|posted on 24-Oct-2002 12:26:00 AM|
Category: M/L and CC
Summary: AU. Liz POV. Please read.
Author's Note: Feedback!
Ever have it? For me it's a everyday thing. Use to it. But why? I feel like I'm in a
wrong place. Everything is my fault. Since the day I was born. Badluck. Let's start
with my family. Dad. Don't give a shit just act like he does but inside nope. All he
cares is about his job. Big company. Lots of traveling. Bet his co-worker doesn't even
know he has a daughter. Leave littleLizzie alone. My nickname. Still call me that.
Stupid. He doesn't even know me anymore. Wondering about my Mom. Well, she left
us when I was 11. Why? Because she thought the biker guy was her thing. So they
left. Bet there on the street right now. I know that's cold. But then she left us. No
biggie. So if I have depression everyday why am I still living? Why I didn't kill myself
yet? That I don't know. I haven't even use drug yet. Maybe in the future. You never
know. I cry. Everybody crys. But then I quit that. It doesn't help. So all I do is listen
to some true music.Like Staind, P.O.D. and more. It helps I guess. So far. Do I see
a shrink? Of coarse not. Remember my Dad don't give a shit. Anyways, I'm moving
today. To Roswell. You know that town right? The whole alien thing. Why am I
moving there? Guess. Yep my Dad. Bussiness. He got a house already. Probably
not even gonna live in it. Just me. On my own. Who cares.
Ok. We talk about the family now the friends. Ask you can guess. I got no friends.
Yep none at all. Why? Well, when I was younger I got tons of friends and the reason
they hang out with me was because I got all these cool stuff. After that I quit them
all. And the cool stuff all gone. That's why I have no friends so when I move nobody's
heartbroken. Really easy. I'm a Loner. O.K. so you know that. Anyways, hopefully
when I go to school nobody talks to me. Lonely? Hm. Do I feel lonely being all by
myself? Nope. I enjoy talking to myself and thinking what would life be if I wasn't
born. But the answer is all the same. Nobody cares. I live in denial. Next one.
Boyfriends. Of coarse not. I quit on them too. Don't believe in that. They just make
you worst. Pain. That means I quit on guys too.
So I'm here Roswell, New Mexico. My Dad here? Nope. Got here 2 day early and on
bussiness trip now. I have a piece of paper in my hand right now with my address.
Need a taxi. Here's one. "Where would you like to go?" asked the Taximan. " Here's
he add" I said handling him the paper that was once in my hand. "O.K" Taximan guy
15 minute later.....
"Your here" Taxiguy said. "How much?" I asked. "$7.50" he said. I gave him $8
bucks. " Keep the change" I said slaming the door. O.K. the house. Hm... Not bad I
guess. Where's my stupid keys? Damn it. Oh great. I left it at the airport. On the
counter. Just wonderful. O.K. Let's start with the windows. Lock. Lock.Lock. All
Lock. Hm....Back door. Should be unlock. Please be unlock. Turning the knob back
and forth. Lock. Today is not a good day. What should I do? Call Dad. Nope didn't
even leave his number. Stupid. Well, I might as well camp out in the porch.
I've been sitting here for 15 minutes. Nothing has happen. I see no neighbors. Where
are they anyways? I mean it's Saturday. Great. All my fault. See I told you I was
badluck. My CD player. Yes. P.O.D. "Youth of the Nation" Oh yeah. Just make it
better. Wait. Is that a car coming? No it's a jeep. With a guy I think. He's parking in
his garage. He lives next door I guess. Not like he can help. Look like a Highschool
guy. Don't believe in them. O.K. back to P.O.D. Is that guy walking this way? My
way. Great he is. Probably think I'm a bum. "Hey" he said. I looked at him. Should I
talk? Yes No. Maybe he can help. "Oh Hi" I replied in my usual way when I am force
to talk. "What are you doing here? Your not suppose to there sitting on someone's
porch" the stranger said. Gee. Telling me what to do now. " I live here" I said. "Oh,
you must be the new neighbor." the guy who tell people what to do said. This is
getting annoying. " Yeah, that's me" I said. " Why are you outside?" he asked. " I left
the keys at the airport and I can't get in" I said. Doesn't it suck." My Dad has the
keys, I think he sold the house to your Dad" he said. Duh. "Finally I can get in" I
said. I get up ready to go in and he's standing there. Hellloooo....get the keys. He's
looking at me up and down. Oh please don't be checking out Liz Parker. No way. "
the keys" I said. "Oh yeah I kinda space out there" he said. O.K. Nice to know. " I'll
go get it" he said running back to his house. See the reason why I don't believe
them. They are s-l-o-w. Now I get to check out my house.