ok, this is kinda old. some of you have read it, I know. but some haven't. so, if you haven't, there is a sequel, so, if you want I can post that too.

Author- Ashley
E-mail- Fireryangel⊕aol.com
Rating- PG-13
Summary- Liz's POV about Michael

A Story of Pain and Love

I look back on the life that I have lived so far and mostly I see pain. What kind of pain you ask. I will tell you.

Pain is when your best friend marries the man you love. Pain is when I look at them, and they are happy. Pain is when I know that I can never be with Michael Guerin.

It all started my sophomore year of high school when the FBI captured Max. That night at the carnival when Michael held me, I could feel love for me coming from him. It still amazes me to this day.

Then afterwards a year went by and it was our junior year. That is when we got to really know each other. Like hang out and just do friend things. This all happened when Tess said that all that DESTINY crap was fake. When she came to Roswell, she saw Max, she knew that he was like her. So she made all that up. She even had the nerve to let us all think that the message from the orbs was really Max and Isabel's mother. I think that hurt the most for all of them.

Also, that same year, Max and me got back together. He said he was sorry about everything that happened, and told me how much he loved me. Also, Michael got back together with Maria.

As we became closer friends, the more I fell in love with him. He was always there for me. I could go to him with anything on my mind and he would actually listen. If I did that with Max, he would just feel sorry for me and give advice that he thought was best. With Michael it was different, he said things that made me feel better, he was a really great friend.

Then towards the end of senior year he told me that he was going to ask Maria to marry him. I was heart broken. He wanted to know what I thought that she would say. Of course I said yes because I knew that she was going to.

After we all graduated, they got married. I was happy to see them happy. But I was also jealous of Maria because she got to be with Michael for the rest of their lives.

Some of that pain left when Max and I got married. We were so happy together. Everything was perfect except, Max was not Michael and I wanted Michael.

Then Max and I moved to Maryland because of a job offer for Max. While there we started a family. We had a daughter, Ashley. She had Max's eyes and ears; she also almost looked just like me. Then we had another daughter Celeste. She was the same way as Ashley, except she had my ears and not Max's.

We always went back for the holidays. Everytime we went back, Michael and Maria looked happy. But one time Michael looked really down and being the friend I am pulled him aside and asked him what was wrong.

He told me that he was in love with another women. When I asked whom, he said me.

I was in shock, but I was also happy. Then I told him about how I felt. I am guessing that he looked just like I did when he told me.

We kept staring at each other's lips. We both knew what we wanted but all we did was kiss. When he kissed me, nothing else mattered. His kiss was different then everyone else. His kiss was filled with passion, love and all other emotions that he had for me.

Since that day, we have not talked. Or even tried to communicate with each other. But I did not mind that much because I knew how he felt about me and he knew how I felt about him.

Liz closed her journal that she just got finished writing in. This was her most precious journal because it all had to do with Michael. So not even Max knew about it.

After she put it back in its hiding spot, she went into her living room to be with Max and their children.

When she got there she say that Max was playing with their 2 year old Celeste, and Ashley who was now 7 was watching tv.

"And how is my favorite person today?" He asked me while I was started to sit down next to him.

"Well, today? I am fine just a little tired." She told him.

"I think I can do something about that." He started. "How about I put Celeste down, and we send Ashley to Isabel's?"

Liz just smiled. She loved the way that Max had everything some what planned.

"Ok. I think that we can do that." She said still smiling and about to laugh. When Max took Celeste to her room, the phone rang. Liz picked it up and said hello.

"Liz? Hi, it's Maria." She said while crying.

"Maria, what's wrong?" Liz asked worried.

"It is Michael, he is... he's... Michael is dead." She got out and started to cry even more.

Liz could not say anything. How could this be? How could Michael be dead?

Then Max came back out and saw Liz. "Liz, what's wrong?"

When she did not answer he took the phone and heard Maria crying.

"Maria, what happened?" he asked.

After she told him and they said a few more things, he hung up the phone. Max took Liz into his arms and tried to comfort her.

The next day Liz got a letter in the mail with no return address. When she opened it, she saw that it was from Michael.

Dearest Liz, How much I love you. I love they way your hair always seems to shine. I love they way you smile. I just love you, and your beauty. I know that we have not talked since that day, and I am sorry, I know that it is partially my fault. I just want you to know that I will always love you, even when I am gone. I will always love you, Michael