home"

"What?" he asked. This is not the time for question.

I took the keys out of his pocket. I'm part pervert.

"Get in or I'll leave you"

He got in.

I turned on the radio. Loud.

Fear in me so deep it gets the best of me,
In the fear I fall, here it comes face to face with me,
Here I stand hold back so no one can see,
I feel these wounds, step down, step down, step down

Fear. I have fear. My fear. No one sees my fear. I'm hiding.

(am I) Breaking Down
Can I break away
Push me away, make me fall,
Just to see, another side of me,
Push me away, you can see,
what I see, the other side of me.

Fall back on me, and I’ll be the strength I need,
to save me now, just come face to face with me,
stay in place you'll be the first to see, me heal these wounds,
step down, step down, step down, down

I’m not breaking, down
can I break away
push me away, make me fall,
just to see another side of me,
push me away you can see,
what I see, the other side of me

I'm not breaking down.

Go!

Fall, can I break away
push me away, make me fall,
just to see another side of me,
push me away you can see,
what I see, the other side of me

...where's your group?

No one can see anything on the other side of me
I walk, I crawl, loosing everything and waiting for the downfall
No one can see everything on the other side of me
I walk, I crawl loosing everything on the downfall.
Downfall, Fall.

Damn you Max Evan.

Time to close off from everybody.

Who's there to close off anyway?

Part 7

Did I tell you I hate Max Evan?

We had a silence ride the whole time.

I have decided that I'll drive to his house then walk to the CrashDown.

If I drive to the CrashDown then we would have a whole lot of bull to deal with.

I part the car in his drive way.

"This never happen"

I don't even want to think about it.

He nods.

Wait.

The hand print.

I forgot to mention the hand print. My tattoo.

"Um..Max how long is this gonna last?"

I lift up my shirt and there is that silver hand print.

He looks shock.

"Never seen it?"

He didn't say anything.

"You know if it's permanent then it'll be like a tattoo and I can you know wear low pants like hip huggers and a really short shirt and show it off and it'll be so cool..oh I definitely need to go shopping today"

"Don't you think?"

He's still looking.

What the hell is wrong with that kid?

I took his hand and match with the hand print.

And I was right. It is his handpint.

"I never seen it before" he said.

"Tomorrow I'm gonna wear it."

I smiled.

"No" he said.

What?

"Why?"

"You'll expose us" he said.

He still have his hand there.

"A tattoo"

"No" he said.

My body. My choice.

"My body. My choice and get your hands off me"

I got out of the car and walked home.
~~~

This is the onlly mall at Roswell. Pretty lame.

Thank god nobody is here from school. No need to see them.

I found a couple of these cute short shirts and some hip huggers.

I wonder if I wear these if people will consider me as a slut.

But it'll only be tomorrow.

Who cares.

New chick on the loose.

I went in to the dressing room and try on my new outfit.

I walk out to those 3 mirrors. Checking myself out.

I don't look that bad.

In a way.

A figure is in back at me. Looking at me.

"Max?"

"Hey"

"What are you doing here?"

"You said you were going shopping so I thought I help for what happen earlier" he said.

Nice of him. I guess.

"Um...O.k."

"Here um...I pick these out." he said handing me the clothes.

Is this what alien boy teenager do?

"O.k. I'll go try it on"

I walked back to the dressing room.

I here foot step then this guy's voice.

"Hey is that your girlfriend?" he asked.

"No" Max replied.

"You're kidding me right? She's hot!" the guy said.

Me hot? Nah.

"What the hell are you doing here then? A friend? A brother?" the guy asked.

"A friend..kinda" Max said.

"The heck is wrong with you? Ask her out. Man if I wasn't in love with my girl friend I would ask her out" the guy said.

If he's in love then he wouldn't say that.

"She's pretty" Max said uneasily.

I decide to come out.

"How 'bout this?"

The guys are looking at me with their mouth open.

That good?

"Hot man" the guy said.

"Shit gotta go." he said walking away.

"You look..look...um..what that guy said" Max said uncomfortably.

Hot?

"O.k. then I'll get this."

I got back in to change.

Hopefully tomorrow will be ok.

Part 8a

I walk through the halls and I can feel all their eyes on me.

There's nothing wrong right?

I heard some whistles. That's good right?

I put on my clothes and make up and I check the mirror. I think I'm ok.

I look at them and they have their eyes on me too.

Max is not there with them. Wonder where his?

I walk into class and some guy called out, "Looking hot Parker."

I'm shock. I didn't people actually know me.

This is new. Different.

I sat down and got out my stuff.

"Hey" someone said.

I looked up and it's Tess. Uh-oh.

"Hi"

I remember the last time we talk it wasn't pretty.

"Max likes you" she said.

Huh? What?!

"What?"

"He does, that's why he couldn't let you die" she said smiling.

Max like me. Max likes Liz. Max likes Liz Parker.

"Anyway, I just want you to know that I'm fine with that since you know the whole destiny thing" She said with a dreamy smile.

I thought she tried to be with him. And she quit now.

"Why?"

"I think I like Kyle" she said with a far away look.

Kyle likes her. Tess likes him.

"He likes you, you know"

Her eyes went wide.

"Thanks, oh and nice." she said walking to her seat.

Wow. This is weird.

Max likes me.

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posted on 29-Aug-2002 4:12:14 PM
Whoa. There's a big gap. Can't get rid of it.



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