posted on 20-Feb-2002 1:38:02 PM
Title: Diary of a Changed Life
Author: Diamond Love
Couple: Zan, Liz, Tess, Max, Rath, Maria, Alex, Isabel
Summary: Liz is a depressed teen, here is her story how she changes her life and becomes a happy teen
Rating. Hmmmm, Hmmmm, Hmmmm, What should it be ~ Sexual Behavior 85% (Perhaps)
~ Language 95% (Very Likely)
~ Violence 84% (I think so)
Disclaimer: I don’t’ owe any characters, nothing at all. Just my pride and dignity.


What I’m trying to do is write about different things in people’s life, to catch your attention.
Like (This is just an example)
Liz- Depression
Maria- Drugs
Isabel- Sex
Tess- Violence
Alex- Hormones and School
Max- Girls
Kyle- Issues Zan- ? Rath-?
I don’t know (don’t forget those are only examples)
If there are any issues you’d like to suggest please write it, or express it on my board, here.
If it is personal, any stories you’d like to see come out in the character, or descriptive, write me mail at www.CaramelCremeLv⊕aol.com
Don’t forget I’m not only a Dreamer, I write about everyone, so the stories could be about Maria, Rath, anyone!
If there are any problems, questions, comments, please feel free to express them. Good Or Bad, But not all the time bad (LOL)
Thank you for reading.

CHAPTER 1 ~The girl of depression~

Hello everyone, my name is Elizabeth Ann-Maria Parker. When you read this I’ll be long gone. My doc told me to write a book about my life, she says it can help me see what my life really means and how I can deal with it. Anyway I’ll be committing suicide before I finish this more than 500 page book. I have what the doc says a depression disorder or whatever. I sometimes would go in the bathroom and lock myself up there for hours, and cry. So since my mom and dad found out what I was doing they sent me to doc, and this is what the doc subscribed. FOR ME TO WRITE A BOOK!
Anyways I’m 17 years old and just graduated from high school finally, I still don’t no what school I’m going too.
Okay here are some reasons why I have depression 1) I’m 195 pounds
2) I’m short 3) I have small breasts 4) I have friends on 1 hand (My mom says that it’s better to have friends you can count on 1 hand) 5) I was used by a boy and turned down so many times
6) There are more examples but I don’t have the time to dish out the juice.
Here are the basic features about me, I’m a brunette, short hair, doe- eyes, I don’t have the best skin and my nails haven’t been to the nail salon in a while.
Sometimes I wonder how I got like this, my mom was a model and my dad was a pretty-boy surfer, in their younger years. Now my mom is a mother and a teacher and my dad is an engineer with that pretty- boy look still. My mom has always been encouraging me to go out into the world, but the world is dark and mean with people like Alexander Evans, (Zan) Tess Harding, Isabel Evans and Roman Wrathers (known as Rath).
But on the other hand the world can be nice and calm with Maria Deluca, Max Evans, Alexander Whitman, and Kyle Deluca. Those are my best friends, hey maybe my mother was right because we all are close and their much better than some of the shallow people out there. Anyways I’m going over to a restaurant to meet Maria and the others in a few minutes, but the doc says that I should always keep this book around no matter what, so I guess you’re following me.

~ “Do you like to eat candy?”
“Do you like to eat cereal?”
“Do you like to ride your bike?”
“Do you like Tess Harding?”
“Hell Yea”
“You lost”
My friends and I always love to play that game. You have to ask a question and try to make that person answer it. Like Maria asked me a question “Do you like Alexander Evans”, I can’t answer or I lose and have to do a dare, I have to ask her a question and keep it going and try not to answer any of the questions. If she asks a question I can’t hesitate I have to ask her a question right back until one of us breaks.
Max had answered a question Kyle asked him. He asked if Max likes Tess, and of course he does, so he answered and had to do a dare. Kyle saw Tess go into the girls bathroom so he dared Max to do the same and stay in there for 10 minutes and Kyle said that he had to try to get Tess’ number. But of course innocent Max wouldn’t do it so he had to drink down one of Maria’s mother recipe. It’s a spicy, hot, not tasty drink. Max drank it and was in the bathroom all day. Doing number 2 and crying. I almost felt sorry for him. Almost.
Here I am now writing in this stupid book, in the bathroom of the rest room, crying my eyes out, about to put this pen to my throat, after I finish this sentence. Just a few minutes ago I ran in here after being totally humiliated by Tess. She poured her coffee all over my white Capri, and spat in my drink. Sometimes I just want to kill her, you think I’m joking, Test me!
Now my whole dignity is ruined, wait it already was.
Maria just came into the bathroom, she said the boys ran Tess off, and that I was to come and sleep over her house.
I never love going to Maria house because her mother is a druggie. When I came in the house she was watching MTV and smoking on something. I feel sorry for Maria, but it’s like she doesn’t even care.
KTU is what Maria put the radio station on; I have to admit I always listen to 107.5 WBLS. What came I say I’m an R&B girl.
Shakira’s song came on, and you should of seen Maria, she was swaying side by side, when it was playing.
‘Underneath your clothes’
Maria is pretty; you can look at her and see how unique and lovely she looks. Hey I’m not a Les, Okay. Anyway.
She has nice skin but she definitely needs a new identity, especially her hair. Wow!
It is Toe up from the flo’ up, and beyond.
She is sweet, though. She expresses her opinion no matter what, and is always there for you.
I took off my clothes and put on one of Maria’s over- sized T-shirts.
We sat on the bed listening to music. We would have been eating ice- cream and chips but I’m on a diet. ''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''Screw the diet!
I want Food Food !!!!!!!!!



“Hey Liz” he said my name, each consonant and vowel sliding off of his pierced tongue.
“Hey Zan” I tried to say it the way he said it, but it sounded like I was a gorilla.
“I want you to meet my date and yours”
That was the time when Zan asked me to a party, and I stupidly said yes, he showed up at my front door with his date and a water hose. He sprayed me down, while dying of laughter. That was 1#
2#
He filled my locker with laxative pills and diet pills.
3#
He read a poem about me in English class explaining to everyone how I can lose weight. Here is a little example.
“If you lose weight it would be great, maybe you could find a date.
If you cut down on the chocolate and chips I’m sure the fat will come out from your lips.” After that you could hear the classes laughter.
4#
Isabel took all my clothes when I was taking a shower in the school
5#
Tess poured some manure on me when it was lunchtime.
6#
Michael, all Michael did was laugh, laugh his head off.
7#
Tess had kicked my ass so far to Japan that, you don’t want to know what I was going to say.
8#
I tried out for cheerleading and as they were announcing it to everyone, which means the whole school. “Elizabeth Parker, is also on the team”.
I shouted, jumped, did some flips, I was so happy, when I went up there, they presented me with a cheerleading out fit that was so skinny, skinnier than them, then they said. “If it can’t fit you then you can’t join loser.”
9#
Zan called my phone and sent me mail about diet pills, and exercise.
10#
The all crowed around me, Zan, Tess, Isabel, but Michael was too busy laughing.
They threw eggs at me. Leaving my to walk home with eggs on me. Oh did I forget to tell you, I had to take 2 trains, 3 buses and cab to get home.



I’m actually reading over my book and looking at how my life was.
It’s been two months. After that entry Maria had won 5 tickets to the Bahamas, I accidentally left it at home, so I’ve been two months without it, but your going to be surprised, really surprised, because that whole 2 months cured me, from my depression. Since I’m cured I really don’t need to write in here no more. But I kind of missed writing, and I know you guess want to here how my summer went.
Tomorrow I’ll write to you, I just came home and I need to have a talk with my mother, as she says.
Here’s a little peak though, I was 195 pounds now I’m 105. I think that’s too skinny but I’m working my way to the ideal weight. Tongues are going to hanging out when people see me, and revenge is going to be sweet.



TBC TBC
Send Feedback on the story, if you’re not registered like I once was please feel free to tell me what you’re thinking by writing me mail at CaramelCremeLv
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For reading.
If I have any mistakes please tell me
Like, I’m writing about Rath, if I put Michael in it please tell me.
Or if you’re confused. Thanks A lot.


[ edited 2 time(s), last at 23-Sep-2002 1:40:19 AM ]
posted on 20-Feb-2002 1:58:58 PM
If there are any mistakes
just email me plezzzzz
thank you
if I get feedback
ill write back tonite or tommm.
Promise
Bye
posted on 21-Feb-2002 1:24:09 PM
Hi guys thanks for the feedback
well I actually thought it was going to be a L/Z but
I'm gonna be using Max for a bit of pleasure too, lolol.
I actually didn't only want to write about Liz I wanted to write about Maria and the rest of them. Maybe this is how I'll do it.
Liz is writing a little book
Maria is writning in her little singbook journal
Isabel is writing in a little pad, or something.
Maybe I'll just let Liz tell the story about them.
I'm actually almost finish with chapter 2 so be ready
Thanks for the feed back and later on in the story I'm sure you'll be happy, there will be a lot of juices let oout.
Pleezz keeep readin and thankx for the feedback.

P.S
I love to leave u guys with cliffhangers so be ready before u fall offf!!!!!!!*bounce**bounce**angel*
posted on 21-Feb-2002 4:19:14 PM
Title: Diary of a Changed Life
Author: Diamond Love
Couple: Zan, Liz, Tess, Max, Rath, Maria, Alex, Isabel
Summary: Liz is a depressed teen, here is her story how she changes her life and becomes a happy teen
Rating. Hmmmm, Hmmmm, Hmmmm, What should it be ~ Sexual Behavior 85%
(Perhaps) ~ Language 95% (Very Likely) ~ Violence 84% (I think so)
Disclaimer: I don’t’ owe any characters, nothing at all. Just my pride and dignity.


What I’m trying to do is write about different things in people’s life, to catch your attention.
Like (This is just an example)
Liz- Depression
Maria- Drugs
Isabel- Sex
Tess- Violence
Alex- Hormones and School
Max- Girls
Kyle- Issues Zan- ? Rath-?
I don’t know (don’t forget those are only examples)
If there are any issues you’d like to suggest please write it, or express it on my board, here.
If it is personal, any stories you’d like to see come out in the character, or descriptive, write me mail at www.CaramelCremeLv⊕aol.com
Don’t forget I’m not only a Dreamer, I write about everyone, so the stories could be about Maria, Rath, anyone!
If there are any problems, questions, comments, please feel free to express them. Good Or Bad, But not all the time bad (LOL)
Thank you for reading.



(Previously)
Here’s a little peak though, I was 195 pounds now I’m 105. I think that’s too skinny but I’m working my way to the ideal weight. Tongues are going to hanging out when people see me, and revenge is going to be sweet.


Chapter 2 ~ Revenge Is Sweet~


Okay I just went to my doc two hours ago, and all she did was smile at me. She asked me a few questions like “Do you feel good”, “Are you Okay”, and she said comments like “You look great”, “You look nice, and healthy”, “Umm you have a big tattoo on your back, and a ring on your belly button, and tongue, and ears, wow that looks nice.”
Anyway we talked for a while and she said to keep up the good work and keep writing that book. It’s like she thinks I want to be a writer, when I really want to be an actress, that’s always been my dream. I want to be as famous as Julia Roberts, even more famous. But for now, I’m just going to take my sweet precious time into showing people that I’ve changed. In Body, and Mind.
In two weeks we’ll be starting college, I never really liked to live in a dorm, so I’m moving into an apartment. I am so excited. I haven’t gone out since I came back from the Bahamas. My mom said my dad had something special for me, so I’m about to leave and see what it is now. Maria says it’s an apartment, Alex says it’s a new car, and Max says it’s a new ultra-galactic book of Science. Hey, Max changed on the outside, but the inside is still geeky.

“Take 10 steps north and 3 steps East.”
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10
1,2,3
My eyes were covered by a blind- fold. I moved my hands all around, feeling everything, it felt like a door.
~What a second was it a new car, or a new apartment~
My dad was giving me the instructions.
“Turn the knob”
I obediently turned the knob and pushed the door.
~It’s an apartment, It’s an apartment~ I thought.
I took a step up; I could hear Maria squealing in back of me.
I climbed about 15 steps until I was told to stop.
It felt like we were getting into this elevator thingy.
The elevator thing started to move up. It stopped and it was silent.
“Take off your blind-fold”
I took it off in a hurry, only to reveal to my eyes darkness then light.
The lights came on and there standing in front of me was an apartment, my apartment, and a really big apartment. Oh my gosh.
~If you’ve ever watched Real World in Chicago, that is exactly how big and nice it looks~
I jumped and down screaming then roamed through the place with Maria. There were 5 rooms. And in 3 of them were Alex, Kyle and Max, resting on their beds.
Today had to definitely be the best day of my life.

Maria had convinced me and the others to go to the club about 2 blocks from the apartment. I decided that I couldn’t hide my new identity for long so I went with her. Now the old Liz would have put on a baggy pant, a sweat shirt, and her hair in a pony tail, but a new Liz would put on a red leather ankle boots, red low ride jeans, and a red baby tee. At first I looked in the mirror and was taking back by what I saw, but I liked it, a lot.
We were now at club Party On, as it is called, it was so live and hot, when we got into the club, we were all separated by a crowd of dancing people. I went over to the bar to get a glass of water. Out of nowhere Zan appeared out of nowhere sitting right next to me.
“Hey cutie” he said while playing with a strand of my hair.
“Do I know you?” I said while taking the strand of hair out of his hand.
“Feisty huh, maybe it’s because you’re wearing red.”
“Maybe it’s because, I don’t want you near me” I said while pushing my self away a bit.
“In fact, my boyfriends coming right over here” I continued
Max was coming over hair, dressed in his baggy pants, and white, clean, crisp, shirt. You could see his abs under his shirt and his arms.
“You’re talking about this freak,” said Zan.
“Ever take a look in the mirror” replied Max.
I smiled at his comment and stood up, even though I still wasn’t tall as him while wearing my boots.
I took his hand in my hand and moved my face closer to his. I could tell he was a bit nervous, being next to me and all. I brushed my lips over his, softly. I put my mouth directly over his and pressed down, sliding my tongue into position. I could already feel the heat and anger coming from Zan. Max’s mouth was cool, yet warm, and tasty. He explored my mouth with his tongue. When it was over I looked back at Zan and said my name exactly the way he used to say mine. Each consonant and vowels sliding off my tongue.
“By the way my name is Parker, Elizabeth Parker, AKA ~LIZ~”





“Hey Rath”
“Maria!”
“That’s my name don’t wear it out.”
Liz had talked me into writing a stupid journal too. I named it Maria’s World. So right now it’s 3:00 in the morning, we came back from the club, 1 hour ago. I could tell see had a good time, I saw her right in front of Zan kissing his twin brother. On the other hand, I was sitting down talking to Rath, okay we weren’t making out, we were kissing, exploring actually. I don’t know what happened. One minute I was sitting don smoking a cigarette and the next I was on the floor, half naked with Rath. Liz says that I’ve got issues, I sort of think I really do. Liz told me to get a hold of my life and take control. Whatever. She told me to write down what I do in life and want to achieve first. 1) I do drugs, and I can’t stop.
My mother does it and I guess I got influenced
2) I love men (seriously) (and they love me) Everyday I have a new guy, no lie.
Monday was Derrick: Tuesday was Stan: Wednesday was Travis: Thursday was Rath. Now it’s 3:00 so that means it’s Friday 2/22/02.
3) I want to be a singer
4) I need some serious help.
By actually writing this stupid journal, I got some stuff off my chest, I now no that I really need help.


Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Clear my mind and breathe
1,2,3,4,5 in
1,2,3 hold
1,2,3,4,5 out
I am a pillow, a feather, blowing away.
Forget this crap, me Kyle Deluca is crap
1) I have no woman: 2) I’m still a virgin: 3) I have no job: 4) I have no life
Liz is the doctor of the house
She told Maria to write a Journal, She told me to meditate, She told Alex, oh yea Alex has everything, a job, a life, a plan, a girlfriend, and a sex life, he doesn’t need any help. What a second Alex does need something, some advice. Last week he was asking me, if he has to scream while having sex. He’s got hormone issues.
Liz told Max to record himself because is obsessed with Ava and secretly (Liz)
He has pictures all under his bed of Ava, he thinks I don’t know. And I see the way he looks at Liz, well I do the same thing too, even to Maria. Oh dammit, I got problems. She’s my f****** sister. Wooooo, I’m losing it.
Forget I just said that, wait a minute who am I taking too, my inner self. I really am losing it.



“Liz just kissed me!”
“Liz just kissed me!”
“Liz just kissed me!”
“Liz just kissed me!”
“Liz just kissed me!”
“Liz just kissed me!”
“Liz just kissed me!”
“Liz just kissed me!”
“Liz just kissed me!”
“You wouldn’t believe this, but guess what Liz just kissed me.”
“I’m talking to a tape recorder, or well it’s better than nothing”
“Liz just kissed me, my dreams are coming true”
“Even though she kissed me to make Zan jealous, she kissed me”
Her lips were so soft, so warm, it tasted like sugar.
“Liz kissed me”
“I’m the luckiest man alive.”
“When Liz kissed me, I could already feel the heat coming from Zan ears, but when she said her name to him, the heat came through his hair.”
“His face then turned from madness to surprise. He never even knew it was Liz”
“All I no is that, these lips are never being washed, or wiped”
“Oh yea, did, I mention, Liz kissed me”









I didn’t spell check the work, so sorry for any mistakes!
TBC TBC
Send Feedback on the story, if you’re not registered like I once was please feel free to tell me what you’re thinking by writing me mail at CaramelCremeLv
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Thank you,
For reading.
If I have any mistakes please tell me
Like, I’m writing about Tess, if I put Ava in it please tell me.
Or if you’re confused. Thanks A lot.

posted on 22-Feb-2002 1:09:09 PM
Thanks 4 your feed back
Ill try 2 give u the next part by Tommmm Sat or later tonite
Thanks Bye